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CHAUCER.
Entered, according to Act of Congress,
in the year 1837 by
HARPER & BROTHERS,
in the Clerk's Office of the Southern District
of New-York.
THE "SOUTHERN MATRON" was penned in the same spirit, and with the same object, as the "New-England Housekeeper" - to present as exact a picture as possible of local habits and manners. Every part, except the "love-passages," is founded in events of actual occurrence. Should it be thought that the views of human life in the two works, as has been suggested in private, have too much sunshine about them, I can only reply, that, to have made different descriptions, I must have resorted to imagination instead of fact, as far as my personal observation is concerned.
Perhaps, had I examined the details of the police-courts for my Northern sketch, or the registry of the magistrate-freeholders for my Southern, I might have found gloomier scenes; but they would not have been such as Clarissa Packard and Cornelia Wilton would recognise in their daily experience
Some apology may be necessary, as a matter of taste, for the frequent introduction of the negro dialect; but the careful reader will perceive that it has only been done when essential to the development of individual character.
I am indebted to one Northern and two Southern friends for the original materials of the story of Betsey, the servant-maid, the Deer Hunt, and My brother Ben's education, all of which I have modified to my narrative.
C. G.
Charleston, S. C., 1837.
"Onward,
O'ershadowed more by the green underwood,
Some slight-raised mounds showed where the dead were laid.
Few gravestones told who slept beneath the turf.
(Perchance the heart that deeply mourns needs not
Such poor remembrancer.) The forest flowers
Themselves had fondly clustered there - and white
Azalias with sweet breath stood round about,
Like fair young maidens mourning o'er their dead.
In some sweet solitude like this I would
That I might sleep my last long dreamless sleep."
ANNA MARIA WELLS.
"He sought him through the bands of fight,
Mid many a pile of slaughtered dead,
Beneath the pale moon's misty light,
With form that shuddered at each tread:
For every step in blood was taken."
W. G. SIMMS.
I WRITE in my paternal mansion. The Ashley, with a graceful sweep, glitters like a lake before me, reflecting the sky and the bending foliage. Occasionally a flat, with its sluggish motion, or a boat, with its urging sail, passes along, and the woods echo to the song or the horn of the negro, waking up life in the solitude. The avenue of noble oaks, under which I sported in childhood, still spread their strong arms, and rustle in the passing breeze. My children are frolicking on the lawn where my first footsteps were watched by tender parents, and one of those parents rests beneath yonder
circling cedars. Change! Sameness! What a perpetual chime those words ring on the ear of memory! My children love to lead me to the spot where they may spell the inscription on one princely monument to my grandfather, and hear the tale I have to tell of the fair, the good, and the brave who sleep in that enclosure, sacred to the domestic dead. There is but one inscription there, for we were as one.
I sometimes feel a joy that all are here - my grandparents; the mother who gave me being; the baby-sister, who looked like a sunbeam on the world and passed away; my first-born, he who was twined to my heart's pulses by ties as strong as those which call up its natural vibration; my noble brothers, and my poor cousin Anna, who planted herself the rose that blossoms on her grave! The sun gilds the cedars with his brightest morning hue; they shelter the sleepers from his noonday beams; and when the moon rises over the cleared fields, showing an amphitheatre of distant woods, the cedar-mound stands out in full relief, and those dark sentinels seem to guard the dead. I thank thee, Heaven, that all I love are here! - that stranger-dust mingles not with mine! The tumult of the city rolls not across this sanctuary; careless curiosity treads not on these secluded graves; nor does the idler cull the blossoms that affection has planted, or that time, with unsparing hand, has hung in graceful wreaths or clustered beauty around. No rude sound disturbs the silence. The whippoorwill softens, by her melancholy lay, the mockbird's tale of love and joy. The hare steals lightly over the hillocks, and the serpent twines his silken folds among the herbage; yet do they not mar, like man, the sacred relics of memory, nor with jest and profanity disturb the gloom.
My grandfather fell early in our national struggle for liberty, and his bones might have whitened on the battlefield, had not a locket, containing the fair hair of my grandmother, suspended from his neck, revealed him to a faithful servant. Good old Jacque! How often have I climbed his knees to hear his stories of the past! I even love to recall the peculiar accent with which he beguiled
our evenings, when appointed by our parents to superintend the younger servants in their absence. I can fancy I see him now, in winter, throwing the oak logs or lightwood knots on the wide hearth, standing (for he never would sit in the house, even in the presence of the children, unless when holding us on his knees) with a perpetual habit of conscientious trust; or, in summer, seeking some sunny spot, and, with his blue handkerchief tied round his head, employing his feeble hands in net or basket making. Rarely could he resist our Southern entreaty of, Do, if you please, daddy Jacque, tell us about grandpapa's locket, and how he died.
Jacque had been intrusted with the entire control of his young master's household during the term of his education in Europe; and while the confidence placed in him had somewhat increased his self-conceit, it never induced him to take a liberty beyond those which his peculiar situation authorized. Roseland, from the beauty of its location and its valuable paintings, was frequently visited by strangers in the absence of its orphan proprietor, and it is a singular fact that Jacque was never known to ascend the hall stairs on such occasions. He pointed out the way with a bow and flourish of profound respect, and met the guests by a private stairway after they had ascended.
His master returned, married a lovely and highly-educated Southern girl, and the following year Roseland was made doubly beautiful by the birth of a noble boy, the pride of the house and plantation. This happiness was not of long duration, for the times approached which tried American souls, and the young father was called from the peaceful sunshine of his home, from the caresses of his wife and the prattle of his child, to the wild and stormy hardships of war. The night before his departure his wife led him to his likeness by Copley, which still hangs in the hall, and perused his lineaments long and earnestly. She gazed on the manly form beside her, then on the graceful but inanimate representative, took in the loving glance of the living eye, and compared it with its calmer image; then, with a bitter sigh, sank into
his arms. The young soldier comforted her with a husband's love, and drew her to the bedside of their sleeping boy. Little Henry started from his repose as they bent over him with whispered words, clung to his father's neck a moment, and then closing his eyes like the bell of a twilight flower, sank upon his pillow.
With his beautiful wife still resting on his arm, the father took from his desk a locket containing her hair, threw the black riband from which it was suspended about his neck, and kissed it fondly. The night passed heavily away, and darkness heavier than night hung over Roseland, when, on the following morning, he departed, attended by Jacque.
In an engagement with the British, Jacque lost sight of his master, the enemy were victorious, and the Americans retreated, leaving their dead unprotected. When the pursuers were exhausted, Jacque searched with anxiety among the living, and, finding no trace of him, returned with sad, cautious, but resolute steps to the field of death. Among the disfigured remains he vainly endeavoured for a long time to distinguish him; he who had so lately reposed in the arms of happy love, had found a cold and bloody bed with the promiscuous slain, among whom not even faithful friendship could detect his semblance. At length Jacque found on a mutilated form a locket, with its braid of auburn hair. He shook his head with an expression of satisfied grief, and wiped the bloody jewel with his coat sleeve. Then bearing the body to a stream, cleansed it reverently, dug a grave, and laid it in its place of rest. Touched and kindled by affectionate remembrance, he knelt on the pliant mould, and offered up an untutored prayer.
It was a dark and stormy evening when he returned, and my grandmother had kept her young son awake, with gentle artifice, for companionship. A footstep was heard in the piazza, and Dash gave a growl between warning and recognition, while Henry, clapping his hands, exclaimed, "Papa! papa!" His mother started as Jacque entered, and exclaimed, "Where is your master?"
Jacque was silent, and stood wiping from his cheeks the streaming tears.
"Tell me, Jacque, for the love of God," cried she, clasping the negro's arm, "where is your master?"
"Jacque got no maussa now," said he, sobbing, "but little Maus Henry."
A long and piercing shriek broke forth from the widow's stricken heart, and she fell senseless on the floor beside her frightened son.
The intelligence spread rapidly through the plantation. Shrieks and lamentations were heard from hut to hut - wild gesticulations were seen by the kindled torchlights among the young, as they cried, "My maussa dead, poor me!" - while the old, rocking on their seats and lifting their hands, responded, "The Lord's will be done. He knows."
The following day all was calm but the widow's heart; there the bitter strife of a new sorrow raged like a tempest. Even Henry's presence was intolerable. Poor boy! his very step was harsh to her, as, with a paper cap and wooden sword, he marched about her apartment, threatening to revenge his father's death.
Jacque was for several days revolving a measure of importance in his own mind; and at length, determining to give it utterance, went to claim a few moments' attention from his mistress.
She could only shade her eyes, as if to shut out too painful an object, and with one hand pressed closely on her heart, as though to hush its tumult.
"Jacque don't mean no disrespec," said the negro, bowing, as if his errand had something in it of dignity; "my missis know dat as my missis is poorly, and Maussa Henry an't got of no size, Jacque has to turn over what is best to be done for de family; and one great trouble it is on my mind, dat my maussa, what provide like one lord even for niggers, let alone white folks, should lay out mong de wolf and varmin, when we could gie 'em such good commodation here, and keep our eye on him, to say nothing of Christian buryin."
My grandmother was instantly roused; and, starting up,
with an animated voice she said, "My dear, good Jacque, can he be brought to me? God bless you for the thought!"
A motive for action was now given her, and her heart seemed lightened of a part of its burden. It was a consolation to her to take Henry by the hand, and go forth in search of an appropriate spot for her husband's grave. It seemed to her excited imagination like preparing an apartment for an absent friend.
"Here, mamma," said her prattling boy, "is a pretty place. Papa used to stand under this tree and throw chips into the pond for Dash to bring to me."
"No, my son," said his mother, musingly; "it is too far. I must see the spot from my window. Look, Henry, at the cluster of cedars on that slightly-rising ground. See how the sun shines on the tree-tops, while all beneath is gloom! Like my hopes," she continued, mentally, "so lately seeming bright when all was darkness. That shall be the spot, Henry," she continued, "and you must see that I am laid there too."
The boy looked wistfully at her, and said, "And where shall I go, mamma?"
He had unconsciously touched the right string; and, as she stooped to kiss his forehead, she patiently resolved to wait God's will, and live for him.
While these scenes of tenderness were beguiling the feelings of the widow, Jacque, with a band of fellow servants, went on his melancholy errand. Even to the imagination, which only partially illuminated the uneducated mind of the negro, the contrast was strong between the aspect of that now silent field, and the recent period when contending forces, with weapons flashing in the sun, and faces tinged with expectation, and footsteps timed to the march of war, had passed before him. It was a moonlight night, one of those nights which seem to exaggerate brightness and stillness, when Jacque led the way to his master's rude grave.
"'Tis a pretty sight, my young maussas and missis," he used to say, when relating this story, while we stood with inward tremour, almost expecting the pictures of
our grandparents to start from their flames; "'tis a pretty thing for see one corpse lay out handsome on he natural bed, wid he head to de east, and he limb straight, and he eye shut, and he white shroud, and de watchers sing psalm; but 'twas altogedder onnatural to see my poor maussa wid de ragiments on, and de varmin busy bout him, and de moonlight shine down, and de owl hoot. Dem niggers (natural fools) get scare when we get to maussa self; den says I, 'My men, how you been let folks say dat we have Christian grave, while our maussa, what fed us and kivered us, was laying mong wolf? It's an ugly job, but to it, my men; and as it is a disrespec to sing "heave ho," one of you strike up a hymn to help us on.'"
There was no ear to listen to those sounds as they rose up on the midnight air, no eye to appreciate that intrepidity which could conquer the dread of superstitious ignorance. I am wrong. He who formed hearts in one mould did not disregard them.
They placed the remains of the soldier in the coffin brought for them, and closed it reverently.
The widow, nerved for the obsequies of her husband, reclined in silence, with Henry by her side. Friends from the city and neighbouring plantations sat or stood in whispering circles, shrouded by scarfs, and hoods, and weepers, each holding a sprig of rosemary twined with white paper; the glasses and pictures were turned to the wall, and every article of taste covered with a white cloth. Labour was suspended, the household servants stood in the piazza clothed in mourning, and the field slaves, with such little testimonials of external respect as they could beg or borrow, arranged themselves below. The coffin was brought to the piazza, its costly ornaments riveted, and little Henry held up to see the inscription. In the city, after a recent decease, the widow would have remained secluded in the formality of grief; but in this case there seemed to be a call for a representative mourner; and, taking Henry's hand, she followed the six negro female waiters dressed in white, with napkins pinned over their shoulders, who were preceded by
the coffin, which was borne by his people, attended by the pall-bearers, friends of the deceased. The procession passed on, followed by the servants, to Cedar Mound. The coffin was lowered, "dust to dust" was pronounced over it, and the earth fell upon its glittering decorations. Henry clung to his mother, crying, "Papa, come back," while the lamentations and shrieking howl of the negroes filled the air. The widow looked on with zealous scrutiny until the last spadeful of earth was deposited on the swelling mound; then taking her son home, retired to her apartment, where her heart only knew its own bitterness.
The boy soon forgot, in childish blessedness, the funeral of his father, and his notes of happiness rang through the mansion; but how achingly did his mother's thoughts for lingering years dwell in sad revery on her husband's grave. And it is on that spot that my eye now turns. She trained the various vines over its white paling, and planned the monument sacred to her first beloved. There little Henry loved to play with the falling leaves, or gather spring flowers; there his mother laid her head, crowned with reverend honours; there my mother lies; and there may my limbs be borne when God shall call my spirit. But no gloom rests upon it. It has always been a favourite scene for the children of our household. It is not enough that grief should go there and lay down its earthly treasure, or that old age should moralize beneath its shades; happy voices, like Henry's, may still be heard in its enclosure, and the crisp and fresh winter rose that my own Lewis has thrown in my lap he gathered from poor cousin Anna's grave.
"Look, when I vow I weep; and vows so born,
In their nativity all truth appears."
Midsummer Night's Dream.
"Too soon, oh all too soon - will come
In later years the spell,
Touching with changing hues the path
Where once but sunlight fell."
FRANCES S. OSGOOD.
FROM the day of his father's death, Henry was monarch of all he surveyed; his mother gazed on him with eyes of untiring love; the elder servants fostered him with protecting pity; and a troop of young ones followed his steps, to serve and sport with him.
The softness inspired by constant indulgence was counteracted by the scenes of danger to which this very indulgence permitted him to resort. He managed a horse incredibly soon, and, long before a city boy had poised a gun, was in the fields winning his own dinner. Though startled by his daring, his mother soon felt pride in the deer's horns and fox's skins that he suspended from the hall, and the fish caught by him tasted fresher than from any other hands. Henry was one of the busiest beings on the wide earth. His horses, his hounds, his rabbits, his terapins, his birds, &c., gave him incessant occupation between his hours of study. He was a lad of wild and warm affections, and no one knew whether he threw his arms around his horse's or his mother's neck with the most ardour. With great quickness of capacity he contrived to glean an education from his private tutor, and was fitted for college. Long were the discussions on his future destination; at length it was decided that he should enter Harvard College, and his mother, with a sweet magnanimity, consented to give up her boy for those long, long four years.
It was Henry's sixteenth birthday, on a spring morning, when his travelling apparatus was deposited in the piazza, and he stood with his mother to see Jacque turn the last key. The field-hands who could form any excuse had gathered to bid him farewell. They were all very sad, and one (his nurse) was weeping bitterly. The negro children stood on the lawn with a thoughtful air, watching the preparations for his departure. Henry was determined to bear the separation like a man, but Jacque was unusually irritable. He kicked the dogs, called the little boy who held the travelling bag a "black-faced nigger," and hit the leading horse such a blow on the side of the head, that his mistress called him to order.
"Eberyting go wrong to-day, missis," said Jacque in an apologetic tone.
Grandmamma and Henry dared not trust a long embrace. Why should they, when her arms had encircled him sixteen years, and when she had stolen to his room the night before and slept on his very pillow, while his cheek unabashed nestled close to hers? He shook hands with all the people, and "God bless my young maussa!" was heard from one to the other as they courtesied or bowed low at his farewell. "Don't cry, Nanny," said he to his nurse, as her audible sobs struggled through the apron she had thrown over her face.
"Old Nanny an't gawing for see Maus Henry no more in dis worl!" said she. "Nanny live long enough now, if Maus Henry no stay wid dem dat raise him."
Jacque had stood somewhat aloof, as if he did not consider himself as belonging to the general group; and it was not until after Henry was sensed in the carriage with his tutor, that, with an evident struggle and a preparatory hem! he said,
"Good-by, Maus Henry. Take care you no dishonour de family. Keep straight, my young maussa, walk close.* Jacque can manage missis bery well, and notting an't gawing for trouble she; but who gawing for take care Maus Henry but God Almighty?"
* These expressions are very common among the negroes, and signify, be correct; be pious.
Henry was admitted pretty fairly at Harvard, and his collegiate life flowed on happily. No one rode such spirited horses as he; his coat was cut with the latest touch of fashion; the tie of his cravat was a study, his flute inimitable; the graceful solemnity of his bow supplied the want of deeper knowledge; and a happy facility of expression carried him over his recitations; many a poor student blessed his liberality, and many a dull one his quickness; the cheerfulness of his manners won him golden opinions; and he who had been attended by slaves from infancy was seen carrying his own bowl of milk* or chocolate across the college-yard, with a bow and jest for all; his classmates caressed him, the fair smiled upon him, and Henry Wilton, the southerner, was pronounced a noble fellow.
He graduated with a secondary college honour, but it was sufficient to hang a splendid dinner upon. Happy they to whom his invitations came before any other sealed up the avenue of acceptance!
The young graduate was the star of commencement-day. His sparkling countenance, graceful manner, fine oratory, and a few appropriate compliments to the ladies, bore off peals of applause, while more elaborate essays were unheeded by the audience. He had secured for his entertainment the splendid line of Boston belles, who, in floating veils and flower-wreathed curls, with "lips apart," leaned from the crowded galleries to listen to - him!
A richly-prepared table was laid under a decorated awning on a green in an enclosure, about a quarter of a mile from the colleges. Thither his guests resorted after the exercises were concluded; and Henry, flushed with success, floating on the very clouds of youthful excitement, led the way, with the mother of Lucy Sullivan on his arm. And Lucy followed with his friend Winthrop. Was it an August sun that kindled up her cheek in such a glow of rosiness, or was it that Henry, as he guided the mother,
* A custom for which the meals in the commons hall is now a substitute.
looked back on the beautiful girl, and catching a fold of her veil, retained it gently in his hand?
It required no little circumspection to thread the mazes of the Cambridge common on commencement-day. At one moment they justled against a square-capped professor; at another came in contact with a crowd around a merry-andrew; now a gowned orator, with his coloured riband or medal, the badge of a society, swept by; and now they were impeded by flocks of children hurrying to the booths for confectionery; here was a mob of rioters simply kept from violence by constables, and there pressed a bevy of laughing girls in the airy dress of a ball-room, escorted by young collegians.
The excitement was increased by the ordinarily quiet habits of the Cambridge residents. Over that wide, open common, then diversified only by a few graceful elms, usually brooded the deepest silence and monotony, scarcely interrupted by the thoughtful student conning to the air his appointed task, or the laggard hurrying to his recitation. And the airy-decorated figures of the city ladies were equally opposed to the simple costume of the Cambridge girls. Indeed, until within a few years, one might almost know a Cambridge lady by the plainness of her attire and the absence of external accomplishments, contrasted with the cultivation of her mind.
Henry soon saw his guests seated at his rich banquet, and attended them with cheerful grace, while the little pleasantries of untasked intellect flew around. What was wanting to his happiness? On one side was Lucy Sullivan, with a mingled look of trust and bashfulness varying on her young cheek, and on the other his classmate Winthrop, pledged a friend for weal or wo.
But, as the festivity rose, Lucy's brow began to sadden. "You are silent, Miss Sullivan," whispered Henry. "I go the day after to-morrow, and this day should be sacred to smiles."
He stopped, for he saw a tremulous motion on her lips; and, before she could control herself, a tear stole down her burning cheek. He withdrew his eyes from hers;
and, selecting a piece of myrtle from a bouquet near him, carried it, unobserved but by her, to his lips, and laid it on her ungloved hand.
A few honeyed words were spoken as at the close of the dinner he committed her to the care of a Cambridge friend, and Winthrop and himself sallied to the college hall to join the commencement dinner-party, to which they were entitled as graduates. The company had dined, and were just rising to unite in the hymn which, from an early period, has thrown a sacred charm over this literary festival. The venerable president, clergymen collected from every quarter, statesmen, lawyers, graduates, and invited guests, all stood reverently, and responded with the tune of St. Martin's, as two lines at a time were read by one of the professors. *
There was no coldness in the solemn strain that up-rose from that assembly, but busy associations were in every breast, as they thus linked their alma mater with religious responsibilities.
* PSALM. "GIVE
ear, ye children; to my law
"My
tongue,
by inspiration taught,
"Which
we
from sacred registers
"Let
children
learn the mighty deeds
"Our
lips
shall tell them to our sons,
Sung statedly at the Commencement-dinner in Harvard College, to the
tune of St. Martin's; the company
standing.
Devout
attention lend;
Let the instructions of my mouth
Deep in your hearts descend.
Shall
parables unfold;
Dark oracles, but understood,
And
own'd for truths of old:
Of
ancient times have known:
And
our forefathers' pious care
To
us has handed down.
Which
God performed of old;
Which,
in our younger years, we saw,
And
which our fathers told.
And they again to theirs
That
generations yet unborn
May
teach them to their heirs."
This feeling was a happy preparation to Henry and Winthrop, when, retiring from the hall linked arm in arm, they resolved to visit Sweet Auburn,* to view the glories of a dying sunset together, and pledge again their vows of friendship. They were full of sweet communing, and poured out those feelings which youth only knows. They carved their names in a circle on a tree, and exchanged books, those precious ties for intellectual friendship. Henry had traced on a Horace the trite but expressive couplet -
"Where'er I go, whatever realms I see,
My heart untravelled fondly turns to thee" -
and Winthrop wrote on a rich edition of Gray's poems the following extract: -
"Ah, te meæ si partem animæ rapit
Maturior vis, quid moror altera,
Nec carus æque, nec superstes
Integer?"**
HORACE.
They lingered in this heart intercourse until the rising moon lighted up the distant spires of the city, and tinged the Charles with its quiet beauty. How often had they on that very spot looked to this moment as a bright and verdant point in their existence! It had come; the ties of four years spent in growing manhood were to be severed. Were they happy? If they were, happiness has sighs and tears. With hand clasped in hand they looked far down into each other's hearts, more busy with memory than hope. They could not tear themselves away. Again they gazed on the Giant's Grave - they lingered on Moss Hill; they plighted solemn vows in the Dell, and a tenderness, shaded like the parting twilight, stole over their souls.
It was a sultry night; and the moon's rays, usually so clear and cool, were like the noon sun to Lucy Sullivan, as they came through her curtained window and shone
* Now Mount Auburn
Cemetery.
"Alas
if thou untimely haste away,
**
Half
of my soul! oh why should I delay?
Why
keep the other half, its value gone,
Bereft
of thee to languish here alone!"
on her restless slumber. A sound awoke her, a single flute - the tune, a familiar air of tender farewell. With a delicious tremour she started, threw off the cap that bound her braided hair, and looked from behind the folded curtain. The music ceased; a well-known figure stood leaning against a tree, gazing upward. Not a word was spoken. Why speak when every pulsation of the heart tells a tale of tenderness? Lucy held her very breath, and not until the serenader moved, waved his hat, bowed with a low obeisance towards the window, and disappeared, did she seem to respire; then, with a sigh that appeared to bear away her very being, she sank on her bed and burst into tears.
In a few days Henry Wilton departed for the south. A
vision of one with a depth of tenderness in her blue eyes,
which would have made them, grave but for the buoyancy of
her step, often came across his memory as he stood on the
deck of the vessel, and gazed on thenorthern stars.
Three years elapsed, and he married an Edisto belle with "whole acres of charms;" and when memory asked, "Where is Lucy Sullivan?" echo answered, "Where?"
At a still later period he visited New-England. Colonel Wilton - for papa had acquired honours - was introduced to Mr. Winthrop, senator from - county. They shook hands, spoke of the politics of the day, and parted.
And Lucy Sullivan, where was she? For a brief space the myrtle was cherished, partly in tenderness, partly in hope, and laid within the leaves of a book near a sentimental rhyme. Time passed away, and one day, when William Russell, after urging his suit, had placed unchecked a golden circlet on her forefinger, and was leaning over a book watching her eyes to know when he should turn the leaves, a withered myrtle sprig dropped from the page, which with her handkerchief Lucy quietly brushed away. It fell at her feet, and was crushed by an unconscious movement. The house-maid sweeping
the next morning wondered how Miss Lucy could drop so much litter on the carpet.
And thus ended college love and college friendship.
"Why should old age escape unnoticed here,
That sacred era to reflection dear?
That peaceful shore where passion dies away,
Like the last wave that ripples o'er the bay?
Oh, if old age were canceled from our lot,
Full soon would man deplore the unhallowed blot!
Life's busy day would want its tranquil even,
And earth would lose her stepping-stone to heaven."
S. GILMAN.
"Years have past -
Yet still,
When bygone days do visit me,
Some secret spell
Enchains me to that spot, and once again
I meet the soften'd and religious glance
Of that fair matrons eye; and though my ear
Hath listened to rare music -
The full deep cadence of some queen-like one
Trying her harp's fine pulses, and been stirr'd,
E'en as an instrument with cunning sounds
Of ravishing vibration, yet not one
Seems now so grateful to my thirsting ear
As that fond son's 'my mother!'"
MARY E. LEE
MAMMA possessed more than "whole acres of charms," for though not brilliant, she was good-tempered and sensible. A demure look and reserved manner concealed a close habit of observation. She would sit in company for hours, making scarcely a remark, and recollect afterward every fact that had been stated, to the colour of a riband or the stripe of a waistcoat. Home was her true sphere; there everything was managed with promptitude and decision, and papa, who was a politician, a candidate
for military honours, a commissioner of roads, a churchwarden, a "mighty hunter," and withal an active planter, was glad to find his domestic arrangements quiet and orderly. No one ever managed an establishment better; but there was no appeal from her opinions, and I have known her ever eloquent in defending a recipe. She was well entitled to her opinions; for though papa often returned from the city or the chase with unexpected strangers, I never saw her labouring under embarrassment. Her sausages were pronounced to be the best flavoured in the neighbourhood; her hog's cheese (the English brawn) was delicacy itself; her curds, made in a heart-mould, covered with nutmeg and cream, won the hearts of many a guest; her clabber was turned at that precise moment when a slight acidity tempers the insipidity of milk: her wafers bore the prettiest devices, or were rolled in the thinnest possible consistency; her shrimps, pickled or fresh, were most carefully prepared; her preserved watermelons were carved with the taste of a sculptor; her hommony looked like plates of gathered snow; corn and rice lent all their nice varieties to her breakfast; and her boiled rice answered to Shakespeare's description, for "each particular grain did stand on end," or, to use a more expressive term, crawled. And all these delicacies were laid on your plate so silently, with a look that seemed to say, "No one will observe you if you do eat this little bit more." An orange leaf, which when crushed in the hand sent out a pleasant odour, was laid on every finger bowl. A cheerful fire blazed on the bedroom hearths in winter, and flowers ornamented them in spring, while I was early taught to lay fresh roses on the pillows of strangers.
I recollect mamma most distinctly at the breakfast-table. She entered the room almost invariably followed by her maid Chloe, bearing her small basket of keys. She wore a neat morning-dress, with plaited frills, a tasteful cap, her hands decorated with rings, holding a handkerchief of exquisite fineness, and her gold watch suspended from her belt, with its face outward. Chloe, with a turban of superior height (for there is great ambition
in the fold of a negro's turban), stood behind her chair with the basket of keys. Her usual office was to dress and undress her mistress every morning and evening, and perform all offices of personal attendance. To her taste mamma often referred in the choice of a dress for the day, for Chloe's taste was unquestionable.
We sat while papa asked a blessing in a low tone. This is a patriarchal and beautiful custom, connecting, as it does, earthly blessings with "the Giver of every good and perfect gift;" but it should either be performed in the Quaker style, in silence, or with distinct and earnest emphasis. My brother John was a bright, observing boy, and yet, at the age of ten years, he said to mamma in a whisper one day, as if fearing he was asking something wrong, "What does papa mean by tol lol at the end of the blessing?"
"John," exclaimed she, "is it possible that you do not know that he says 'our Lord?'"
"I always thought it was tol lol," said John, blushing to the very eyes.
I mention this fact, for it actually occurred, as a passing hint to those whose duty it is to lead the religious thoughts of the young. One clear idea is too precious a treasure to lose.
It was through similar carelessness that, while kneeling beside mamma at night, or standing to recite my catechism to her every Sabbath, I learned the Lord's Prayer, that simple yet sublime gift to man, as "Our Father chart in heaven;" now was I disabused of this impression until my own mind wrought it out for me by after reflection.
My best religious impressions were derived from my grandmamma. Her suffering heart had felt their need, her strong mind had tried their value, and she possessed the golden faculty of turning earth's fleeting sands into the scale of heaven.
If ever the cradle of declining age was gently rocked, it was by those who circled around the venerable form of my grandparent at Roseland. A certain tenderness gathered over papa's manner whenever he addressed her;
there was even a softened gallantry in his air, as he led her to the coolest seat in the piazza, or the warmest by the hearth. A lofty beauty still sat upon her brow, the same which dwells on the features of her portrait by Copley, in Roseland Hall. Her hair, bleached like snow, was as fine in its texture, and was singularly contrasted by the sunny curls of her youth. The influence of her manners was evident on the plantation, producing an air of courtesy even among the slaves. It was beautiful to witness the profound respect with which they regarded her. Nanny, Jacque's sister, was her waiting-maid, and herself a fine specimen of that quiet graceful respect often discerned among our elder servants. Nanny still lives, and is my especial care. On sunny days she is brought up to the piazza in an armchair, where she revives from a gentle stupor at the sight of familiar objects. Her children's children play on the lawn, but I sometimes think my Eleanor awakens stronger interest even than they, from her resemblance to her mistress. A few ideas only linger on the old woman's mind; the strongest of which is breathed in the form of a prayer that she may "walk in dis worl so to see missis in heaven."
One autumn evening, in my childhood, when the sunset began to look cold, and the first whirling leaves were brought to our feet, we arrived from our summer residence on our annual visit to Roseland. Premonitions of hastening decay had been seen in grandmamma and she had evinced a gentle impatience to be once more an inmate of her favourite home. She could no longer walk without assistance, and papa proposed that she should pass on directly through the hall to her bedroom.
"I will rest here, if you please, my son," said she, quietly; and as her still speaking eye dwelt on the likeness of her husband, we understood her.
"If the people wish to see me, let them come now," said she to Nanny. Her will was a law to us, and the negroes were summoned, while we arranged pillows for her to recline on the sofa. She received them kindly; to
one giving a word of advice, to another of comfort; se inquired into their wants, and expressed her sympathy in their joys and sorrows.
"See that mammy Sue has extra blankets this winter, my son. Daddy Charles tells me he is too feeble to mend his own roof - set some hands to work upon it before the cold weather."
Jacque had stood behind her chair with Nanny during this interview.
"Jacque," said his mistress.
"My missis," said Jacque.
"You remember your master, Jacque?"
"My lor, missis! me an't got no membrance, if me an't member maussa, just like a yesterday."
"You know where I am to be laid?" said grandmamma.
"Yes, missis, Jacque know berry well;" and he wiped away an unaffected tear.
"I must tell you all how d'ye and good-by together," said she, "for I am going very fast;" then extending her hand to each in turn, she said a few more words of comfort and blessing. "God bless my old missis!" "Many tanks, my old missis," was heard amid stifled sobs, as, with their aprons or handkerchiefs to their eyes, they withdrew.
Grandmamma rested a few moments, and we stood in silence.
"Cornelia, dear," said she to me, "you are the eldest, and most resemble your grandfather, and I will give you the locket;" and she suspended it with a beautiful chain from my neck. I could not speak, and my brothers, with a sudden understanding of the scene, stood with looks of sorrowful earnestness.
I glanced at the locket through my tears, and they flowed faster as I traced a gray lock entwined with its bright ringlet.
"Henry, my son, I will go to my bedroom," said she. On reaching the door, she turned round deliberately and gazed on the portrait of her early love. We saw her lips move, but her voice was not heard. Then, recollecting
herself, she said, "Excuse me," with that graceful and lofty air so peculiarly hers.
She never left her apartment again. A rapid but gentle decay came on; so gentle, that when my brothers and myself were told that she was dead, and saw first the bustle and then the careful tread of mourners, we could scarcely comprehend it. But we did realize something appalling when we were carried by papa to take a last look of his beloved parent. I never saw him so much moved. He kissed again and again her pale forehead and then, with a long, long gaze, dwelt on her features, so still and unanswering. I can comprehend now that gaze. I know how the mind rushes back, in such moments, to infancy, when those stiffened hands were wrapped around us in twining love; when that bosom was the pillow of our first sorrows; when those ears, now insensible and soundless, heard our whispered confidence; when those eyes, now curtained by uplifted lids, watched our every motion. I know the pang that runs through the heart, and I can fancy the shrieking voice within which says, "Thou mightst have done more for thy mother's happiness, for her who loved thee so!"
Then, however, I experienced not this. A fearful awe overpowered me, the feeling of the supernatural. I fancied that the eyes were opening - I saw the shroud heave on the cold breast - the white sheet waved - I reeled, and should have fallen, but for papa's arms. Oh, dark, dark moment, when the fear of death is roused without its hopes, and we see the gloom of the grave unhinged by the dawn of salvation.
I was carried from the room, and aroused by the strange contrast without. True, every face was serious, but there was the bustle of preparation - a cool criticism on propriety. Jacque and Nanny were reverentially covering the portraits of their beloved master and mistress with a white cloth, preparatory to the funeral. I saw that though their eyes were full of tears, yet not a fold was left on its smooth surface; and mamma, who had been a most dutiful and affectionate child, warned the men who were bringing the coffin not to graze the
mahogany table. I felt a shock upon my youthful mind when I perceived these seeming incongruities; but I have since found that there are two currents running through every heart, one rising from our high immortal nature, and the other springing from sensations immediately about us. All we can do with the latter is to bear with them, and turn them, if possible, to good.
It was on that mournful occasion that I felt the first struggle of conscience in the vanity of a new suit of mourning. I tried to be, perhaps I was sorry in assuming it, but glanced at the mirror to observe if it was becoming. I remember my brothers' looks of importance as they dressed for the funeral, and my correcting their pride in order to screen my own. John and I walked together after our parents to Cedar Mound. He irresistibly stepped into a march. I twitched his arm. Still he stepped forward with great manliness. "John," said I, in unaffected indignation, "are you not ashamed to march at a funeral?"
Thus, even at that early age, we betrayed that love of observances which, though necessary to our earthly condition, may check so fatally our spiritual growth.
Neither John nor I realized that our venerable friend was gone until we reached Cedar Mound. Then the recollection of her last resting-place burst on our young hearts. How often had we strayed there with her, and heard her gentle voice in love and tenderness! How sacredly had she tended those flowers, and told us that we, like them, would die and bloom again! The coffin was lowered; we should see her no more on earth; and, as the birds sent forth their songs, and her tame fawn came forward and gave a wistful look on the grave, our youthful voices rent the air, and we felt the mournful truth that we had indeed lost a friend.
Venerable, even beautiful old age, beautiful when the glow of kindness lingers on the wrinkled brow and animates the lips! Let youth catch thy parting rays, which illuminate it as the dying sunshine illuminates the sapling and flower.
Virtuous old age! we will listen to the lengthened
story of thy large experience. Even Heaven scorns not to add up thy gathered store of goodness, and thou shalt see it in glittering numbers on the "book of life."
Dying old age! Let us dwell on the link connecting thy form with eternity, and then gaze on the soul's chariot, as, disencumbered of clay, it rises heavenward among the parting clouds!
Grave of the aged, Let us all pause often at thy sanctuary, where the waves of this world roll off, and leave us alone with God!
"A shallow brain behind a serious mask,
An oracle within an empty cask,
He says but little, and, that little said,
Owes all its weight, like loaded dice, to lead."
Cowper's Conversation.
MY education and that of my brothers had been generally superintended, except when the boys were at city schools, by a succession of governesses. I beg pardon; this honourable name is not popular in America. I think we speak of them as young ladies who stay with us to teach our children. Our winters were passed at Roseland, with an occasional visit to Charleston; our summers at a Pine-land settlement; and this arrangement rendered it necessary that our teachers should reside under our roof.
John, and Richard, and I had fairly grown beyond petticoat government. When called upon to recite, we laughed behind our books, and turned our lessons into fun. When reading in history of the irruption of the Gauls, we spread several plasters, and handed them to our teacher, with the direction, "To, Miss Susan Wheeler, to cure the disease of the Gauls." One day, when she
entered our room, she observed our heads bent over our books when lo, on our raising them, she found that we had covered them with coloured wafers, which gave us a fearful but grotesque expression. When we recited an account of the origin of writing by hieroglyphics, we let a paper drop from our book, describing Miss Susan in the Egyptian mode. This primitive style was more than Miss Wheeler could bear, particularly as we unkindly adverted to some personal defects. Ridicule is the hardest draught in the world to swallow, and she told papa she must decline teaching us in future. Mamma never interfered with our education, and her passive virtues as a mother remind me of a tribute of praise I once heard given to a clergyman by one of his congregation. "We have an excellent minister; he never meddles with religion, nor politics, nor none of these things." She was scrupulously attentive, however, to our dress and general manners, and her care put to shame the mother who, on being asked by one of her children to comb his hair, answered, that she was busy sewing for the children in Burmah!
In consequence of Miss Wheeler's resignation, papa sent the following advertisement to the Charleston papers.
"A gentleman of cultivated mind and polished manners, with proper credentials, will hear of an eligible situation as private teacher for a family of children in the country. Inquire at this office."
"You rogue," said papa, tapping me on the shoulder with his riding-whip, "and you little rascals," shaking it smilingly at the boys, "don't think to play any more of your pranks! I will put you under a man's care; so look out; you have made Miss Wheeler as thin as a fishing-rod."
We really loved our teacher for her amiable temper, and, turning to her, half choked her with caresses, exclaiming,
"Do, if you please, don't give up teaching us! We will behave. We will behave good."
Her determination was not, however, to be shaken by
our entreaties, and she soon departed to another family to "incline" more docile "twigs."
I remember the debût of our new tutor as if it were yesterday. Having had no tasks for several weeks, we were revelling in all the glory of country freedom. One day, when our parents were out, we proposed an excursion in the woods. John rode on his beautiful mare Jenny. He had amused himself the night before by manufacturing what he called a Robinson Crusoe dress, that is, trimming an old hunting cap and jacket with rackoon skins. Not satisfied with their regular position, he wore them now with their back parts in front. Equally intoxicated with fun, Richard and I mounted a mule together. He exchanged my bonnet for his hat, while I put his hat over my tangled curls. Jim, our favourite attendant, a reckless black boy of sixteen, rode a horse which we were not allowed to use, and triumphed not a little in the caracole of his steed, while our mule paced quietly along. We were attended by an immense retinue of little negroes, some with infants on their backs, and others pulling along those who could run alone, determined to keep up with us as long as possible, and all making characteristic remarks.
"Bro'* Jim ride more better dan Maus John, for true," said one.
"Ha!" said another, striding a gum-tree branch, "gie me one horse, and I show you how for ride!"
If I have described our appearance correctly, language is inadequate to represent the clamour that was issuing from the group when, turning a point on entering the avenue, we came in immediate contact with a gentleman in a horse and chair. We thought directly who it might be. I confess I felt prodigiously ashamed, and quick as thought exchanged head-gear with Richard. The stranger was evidently startled by this singular assemblage but collecting himself, said,
* Brother. The terms daddy, maumer, uncle, aunty, broder and titter (brother and sister), are not confined to connexions among the blacks, they seem rather to spring from age.
"I reckon you could tell me if this is Colonel Wilton's farm?"
"Yes, sir," said John, bowing politely, for he had a good deal of his papa about him; "This is Colonel Wilton's plantation. Boys, run ahead and open the gate for the gentleman."
A scampering commenced, and tumbling head over heels, with an evident desire to display their agility, the most active reached the gate leading to the lawn, where they stood respectfully, until the stranger, who sat particularly straight, passed through.
We held a consultation, and at last concluded that our parents would be angry if we did not go and entertain the visiter.
After a necessary smoothing of hair and washing of faces, we sallied down to the apartment where he sat, as erect as an arrow, with the palms of his hands joined, and the fingers crossed, except the two fore fingers, which stood out straight.
We lingered outside the door before seeing him, to compose ourselves properly; with now and then a suppressed giggle, and now an urgent whisper to each other to go first, or an occasional application of my brothers' heels to each other's backs. At last, in a general scuffle, we were all precipitated forward together into the presence of the stranger.
We scrambled up, and, after a few stifled snorts (the only word that can express the act), contrived to compose ourselves; speaking was out of the question; a word would have upset our gravity. Richard stole away, while John and I sat kicking our heels against our chairs, until a note on papa's silver whistle announced his welcome return.
The gentleman arose, and, after a preliminary remark, presented papa with a paper from his large flat pocketbook. I peeped over papa's arm and read with him -
"This is to certify, that Mr. Joseph Bates, the bearer, is in good standing with the church and congregation at ---, Connecticut. EZEKIAL DUNCAN, Pastor."
I did not then interpret papa's smile; but I have thought since how ludicrous it must have seemed to him to receive a certificate of good standing in a church, when he had advertised for testimonials to a teacher with cultivated mind and polished manners.
While papa is receiving the solemn introduction of our new candidate, let me recall his history.*
Mr. Joseph Bates was the son of a Connecticut farmer, that race of men who, by their high moral qualities, contribute so much to the stability and honour of our country. Joseph, when a boy, was employed in tying fagots, driving the cows, husking corn, hoeing potatoes, &c., &c. He attended the district school, which is open in New England the three winter months, when work is slack. There he was taught reading, writing, spelling and Daboll's Arithmetic. It was observed that he was never so happy as when he had washed his hands after work, and sitten down by the kitchen fire with an almanac in his hand. Perhaps sufficient praise has not been awarded to these little vehicles of knowledge, these national annuals, which, gliding noiselessly into the retreats of ignorance, throw abroad rays of science, and warm up the germes of heart and mind.
Joseph sat for hours with his eyes fixed on the crabs and scales in the zodiac, with a kind of mysterious delight. He looked to the weather department with the faith of a child, read the wise sayings with the voice of an oracle, and was even known, as a shrill blast came whistling through the door, shaking the very settle on which he sat, to exclaim,
"See, winter comes to rule the varied year."
The only joke he was ever heard to utter was from he same fruitful source.
Joseph availed himself of his privilege of a quarter every year at the district school up to the lawful age of
* In illustration of this description, I beg to leave to state, that a Connecticut gentleman at the South told me recently, that he asked a pedler who had come from his neighborhood if the increased tax had not injured the members of his craft. "Oh, I don't know," said he, "I guess not, as they have pretty much turned schoolmasters."
twenty-one. He could cast up accounts, and wrote a tolerable hand, but was no nearer to the mysteries of the zodiac. It is customary for young men, in his quarter of the country, to associate themselves in a class for the winter months, under the teaching of the parish clergyman, who is willing to advance the cause of learning, and aid his scanty resources, by a trifling pecuniary compensation from an evening school. At the age of twenty-one, Joseph became a member of the Rev. Ezekiel Duncan's class, to which, after a hard day's work, he resorted, with hair duly sleeked over his forehead, and well-brushed Sunday suit. Access to Mr. Duncan's instruction and library for three months made a wonderful move in Joseph's mind. Familiar with many things, which made his good old parents, aunt Patty, and sister Nancy stare, he began to think himself competent to any intellectual effort.
At this period the captain of a Charleston trading schooner came to - to visit his relations, and renewed a boyish intimacy with Joseph. This intercourse produced a restless desire of change in our incipient tutor.
"I calculate, captain," said he, after a long stroll through the town, where the sailor had gone to indulge those associations which come up like young verdure over the most hardened souls, "I calculate it's pretty difficult to git edication down at Charleston."
"Dreaded difficult," said the captain; "I reckon they a'nt much better than niggers."
"An't you agreeable, captain," said his friend, "to my going down to Charleston, and trying what I can do to help them a trifle at schooling?"
The captain thought it would be a praiseworthy thing, and matters were laid in train to effect the object as soon as possible. Mr. Duncan was the only person opposed to the project; but his advice, though delivered almost in a tone of warning, sounded feebly on Mr. Bates's excited tympanum.
His sister Nancy laid out a pocket piece, which had been kept for show, in buying him a third Sunday shirt; his mother sat up day and night to knit him six pairs of
worsted hose; two were of blue yarn, two of gray, and two mixed, for variety; and his aunt Patty, whose pet he had been from childhood, borrowed the suit of a New Haven apprentice, who had run up to see his friends, to cut out Joseph's in the last fashion.
For some days he was seen in frequent conference with a pedler - they approached, retreated, parlied, once or twice there were signs of actual warfare; but at length Joseph came off, we know not at what loss, with a large silver watch, which he boasted kept excellent time. Joseph humoured it, as we ought to humour our nervous friends or capricious servants; and when he found that it actually lost one quarter of an hour in every twenty-four he said, philosophically, "he guessed that was better than hurrying him to death by going too fast."
How fortune favours enterprise! The second day after his bargain he called at one of his neighbours to bid them farewell. There was a great commotion among the daughters, and a scramble to get something from one of their parboiled hands.
I must stop a moment to say how sweet and healthy farmers' families have appeared to me in my northern excursions, just dressed from their Monday washtubs, sitting down to their afternoon sewing, with smiling faces and sanded floors. The scrambling among the young ladies continued, until one said, "You might as well let him see it, as he's got to."
"It's nothing to be ashamed of, Prudence," said another. "'Tan't no present to cut love."
Prudence's cheeks grew a deeper crimson, until the suggestion that "to-morrow was ironing day, and she wouldn't have no time to finish it," induced her to draw out a braided watch-riband of various colours. It was observed that Prudence's hand trembled with unaffected trepidation as she pursued her work. Joseph rose to examine it, and by degrees the family (as families will instinctively do) disappeared, and Mr. Bates gained resolution to offer a faithful and affectionate heart to the blushing girl.
True love! Whether thou broodest with white plumage
over the souls of the gentle and refined, or spreadest thy heavier flight near coarser hearts, thou art sacred still! Go on thy blessed errand, scatter thy gifts in palace and cottage, and let the young listen in joy, as they hear the rustling of thy wings!
Prudence's blushers were not diminished when her sisters observed, on their return, that the watch-guard had advanced but one knot, and that was done wrong, and their jests came full and free on the embarrassed lover. Happy had it been for him had he wedded his Prudence, and remained a "hewer of wood and drawer of water!" Appreciating affection would have smoothed his path, and labour sweetened his repose.
Such was the man whom my papa was obliged to welcome as the teacher of his children, for he had not the heart to turn him back after his long journey. I wish there was a register of looks, that mamma's might have been entered when she first saw him, and took in his whole figure, from his greased hair to his worsted hose. He was all angles. You would have judged him to be a mathematician by his elbows, sooner, perhaps, than by his phrenology; for his hair, being cut in an exact line over his brows, left but little display of his organical developments. A perpetual embarrassment in the company of his superiors made him stand like a drake, first on one foot, then on the other; and while with one hand he fiddled at Prudence's watch-chain, he smoothed down the hair closer on his forehead with the other.
I could divine by Chloe's increased demureness at dinner, what her notions were of our new inmate; but her expressed opinion was reserved for her mistress's ear when she undressed at night. Jim's looks were less equivocal. As he wielded the fly-brush, he peeped out of one corner of his eye at the stranger's proceedings, scarcely controlled by papa's warning expression; and when Mr. Bates, picking out the orange leaf, took up a finger-bowl and drank down the water at a draught, he was obliged to make a precipitate retreat to save his character as a good servant, which is one who sees everything without seeming to see.
Alas! how many young men have plodded, and pushed, and been coaxed and hustled through a kind of education in the eastern states, and then presented themselves as teachers to the children of southern gentlemen!
"Wandering through the
southern countries,
Teaching the A B C from Webster's spelling book."
Halleck's Connecticut.
"Strepsiades.
So, you like overlooking the gods from a basket?
Come, Socrates, dearest, get down from your rafter,
And tell a poor fellow the thing he's come after."
Clouds of Aristophanes.
FROM the unrestrained freedom described in the last chapter, we were called on the following morning to take our first lessons. John was not forthcoming.
"Where may your brother be?" said Mr. Bates to Richard.
"He has marsh'd his harnd on the dray," answered little Dick, feeling in his pocket for fish-hooks.
"Wha-r-t?" said Mr. Bates, with a tremendous drawl. *
Richard repeated his first reply.
"I don't conceive," said our teacher.
"Sir," said Richard and I.
"Write it down, if you are agreeable to it," said Mr.Bates.
Little Richard was as backward in chirography and orthography as he was in pronunciation, and Mr. Bates was more puzzled than ever. He turned to me for an explanation. It may surprise some readers that I should be so much further advanced in correct speaking than
* The common southern expression is eh? or what say? pronounced almost like one word.
Richard; but southern children, who have good models in their parents, and who associate with the intelligent, will almost involuntarily correct themselves of inaccuracies. I was much more with my parents than the boys were. I have never felt any more apprehension at having my children associate with negroes, lest their dialect should be permanently injured, than I should have at their listening to the broken English of a foreigner; and though, at the time of which I speak, I preferred to talk to the negroes in their dialect, I never used it to the whites.
"Be so obleeging as to tell me what your brother says, miss," said Mr. Bates.
"He says," answered I, "that John has mashed his hand on the dray."
"Dray, miss? What is a dray?"
"That thing, sir, with wheels, out by the potato-field."
"No, no, miss," said Mr. Bates, "that is a truck."
"We call it a dray, sir," said I.
"You mustn't call it so no more then. The Borston folks call that a truck," insisted Mr. Bates.
"You should say, Master Richard, that John has jammed his hand on the truck."
Richard and I stole a glance at each other, but of course we could not dispute Boston phraseology.
"You must git red of these curious ways of talking," continued Mr. Bates, "as rapid as possible."
Thinks I, what does git red mean? I have since found that many well-educated persons in a city, which is acknowledged to be the most enlightened in the United States, use this expression; and ladies, very intellectual ones too, say, "I wish I could git red of my bunnet."
Let me at this point protest against the word get, as not only of selfish origin, but a miserable expletive. There is no sentence that is not better without it and when it gets to git, it is intolerable.
I was called up to read a part of "Collins's Ode on the Passions," and commenced with,
"First fare his hand its skill to try -"
"Fare!" said Mr. Bates, "how do you spell it?"
"F-e-a-r fare," said I.
"How do you pronounce these words?" said he, pointing to appear, ear, tear, &c., in the spelling-book.
I answered, appare, are, tare, &c.
With equal impropriety I pronounced the words day play, &c. almost like dee, plee, and my southern brethren must excuse me when I tell them, ay, very intellectual ones too, state men and belles, that many of them pronounce in this style unconsciously, and not only so, but often call fair fere, and hair here.
For instance,
"The tare down
childhood's cheek that flows,
Is like the dewdrop on the rose."
Or,
"Wreath'd in its dark brown curls, her
here
Half hid Matilda's forehead fere."
At the close of our lesson Mr. Bates told me that papa wished me to take a ride (anglicé drive) with him. Jim, who rarely left us, was standing with an inquisitive look at the door.
"Young man," said the teacher to him, "you may go to the barn and tackle the horse and shay."
"I no been hear wha' Maus Bate say," said Jim.
Mr. Bates repeated his direction. Jim was confounded and we were all in the same predicament. At this moment, papa, who felt some curiosity to know our progress, entered, and Mr. Bates stated his difficulty.
"Oh, I understand you," said papa, laughing. "Jim go to the stable and harness the horse and chair."
I might proceed in this exposé of both parties, but if this little sketch leads us to more attention to our own defects, and more charity for sectional differences, it is enough.
It was difficult for papa to git red of our teacher though we felt hourly his deficiencies and faults. His own knowledge of his unfitness for the task prevented his enforcing his requisitions with any firmness, the only alternative was for him to descend to be our playmate, to coax us, and even enlist Jim as a companion. Several odd incidents occurred, but the two I am about to
record tended at last to sever the unnatural alliance between a good-tempered but ignorant teacher, and gay but intelligent children.
If those who were engaged in the occurrence I am about to relate ever glance at these pages in these their soberer days, they may excite a smile.
Papa and mamma having gone on a visit to the city, we were left entirely under Mr. Bates's control. Unfortunately, several lads from the neighbourhood came to stay a few days with us, and John and Richard were resolved not to pursue their studies, claiming the visit of the boys as a holyday. I confess that they were exceedingly provoking; and Mr. Bates, finding them incorrigible, locked them in their bedrooms, on bread and water, for twenty-four hours. They had fairly roused the lion; he was seriously angry.
For the first part of the day we heard the boys drumming, and marching, and whistling, and saw them at the windows making odd gesticulations. As the dinner-hour advanced, they became more silent. I felt pretty sure that Jim would stand their friend; indeed, he said to me,
"Neber mind, Miss Neely, Jim can play cootah * to da buckrah."
About ten o'clock in the evening, when we had retired for the night, Mr. Bates fancied he heard unusual noises; and looking out, he saw a large basket hoisted by a rope to my brothers' window and descend again; he then observed one of the young visitors enter the basket, which was raised as before. On its descent, Jim alighted from it, saying in a whisper,
"So now, don't draw 'em up till I come back again," and then ran off to the servants' apartments.
Mr. Bates left his room silently, went through the piazza on tiptoe, and tried the strength of the rope. It seemed made of stout double line; and as the height was not very great, and the piazza, pillars, shutters, &c., were at hand to steady himself by, his passions too, being excited, he determined to pay the boys a visit. My brothers,
* Alluding to the deception of the turtle, which draws in its head previously to snapping at anything.
feeling a weight in the basket as he entered, called in a whisper, say, "Ready, Jim?" "Ready," said Mr. Bates, squeezing himself into the basket, and feeling for the first time a little tremour.
"By George," said John, "if this is not a cargo, help us, Dick; all of you lend us a hand, Jim is heavier than I thought for. Quick, Ingols, fasten the rope to the bedstead; so there, now pull."
"Softly," said Richard, "or the black crane will hear us," a cognomen with which they generally honoured Mr. Bates.
By the time Mr. Bates had risen half way on his aerial excursion, he repented his temerity; a sort of sea-sickness came over him, and he was fain to cry out.
"John, I say, John, Richard, be easy now, I'm in't."
The boys were for a moment ready to let the basket drop in their amazement. It vibrated fearfully.
"Haul me up, haul me up," roared Mr. Bates, in an ecstasy of terror.
John called to the boys to hold on, and fastening the rope with another tie to the bedstead, went to the window.
"Who are you?" said he, in an angry tone.
"My - dear - John," said Mr. Bates, catching his breath, "I'm in't, Mr. Bates; my dear John, for mercy's sake, hoist me up."
The boys saw their power, and held a consultation. At length John, returning to the window ready to burst with laughter, said, "Who is this thief coming to rob us of our bread and water?"
"My dear young gentlemen," said the terrified man "I want nothing but to get out of this tarnation basket. I calculate that my heft will be too much for it. Every time it knocks agin the house it jounces my life out. I shall be particularly obligated to you either to let me up or down. I an't particular which."
The boys whispered.
"Up or down?" shrieked Mr. Bates. "You don't ought to keep me here."
"Mr. Bates," said John, solemnly "if we will let you in, will you let us out?"
"I wish I could reach you the key aforehand," said the poor man; "but it is in my pantaloons pocket, and sartin as I go to move for'ard, the basket will fall whop."
"You are in a bad fix," said Richard, gravely.
"Oh, I'm in an awful situation," cried he; "I wish I was in Connecticut! I feel so squeamy-like at my stomach; I don't know what to do! Pray be spry and take me in."
The boys retreated to the bed, and stuffed their handkerchiefs into their mouths to conceal their laughter. The shaking of the bedstead moved the basket, and they heard another ejaculation.
Richard was the first to pity him. "Come, boys, let him out." It was a prodigious tug to get him up. Jim, with his eyes as big as saucers, stood below, wondering to see "Maus Bate" go up instead of himself and a plate of ham he had been frying.
Few men ever felt less of the dignity of human nature than Mr. Bates when he alighted from the basket. The boys had partaken of an excellent supper, which John had procured, together with their hunting tinder-box and a candle. He walked to the door with a very solemn step, unlocked it, and returned to his own apartment.
This incident really seemed to sober us. It was an outlet for cherished mischief, and we studied for some time with considerable diligence. Mr. Bates never referred to it again. We told our parents, but their just reproofs did but little good when we saw that they laughed until the tears ran down their cheeks, and papa, holding his sides, begged we would stop if we had any pity on him.
Thus we worried along through the winter. Mr. Bates was a thorough teacher as far as his knowledge went; but our contempt for him was so great as to prevent his having any moral power over us. He was uncomfortable enough, and the thought of his simple and warmhearted Prudence, his affectionate family and cheerful home, often stole over his mind and shaded his brow with gloom.
We had been upon good behaviour for some time,
when the first of April, that day of "quips and cranks," and more than "wreathed smiles," drew near. Mr. Bates himself seemed animated by the reminiscences of April-fool-day, and detailed to Jim and us the exploits of his youth.
The jokes passed round. Occasionally he was to be seen unconsciously trailing a dirty rag at his back, or a ridiculous motto; nor was he at all backward in retaliation.
He was very fond of bottled cider, but very nervous at drawing a cork. John and I filled a bottle with weak molasses and water, and placed it, with the corkscrew, in the accustomed place. At the usual hour Mr. Bates approached the slab. He held the bottle far off, and drew cautiously, while John stood ready with a tumbler, Mr. Bates being in his usual tremour. The cork came out with difficulty, and his countenance looked as vapid as the diluted mixture. But he had his revenge. He made in secret something to imitate a short remnant of candle out of a raw sweet potato. In New-England, he told us afterward, they use the parsnip for this trick. The imitation was perfect, particularly the wick, which was simply the potato cut small at that point, slit in fine shreds, and touched with coal. This secret he communicated only to me. About twilight, when we were together, he rang the bell for Jim, and, giving the candle to him, told him to light it quickly. Jim went to the servants' hall, where there was a fire, and Mr. Bates, pretending to hurry him, followed, calling us after him. Jim took up a coal with the tongs and began to blow, his great mouth enlarging and closing like a dying shark's. Mr. Bates's impatience increased. "Blow harder, Jim." Jim puffed like a porpoise, but in vain.
"He obstinate like a nigger," said Jim, in a passion.
John snatched it from him, and went through the same process, until our restrained laughter broke forth. Mr. Bates rubbed his hands, and looked like an elephant in a frolic.
I have a very great objection to offer to this April
trick, which is this. I have heard two gentlemen never used an oath on any other occasion, swear at it.
It was but too obvious that our connexion with Mr. Bates must be terminated.
Papa opened the matter to him, and gave him a generous remuneration. Mr. Bates received his dismissal quietly, and papa's gift gratefully, saying, "He reckoned he should make a better fist at farming than edicating."
We parted in friendship; and John, the last person in the world I should have suspected of such sensibility, shed tears.
"Mrs. Page. - Sir Hugh, my husband says my son profits nothing in the world at his book; I pray you ask him some questions in his accidence.
"Evans. - Come hither, William; hold up your head, come."
AFTER the departure of our Connecticut teacher, Mr. Bates, papa resolved to carry on our education himself. We were to rise by daylight, that he might pursue his accustomed ride over the fields after breakfast. New writing-books were taken out and ruled, fresh quills laid by their side, our task carefully committed to memory, and we sat with a mixture of docility and curiosity to know how he would manage as a teacher. The first three days, our lessons being on trodden ground, and ourselves under the impulse of novelty, we were very amiable, he very paternal; on the fourth, John was turned out of the room, Richard was pronounced a mule, and I went sobbing to mamma, as if my heart would break, while papa said he might be compelled to ditch rice-fields, but he never would undertake to teach children again.
A slight constraint was thrown over the family for a day or two, but it soon wore off, and he returned to his good-nature. For three weeks we were as wild as fawns, until mamma's attention was attracted by my sun-burnt complexion and my brother's torn clothes.
"This will never answer," said she to papa. "Look at Cornelia's face! It is as brown as a chinquapin. Richard has ruined his new suit, and John has cut his leg with the carpenter's tools. I have half a mind to keep school for them myself."
Papa gave a slight whistle, which seemed rather to stimulate than check her resolution. "Cornelia," said she, "go directly to your brothers, and prepare your books for to-morrow. I will teach you."
The picture about to be presented is not overwrought. I am confident of the sympathy of many a mother, whose finger has been kept on a word in the lesson, amid countless interruptions, so long, that her pupils, forgetting her vocation, have lounged through the first interruptions and finished with a frolic.
One would suppose that the retirement of a plantation was the most appropriate spot for a mother and her children to give and receive instruction. Not so; for instead of a limited household, her dependents are increased to a number which would constitute a village. She is obliged to listen to cases of grievance, is a nurse to the sick, and distributes the half-yearly clothing; indeed, the mere giving out of thread and needles is something of a charge on so large a scale. A planter's lady may seem indolent, because there are so many under her who perform trivial services; but the very circumstance of keeping so many menials in order is an arduous one, and the keys of her establishment are a care of which a Northern housekeeper knows nothing, and include a very extensive class of duties. Many fair, and even aristocratic girls, if we may use this phrase in our republican country, who grace a ball-room, or loll in a liveried carriage, may be seen with these steel talismans, presiding over storehouses, and measuring, with the accuracy and conscientiousness of a shopman, the daily allowance of the family,
or cutting homespun suits, for days together, for the young and the old negroes under their charge; while matrons, who would ring a bell for their pocket-handkerchief to be brought to them, will act the part of a surgeon or physician with a promptitude and skill which would excite astonishment in a stranger. Very frequently, servants, like children, will only take medicine from their superiors, and in this case the planter's wife or daughter is admirably fitted to aid them.
There are few establishment, where all care and responsibility devolves on the master, and even then the superintendence of a large domestic circle, and the rites of hospitality, demand so large a portion of the mistress's time, as leaves her but little opportunity for systematic teaching in her family. In this case she is wise to seek an efficient tutor, still appropriating those opportunities which perpetually arise under the same roof to improve their moral and religious culture, and cultivate those sympathies which exalt these precious beings from children to friends.
The young, conscientious, ardent mother must be taught this by experience. She has a jealousy at first of any instruction that shall come between their dawning minds and her own; and is only taught by the constantly thwarted recitation, that in this country, at least, good housekeeping and good teaching cannot be combined.
But to return to my narrative. The morning after mamma's order, we assembled at ten o'clock. There was a little trepidation in her manner, but we loved her too well to annoy her by noticing it. Her education had been confined to mere rudiments, and her good sense led her only to conduct our reading, writing, and spelling.
We stood in a line.
"Spell irrigate," said she. Just then the coachman entered, and bowing, said,
"Maussa send me for de key for get four quart o' corn for him bay horse."
The key was given.
"Spell imitate," said mamma.
"We did not spell irrigate," we all exclaimed.
"Oh, no," said she, "irrigate."
By the time the two words were well through, Chloe, the most refined of our coloured circle, appeared.
"Will mistress please to medjure out some calomel for Syphax, who is feverish and onrestless?" *
During mamma's visit to the doctor's shop, as the medicine-closet was called, we turned the inkstand over on her mahogany table, and wiped it up with our pocket-handkerchiefs. It required some time to cleanse and arrange ourselves; and just as we were seated and had advanced a little way on our orthographical journey, Maum Phillis entered with her usual drawl,
"Little maussa want for nurse, marm."
While this operation was going on, we gathered round mamma to play bo-peep with the baby, until even she forgot our lessons. At length the little pet was dismissed with the white drops still resting on his red lips, and our line was formed again.
Mamma's next interruption, after successfully issuing a few words, was to settle a quarrel between Lafayette and Venus, two little blackies, who were going through their daily drill, in learning to rub the furniture, which, with brushing flies at meals, constitutes the first instruction for house servants. These important and classical personages rubbed about a stroke to the minute on each side of the cellaret, rolling up their eyes and making grimaces at each other. At this crisis they had laid claim to the same rubbing-cloth; mamma stopped the dispute by ordering my seamstress Flora, who was sewing for me, to apply the weight of her thimble, that long-known weapon of offence, as well as implement of industry, to their organ of firmness.
"Spell accentuate," said mamma, whose finger had slipped from the column.
"No, no, that is not the place," we exclaimed, rectifying the mistake.
"Spell irritate," said she, with admirable coolness, and
John fairly succeeded, just as the overseer's son, a sallow little boy, with yellow hair and blue homespun dress, came in with his hat on, and kicking up one for manners, said,
"Fayther says as how he wants Master Richard's horse to help tote some tetters* to tother field."
This pretty piece of alliteration was complied with, after some remonstrance from brother Dick, and we finished our column. At this crisis, before we were fairly seated at writing, mamma was summoned to the hall to one of the field hands, who had received an injury in the ankle from a hoe. Papa and the overseer being at a distance, she was obliged to superintend the wound. We all followed her, Lafayette and Venus bringing up the rear. She inspected the sufferer's great foot, covered with blood and perspiration, superintended a bath, prepared a healing application, and bound it on with her own delicate hands, first quietly tying a black apron over her white dress. Here was no shrinking, no hiding of the eyes, and while extracting some extraneous substance from the wound, her manner was as resolute as it was gentle and consoling. This episode gave Richard an opportunity to unload his pockets of groundnuts, and treat us therewith. We were again seated at our writing books, and were going on swimmingly with "Avoid evil company," when a little crow-minder, hoarse from his late occupation, came in with a basket of eggs, and said,
"Mammy Phillis send missis some egg for buy, ma'am; she an't so berry well, and ax for some 'baccer."
It took a little time to pay for the eggs and send to the store-room for the Virginia weed, of which opportunity we availed ourselves to draw figures on our slates: mamma reproved us, and we were resuming our duties, when the cook's son approached, and said,
"Missis, Daddy Ajax say he been broke de axe, and ax me for ax you for len him de new axe."
This made us shout out with laughter, and the business
was scarcely settled, when the dinner-horn sounded. That evening a carriage full of friends arrived from the city to pass a week with us, and thus ended mamma's experiment in teaching.
Our summers were usually passed at Springland, a pine settlement, where about twenty families resorted at that season of the year. We were so fortunate as to find a French lady already engaged in teaching, from whom I took lessons on the pianoforte and guitar. The summer swiftly passed away. Papa was delighted with my facility in French, in which my brothers were also engaged, and we were happy to retain Madame d'Anville in our own family on our return to Roseland.
In the middle of November a stranger was announced to
papa, and a young man of very prepossessing appearance
entered with a letter. It proved to be from our teacher, Mr.
Bates. The contents were as follows: -
"Respected Sir. -
I now sit down to write to you, to
inform you that I am well, as also are, sir and mar'm, my
sister Nancy, and all the rest of our folks except aunt Patty,
who is but poorly, having attacks of the rheumatic, and
shortness of breath. I should add, that Mrs. Prudence Bates
(who, after the regular publishment on the church doors for
three Sundays, was united to me in the holy bands of
wedlock, by our minister Mr. Ezekiel Duncan) is in a good
state of health at this present though her uncle, by her
father's side, has been sick of jaundice, a complaint that has
been off and on with him for a considerable spell.
"The bearer of this epistle is Parson Duncan's son, by
name Mr. Charles Duncan, a very likely young man, but
poorly in health, and Dr. Hincks says going down to
Charleston may set him up. I have the candour to say that I
think him, on some accounts, a more proper teacher than
your humble servant, having served his time at a regular
college edication.
"I have taken to farming, and lot upon seeing the Carolina
seeds come up that you gave me. Our folks say that I speak
quite outlandish since I come home;
and when I told neighbour Holt tother day about growing
corn, and spoke about somebody that was
raised in a
certain place, he as good as laughed in my face, and said it
sounded curious.
"I have tried a heap to make our folks bile the
hommony Miss Wilton give me as they do at Roseland; but
it is the very picture of swill, and I must say the hogs eat it
a nation faster than we do. When I told aunt Patty that
Southern folks ate clabber, she rolled up her eyes, and
wondered I could abide to sit at table with such critters; and
though I told her that it was genteel, and that I stomached it
very well, she can't no how git over it, and makes me feel
very curious by telling everybody that happens in how they
eat hogs' victuals down at Charleston.
"Sister Nancy was very much obligated by the fans and
basket Miss Neely sent her, and was in a great maze at
niggers doing anything so tasty; and they were all astonished
when I told them how the white folks buy what the niggers
make, and what a laying up they can git if they have a mind
to, jist from knick-knacks, and eggs, and potatoes, and so
on.
"Mrs. Prudence admires the Thomson's Seasons Mr.
John sent her. She has kivered it with a bit of blue
homespun, and put it up safe.
"I didn't say nothing to none on you about a keg of
shrimps that I brought on here from Charleston. Then I got
here, Mr. Wilton, they were a sight for mortal eyes!
Nobody could tell which was head or which was tail. A
perfect regiment of critters had took hold on 'em, and when
I told our folks how much nicer and delicater they were than
lobsters, they began to twit me, and I an't hearn the last of
it yit. I only wish I could have preserved the live-stock for a
museum.
"I send by Mr. Duncan some long-necked squashes and
russet apples of my own raising. The folks here stare like
mad when I tell them you eat punkins biled like squash.
"I have writ a much longer letter than I thought on;
but somehow it makes me chirpy to think of Roseland,
though the young folks were obstreperous.
"Give my love nevertheless to them, and Miss Wilton,
and all the little ones, as also I would not forget Daddy
Jacque, whom I consider, notwithstanding his colour, as a
very respectable person. I cannot say as much for Jim, who
was an eternal thorn in my side, by reason of his quickness at
mischief, and his slowness of waiting upon me; and I take this
opportunity of testifying, that I believe, if he had been in
New-England, he would have had his deserts before this; but
you Southern folks do put up with an unaccountable sight
from niggers, and I hope Jim will not be allowed his full
tether, if so be Mr. Charles should take my situation in your
family. I often tell our folks how I used to catch up a thing
and do it rather than wait for half a dozen on 'em to take
their own time. If I lived to the age of Methusalem, I never
could git that composed, quiet kind of way you Southern
folks have of waiting on the niggers. I only wish they could
see aunt Patty move when the rheumatiz is off - if she isn't
spry, I dont know.
"Excuse all errors.
"JOSEPH BATES." I detected a gentle, half-comical
smile on Mr. Duncan's
mouth as he raised his splendid eyes to papa while delivering
Mr. Bates's letter; but he soon walked to the window, and
asked me some questions about the Cherokee rose-hedge, and other
objects in view, which were novelties to him. I felt instantly
that he was a gentleman, by the atmosphere of refinement
which was thrown over him, and I saw that papa
sympathized with me, as with graceful courtesy he welcomed
him to Roseland.
S. G. BULLFINCH. GOLDSMITH. THERE is no moral object so beautiful to me as a
conscientious young man! I watch him as I do a star in the
heavens: clouds may be before him, but we know that his
light is behind them, and will beam again; the blaze of
others' prosperity may outshine him, but we know that,
though unseen, he illumines his true sphere. He resists
temptation not without a struggle, for that is not virtue, but
the does resist and conquer; he hears the sarcasm of the
profligate, and it stings him, for that is the trial of virtue,
but he heals the wound with his own pure touch; he heeds
not the watchword of fashion if it leads to sin; the atheist
who says, not only in his heart but with his lips, "There is
no God," controls him not, for he sees the hand of a
creating God, and reverences it; of a preserving God, and
rejoices in it. Woman is sheltered by fond arms and guided
by loving counsel; old age is protected by its experience, and
manhood by its strength; but the young man stands amid the
temptations of the world like a self-balanced tower. Happy
he who seeks and gains the prop and shelter of
Christianity.
Onward, then, conscientious youth! raise thy standard
and nerve thyself for goodness. If God has given thee
intellectual power, awaken it in that cause; never let it be
said of thee, he helped to swell the tide of sin, by pouring
this influence into its channels. If thou art feeble in mental
strength, throw not that poor drop into a polluted current.
Awake, arise, young man! Assume the beautiful garments of
virtue! It is easy, fearfully easy to sin; it is difficult to be
pure and holy. Put on thy strength, then; let thy chivalry be
aroused against error - let truth be the lady of thy love -
defend her.
A review of the character of Charles Duncan has led me
to this expression of feeling. I was thirteen years of age
when he arrived at Roseland, and became our teacher in
conjunction with Madame d'Anville. I ought to describe his
appearance. I wish I could. I can say that his form was the
perfection of manly symmetry; I can tell of his clear, dark,
intellectual eyes, where softness and vivacity seemed living
in friendly rivalry; I can paint the rich clustering hair
thrown away from his noble forehead, and that forehead
rising in its white mass like a tower of mind; I can give some
conception of the rich glow that coloured up a
complexion of such transparent hue, that it would have
seemed effeminate but for the strong character of his frame
and features, that glow, too fallacious, too burningly bright,
which spoke of a fire consuming the vase in which it was
kindled; but his voice it is impossible for me to describe. He
never spoke without silencing others, not by noise or
vehemence, but with a slow, musical emphasis, that went
straight to the heart; nor was the voice low or whispered;
but, without a tinge of vanity, it seemed to say, I must be
heard.
Why are not such individuals on thrones wielding
sceptres, or pouring out their talents before senates, or,
aided by wealth and power, lifted up to the high temples of
literature and science? Why must sickness and penury be
thrown over souls which God has made of his purest essence?
Thank Heaven, we know that this question will be well
answered when we see them in
their white robes hymning strains the first and richest
among the heavenly choir!
It was well for me that Charles Duncan instructed us.
Madame was a conscientious teacher, but her conscience
only embraced externals. I practiced two hours daily my
musical tasks, and delighted my papa by addressing the
French consul, on a visit to Charleston, with a mixture of
pertness and bashfulness, in his native tongue. Papa was
satisfied if he paid round sums of money for my education,
and mamma was easy if my teachers seemed busy. Until
Duncan came, my mind was the only instrument exercised,
and that was swayed by earthly hands. True, my heart was
open, and many a kind breeze of nature swept over its
chords; but he tuned them both to harmony, and brought out
those tones which I liken us to angels, and yet fit us for the
world. His searching but frequent question was, Are you
acting from duty, from principle, as in the sight of God?
Papa was at first opposed to the full cultivation of my
mind in the branches studied by my brothers. He laughed and
said, "The girl would consider herself more learned than her
father."
"Why should she not," said Duncan, "if humility be so
wrought in her as to make her feel her own inferiority to the
true standard of mind? Fear not, Colonel Wilton!
Intellectual women are the most modest inquirers after
truth, and accomplished women often the most scrupulous
observers of social duty."
"Well, well," answered papa, "only do not spoil her eyes
and shoulders, and let her be ready for my morning ride on
horseback, and you may teach her the remainder of the day.
By-the-way, Cornelia, are you never going to hold your
whip-hand steady; you jerk it like a cracker
* woman! Your
head should be a little higher too, though it is pretty well.
The Wiltons are not often accused of that fault." Then,
whistling to his dogs, he left me to my studies.
Whatever may be the difficulty of parental instruction
*
Appellation given to the back country people, who use
long whips with their wagons, which they crack to stimulate
the team.
on a Southern plantation, none is experienced by the
judicious private teacher. Here is no copying of
others, no meretricious ambition from the struggle after
pre-eminence.
"The native heart bursts through, and scorns disguise."
In these far woods, breathing space is given for the
young pulsations of the opening feelings. There may be the
danger of the aristocracy of solitude, but the little
irritations, the paltry rivalry of schools is unknown.
It was not merely in hours of recitation that we were
taught; and I can recollect now, though then perhaps I did
not observe it, that my teacher associated every object with
some elevated motive. I never saw a mind so inwrought with
heaven, and yet he was sportive, and no laugh rang more
clearly than his, awakening the very echo in its joy. He
taught me to be a happy early riser, and pointed out to me
the glories of kindling morning; I gathered and dissected wild
flowers by his side; we watched the stars in their silent
courses together, until I could welcome each like familiar
eyes. Once I shrank from a storm, but he pointed out to
me God's hand issuing in love, not anger, from the
tempest, and I was calmed. He sang with me, taught me to
distinguish what was false in sentiment in my songs, and
by some poetical change brought a pure spirit into this
court of folly; he read to me, and the breathings of the
muse went down into my heart, calling up from unknown
depths new creations of sentiment; he selected tales of
romance, until I could discriminate between the fallacious
and the imitable. Even history in his hands was a medium of
pleasure; he never read to me the fatiguing details of war;
connecting events by interesting associations, and drawing
characters in strong contrasts, or singling them out like so
many pictures, he brought before me warriors and statesmen
in their respective eras, until they stood as living things in
my imagination.
Unable to follow my brothers in their rambling
amusements, we were thrown constantly together, and the
whole aim of his being seemed to be to train me like
some tender plant, and not only to shed sweet dews around
me, and keep every weed from my side, but to prop me
with truth, and preserve my upward tendencies unswerved.
With him I breathed the very atmosphere of piety; the
study of the character and words of the Saviour seemed like
sunshine to his soul - Cornelia, he said, drink deep at this
fountain, it is a well of life.
Two years passed away with the customary change
between Springland and the plantation; Duncan was still
with us, and an addition was formed to our circle by the
daily visits of Lewis Barnwell, a youth of eighteen, and the
son of a neighbour. He had returned from college, for
private reasons, to pursue his studies at home previous to
graduating. He applied to Duncan for instruction, and thus
was an almost constant inmate of our residence.
A change was gradually wrought. If I entered a pleasure-
boat, it was Lewis, not Duncan, who sat at my side; if I rode
with Duncan, Lewis was soon seen galloping through the
avenue, and, without any effort of mine, chatting of
everything at my elbow, while Duncan silently dropped
behind; every question apart from my studies, and every
expression of my thoughts which Duncan had been
accustomed to answer, seemed wrested away from him. At
table, Lewis anticipated every wish and motion as if it were
his right to make me happy, and this
was so gradual that I
scarcely marked the difference. Had I been older I might
have noticed an abstraction of manner steal over my dear
tutor, with sometimes a deeper flush, and sometimes a
sudden paleness on his cheek; I should have observed him
precipitately retreating when Lewis and I jested over the
playful topics of youth, and as precipitately returning, to
notice without mingling in our mirth.
One morning, however, my attention was effectually
drawn to him. As we were standing in the piazza after
breakfast, a servant came from the Elms, Mr. Barnwell's
residence, with a bunch of flowers, with Master Lewis's
compliments to Miss Cornelia. Duncan took them, looked a
moment at the collection; a contortion like one
in deep suffering passed over his face; he turned deadly
pale, and sank on a seat, while the flowers dropped from his
hand. I hastened to him, and Richard brought me some
cologne water, with which I bathed his forehead. He bore it
for a moment, the same expression of suffering again passed
across his countenance, and he said with a stifled voice,
"Take away your hand, for God's sake, Miss Wilton!"
Miss Wilton! Richard and I looked at each other with
surprise.
"He is very ill," said I, innocently, "call mamma" -
but, with an effort, he recovered, saying he had been liable
to sudden faintness when at college, and he thought it was
returning upon him.
"I fear, in my absence of mind," continued he, "that I
spoke harshly to you, my dear Cornelia - shake hands with
me and forgive me."
I gave him my hand; and as it rested a moment in
his, I gazed on him with an affecting presentiment of evil
totally undefinable. Again a shade crossed his expressive
countenance, not so deep, but of the same character as
before; and sighing as if the very fount of feeling were
loosened, he resigned my hand.
I took up the bouquet which had been neglected on the
floor. To a forget-me-not was
attached my name in Lewis's
handwriting. I glanced at Duncan, and blushed intensely,
while he regarded me with a penetrating gaze, from which I
gladly turned away. I hurried to my own apartment, and sat
and mused for some time with the flowers in my hand; and,
though without any fixed impressions, I separated the
forget-me-not from the bouquet,
and placed it in my hair.
How difficult is it for growing age to recall the emotions
of that period of life, when on a look, a word, a touch, may
rest the history of years! What a tale was told by that little
flower, how many feelings unfolded! Lewis joined us in our
evening stroll, and a bright glow lighted up his features as he
recognized the flower in my hair.
The morning after this little development, which after
all, I scarcely understood or dwelt upon, Mr. Duncan
was requested by papa to accompany me in my ride.
"I have never showed you my magnolia," said he;
"the warm spring has developed its blossoms unusually
early. If you will bear a slow ride among the bushes, we
will visit it." I assented; and preceded by Toney, a
little crow-minder who was off duty, and who ran in
front to part the bushes, we commenced our excursion,
scattering the dewdrops at every step. I had entirely
forgotten the excitement of yesterday; and, as we walked
our horses, I poured forth all the thoughts of a happy
confiding heart, while Toney, who was often my attendant
on such excursions, began his task of gallantry, and
gathered flowers for my herbarium.
After a ride of two miles we reached the magnolia.
Mr. Duncan had caused the brushwood to be cleared
from beneath it, and it stood alone, except that a vine had
clung (as they seem to do by magic in our woods) to
one of the outer branches, and, rising and descending
again and again to an incredible distance, formed with
its intertwining arms a giant trunk. The magnolia, the
queen of the Southern forest, stood with her large white
blossoms resting on her polished leaves, sending out afar
her delicious perfume.
"I must have a blossom, Mr. Duncan," said I, as we
alighted, "to remember your tree by."
With one of his bright smiles he went to an opposite
branch where a flower seemed attainable, while I attempted
to draw down another which was above me with my whip.
At this moment I heard Lewis's voice in a gay "good-morning;"
and carelessly turning, at his salutation, while springing to gain
the blossom, I fell with violence to the ground.
My head had struck against a fallen tree, and I was
insensible. In my first consciousness, I uttered the name
of Lewis. I perceived myself lying in the arms of some
one, who gave me a momentary but shivering pressure. I
then felt myself gently placed in the arms of another. I
opened my eyes, Lewis was supporting me, and Mr.
Duncan, pale as a marble statue, leaned against the
magnolia.
"Is Mr. Duncan ill?" I said, as a breeze sweeping
across my brow gave me sudden consciousness.
"He loves you," said Lewis, in an agitated whisper.
"He would willingly die for you. Which of us shall
live for you, dearest?" - and,
with a renewed recollection
of my danger, he pressed his hand on my forehead as if
to assure himself that life was there.
Duncan looked on. It was in vain that he struggled
with his excited spirit; without uttering a word, he stood
until Lewis lifted me to my saddle, and then, heart-struck,
alas! I saw it, I saw it, he turned towards home.
MRS. HALE FROM the day of our visit to the magnolia, Mr.
Duncan's manners were marked by a series of respectful
attentions, and a nice deference to social forms. But while
devoted to every duty, he became a lonely rambler in the
woods, or secluded himself in his study, and a light was
visible in his apartment when the latest member of the
family retired. The bright spot on his cheek grew brighter,
his hands became thin, and we could see their blue veins as
they lay in langour at his side. At length a short restrained
cough followed every exertion; he clung to the balustrade in
ascending the steps, and
looked with an eager eye to a resting-place after his walks,
which were daily more circumscribed. An enemy, which
perhaps answered sympathy would have longer lulled, was
roused, and consumption revelled through his frame.
Sometimes it was exhibited in deep and silent despondency;
sometimes his eye was illuminated with unnatural lustre; and
occasionally his fine intellect jarred with the breaking of his
corporeal powers.
He began to speak of his childhood - of his home, of
the old elm that shaded the sloping hill at his father's door,
and to long for a draught of water from the well beneath its
shade. Then a deadly heaviness and debility came over his
frame, and light fancies floated on his mind. He talked of
the vessel that was to bear him away, and I was to be his
companion.
"Cornelia and he," he said, "would gaze on the
wide ocean together; he would show her God's power on the
deep - he would carry her to his native home, where the
wild flowers sprang up, and the birds were bright as here; his
father's hand should rest on her sunny curls, and he would
love the tenderness in her bright eyes - they would listen to
him in the old meeting-house, where the prayers were purer
and the hymns sweeter than aught in the wide world. He was
not rich, but what were riches to true love? Cornelia and he
could live together beneath his father's roof - the old man
would be kind to them, and his hearth was warm."
Then a change came over him, and he talked of fame.
"They shall hear me," he exclaimed (and his thrilling voice
rang upon my ear, while his arm was stretched forward with
graceful energy). "Think you that strong thought can be
chained? You may restrain a torrent in its course, but mind
will on, on with its master impulse. You think me weak,
Cornelia" (for I was gazing with deep commiseration at his
panting chest); "but you know not what can be done by
will. I will advocate truth - I
will crush error - I
will lift up
the feeble, and bring down the haughty, and to God shall be
the praise."
It was now that mamma's quiet virtues shone beyond the
glare of intellectual accomplishments. She attended
him devotedly; prepared luxuries for his taste; watched his
looks with untiring but delicate assiduity; made every
arrangement for his contemplated voyage; and when I,
melted by unaffected distress, retreated to weep in silence,
she nursed him like the son of her bosom.
Nature was still beautiful to him, and he held his hand
eagerly for the garden bouquet which was my daily gift;
while a smile (it lingers yet like a sunset glow on the
mountain height of memory), a grateful, gentle smile,
lighted up his features, as, with a few murmured words,
unheard by me, he bent his lips over the blossoms.
Lewis was full of kind attentions, and Duncan received
him with a look of welcome; but we observed that it
increased the nervous wandering of his thoughts to see him.
"Father knows the spot where I am to be buried," he said
one day after an interview with him, "just beside my
mother's grave, where the barberry bushes rise over the
stone wall. The graveyard is large enough for us. Just beside
my mother - my mother - my mother," he continued, in
almost a whisper - "what a small hand was this when she
pressed it for the last time - smaller than Cornelia's!" Then
he gazed on his thin hand, until, wearied with thought, his
head reclined on his arm-chair, and he slept.
This excitement yielded to medical aid, and the contrast
of his clear and energetic mind, as his fever subsided, in the
view of his probable death, was singularly affecting.
We removed to the city with him in order to facilitate
his departure home. It was one of our bright May mornings
the day before he sailed, and mamma and I were sitting
beside him. He looked round at the various testimonials
which were collected in his room from our kind
acquaintances - those affecting, spontaneous exhibitions of
hospitality, which almost invariably sooth the sick stranger
in Southern cities, who feels, when far from the domestic
relations which once comforted his desponding moments,
that these slight attentions are the most exquisite
recompense he can receive.
A servant brought a choice collection of flowers from
the garden of a florist - on one of the blossoms was pinned
a note, written with a delicate hand - "A stranger's kind
wishes for the invalid."
Duncan smiled. "This is the way you win our hearts,"
said he; and after gazing for some moments on the flowers,
he continued mournfully, "These are the last
southern
flowers I shall ever see, Mrs. Wilton."
Mamma was silent; I laid my face on the arm of his chair,
and my tears trickled down on his wasted hand. "Be calm,
Cornelia," he said. "I have done little, if I have only
educated you for life. My aim has been higher; but if some
of my teachings have been lost on one so young, I hope
that my death may be an impressive lesson. This composure
of mine has not been attained without a struggle, without
prayer, without the severance of ties that have bound me
with a grasp of iron. But I am calm. The sunshine which
looks so brightly upon us is faint compared with those views
of heaven that break at times on my imagination - these
flowers, fresh and gorgeous, and cultured though they be, are
almost colourless to an eye that looks forward to celestial
bowers. Mrs. Wilton, may I tell Cornelia a story to teach
her not to place her affections too strongly on earth, or, at
least" (and he glanced upward), "to give her a resource if
earth should fail?"
Mamma gently smiled her acquiescence.
"I knew a youth," he said, "whose temperament led
him to extremes; one who, though untiring in energy,
sank under disappointment; if he lost a bird or a flower that
he had trained and loved, he wept passionate tears; and if
thwarted, his will rose in angry defiance. He lost his mother
just at the period when her control was most valuable to
him. He had never been parted from her before, she had
awoke him every morning with her smile and every
evening, though half ashamed at the indulgence, he stole
to her side, laid his head on her knee and felt her gentle
fingers twining his hair, or pressing his sleepy eyelids. She
died; it was his first sorrow, and it cut his soul as the strong
axe of the woodman severs the sapling. He threw himself on
her cold stiffened form, and when that was wrested from
him he tore
up the soil with his young hands, and sought to bury himself
with her. A mind like this required gentle training, but it also
required strong motives to virtue. His father guarded him
with tender yet vigorous care, and watched him as we watch
the pulse of fever, and administer to its wants or check its
excitement. He found that, for such a temperament, a high
and ennobling example must be held up, and a fair and
glorious hope. Earth, Cornelia, affords no spot where such
spirits can rest, it quenches not their thirst - they must
drink at an inexhaustible fountain, or they die.
"The father of the youth pointed out this fountain in
the gospel of Christ, and with dexterous art directed him
how and where to find it. Under these influences, which
levelled his impetuous feelings to their true standard, he
pursued his collegiate studies. Can I call them studies? He
played with the deep things of science as a child wields its
toys; mastered them while others were conning their first
lessons, and bore off honours as easily as the wind carries
clouds. But he was poor; and when his ambitious hopes were
winging their flight to future fame, that cold conviction
came and struck them to the earth. He toiled night and
day for a pittance which the rich man expends on a bawble,
but he toiled in vain; a feverish flame was consuming him; it
would have consumed him quite, had not religious patience
whispered quietness to his excited spirit and burning frame.
Sickness came on, that cloud out of which speaks a voice of
mercy, and he was ordered to a Southern climate; the
climate of generous and tender hearts, my friends (and he
clasped our hands in his). Under the soothing influences of
this change he recovered; his nerves were new strung - he
trod on flowers - hope lighted up his way, and a thought
came over him again, that by high intellectual exertion he
might rise to a level with kindred minds.
"A young pupil was intrusted to him in the fresh
morning of intelligence; blessed with such a growth of
mental luxury that he scarcely knew where to stop in
training her powers, and making them worthy of the form
which enshrined them. Nay, start not, Cornelia; I speak
as a dying man to dying men. I have never before told you
you were beautiful; had your mind been less lovely, your
person, perhaps, would have attracted me more; but your
intellect and your young affections were all to me.
"I had a dream of hope, wild and unfixed I am aware, but
it beguiled me into happiness. I meant to have shut it up in
my own breast, gone abroad into the world, won a place among
men, brought back a name and laid it at your feet, and asked
you of your father; but another came. I saw your eye kindle
for him when it was only kind to me. I saw you blush at his
name when my voice was scarcely heard. I knew these
indications too well; my heart echoed the truth they told at
every throb - for a while I knew them in bitterness of
spirit.
"Think not that I am dying of love," he continued, as
my sobs interrupted his narrative. "The dart of disease was
long since lodged in my system. Had I been in health, my
vaulting ambition for earthly distinction, and those religious
influences which kept it in check, would have enabled my
mind to recover its tone even in witnessing your preference
for another. Now, in the prospect of the grave, I can give
up this precious hand almost without a sigh - my hopes rest
elsewhere."
Duncan sailed on the following day, and it seemed to me
that the world was a wilderness. I lingered on the spot where
I had heard his last words; I visited his apartment, touched
his books with reverent grief, and when I saw passages
marked by his hand, my gushing tears fell in renewed
tenderness.
Many years afterward I visited the northern section of
our country. I saw its glowing orchards, its lofty hills, its
cultivated vales; I enjoyed all that is high and intellectual in
its society; I admired its institutions, supported by
combined generosity, rising in perfect harmony; I beheld
commerce whitening its seas, and agriculture busy with
its soil. I lingered breathless and awestruck before the great
Niagara, and gazed with calmer joy on the placid lakes that
lie like quiet faces on the cultured bosom of New-York; I
stood in the clouds on the summit of the White
Mountains, and gathered flowers in the meadows
below; but when was my heart most thrilled and softened,
when did I feel that all that is gorgeous and lovely on earth
is but a trumpet note that sounds for heaven? It was when,
leaning on the arm of a venerable man, whose gray hair and
trembling step was mocked by the living lustre of a smile,
that spoke of undying mind, I visited he burial-place of
-, and read the inscription,
Progress of Error. DUNCAN'S departure was indeed an impressive lesson,
for I knew that he must die; and this event, more than
any other, served to create the vivid impression which
I have always felt of the close connexion between mortals
and immortality. Perhaps, had I seen the pangs of
dissolution, and witnessed his form laid in its narrow
house, and heard the winds rush over his grave without
chilling his repose, and seen the sun shed down its light
upon it without unclosing those eyes which had so often
sparkled in its rays, I might have dwelt on his materiality;
but from the moment that he pressed my hand in
parting, and gave a last melancholy smile as the carriage
drove from the door, I connected him with heaven. I
said, His mind cannot die.
Early in November we departed for the plantation. Lewis,
who with his family had been residing at Springland through
the summer, hastened from the Elms after our temporary
separation to welcome us. His feelings were touched by the
loss of our friend, and his sympathy made him doubly
welcome. I soon found, however, that the force of Duncan's
example, which had evidently been a check on his manners,
wore away, and occasionally he uttered an oath, or a
sentiment forbidden in the Christian school of love and
purity. The elasticity of sixteen did not conceal from me
that this was wrong; for the principles implanted by Duncan
forbade my contemplating the indulgence of trifling error
with complacency, and his departure made me revert to his
lessons as a sacred gift committed to my care. I observed
with sorrow, that whoever did not reach a certain standard
of taste and fashion, were subjects of Lewis's ridicule;
goodness seemed to him nothing for its own sake; he cared
not for the warmth of the sun without its glare. Generous,
and even lavish in his habits, he was penurious in that
best of all charity that studies the feelings of others. Yet
he was our guest, and commanded my courtesy; and there
was, besides, a fascination about him that won my favour. It
is impossible for a young girl
to see a discriminating man
assume the most deferential deportment to her, while
ridiculing others, without some vanity; and as I trusted that
his heart was right, I enjoyed
his humorous satire, hoping
not to compromise my sense of rectitude by it; and the
bright intellect of Lewis, his playful manners, his devotion
to me, and the sympathy of youth, would probably have
taken my affections captive at once, had not the character
of Duncan, and the peculiar circumstances of his departure,
created for me an elevated standard of manly virtue, and
rather turned the romance of early feeling towards his
memory.
My parents' sincere respect had been awakened by
Duncan's character. How delightful is it to think that
goodness multiplies itself, and that, in the ocean of wrong,
one little point of truth may move circle on circle almost
indefinitely! Papa rejoiced, as all men, even the profligate;
will rejoice, to see his daughter's mind trained to piety;
and mamma, in her faithful attendance on Duncan's
wants, perceived a purer atmosphere created around
her earthly path. New ties were awakened between us, and I
soon found an echo in her heart unknown to me before.
The time was rapidly approaching for Lewis's
return to college: those delicate and frequent attentions,
which tell the tale of the heart, were certainly not without
their power in softening mine, and I lost my sadness
at the thought of Duncan.
One fine afternoon my brothers and myself visited the
Elms in a row-boat, and Lewis returned with us by the light
of the moon, which looked down on the silvery waves of
the Ashley as if refreshed with its own fair image. The
foliage of the trees was pictured like sunken forests of
verdure in the pellucid stream. The call of a night-bird to its
mate, a boat-horn waking the echoes, and the mysterious
talk of solitary nature, were the only sounds abroad, and
these were drowned in the plash of our oars, and the bursts
of laughter from our merry group.
"Come, Juba," said Lewis to the head oarsman, "sing us
a song; the boys*
will help you."
"How you been ax me for sing, Maus Lewis? Me an't got
no voice for sing," answered Juba, who, like many of his
brethren, required as much urging as a city belle.
After delaying until we had almost forgotten our
request, Juba commenced a tune, the oarsmen striking in
with a full but untaught counter at the last word of every
line.
* Boys,
a term used to negroes even of a mature age.
As Juba concluded this verse he paused; a sly expression
passed over his face; he put an additional quid of tobacco in
his mouth, and went on -
The verse was welcomed with shouts of laughter, and
called for again and again, until the echoes of the Ashley
shouted "encore!" but all the solicitations of the young
men were ineffectual with Juba, who looked the
personification of composure.
It is not remarkable that my thoughts should have been
occupied, in a lonely stroll on the following day, with the
subject of Juba's song, nor that I should turn my steps to a
footpath which had been trodden by the negroes from Mr.
Barnwell's residence to ours. Not, of course, to go there, for
it was two miles off, but it was a sweet romantic walk, and
for half the distance branching trees knit by clustering vines
formed a secluded and delicious arbour. I strayed on,
animated by those thoughts and reveries that lift the form
along like a bird's. At one point the scenery was so lovely
that I stopped to gaze on it, and my elastic feelings were
about bursting out into song, when I heard a groan. I started;
it was repeated; I knew from the accompanying ejaculation
that it was from a negro, and, as a planter's daughter fears
none but white men, I hastened to discover the object. I was
surprised, on turning from the path, to find among the
bushes a servant of Mr. Barnwell's disabled.
"What is the matter, Bill?" said I to the boy, who was
about sixteen years of age. He looked sullenly, and gave no
reply.
"Are you hurt?" said I. "Can I do anything for you? I
can go home, or even to Mr. Barnwell's, and get help.
Master Lewis will come to you in a moment."
"Bill no want Maus Lewis," said the boy, bitterly,
shaking his head. "If old
maussa come, bery well, but Maus
Lewis -" I could not distinguish the remainder of the
sentence.
I was perplexed to know what to do, and was turning
homeward, when another groan arrested my attention, and I
saw Bill attempt to rise, in evident pain.
"You are foolish, boy," said I, "not to tell me what
troubles you, and let me call Lewis."
Bill's eyes glared fiercely for a moment, and, turning
down the collar of his jacket, I saw the blood streaming
from his neck, while he uttered through his shut teeth,
"Maus Lewis!"
I started as if a voice of thunder had sounded on my ear.
Papa's and Mr. Barnwell's plantations, like most others at the
South, were regulated with almost military precision. No
punishment was ever inflicted but by an authorized person, and
if he overstepped the boundaries of mercy in his justice, he was
expelled from his authority. From my infancy, I had never seen
a gentleman forget the deportment of a gentleman to our
slaves. Deliberation was the leading trait of papa's character as a
master, though his feelings were in other respects ardent; and he
was never wearied in ascertaining the circumstances of any
case which required it. Slaves are not shut up in prisons, or
made the gaze of an unfeeling public at the bar, but a strict
superintending hand is necessary to maintain that discipline,
without which not even the social hearth can be preserved free
from strife.
I gazed on the boy with commiseration - he might have
been guilty of wrong, but Lewis's was not the hand to
chastise him, and I could not check the mental inquiry, if
one who could yield to his passions with an inferior, would
not be an imperious companion with an equal.
As I stood thus, I saw Lewis approach; he did not
perceive Bill, and advanced gayly. I presume the expression
of my face was unusual. As I looked from him to the boy,
his eyes turned in the same direction, an angry flush kindled
on his face, and for a moment his ratan was lifted as in
threat. Another glance of my eye
changed his expression, and he began the story of his
offense.
No matter what it was - a charm was lost to me - one
of the golden threads that had linked my imagination to the
beautiful and good was snapped asunder, nor was it united
when Lewis, with a look of sorrow, threw from his purse a
pecuniary compensation to the boy.
But youth is full of hope and forgiveness; Lewis was
sorry, Bill as cheerful as before, and it was not many days
ere the former was replaced in my confidence; besides, he
was about to leave us; and though he had never said he loved
me, and my happy temperament cared not for the
declaration, yet I felt that his absence would leave a chasm
in our little circle.
One Sabbath evening, just before his departure, as I was
playing some sacred melodies, he took up a songbook.
"Cornelia, this is a very sacred
air," said he, turning to a
popular song. "I am sure it has elevated my feelings more
than half the psalm-tunes that people sing through their
noses. Do sing it!"
I looked at him with surprise. "Cornelia," continued he,
laughing, "don't look so solemnly. I suppose you would stop
the mouth of the mocking-bird that is singing his every-day
song on the catalpa-tree, because he has not a Sunday tune;
or shut up the flower-cups for dressing too gayly!"
"The birds and flowers have had no
revelation, Lewis,"
said I, "to tell them to reverence the Sabbath."
A look that I scarcely understood, and yet could not but
disapprove, and a short whistle, were his answer.
"Just sing this song for me,
Cornelia," persisted he, "and I
will not ask for another. I am sure it is solemn enough; and
what if it is a love-song, are we not commanded to love one
another?" and he looked at me so earnestly, that I blushed
and knew not what to say, but shook my head
disapprovingly.
"Then play me this overture," urged he, "and I will
give up the song. What can be more sublime than this
opening?" pointing to the notes.
"I cannot play anything, Lewis," said I,
"but what is
consecrated by the original intention of the composer, or
by sacred use. What can you wish for more exquisite than
these pieces of Handel and Haydn, which are not only
perfect in themselves, but have the charm of holy
associations; and what melody is finer than the old English
psalmody? Here are the three tunes mentioned in the
'Cotter's Saturday Night,' which Mr. Duncan loved to hear
on the Sabbath twilight. Shall I sing them
for you?"
"Duncan! for ever Duncan!" said Lewis, in a suppressed
voice. "I wish you had never known that Puritanical
Yankee;" but, seeing me look offended, he continued,
humbly, "You will not play what I wish you to?"
"No, Lewis," I answered, effectually brought to
self-possession by his sarcasm on one so dear to me.
"But, Cornelia," said he, "this
is altogether a matter of
prejudice. One of the most sensible girls, and the most
exquisite singer in -, does not hesitate to sing
and play popular airs on Sunday evening."
"Tell her, then, when you next meet her," said I, rising
and leaving the pianoforte, "that she does not deserve the
gift which God has given her; that the higher her voice rises
in the scale of harmony, the lower sinks her sense of moral
and religious duty. Ask her if it is indeed
too much for one
whom God has endowed with such powers, to devote them
one day in seven to Him? And never dare, Mr. Barnwell, to
use a name so sacred as that of Charles Duncan
disrespectfully in my presence - the name of one" (and my
eyes filled with tears) "who is perhaps now looking on me
from his spiritual throne, anxious to know if his pure
example sustains me in temptation."
It is rarely that a girl of sixteen reproves seriously. A
pretty sullenness, a pettish retort, or a gay badinage are her
weapons; but when the light of a just indignation does dart
from a youthful eye, when with an elevated form, a
kindling glance, a crimson cheek, and a voice half
tremulous, half authoritative, she denounces error,
sages may bend before her.
Lewis felt it was no longer safe to trifle; he knew, as
most men do, when a woman is sincere, and, bidding me
good-night, he retired.
J. R. DRAKE. SIR H. WOTTON. "I HAVE come to bid you good-by," said Lewis, the
second morning after our stormy interview, as, pushing
aside the clustering vines at the window with his riding-whip,
he lightly tapped my shoulder. "Am I forgiven?"
It is a happy part of my temperament to forget offences,
and the severest punishment ever inflicted on me or being
angry at all, is to feel, after the first irritability is over, the
necessity of studying the curve of a courtesy, or the precise
point to which a finger must be extended in shaking hands. I
could never be drilled into these calculations. I have had
preferences, warm ones too, but ice
upon ice in the manners
of others has been necessary, before my innate love of
human beings, as brethren, could be chilled. Old as I am, I
am a novice still
in this. Nor am I sorry; for by this token I feel that
God has given me a heart to love his creatures.
Lewis was the last person in the world against whom I
could have harboured anger; and, as he inserted his
handsome face among the leaves, glowing with exercise, and
kindling with excited sensibility and doubt unusual to him,
and which the little bravado of his manner could not
conceal, he saw at once, by my smile, that he was
forgiven.
"I am afraid to come in till you bid me," said he,
putting his hand before his face boyishly.
His eyes were not so much hidden as to conceal my
extended hand, which he seized, and, leaping through the
window, in a moment was surrounded by our little ones, who
loaded with caresses the absentee of two days.
No shade was left on any brow. Who has not felt the
electric magic of a smile? Delicious good-humour! Bright
gift from Him who giveth sunshine and flowers - blessed
fireside partner - brightest soother of care - most delicate
grace of youth - fair lingerer by the side of serene old
age - I dedicate myself to thee! What though the wrinkle
gathers on my brow, and the chestnut curls of youth are
fading to the gray of gathered years, give me but the
reflected lustre of thy smile, and I shall charm even yet the
eyes that love me!
Lewis lingered; he had been successful in hunting, and he
must stay to taste Maum Nell's cookery of the venison he
brought us; Robert had some new fishing-tackle from
towel, and Lewis must certainly wait to test it; papa was
trimming fruit-trees, and Lewis had lately seen his father's
mode, and must help him; John was to get his opinion of a
new saddle for his mare Jenny; and, lest all these things
should be insufficient to fill his time, Lewis drew from his
pocket the newly-published poem of "The Lady of the
Lake," and offered to read it to mamma and me. He was a
glorious reader, and his eyes helped him on with their full
expression. "The longest summer's day would have seemed
too much in haste," while, with a perfect imbodying of the
author's sentiments in his voice and looks, he read to us this
delicate
inspiration; how then must our winter daylight
have flown! Yet, let the truth be confessed, neither
Malcolm Graeme nor Ellen Douglas prevented our discussing
the venison at dinner, nor our enjoying a dance
after supper, for we possessed the usual plantation luxury
of a fiddler. I do not feel bound to say how many
tunes Diggory played, now how well a few visits to town
had initiated his quick eye and ear into the tunes and
figures of some newly-introduced cotillons. It is amusing
to observe how soon a pretty air is appropriated, in
Charleston by the negroes, by their quick musical organs.
You hear the mason's apprentice whistle it as he handles
his trowel, the chimney-sweep sings it between his
technical cry, the nurse warbles it forth to her charge, and,
almost before you know it yourself, you hear it trilling
from the lips of your dressing-maid.
Mamma was dragged from her seat like a martyr by
one of the boys, and I, as usual, was Lewis's partner.
Diggory's air of importance was exceedingly ludicrous;
his whole identity seemed changed by the stroke of his
fiddle. Poor mamma had never been much of a dancer;
all her early associations were connected with the minuet
and contra-dance; and when Diggory called out,
with the voice of a Stentor,
"Fore and back two, ole missis - ladies change -
turn you partiner at de corner - shasha all round," she
was nearly beside herself; while Diggory, sometimes
stopping short and rolling up his white eyes, exclaimed,
"My lor! my ole missis spile eberyting!"
Diggory, alas! in his musical science and dancing
oratory was but a specimen of our city ball-room
performers. Unacquainted with the science of music, though
gifted with decided natural powers, they play antics with
the "high heaven of sound," while sawing violins, harsh
clarinets, jingling tambarines, crashing triangles, with
the occasional climax of a base
drum, make up in quantity
what is deficient in quality; and then, overtopping
even that climax, comes the shout of a voice with the
negro dialect, calling out the figures, which, to a stranger,
makes "confusion worse confounded." The South
is certainly far, far behind the civilized world in music
of this character, and there seems little hope of a remedy.
But, fortunately, youth is not critical anywhere, and
we were not critical at Roseland. Diggory's fiddle, like
the horn of Oberon, was a potent spell to set us in motion;
and as for his harmony, we knew not the folly of
being too wise, nor cared for the luxurious adaptation to
modulated sound, gliding
"Softly sweet in Lydian measure."
Our dancing was all spring and impulse, like the step
of childhood when it chases butterflies to the piping of
fresh winds.
"I shall leave the Elms to-morrow," said Lewis in a
low tone to me, when we had "tired each other down."
"Get your cloak and walk with me in the piazza; do, Cornelia."
I appealed to mamma, who consented, inserting another
pin in my cloak, and wondering that we could leave
the bright lightwood blaze on the hearth for the cold
moonlight. She was sure papa and herself would not
be such fools.
The night was beautiful, and the waning moon revealed
the "lesser glories." They brought Duncan to
my thoughts, and my lips spake from the fulness of my
heart.
"I am not surprised, Lewis," I said,
"that the ancients
should have imbodied the stars in forms of life. I could
weave an image of Charles Duncan with every constellation.
The diamond which helps to form Delphinus reminds
me of his beautifully-proportioned character; Sagitta
of his thoughts, which flew like bright arrows to
every mind; the Crux of the elevated faith which lay
along and illuminated his path, like that on the Galaxy;
and Corona of the glowing crown which ought in life and
in death to encircle his noble brow."
An impatient motion from Lewis checked me, and I
looked at him for his meaning.
"I did not come to prate about the stars, Miss Wilton,"
said he, bitterly. "I must soon leave you, and they
will be all darkness to me; but you," continued he,
sarcastically, "will be comforted in their beams, for Charles
Duncan is their hero."
"Unkind Lewis," said I; but, wishing to sooth him, I
added, "Suppose I make you the head of my system; 'there
is a glory of the sun' as well
as of the moon and stars."
"I am not in the mood for trifling, Cornelia,"
interrupted he, impetuously. "I asked for a few moments'
intercourse with you, to lay before you the collected love of
my early years. I know we are young, but I am going from
you. You will visit Charleston, and a thousand fools will
linger near you, and catch your smile, and listen to your
voice, while I am distant and unremembered. I wished to tell
you, that from the first moment of our childish frolics to
the present time, you have been my heart's choice; and to
offer you that heart in its truest devotion; but no; your
form is near me, it is true; but, though you know that this is
your last interview with me for months, perhaps for ever,
you gaze on the stars and sigh for Charles Duncan."
I was puzzled for a reply; half frightened with the
abruptness of the declaration, and the unreasonableness of
his views, I knew not what to say, and fairly laughed
outright. He became furious; called me coquettish, heartless,
and many names that love should not even know how to
spell.
"What do you require of me, Lewis?" said I, anxiously.
"Your whole soul," was his answer. "My day-thought and
night-dream will be only of you, and I demand the same
returns. I will not accept a love
doled out of the heart's
treasury like gold from the purse of the miser. True
affection knows no meum
and tuum;
it is poured forth like a
flood from two souls, and those two become one. But I am a
fool to frighten you with my vehemence. I will be more
gentle. I will sue you as the south wind courts the flowers. I
will be as gentle as Charles Duncan, if you will only promise
to keep your heart until my return, if you do not give it to
me."
"You have done well for me, Lewis," said I, "to repeat
that name; it is a talisman. Mr. Duncan, who studied my
temperament, often warned me never to connect myself
either in friendship or love with one who knew not
self-control. Stormy passions terrify me.
Besides, I do not deserve
the language you have used to me. I love Charles Duncan as
I love my own brothers - no farther."
"But he has biased you," said Lewis, moodily; "you
confess it;" and he drew his arm away from mine rudely.
"He never breathed your name disrespectfully,"
answered I, warmly; "he was too high-souled for that."
"If it is true, then, that you do not
love Charles Duncan,"
said he, throwing himself on his knees before me, his eyes
flashing with emotion, his teeth shut, and his breast
heaving, "swear to me that you will enter into no
engagement with him or others until my return. You will
never break a vow. Swear it to me, in mercy, Cornelia."
"I will not make such a vow," said I, resolutely,
withdrawing the hands he was clasping in his; "my heart is
not to be taken by storm; and as for swearing, I have been
taught by too gentle a master."
"Curse him! curse him!" muttered Lewis, with the
bitter gush of overwrought passion. I started from his side
with a scream of terror, ran though the piazza as if pursued
by a fiend, burst open the door, and threw myself weeping
into mamma's arms. The next day I heard that Lewis was
gone.
WORDSWORTH'S Excursion. LET me pause to bestow a parting notice on one who
is still associated with the happiest and tenderest scenes
of my youth. Jacque's labours, as is customary with
aged slaves, had been gradually suspended. He still
performed a few voluntary duties, and might be seen on
sunshiny days, propping a failing fence, clearing an
encumbered hedge, drying nets, making baskets of rushes
or oak, attending to his pigs and poultry, or, with a
characteristic eye to his master's interests, tottering to the
fields, and shaking his head if he detected any symptom
of waste. Still retaining a feeling of authority, he was
angered by idleness; even the young negroes, whose greatest
toil was to turn somersets, and dance to their own whistling,
tried to look busy or grave when his eye was on them, long
after his corporeal and mental powers had ceased their
activity. But the time drew near when old Jacque must die. It
was in vain that mamma gave him her personal attendance, sent
him daily luxuries, and anticipated his wants with almost
filial tenderness; the golden cord of his life was loosened,
and we were told one morning that he had died, breathing
a prayer for his master's family.
Mamma had asked him, many years before, if there was
anything she could do for his comfort.
"Tank you much, my missis," he answered; "Jacque hab everyting
him want in dis world, 'cept he shroud, praise God."
Mamma gave him money, and he expended it on
grave-clothes. He had taken them out and aired them from
year to year; now they were indeed to enfold his venerable
remains; and we were a mourning family; true, we were not
clad in weeds, but a tender tie had been riven, and it was
riven with tears. None but those who live under our peculiar
institutions can imagine the strong bond existing between
faithful servants and the families with whom they are connected.
I was informed by Maum Nanny, Jacque's sister, that he had
left something for me in the sill
of his chest as his dying
bequest. An old pocketbook was found there, which I opened,
and discovered several bills of continental money carefully
wrapped in paper. *
Plantation negroes prefer to bury their dead at night
or before sunrise. Neighbouring plantations are notified,
and all who can obtain tickets from overseers attend. A spot of
ground is allotted for their burial-place, and simple monuments
of affection may usually be found in them. The ceremony of
interment is commonly performed by a class-leader, a pious
coloured man, who is the spiritual teacher of the neighbourhood,
and prepares his brethren by an examination into their belief, and a
watch over their conduct and feelings, for communion.
The "pomp and circumstance" of the burial, for it is not
less among slaves, in proportion, than in palaces, delayed the
funeral until midnight. As the visitors assembled, they crowded
the hut of the deceased, and when that was full, stood around
the entrance near the coffin. At short intervals some among the
group commenced a hymn, in which all joined; refreshments were
then decorously distributed.
**
The death of Jacque was particularly affecting to me,
* It may
scarcely be necessary to repeat that this incident and others
in the Southren Matron, like those in the Northern
Housekeeper, are
founded in truth.
for I had been his especial favourite. I went with the boys
to see him after his decease; and though I did not feel the
faintness which came over me at witnessing the remains
of grandmamma, yet I had that dizzy sensation which
youth often experiences at the immense difference
between a bright intellectual glance and the glazed eye or
moveless lid, between the warm touch of affection and
the stiff, cold hand that returns no pressure.
The night of his interment was mild, and I sat at my
window by the starlight, watching the approach of the
negroes as they crossed the fields or came through the
avenue. Torches were seen glowing in the range of
whitewashed huts, and a bush-light
* was flaming near
Jacque's habitation, which was so brilliant that I perceived
the coffin and the groups gathering round it; while
occasionally strains of their hymn came floating with a
softened cadence on the breeze. The procession was
formed; six women, dressed in white, preceded the coffin,
and the pall-bearers, bearing torches, were on each side.
Their path lay near the house, and nothing was to be heard
but an occasional ejaculation of "Lord Jesus!" "He knows!"
"God have mercy!" "His will be done!"
The burial-place was near the river, and a huge oak threw
its arms over it as if protecting the dwelling of the dead. I
could see them as they wound down the slope and stood in a
circle round the grave, distance still softening their sacred
song. It was one which I had heard from infancy in their
devotional exercises, but never had it touched my feelings
as now, when it rose over poor Jacque's last dwelling-place.
The leader spoke, at first his voice was low, then rising to
that declamatory shout which often carries the feelings
captive, it reached me where I sat. He described the tomb of
Lazarus, and said that Jesus wept, and that they might weep,
for a good brother was gone, and there was no Jesus by his
grave to bring him back; he dwelt on the character of
Jacque, and on their duty in imitating his example; told
*
A fire of light wood kindled on a small mound of earth.
them to be grateful for their religious blessings, for,
while the heathen were in darkness, a great light had
shone upon them, dwelt long on their sinfulness and
God's anger, and taxed his imagination to paint the
torments of hell unless they repented and accepted the
Gospel.
Familiars with his dialect prevented with me all that
might have been ludicrous to a stranger, He prayed for the
master and mistress, that God might reward them for all
their goodness to brother Jacque. "Oh Lord Jesus," he
cried, "bless my young maussas. Gie 'em good counsel,
and let 'em drink of de water of life, and bless my
young missis; may she know de Lord dat bought her, and
may she bring her alabaster box of ointment and pour
it out for the love of her maussa, Christ."
As these words reached me, I could not restrain my tears,
I laid my head on the window-sill and sobbed aloud. Another
hymn was sung. The words of Watts, the sweet singer of
the Christian Israel, whose tender notes fall like gentle
dew on the heart of monarch and slave, rose in the quiet
midnight under that starry heaven.
As they ceased, the waving lights passed away. I was again
alone with night in its silent beauty. I threw myself on my
bed, the sounds still vibrating on my memory; and, as my
eyes closed in sleep, a vision of the mansion whither the
spirit of Jacque had risen came before me, and I heard cherub
voices welcome him to his heavenly home.
A plain marble slab may be seen at Roseland, on which is
inscribed,
*
A similar monument is on a plantation a few miles from
Charleston. - See note at end of the volume.
WORDSWORTH. ONE would have thought, by the lathering
and scrubbing on Sunday mornings at Roseland,
that we were labourers through the week, and
had but this holyday. All the little ones came
forth from their ablutions with wry faces and
blue noses, looking like anything rather than
tranquil young Christians; and mamma had that
stiff air which a determination to keep new
clothes for Sunday is apt to produce. She was
frequently belated, for the church was eight
miles distant, and it really was an effort to get
children, servants, horses and carriages ready for
such a drive. We suffered a country inconvenience
with regard to clothes. Mamma's new bonnet, on its
arrival from the city, was liable to contract,
and stand upon the top of her head like a funnel;
or little Ben, our hero of six years, was
squeezed into a new jacket, every button of which
remonstrated; or papa's boots would give an unaccountable
pinch on his corns, though the pattern sent to town
was of ample dimensions. But these incidents were not
always occurring. Often did mamma's bonnet fit, and
Ben's little fat figure roll on in easy rotundity, and
papa's face beam out a cornless smile, and the little
race of Wiltons, with their plump, mottled bare arms
and necks, and curling hair, and unfretted cleanliness,
come tottling down from their
baths the very pictures
of happy childhood; while the babe, Patsey, looked
redolent of smiles, spite of the pink satin
hat and the three rows of lace which lay with its
checkered shade on her soft brow, confining her one
thin lock of silky brown hair, and spite of her satin-lined
cloak fettering her dimpled feet as they played a tattoo
against her nurse's ribs.
Mamma, when she could find time, madame, when she
could find inclination, Mr. Duncan and I or the other
children, usually occupied the carriage; my brothers rode
their own horses, while papa preferred a little buggie, in
which he could cross and reconnoitre two or three fields on
his way.
Many of these drives Mr. Duncan and I had taken alone.
He told me that not on one mountain only is God
worshipped in spirit and in truth, but that the woods and
skies are a temple, in which, as in earthly fanes, we may
commune with the Deity, and I soon realized this truth.
Nature seemed more still on the Sabbath than at other times
in our lone and lofty forests; the birds checked their
chattering joy, and poured out hymns of praise; the woods
waved in calmer reverence, and there was a hush of
solemnity in the floating clouds, as they canopied the
throne of the Invisible.
Nor were these emotions disturbed by the view of our
country church. It rose in simple architecture, discovered by
its white walls amid the clustering green; and though it was
sometimes thought that a sufficient care was not taken to
prune the wild growth around it, particularly in the
graveyard, where affection could scarcely read the record of
its love, yet the wildness of the spot seemed to me to suit
the mood of revery which falls on the thoughtful rambler
amid forest graves. The burial-place was not large, for most
plantations have their own; but it was capacious enough
to tell the usual tale of infancy withered in its early bud,
of manhood cut down in its prime, and of old age seeking
its last repose. The birds, scarcely restrained by winter,
poured out their songs over the dead; the gray moss hung
floating from the falling walls; rose-bushes, unchecked
and untrained, waved in the winds; and a
tame deer, which no one claimed, resorted thither, loving
the Sabbath communion of human
beings. It was a simple scene, and where was its charm?
I have heard that those who have crossed the ocean, and
seen the tombs of buried intellect in England's great
metropolis, and gazed on the ruins of fallen greatness in
luxurious Italy, and pondered on the Eastern Pyramids
towering over a handful of dust, in the midst of the lofty
speculations incident in such scenes, would revert to the
place of their early worship, and the thought of it would
come like the gushing of a cool stream over the soul. What
is this charm? Answer, simple, untaught Nature, for the
voice can only rise from thee!
But, with all this sensibility to external objects, I had
listened to the ritual and preaching of this church almost
untouched; for our minister, and may God forgive him, was
cold himself, unkindled with that sense of his high vocation
which lends ardour to prayer and power to exhortation.
How could his audience feel zeal in services where they saw
no heart? It is praise to them that they performed their
duty. How could he expect the soul to hover on the lips of
his hearers when reading a prayer in a style which a
schoolboy would be corrected for using?
And can a clergyman, indeed, become cold under an
office of mediation between God and man? Can he enter
the sacred desk unprepared, stammering, and absent, who
has to plead a cause high as heaven, wide as eternity? I
know not but I might, as a fallible being, become chilled by
repetition; but I feel that, were I a man placed under the
wide responsibility of guiding souls, and choosing that
sacred position in society, I would cultivate every power;
even external attractions should not be beyond my care; I
would make pure eloquence my study, that the voice God
gave me might call his children to know him; I would
cultivate personal purity and grace, that men might be
attracted by God's image; I would plead with them as a
hungry man pleads for nourishment, and pray with them as
myself expecting to share their doom. I would be ingenious
in plans to draw them to heaven.
Our pastor was one of whom it is said, Oh, he is not a
fine preacher, but he is a good man! Perverted term - when
given to one dragging a paralyzed mind. The atmosphere of
religion is materially affected by these sleepy heirs of ten
talents, who should be working up the whole to all possible
perfection. Yet when, on opening his sermon, our pastor
would sometimes find a leaf of his well-tumbled discourse
missing; when he even mistook the order of services; when
an ill-written word was slurred over with a cough, it was still
said, "Our minister means well,
he is only careless."
Careless! a minister of the gospel careless! Then may
Gabriel be careless, as he stands with veiled face to receive
the orders of his king.
Alas for our poor little church. Prayer was offered up
with cold monotony. Our singing was reduced to the fine
squeak of an old lady, who would utterly have failed but for
the aid of a few ancient negroes, whose ear was more true
than hers. The number of gentlemen around the church
until the commencement of the sermon was greater than
the occupants of the pews within, and the subjects of
conversation were of the most worldly nature. It seemed to
me that old Mr. Guildstreet always kept his best joke for
the last, and its effects were seen on the partially-composed
features of the gentlemen as they entered, just before the
giving out of the text. John once asked a searching
question - "Papa, are the church prayers only made for
ladies and children?"
"Oh, no, my son," said papa, and I saw a reverential
shade of thought steal over his brow; "men
feel the need
of prayer."
There was probably more excuse for these worldly
discussions at our country church than elsewhere. Good
friends were parted for a long summer, and amid winter
business met but seldom. Tying their horses under a
sheltering tree, they began with the compliments of the
day; then followed an inevitable comparison of the state of
crops, then a discussion of public news, and he was the most
sought who had seen the last newspaper; again the great
agricultural interests of the country were brought forward,
until every man approached nearer his neighbour's
button, when the last strain of the hymn reminded
them that something else was going on, and they entered
with whispering answers or remarks almost on the floor of
God's temple. The deportment of the ladies was generally
different. They preserved a serious air on entering church
and throughout the service. After the blessing was
pronounced began their exchange.
I do not speak of this in
blame. It is a part of the social intercourse of Southern life,
necessarily arising from our widely separated estates; it
preserves us from coldness, and I am glad of an opportunity
of stating this, as strangers have frequently complained of
our habit of conversing after church. Ladies from the
Northern States bow almost with solemnity to a near
neighbour, and retire, while Southern ones, with a cordial
shake of the hand, testify their pleasure at the interview. I
have sometimes said to myself in a New-England church, Can
these Christians love one another?
So different are the
impressions produced on the two parties, that we here think it
cold-hearted not to greet each other with expressions of
cordial interest.
I cannot well extend the same excuse to the gentlemen
who encroached, at the period of which I am speaking, on
the short hour of religious service; they may meet often or
earlier; and even when the pressure of pecuniary or political
interests calls for communication on the Sabbath, let them
pause when those services commence, which, if worth
anything at all, are worth ten minutes of preparatory
prayer.
Such was our country church;
but a brighter
chapter remains to be unfolded; prayers soon arose, on
which the young wing of devotion poised itself for
heaven; hymns, where the music of the heart and voice
struggled in harmony; and exhortations, which, while
they warned us of the consequences of neglect, taught
us our glorious destination, and bade us faithfully
prepare for it.
MRS. HEMANS' Siege of
Valencia In January I was to leave my country home for the city,
my beautiful home, which rose in solitude like a white bird
amid the green forests. Papa was at infinite pains to
justify the name of Roseland. It was his delight to bring
strangers from the town to visit us; and, without describing
the place, drive them through the pine woods; then enter
the avenue where the Cherokee hedge shut out the view,
then, by a sudden turn, bring Roseland before them; and
here Thomson might have perceived, at midwinter,
perhaps with more truth than in an English spring,
"A shower of roses on our plains descend."
They formed a carpet beneath, bowers above; the most
common hedge and fence was enlivened by them; and in a
sunny winter morning there was a bright, airy freshness
about their pink leaves, for frost gives additional vigour to
this lovely flower, and deepens its hue. Mamma and I kept
up the character of the place within doors. Vases of roses
were placed in the bedrooms, and a few strewn over the
pillows of strangers.
A little sentimentality lingered in my heart connected
with Lewis, but it will easily be discerned that my preference
for him had arisen rather from the sympathy of youthful
tastes, than that deep-rooted feeling which outlasts
change and absence. I learned by letters to our friends at
the Elms that he too was undergoing the same curative
process, and regaining his heart's freedom; and
let not my romantic readers be shocked, but think whether
the actual experience of life does not agree with these
fluctuating impressions of early youth.
My brothers had entered college, and papa was visiting his
planting interest on Edisto, when mamma and I were aroused
one evening from a game of chess by the cry of fire. This
sound, so dreadful in a populous place, is fearfully appalling
in the country, where the willing though inexperienced
negroes are our only assistants. We rushed to the piazza
door, and strained our eyes through the darkness. Nothing
was to be seen but the graceful wave of the trees, and the
stars looking down in their nightly walks above; but soon the
glossy branches of an orange-tree shone with a sudden glare,
and the flame burst from the servants' hall, a room on the
back piazza.
The people came running from their houses in every
direction. Their first thought was of our children; mamma
had already darted to their rooms, and they came around us
wringing their hands in sudden fright and wonder at the
scene. With a kind of instinct, we rescued papa's papers and
valuables, aided by the servants, some of them showing a
presence of mind which seems to belong more to character
than station; most of them, however, being paralyzed by
fright.
The back part of the building was now entirely in
flames; they rushed like devouring monsters, and mamma
and I retreated from the increasing heat.
A sudden thought struck me. The portraits of my
grandparents had not been preserved; and it seemed to me as
if dear friends were consuming.
"Oh, Hector," I cried to the driver, "you know where
the large pictures are in the hall; the beams have caught at
the piazza door, but you can force the windows - save them,
my good fellows, for your master's sake."
"Ay, ay," shouted the men, "we fetch ole maussa and
ole missis. Don't cry, Miss Neely," and they hurried
through the piazza.
How many reflections crowded through my mind as they
disappeared! My youthful sports; the hours I had passed
with Charles Duncan; my parting with Lewis;
my father's fond attachment to this residence; my
brothers' grief; all rose in rapid succession.
At this moment a horseman rode up the avenue at full
speed, attended by a servant. He saw our group by the
flames, and, leaping on the ground, offered his assistance.
Mamma was engaged in soothing the children, and I, looking
at the building, shook my head in hopelessness, as the ruin
spread far and wide. A moving object arrested my
attention, waving its arms at an upper window illuminated
by the flames; and, as a portion of the roof fell
with a crash, I fancied I heard a scream. Darkness settled for
a moment over the building; and then a fresh light looming
up revealed the figure again. It was old Nanny, Jacque's
sister. It seemed to me like a nightmare, as she stood tossing
her thin arms wildly in the flames, her dark form in contrast
with the lurid light. A momentary faintness came over me at
the thought of a fellow-creature perishing thus before my
gaze. It passed away, and I felt a frantic desire for her
safety. "I can go," I cried - "I know the passage; one way
yet remains. For Heaven's sake, let me go. I will perish
rather than see her die."
"I will save her," said the stranger, in a voice whose
low, equal tones came with a singular power over my
feelings. "Explain to me in a few words the situation of
the apartment." I did so.
"Ned, give me the hatchet and follow," said he to his
servant.
As he departed, Hector and the men arrived with the
portraits. They seemed a presage of good. I kissed the
inanimate faces as if they could recognise my tenderness;
and it seemed to me that, with a pitying melancholy, their
eyes were turned to the ruin of their early love.
But for a moment, however, could I dwell on them. Life,
human life, is the fibre running through God's creation with
supreme power; that poor, struggling being, tottering on
the edge of natural decay, without ties of
consanguinity - my father's slave - that helpless being was
more to me at that moment than worlds at my feet. She
was human, and she lived. The stranger had disappeared.
but there she stood, her shrivelled form expanded with
terror, her dim eyes dilated, and her broken voice uttering
the piercing shriek of desperate agony. In my dreams I
sometimes see that figure still.
My brain whirled with intense expectation. I heard
another crash of falling timbers, and she was gone! I hid
my face in horror, but a voice, the calm voice of the
stranger, thrilling and elevated with emotion, was heard,
"Safe, safe, by Heaven! Forward, Ned!" and they appeared
bearing the exhausted form of the old woman, and laid
her on the bank where we stood.
The eyes of the portraits seemed now turned on
their rescued old attendant, and opening her own, a wild
expression crossed them, as she encountered those
familiar faces of manly and feminine beauty. She rose
slowly from the bank, then made a low obeisance before
them, and, turning to the burning building from which she
had been borne, fell on her knees in prayer and wept.
And my beautiful home was a ruin! The flames
leaped from point to point like fiery serpents; the wide
amphitheatre of woods was tinged with the glow, the Ashley
mirrored the flaming pile; and the stars seemed to shrink far
back in their darkened concave. All now was as a dream to
me; true, I heard the stranger's quiet tones giving directions
suited to the emergency, and I felt that a form of no
common elegance, and a face of sweet and serene
expression was near. I heard mamma's soothing voice
addressing the servants and children, and my baby-sister's
joyful shout in her nurse's arms, at the brilliant toy of her
burning home; but my thoughts were all garnered up in that
one image, the scene of my childhood. I was aroused by the
arrival of our friends from the Elms, with offers of
assistance. Amid their sympathy and congratulations at our
escape, the stranger rode unthanked away.
How often afterward did I gaze through crowds in the
hope of being recognized by him, offering those thanks
that lay like a hidden treasure, kept for him in the depths of
my soul!
SIR PATRICK SPENCE. - Old
Ballad. The Rime of the Ancient
Mariner. MISFORTUNE is not required to develop kind
neighbourhood at the South. A system of attentions is
going on in prosperity so tranquilly, that, when adverse
circumstances befall one, no surprise is excited at a great
benefit. Not a day had passed for years without some
friendly act between the Elms and Roseland. The question
was not asked, Have they this preserve, or that flower?
would they like to read this book, or copy that pattern? But
the preserve or the flower, the book or the pattern, were
sent as testimonials of goodwill. Remembrance was our
simple watchword.
The Elms was to us now as another home. Lewis's
temporary estrangement had caused no coldness, for we had
so long regarded each other in our sports and quarrels as
children, that we were still thought of in the same light by
our respective families.
On the evening after the burning of Roseland,
brother
Ben and I visited the ruins. The sun had not set, and the
labourers, retiring from their tasks, stopped to speak to
me. We soon formed a group by the still smoking walls;
while a shake of the head, or an ejaculation with upraised
eye, testified their sympathy with me, and their
acknowledgment of the Power who holds the elements in
his hand.
I must ask indulgence of general readers for mingling
so much of the peculiarities of negroes with my details.
Surrounded with them from infancy, they form a part of
the landscape of a Southern woman's life;
take them away, and the picture would lose half its reality.
They watch our cradles; they are the companions of our
sports; it is they who aid our bridal decorations, and they
wrap us in our shrouds.
"Miss Neely," said the driver, approaching me with an
air of solemnity, "you been hear sister Nelly dream?"
"No, Hector," I answered; "what was it?"
"He berry awful for true," said Hector, and his voice fell to
the key of mystery. "When sister Nelly put Maus Ben to bed
de night o' de fire, Maus Ben ax 'em for sing one hymn for 'em,
cause he eye clean;
*
den sister Nelly begin for sing till Maus
Ben and him fell asleep, all
two.**
Den sister Nelly dream dat
de devil was stand on de edge o' de big hominy-pot, and stir
de hominy wid he pitchfork; and while he stir de hominy, and
sister Nelly right scare, he stare at she wid he red eye like fire,
and he wisk he tail, and fire run roun he tail like it run roun one
dry pine-tree."
Hector had scarcely concluded when an old woman
claimed my attention. She had been sitting on a charred log,
her hoe laid by her side, her elbows resting on her knees, and
her body rocking to and fro; but, when Hector paused, she
stood up, and, courtesying with a very dismal tone and
seesaw motion, said -
"He no for notting, my young missis, dat one screech-owl
been screech on de oak by Dinah house tree
night last week.
When he didn't done screech, Plato took
one lightwood torch, and light 'em, and fling 'em into
de tree, and den he gone. We all say someting gwine
happen!"
"Miss Neely," said a lad, bustling up with great
importance, "if dat dog Growler" (pointing to him)
"an't
got sense! All night before de fire he been creep roun and
roun wid he tail between he leg, and look up to
maussa house, and gie such a howl, ki! how he howl! and I say
to marmy, 'Someting bad gwine for happen, marmy,
sure!'"
As the boy spoke, I observed the hair on the crown of
his head tied closely up to a piece of stick an inch long, so
that his mouth and eyes stood almost ajar.
"Why is your hair tied so tight, Bob?" said I;
"it makes
your eyes stare."
His mother, who was near, came up and answered for
him.
"Him palate down, Miss Neely. He catch one cold at
de fire, and I been tie he hair up for fetch up he palate.
Make your manners to Miss Neely, Bobby, son."
The communication of the negroes was interrupted,
for papa was discovered coming up the avenue. I hastened
to meet him; a look of apprehension wrought on his features,
as, alighting, and glancing at the ruins, he
pressed forward with a struggling whisper - "Your mother? -
the children?"
"Safe, papa, all safe!"
"God be thanked!" he exclaimed; and, leaning
against the fence, he shaded his eyes with his hands. I
did not interrupt him. His strong and ardent mind was
realizing its dependence. God was receiving the tribute
which, sooner or later, awaits his power from every heart.
When he raised his head, tears were in his eyes. He took
me fondly in his arms, kissed me again and again, called
me his own, his blessed one, and then proceeded with me to
the ruin. The sun was throwing his last bright rays over the
blackened walls; to some it might have seemed in mockery
of the desolation; but, as they fell on papa's face, lighting up
its look of tenderness and gratitude, I felt as if Nature was
welcoming him still.
"Hector," said papa, extending his hand to him,
after I had rapidly sketched the events of the conflagration,
"Cornelia tells me you were a brave fellow. I must reward
you for saving the portraits."
"Ay, ay, maussa," said Hector, respectfully touching his
hat, "bless God for all his mercy. Please de Lord, while
nigger have hand for work, ole maussa and ole missis an't
gwine for burn up."
The next morning was the Sabbath, and we prepared for
church. Accidental circumstances had prevented my
attending for several Sundays; and though I had heard of a
change in our preaching, I had not given much thought to
the subject. Service had commenced on our arrival, and I
perceived no scattered individuals, as usual, outside. Even
Mr. Guildstreet had retired. On entering the church, I heard
some one reading the liturgy in tones of singular sensibility.
He seemed pleading for some good which earth could
not bestow. An attitude of devotion prevailed throughout
the congregation; and, for the first time, excited by gratitude
and kindled by sympathy, my heart went up fully with
public prayer. But my devotional thoughts were suddenly
startled by a voice in the pew behind me, repealing the
responses; it was low, but I could not mistake it. I had heard
it under circumstances too exciting to be lost to my memory.
It was the voice of the daring, generous stranger. I should
have recognised it amid a multitude. "Now!" thought I, with
a glow all about my heart, "I shall have an opportunity to
thank him!" but not for worlds could I have turned towards him.
A hymn was given out, and I was recalled to my higher
duties. There was a pause of a moment, until a sweet female
voice commenced the tune, trembling but with true
harmony. Like a leading bird, it fluttered a while alone; then
came gathering voices, sustaining and surrounding its upward
flight, until the church was filled with melody.
The concert of our lips ceased, but we felt a sacred joy in
the depths of our souls. The speaker arose to read from
Scripture. Was it really the same volume to
which I had been so often a weary listener? There was life
in every word; and, as I saw the speaker turn his eyes on me,
on me, I felt a new and living interest. Why is that
expressive organ so often denied its legitimate power in the
pulpit? One glance which says, "I am addressing
you, you
are the being to whom God sends his message," makes doubly
touching an illustrated truth.
Again the congregation united in petition and praise, and the
preacher began his discourse with animated solemnity. His
voice would have been too powerful had it not been for the
variation of its cadence; and his manner might have been
thought overwrought, had not a native modesty, a face of
most benignant expression, and a simplicity of style fitted
to the unlearned by its clearness, softened their enthusiasm.
It was not the gathered inhabitants of a few plantations he
seemed addressing, one would have thought, from his
earnestness, that the world was his audience. He stood soul
to soul with his hearers, and rested not until he felt his
victory.
I had forgotten the stranger while my heart was struggling
with this thought, "What shall I
do to be saved?" Holy
resolutions were bursting like unsealed fountains within me;
and, with a gush of joy, I raised in that sanctuary a new altar,
and wrote upon it, Holiness to the Lord!
But man was made for mingled sympathies; inspiring and
lovely as these were, they were soon interrupted. Who has
not felt the power of the ocean, leaping in its giant might,
and been touched by all that is beautiful and bright in the
sunshine on its waters, and fancied a living language in the
clouds rising and rolling like another sea above? Yet, in this
princely display of Nature, when the mind seems not to
belong to earth, let a little skiff approach on that broad
expanse, with one human being, and a train of associations
come rushing around him, concentrating themselves in him,
and the vast and beautiful are for a time forgotten. Thus
were my thoughts won back to earth, when the voice of the
stranger in the closing hymn sounded on my ear, and my
grateful heart again began to frame words expressive of
its feelings. The service was concluded, and I turned,
modesty struggling with enthusiasm. There he stood, calm
and graceful, the same! I felt a
glow rush over my face, my
eyes met his fully, and I was about to address him, when a
glance told me that I was not recognized! I shrank back
with a sense of mortification even painful, as, with a bow of
graceful acknowledgment to the occupants of the pew, he
quietly retired.
"Who is that?" at
length said I, in a whisper, to Bell
Wilson, my neighbour, as he disappeared.
"I cannot say, Cornelia," was her reply.
"Papa saw a
stranger at the porch, and asked him to our pew. He is a
handsome fellow!"
I did not join in her admiration. I was offended, I knew
not why; and went pouting into the chair with papa
with an air of uncommon dignity.
ROGERS' Italy. SIR WALTER SCOTT. MY frowns were quite unnoticed by papa, who
solaced himself for my silence by singing St. Martin's. This
is one joy of the woods; freedom to sing or shout in the
overflow of feeling, or even in the glory of vacuity. It was
not for me at my age to muse long; my head was too full of
the young hero.
"Papa," said I, "did you see that
stranger at church?"
"Yes, my love," he answered, resuming
an interrupted strain
of St. Martin's.
"Did you not think him handsome?" said I, pulling an
overhanging branch of bay-tree as we passed it.
"I can't say I did," replied he.
"Oh papa! But you will acknowledge that he has a very
refined and noble air," said I, with earnestness.
"You must be in love with him, Cornelia," said papa,
"for love is blind, they say; that is the only excuse I can
make for your thinking him noble-looking and all that."
"In love, papa!" said I, blushing to
the eyes, "with a
person I never saw but once?" and I twisted one of the
bay-leaves into twenty pieces. After a pause, I rallied my forces
for another attack.
"Did you observe how peculiarly glossy and clustering his
hair was?"
"I observed that he had a long queue," said papa,
laughing.
A girl of sixteen cannot bear a joke. I drew up in a very
dignified style for two minutes, and meant to be silent, but
my thoughts came to the end of my tongue again.
"I suppose, papa," said I (rather tartly), "that you do
not even think his eyes good looking?"
"My child," answered he, peeping under my bonnet,
"what are you talking about? His eyes are as rheumy as an
old woman's."
This was more than I could bear. I had intended to have
told papa who he was, after having heard, as I expected,
some volunteer admiration of his appearance; I only said,
pettishly, "I wish, at least, I could learn his name."
"His name?" said papa. "It is
Gribb, Silas Gribb, of the
firm of Gribb and Kendall. I intend to negotiate with him as
my factor, and Mr. Barnwell has asked him to dine with us
to-day."
My romance was cut up by the roots. As for falling in
love with Mr. Silas Gribb, it was out of the question;
nevertheless, my heart beat at the thought of an
interview; and by the time reached the Elms I flew to my
apartment, spouting with Juliet, "what's in a name?"
adjusted "each particular hair," placed a japonica of
priceless worth in my waving curls, deliberated which would
suit best my excited complexion, peach-bloom or celestial
blue, gave a lingering look of satisfied vanity at my glass,
decided on pale yellow, and descended to the
dining-room, busying myself with rolling up the edge of my
pocket-handkerchief with my thumb and finger, and trotting
my feet after I was seated as if they were urging a
spinning-wheel.
I could not forgive papa immediately for his badinage,
and did not approach near enough to hear his conversation
with Mr. Barnwell, in which the name of Gribb seemed the
key-note, and harshly, I confess, with all its sweet
associations, it sounded.
At length a vehicle was seen rolling along the avenue, and
in a few minutes Mr. Gribb was announced. I gave an
uncontrollable jump of astonishment as I saw in him a stout,
square man of forty, with rheumy eyes, as papa had said,
and a queue that, as he moved his head, stuck out every way
like the spear of Milton's angel guarding paradise. My first
impulse was to pull out the green-house japonica from my
hair, and preserve it in a glass of water.
As papa had evidently not seen my
stranger, I forgave
him for his unintentional jests, while at the same time an
awkward consciousness prevented my returning to the
subject again.
And now arrived Christmas eve. It would have
stimulated a manufacturer to see the rows of stockings, of
all sizes and hues, that were hung in the capacious corners at
the Elms, to receive the tribute of St. Nicholas. Long did
the children delay, speculating on their probable contents
for the morrow; then bid us goodnight, in order to awake
early; then return to adjust them more conveniently; and
then, weary of speculating, retire.
Who does not remember his youthful Christmas; the
reiterated charge to his maumer to
awake him first; the
scramble to dress in the dim morning twilight; the rush
through the entries to the respective sleeping-rooms,
ending with the merry shout? These movements are
alike in all children, but the mode of approaching the
stocking varies according to the character of the individual:
some dart upon it with eagerness, give a rapid survey of the
contents, and swallow the bonbons
selfishly; others examine
deliberately, and lay a plan of arrangement and distribution,
thus shadowing forth the principles and habits of after years.
The family at the Elms were effectually roused even
before the shouts of the children had been heard. From time
immemorial, a small fieldpiece had been kept solely for
Christmas; and it was the privilege of their negroes (for
there is some little peculiarity on every plantation) to place
this cannon in the piazza of the dwelling-house, and fire it
at early dawn. Mighty were the shoutings that followed this
martial detonation.
The people at Roseland had no cannon; but, as a
substitute, they commenced a salute with the combination
of every noise they could make by the agency of tin and
brass, aiding their rude music. One set of people would
have been sufficient to drive Morpheus in a panic from our
pillows; but, from both plantations united, the clamour was
prodigious.
Dancing commenced in the piazza and on the lawn soon
after the firing of the cannon, nor was it suspended a
moment by the presence of the whites.
Mamma and I and our friends had been busy the day
previous in cutting the turban-handkerchiefs, and arranging
the woollen caps and other articles which were to be
presented.
After breakfast the people withdrew from the piazza, and
we took possession while they came up in
gangs to receive
their gifts. As we had each several hundred to supply, the
Barnwells and ourselves stood on opposite sides. The
women almost universally twined their handkerchiefs
about their heads as soon as they received them, with an
air of grace that would have surprised a
stranger. The men flung up their new woollen caps, and
stopped to make two or three flourishing bows, while the
women dropped a courtesy with a pleased look, turning up
one eye, and showing their beautiful teeth.
A few seemed to realize the sacredness of the day even
then; a feeling which has greatly increased with the religious
observances and facilities of late years. This prevented any
violent outbreak of joy; but on the two succeeding days
this restraint was removed, and there were scarcely any
bounds to the exuberance of their spirits.
Warm punch or egg-nogg circulated freely, and at least a
dozen large clothes-baskets of gingerbread were produced for
each plantation. A beef of their master's was killed, and the
stores of weeks or months from their own savings were
produced for the occasion.
The festival lasts three days, and as no tasks are imposed,
it is a favourite time to visit the neighbouring plantations.
The New-Yorkers on the Newyear are not more hospitable
than these light-hearted communities on this occasion.
But the glory of our country Christmas was Diggory as
chief fiddler. A chair from the drawing-room was handed out
for him on this occasion, where he sat like a lord in the
midst of his brethren, flourishing his bow, and issuing his
dancing decrees. Behind him stood a tall stout fellow
beating a triangle, and another drumming with two long
sticks upon a piece of wood. All the musicians kept their
own feet and bodies going as fast as the dancers themselves.
One movement was very peculiar. A woman, standing in the
centre of a circle, commenced with a kind of shuffle, in
which her body moved round and round, while her feet
seemed scarcely to stir from their position. She held a
handkerchief before her, which she occasionally twisted
round her waist, head, or arms, but mostly stretched out
in front as if to ward off assaults. After a few minutes
an old black man leaped into the circle, and knelt before
her with gestures of entreaty; the lady turned her back
and danced off in an opposite direction. Hector started
up and began dancing
after her, holding out his arms as if he would embrace
her, but still keeping at a respectful distance; again he
ventured to solicit her hand, but the coy damsel still refused.
At this crisis Jim sprang forward, and his petitions,
commenced in the same manner, were more kindly listened
to. Hector rushed from the scene, clinching his fist and
striking his forehead in the true Kemble style, and the
damsel spread her handkerchief before her face as if to hide
the blushes. The favoured suiter gave her a salute, and a
brisker measure succeeded, in which, one by one, many
others joined, until it ended in a kind of contra-dance, and
this lasted five hours.
Christmas departed; gifts of affection were exchanged,
and there was proffered
The old year, gathering its flowing mantle, wrought in
varied forms by hands animated with joy or trembling with
sorrow, swept off to render its silent testimony to heaven
of what had been. As I write this, I recall the change of age
upon my soul. In their accounts with the Deity, days are
now as years were then; and every sun as it rolls off in setting
splendour, and every morn that wakes on the path of duty,
like a new year, tells of my nearness to the mysterious
future.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
The morning before we left the Elms, I rode on
horseback, accompanied by Jim, to bid farewell to my
favourite haunts. Jim liked nothing better than this service,
for he could then talk to me of the probable return of his
young masters from college, and indulge in speculations
about them.
After riding several miles, I struck into a by-path of a
retired and romantic character, and a musing mood came
over me. It was a path which Duncan had loved. I felt that
of late I had forgotten his teaching; that I was becoming
more a victim of feeling, more a being of impulse than
formerly. Why, thought I, this fluctuation between religious
and worldly hopes? I knew not then
how necessary is trial to character, and how even gold is
comparatively valueless until it is purified, and weighed, and
stamped.
I began to ask myself if Duncan would not have been
interested in the stranger. I have seen him but twice,
thought I, once as the preserver of a helpless negro again
in the solemnity of prayer. Duncan would
have liked these
things, and a delicious serenity stole over my thoughts, and
the heavens looked brighter, and my heart beat lightly, and
my lips burst forth into song.
I was interrupted by perceiving that a fence which had
formerly enclosed the land of a neighbouring planter was
about being removed, while labourers were working in a
ditch adjoining.
"What is going on here, Jim?" said I.
"Ole Maus Osborne dead," was his answer, "and one
buckra* been come
for mak de bounds of de land."
As Jim said this I myself perceived the buckra. He was
stooping to examine a landmark, his hat suspended on the
standing fence, and his servant near bearing a case of tools.
He was habited in a round jacket of workman's shape,
adapted to display a graceful figure, and of that cut and
quality which betrays to the most casual observer that a
view had been kept to appearances even in this simple
costume. He held an ace thrown over one shoulder, in the
other hand a rule. It did not take many minutes to inform
my heart who he was; with a sense of agitation perfectly
uncontrollable, I jerked the reins in a manner to which
Jenny, my brother's mare, was not
accustomed. She turned,
and sprang, and, before I could recover myself, I was thrown
into the ditch face downward.
Hope not for romance, gentle reader, but imagine me
scrambling in the wet slippery clay, grasping handfuls of
mud. I soon felt a strong but gentle arm aiding Jim in my
release, who cried,
"Don't be scare, young missis, tan't nottin hurtful.
Help hoist she up dis way, maussa."
Chagrined beyond expression, I could only mumble
through a mouthful of mud, "Thank you, sir," as I was
placed on Jenny by the stranger. Jenny, the brute, who had
been checked in her flight, looked the picture of
unconcern at my predicament.
It seemed my duty to give one parting bow to the
stranger. Glowing with exercise, the winds waving his rich
hair, he stood erect, the image of manly beauty; but while he
bowed, a smile, which I fancied to be partly comical, played
on his lips, awakening in my thoughts the apprehension of
what might be my appearance. Stung again with renewed
mortification, I lent Jenny the reins and cantered towards
home. I could not resist stopping, however, to ask Jim how
my face looked.
"He bery dirty, for true, Miss Neely," said he, with a
sympathizing tone. "He tak plenty of soap and water for
clean 'em."
Fortunately, I encountered no one; but, in passing the
large mirror in the parlour on my return, I saw myself at full
length. My best friends would scarcely have known me. My
bonnet was soiled and twisted awry, a mixture of red clay and
black mud from two combined strata caked my dress, and lay
in patches on my face.
I could not bear the spectacle, but ran up stairs, and
girlishly burst into tears, the channels of which rather added
to my ferocious aspect; and catching another glimpse of
myself in the glass, my appearance seemed so grotesque,
that my mood changed, and I fell into long and uncontrolled
laughter.
Composing myself at length, I commenced my ablutions.
At the dinner-table I discovered for the first time the loss of
a valuable ring from my finger; and an undefined sense of
mortification prevented my mentioning it, or referring to
my accident.
Merry Wives of
Windsor. Merchant of Venice. Henry VIII. I SALLIED to Roseland in the evening, to bid farewell to
the people, and visit once more my favourite arbour at
the foot of the garden, where it slopes to the river. The
oaks shone green and crisp in the winter sun, which was
rolling down rapidly to the western trees; the river glowed
beneath the kindling clouds; a few birds, animated by the
softened temperature, cut the clear atmosphere
with happy wings, and careered and darted from shore to
shore. The echo of the hammer on the new-raised walls of
our dwelling-house was the only sound that broke on the
stillness, except the laugh or shout of my little brothers and
their attendants, who were fishing at the landing, and whose
figures were clearly defined as they bent over the almost
waveless stream. As my heart, in the softness of
approaching separation, opened keenly to sight and sound, a
chorus of a hymn was heard, and a flat, well manned with
negroes, turned the bend of the river, gently moving on the
flooding tide. They were singing the beautiful words -
The crew joined with a full chorus; and, as they floated
by, their notes of Christian hope lingering on the air, I felt
the blessed adaptedness of that religion which thus bends
down to dwell with the lowly. I have since listened to the
full burst of orchestral harmony, seen the white arm of
beauty lie like a snow-wreath on the harp, calling up its
strains of melody, and heard the rich strife of rival voices
from coral lips, now gushing like a fountain of sound, and
now dying off like a dream of music, but I have never
forgotten that hymn upon the Ashley. As it slowly receded,
I mused on heaven until the happy past and the airy future
stole in, and mingled with my thoughts like the earth and
sky before me.
But the lengthening shadows reminded me that I was to
visit some infirm negroes: as I advanced towards their
houses, a little regiment of blackies, more willing and less
ragged than Falstaff's, came marching towards me, with the
pride of childhood, to excite my attention; the drummers
were substituting their piggins for a more appropriate
instrument; and a rag surmounted a waving reed for a
standard. On seeing me they halted and turned, forming
an escort to the huts.
What a blessed thing to childhood is the fresh air and
light of heaven! No manufactories, with their over-tasked
inmates, to whom all but Sabbath sunshine is a stranger,
arose on our plantation. What a blessed thing to
all is it to
enjoy that light, and bathe in that air, whatever may be
their deprivations! Long before the manufacturer's task
in other regions is closed, our labourers were lolling on
sunny banks, or trimming their gardens, or fondling their
little ones, or busy in their houses, scarcely more liable to
intrusion than the royal retirement of a Guelph or a Capet.
The expectation of my departure increased my
sympathy with the children who were sporting about their
houses; and I lingered to observe their shouts, songs, antic
tricks, and ingenious devices for amusement.
The adieus of the negroes were mingled with salutary
advice for my future conduct, and various commissions for
city purchases; nor was the word fashion unknown in that
humble group. A wide or narrow check was all-important in a
turban-handkerchief or apron, and the hat of a man
"must
sure be ship-shape." An observer may easily detect here,
too, the peculiarities which distinguish higher society. The
belle of a plantation is, in some sort, the same airy creature
who treads the boards of a city ball-room; the respectable
matron of the field has a similar range of influence with her
who presides and dictates in polished circles; the sable beau
has the dandy's air of conscious exquisiteness; and the
intelligent lead the mass, as elsewhere.
Leaving the huts and crossing towards the new building, I
perceived Chloe, mamma's waiting-maid, speaking with a
gentleman on horseback, who rode away before I reached
the spot. I inquired who he was.
"The gentleman, ma'am, what saved aunt Nanny,
ma'am," said she. "He is very pretty spoken, ma'am; quite
a genteel person, ma'am. He 'quired very particular after
missis and master; quite assidious like, ma'am."
"Did he say nothing about any one else, Chloe?" asked
I.
"Yes, ma'am," said Chloe; "he 'quired after the
baby, Miss Patsey, ma'am; hoped she wan't no how worsted,
and he made me sensible that he was sorry to be so dilantory
in asking, ma'am."
"Chloe," said I, a sudden thought
occurring to me, "how
was I dressed the night of the fire?"
"I can't particularize no how about the frock, ma'am,"
said she, "but, just as you was racin' out higglety-pigglety,
ma'am, missis bid me throw your old cloak and her wadded
calash over you, to s'cure you from the djews, ma'am."
I saw through the matter. Mamma had been quite in the
back-ground with the children, except little Patsey, who was
near me in her nurse's arms; while I, concealed by my
cloak, and that most frightful of all headdresses, a calash,
was mistaken by the stranger, in that agitated moment, for
Mrs. Wilton.
"Miss Co'neely," said Chloe,
"there's one thing I can't
no how 'count for, ma'am. I can take my Bible oath that I
saw your ring on the gentleman's little finger, ma'am. Old
mistress used to say there wan't such a waluable as that this
side of Ingland. How come so?"
"I must have dropped it in my ride,"
answered I, "and
one of the daddies probably
gave it to the stranger."
And thereupon I fell into a pleasant dream; and a bright
castle rose in the air, and hope fluttered over it with a smile
that coloured up its gems and flowers with hues from
heaven; and it was not the less fair that it floated in misty
clouds beyond me.
Go, youthful visionary, enjoy thy flitting happiness! No
cold philosophy shall trammel the power, which a kind
Providence has given thee, of happy creations. I see thine
eyes sparkle, and thy cheeks glow in the sweet illusion! Gaze
on the airy building while thou mayst; reality will come full
soon, and for light and hope thou wilt see darkness and
sorrow, until that better light appears which comes by God's
revelation, and which shines out from eternity.
When I returned to the Elms, extra lights were ordered in
the servants' hall for a wedding, which was about to take
place between two of the field-hands, who had requested the
family to be present. The ceremony has to be performed by
Friday, their religious leader.
This man had been, many years
before, suddenly converted while ploughing, and the evidence
seemed satisfactory by the number of followers he obtained.
He lived up to his profession for a considerable period, but
the hour of temptation came; a theft in the smoke-house
was traced to him, and he was immediately deserted by the
people, who chose a leader of more consistent practice.
Subsequently Friday repented, reformed, and got religion
again, as he said, at the plough, at the same spot where
the first call had been given. Being reinstated in his office,
he was invited to unite the happy couple.
The bride and her attendants appeared with the little
finery that we could gather from our country toilets.
Friday, nothing daunted by our presence, commenced a
prayer, which was followed by an exhortation to the pair
before him on their duties; then, turning to the groom, he
said -
"Bacchus, you been guine marry dis woman for lub or
for money?"
"For lub, sir," replied Bacchus, bowing, half to the
propounder, and half to his bride.
"Sheba," said Friday to the lady, "you been guine for
marry dis man for lub or for money?"
"For lub, sir," replied Sheba, courtesying modestly.
"Den," said Friday, "I pernounce you man and wife, and
wish you many happy return! Salute de bride!" Upon which
the lips of Bacchus resounded on the lips of Sheba like the
Christmas cannon. We all shook hands with her, and a dance
in the kitchen, under Diggory's direction, concluded their
evening's amusement.
It was a harsh, dark morning when we left the Elms,
the beginning of one of those periods peculiar to our climate,
whether of great heat or cold, which rarely lasts over three
days. With the sensitiveness of human nature, we are always
alarmed at the first day, in despair on the second, and, by
the end of the third, the medium temperature is restored.
The negroes received us, as we passed Roseland, with
chattering teeth and long faces, and none of them were "so
bery well."
And now came the realization of what is termed pleasure,
in that city whirl from January until March, which
shatters the constitution and confuses the brain. I was soon
drawn into the vortex; and, when once entered, nothing but
the voice of conscience or the sobering tie of matrimony
brings us back. It is, however, surprising to observe how soon
Southern wives fall into the habits of quiet domestic life,
whatever may have been their previous tastes. Long may
this be the boast of America, though foreign travellers
ridicule and wonder; and while the unmarried woman tastes
the exhilarating cup of fashion, let the young wife and
mother seek her dearest charm at home, kindle up into
smiles for one, and tune her sweet voice, no longer
lavished on the crowd, to infant lullabies.
A new charm was added to my existence in the friendship
of my cousin, Anna Allston, who had just completed her
education at a Philadelphia seminary. I was struck at once by
her exquisite beauty, but I soon forgot it was beauty, in the
surpassing loveliness of her character. It was not the
finely-turned head, and glossy hair, and melting eyes, and rosy lips,
that made her Anna Allston; it was heart and mind shining
through them all. One would have said, in gazing on her
thoughtful brow, that she was born for the aristocracy of
life until her humility, her patience under reproof, her
cheerful attendance on the wants of others, betrayed her as
belonging to God's whole creation, not to a clan.
As two streams, that rise in different sources on a
mountain, roll on a while in their separate course, and meet
and mingle at the base, so we became one in taste, habits,
and affection. Anna was soon an inmate of our family, and
was unto me as a sister.
Papa's interest with regard to my appearance in society
was quite unexpected to me. When dressed for a party, I was
turned to the light this way and that; the satin shoe, and the
kid glove, and the pearl sprig in my hair were examined; and,
if all was comme il
faut, he patted me on the cheek and said,
"That will do." And let me pause and record gratefully his
judicious instructions on dress, on which subject he was
uniformly serious.
"Do not imagine, my daughter," he said, "that you are
agreeable or attractive when your person is exposed, or when
you aid nature by artificial means. Two classes of persons
may gaze on you, to be sure; the immoral and licentious with
familiarity, the reflecting and serious with sadness. Will you
consent to such scrutiny? Follow fashion no further than
fashion follows propriety. Never let your mantuamaker
dictate to your morals."
It is one of the quiet joys of memory, that I never
disobeyed his injunctions.
Anna and I had attended no public assemblies, papa not
being able to accompany us. We had his promise for the
race-ball. He was something of a jockey, and
had a direct interest in the races of the season. It was with
no small care that he fitted out his equipage for the races,
mamma having no interest in such things. It was in perfect
taste; not so conspicuous as to excite attention, but, when
attention was called, fixing it by an air of perfect fitness.
Anna's dress and mine were his choice too. Most of the
ladies appeared in dress bonnets and gay costume,
scarcely appropriate to the season and the amusement. We
were habited in close, dark riding-dresses, with hat and
feathers. Nothing could look prettier than Anna's light
figure. The fresh breeze, too, tinged her delicate cheek and
brightened her placid eyes as we drove along.
Papa rode on horseback; and our only companion was a
city belle, an experienced one, who dared to laugh when she
wished to, and sometimes oftener and louder than was
necessary. She seemed to know everybody, and staked
sugarplums and gloves by the dozen with every challenger,
without looking at the horses.
We were delayed on our arrival by papa, who could not
immediately wait on us to the stand. Anna and I shrank back
timidly, half envying Miss Lawton's nods, and smiles, and
ready words to her passing acquaintance.
"Look, girls, at that splendid equipage of Captain
Redding, there on the right, with the outriders in yellow!
Heavens! what a fright of a hat Bell Wilson has on! How
can her mother let her make such an object of herself! Ah,
cousin Edward, how are you? Miss Wilton - Miss Allston -
Mr. Simons. New housings for the occasion, I see. Who are
you for? don't ask me to bet; I have risked all my pocket-
money now on Colonel Wilton's Psyche. For mercy's sake,
look at the Farwells! what has brought them out? Heaven
keep Psyche from a look at those girls! she will certainly
sheer, and I shall lose my gloves. Ah, Arthur Marion
returned? Move away, Edward," continued she, as a young
man rode up and extended his hand to Miss Lawton. There
was a glittering ring on that hand. It was mine.
"Mr. Marion," said Miss Lawton, "we are all for the
Wilton interest here. Let me introduce you to -" At
this moment the pressure of the crowd forced him on. He
kissed his hand and bowed, and a sunbeam fell on his jewelled
finger as he disappeared in the throng.
Papa came, and conducted Anna and myself to the stand;
while Miss Lawton, laughing in pretended perplexity at
whose arm she should select among her many beaux, lightly
followed.
It was droll enough to hear the changes that were rung
on Psyche's name as she was led forth; even the
newspaper was resorted to spell it. One called her Pyke,
another Syke, another Switchey. A countryman who had bet
upon her called out, "Hurra for Pikery!" A gentleman,
quite at fault, made a practical pun by sneezing instead of
pronouncing her name, while another cried, "Physic!
Physic for ever!"
Those who doubt the morality of a horse-race, or who
have never witnessed one, will scarcely be able to understand
the feelings of a young girl who has been brought up in a
kind of companionship with these noble creatures, under
circumstances like mine, as the bugle sounded the
preparatory note; and it may excite a smile in those who
regard the sport as low and vulgar; but, from the moment
papa's beautiful Psyche started, at the tap of the drum, my
breath seemed suspended, and my eyes followed her as if she
were the only living thing in existence. Darting like a
sunbeam, she pressed on; as she approached in the first heat
in advance of her rival, I unconsciously stood up to urge her
on her way; and when, unflagging and triumphant, she
bounded to the goal, I shouted aloud, though unheard amid
the cheers, and tears, I must confess it, started to my eyes.
CRAFT'S Raciad. POPE.
Anster Fair. THE races were over; papa led us to our carriage; and Miss
Lawton was counting her triumphs, on her fingers, to the
beaux who, with prancing steeds, lingered by her; when, on
looting in idle curiosity at the throng, I perceived Jim, near
where our carriage was stationed, with my little brother
Ben by his side.
Negroes love the excitement of any public spectacle; and
they are indulged so much as to become almost a nuisance in
pressing around military and other displays. They often
carry a white child for more perfect security; and there is in
a Southern crowd a curious contrast between the fair,
careless faces of infants held high in their nurse's arms,
and the bronzed, eager countenances of those who attend them.
Now and then a guard appears; and they dodge, and
scamper, and disperse, for a few moments, like a flock of
sheep, with shouts and often laughter; but only to return
again with the same eagerness as before.
Jim, with a new cap set a little on one side, was, at
that moment, one of the most glorified beings in
existence. His eyes seemed to drink in the scene, his wide
mouth developing a set of teeth as expressive as any
features; and while he held Ben in one hand, he was beating
time with the other against his thigh to the music of a
distant fiddle. Ben was equally enraptured; forgetting his
fine new clothes, in which he had been trammelled in the
morning, he trotted along by Jim's side, asking and answering
eager questions. They caught a glimpse of us, and were
hastening to the carriage, when the horses that were
attached to a vehicle behind started, plunged, reared, and
pressed on the alarmed crowd. Instead of retreating, Jim
attempted to cross to us. I saw the horses dash on - I saw
Ben fall, and my eyes closed in a kind of despair. I was
roused instantly by a shout of joy and approbation from the
crowd; and in a moment perceived Ben clasping, with a
strong and almost convulsive energy, the neck of Lewis -
our dear Lewis Barnwell.
Leaving his horse with his servant, he sprang into
the carriage; and in a moment his joyous, careless spirits,
free as if nothing had occurred, were illuminating every
object which they glanced upon.
"Heart-whole, Cornelia," said he, knocking on his breast
playfully."Those red-checked Connecticut girls cured my
wounds in a month. I visited poor Duncan, too," continued
he (while a tender sadness, that made him doubly handsome,
shaded his happy eyes), "and I learned lessons which only
the grave teaches. Do you know that I almost envied him
that melting away to death, and that quiet rest where the
snow-flakes are lying in coldness and in purity? I fear my
spirit" (and he spoke almost prophetically) "will wrestle
fearfully with the destroying angel. But how you have
improved, Miss Wilton," he
exclaimed, not minding a blush
that rose and covered even my forehead with the glow - "I
suppose I must read - for a fawn-like, romping
country-lassie, a graceful, polished city belle! Miss Lawton, do not
let her be spoiled, if you are her friend. I hate a
belle as I do a green persimmon. Calculating all night, and
dressing all day, their hearts get beaten up by the world like
grist in a mortar; and when a man marries a woman, he gets
a body without a soul, and sometimes a dress without a body.
Miss Lawton, I am sure you are not a professed belle, or you
would not blush so becomingly; and Miss Allston" - he
paused - there was something too spiritually soft in those
full eyes for trifling. Lewis gave her one long, earnest look,
longer than propriety warranted; as if to read through those
beautiful windows the volume of her soul. Her sweet
tranquillity was undisturbed; no alarm or consciousness was
on her brow; yet, as she quietly withdrew her glance from
his, her cheek faintly glowed, like the surface of an
unruffled lake, when the twilight sky looks down without a
cloud.
And now rolled back that varied throng, and the waters
of Canonsborough reflected the gay housings of returning
steeds, the richly-panelled carriages, and the floating veils
of beauty; while the earnest voice of the gesticulating negro
- oath of the sailor - the prattle of childhood - the
ambitious crack of the coachman's whip - and the shrill
laugh of the fair, mingled and floated on the wind.
I did not ask myself thee, as I now do, if all this seeming
was true; I did not speculate on the pouting lip of
disappointed beauty, which had been, perchance, slighted
and forgotten; I did not perceive, in some dark and moody
individual, the loser of thousands, nor detect beneath a
gayer tone a fiercer pang; I did not return in imagination to
the ground, and trace the votaries of debauchery and
drunkenness, in their unholy pleasures, nor follow the
revellers to homes where anxious wives and hungry children
awaited, but without hope, their return.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
The dress for the first ball! Who shall describe its
infinite importance? As Flora laid mine, article by article,
on the bed after dinner, and Cely, Anna's maid, with laudable
rivalry, did the same, how admiringly we gazed
how we folded every plait in the silky gauze, smoothed
every wrinkle in the glossy satin, and measured the little
slipper, until, wearied with the completeness of
preparation, we sank into ennui
until evening.
Perhaps there is nothing more ridiculous than the pains
bestowed on the arrangement of an article of dress
compared with its effect.
"Bring another light, Cely," said Anna to her maid, as she
stood before her toilet, in an important tone.
It was placed beside the other, near the dressing-glass, but
my grave cousin was not satisfied.
"Another, Cely."
It was brought, and arranged anew, before the focus of
rays was right for the true development.
"Now, Cely," said she, with a business voice, "put this
last pin in my sash." It was done -
the last pin! and Anna
Allston stood before her mirror the image of youthful
beauty; and Cely looked at her mistress with a satisfied gaze,
and folded her arms, for her task was done.
We went down stairs, not, as usual, with springing steps
and interlacing arms, whispering sweet confidence, but stiff
and conscious, followed by Flora and Cely. As we passed two
of the negroes in the dining-room, one of them said,
"Ki, Miss Neely look more prettier dan Miss Anna, for
true!"
And, for an instant, as I passed the mirror, and saw the
heightened glow on my cheek contrasted with her paler hue,
I thought so too; but, as I looked at her again, the vanity
passed away; for how could any combination of flesh and
blood compete with the refined loveliness that floated about
and around her like a silver-edged cloud?
Mamma was dressed, for papa had insisted on her
introducing us in public. I scarcely knew my dear, quiet,
comfortable mother in the plum-coloured satin dress,
exalted turban, and waving feathers, with which she was
arrayed. Chloe stood looking more important than ever
behind her chair. We were dressed too early, and were
beginning to feel the weariness consequent on such a
circumstance, when Lewis Barnwell was announced. Such a
companion is a golden treasure - a half hour before a ball.
The carriages began to roll through Broad-street. Neither
Chloe, Flora, nor Cely would allow Lewis to wrap us in our
shawls, but laid them with peculiar caution on our shoulders.
He entered the carriage, and went with us to the hall, where,
with a tragic gesture of regret, for he was not a member of
the Jockey Club, he left us to the care of the managers.
Shy and fluttered, we followed mamma up the broad
stairs, and half shrank back as the light of the chandeliers
burst upon us; and the seats looked a mile off as we trod
over the chalked horses on the floor; and a thrilling joy
woke up in us as the band struck a full accompaniment.
When seated in such a scene, one gradually finds one's
own relative importance. Mamma's plum-coloured satin
and feather no longer seemed to me the ne
plus ultra of
dress, when I observed the row of brilliant-looking ladies
who lined the room; and Anna and I shrivelled up into
almost nothingness, as peeping, without partners, from
behind a cotillon-set, we saw the easy, graceful, practised
forms of the city belles.
Papa brought up several oldish country gentlemen to
speak to us, who joked about their dancing days being over!
and the managers, after a while, succeeded in obtaining two
strangers for our partners in a cotillon. Anna's nearly tore
her gauze frock in his ambitious leaps; and mine, not
knowing the figures, raced after me like another Theseus
following his Ariadne, and breathed a puff of self-congratulation
when the order "partner round" gave him an
acknowledged right to seize me.
Anna and I glanced at each other with a smile as the
gentlemen retired; but we had danced, and that was
something.
"Take your partners for another cotillon," said the
managers; and partners were taken, but not Anna and I.
Another and another was called, and everybody seemed
conversing except us. Where were Anna's and my long, long
talks, when words came out quick and gay like the song of
birds? Mamma was half off in a dozy slumber, and the
oldish gentlemen had gone to the card-room.
"Oh, dear," said I to Anna, with a sigh, "if we were only
at Roseland with Diggory's fiddle!"
"I never will come to another ball," said Anna, with
more acrimony than she was wont to show.
At this crisis a set was forming directly in front of us;
and leading a graceful girl, who listened and smiled as he
spoke, came Arthur Marion. I saw him glance at our group
like one who did not feel quite assured of knowing the
individuals there; and then, as if decided in the negative,
turn away to his partner. A doubtful expression once
crossed his face as he met my eyes in dancing; but it passed
off and did not return.
I had sat so long neglected that my nerves became
excited. I felt as if I was mocked; the sensation of anger
which had agitated me at church returned. The music
sounded harsh and grating - I would have closed my ears; I
felt as if I should scream, or weep, or grasp at something
violently, and yet I sat like a statue. How often have such
scenes of light and Joy shone on aching hearts? Mr.
Marion's partner dropped her handkerchief, and as he drew
off his glove to present it to her, the blaze of the chandelier
fell on my ring. A reaction took place; I became, I know
not why, tranquil; but the forms in the dance were
dreamy, and I seemed to be in another sphere.
The supper-hour arrived. No Adonis of my imagination,
but old Mr. Guildstreet, waited on me. Mamma revived from
her drowsiness as we seated ourselves beneath the evergreen
arbours at the table, which was spread with every luxury.
The cotillon-set of Arthur Marion had preceded us; his fair
partner was by my side. What a contrast was that brilliant,
easy, talkative coterie to ours! I evaded Marion's eye
irresistibly whenever it sought mine.
"Marion," said a youth on his right, "Miss Saunders has
challenged me to remember her gloves to-morrow; lend me
your ring as a talisman."
I started as if a pistol had been fired off.
"No, no," said Mr. Marion, laughing; "none but the
owner of this ring shall take it from my finger."
"Miss Saunders," said the first speaker, "do you know
the history of that ring?"
"No," said a sweet voice beyond; "pray tell it me."
"I protest," said Marion, "against Elliot's relating it;
if it must be known, I will tell it."
"No," said the sweet voice, "Mr. Elliot shall tell the
tale. He looks ripe for it."
And Mr. Elliot began, with infinite humour, to describe the
adventure.
In vain Marion again protested, and grew grave in his tone, and once
spoke almost in anger; Elliot went on in his irresistible drollery; and
when he imitated "Hoist she up dis way, maussa," and described my
mud-caked face, as I turned to make my parting bow, even Marion's gravity
was conquered; and such a peal of laughter rang out from the group,
as made papa and Mr. Guildstreet, who had heard none of the
conversation, push aside their plates of oysters for a moment ere they
resumed to the onslaught.
I could have cried outright; my head throbbed; my heart beat as if it
would have flown from my bosom; my ears tingled; and that laugh
seemed multiplied to an infinitude. I could not divest myself of the idea
that I was known and ridiculed; and I entreated papa, with an
earnestness that surprised him, to hurry home.
I was obliged to climb over the seat, which was not moveable; and
Marion, in common courtesy, offered his hand. He perceived my extreme
agitation (for I trembled excessively, and almost thought I should have
fallen); regarded me with an expression of interest and sympathy; and
when a servant brought my shawl, respectfully placed it on my
shoulders, while my thank you, sir,
was as indistinct as when my mouth
was full of mud.
"Allow me to forestall the managers, and accompany you to your
carriage," said he.
But old Mr. Guildstreet bustled over the seat, and offered his arm -
Marion retired.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
"Undress me, Flora," said I, pressing my
hand to my throbbing head
as we reached our bedroom, where our maids were waiting for us.
"Miss Neely," exclaimed Flora, "how
you been trow yourself down
on de chair so hasty! You been marsh you frock all up to nottin."
"And jus look how Miss Anna fling down she
bracelet, like it ain't
wort,"*
cried Cely, picking up the jewel and depositing it in its case.
Romeo and Juliet. MARIA EDGEWORTH. GOETHE'S Hermann and Dorothea. IT is pleasant to watch the opening of young and pure affections.
Anna's heart was hanging like a bud on its stalk; petal after petal
expanded, till it lay with its rich developments beneath the eye of love;
the sun warmed, the breeze fanned, the dew nourished it, and Lewis was
to her the sun, the breeze, the dew.
Borne away by his intense admiration of personal beauty, he was
irresistibly attracted; and, day after day, Anna's loveliness and
simplicity beguiled him almost unknowingly
into stronger sentiments. We were soon in
each other's confidence, for the habits of our childhood
were renewed, and he often playfully reverted to the past.
He retained the same virtues and faults as formerly. High-souled
and generous, but thoughtless and passionate, he was
governed by the most sudden impulses to right and wrong,
yet ever repenting heartily of excesses. As I perceived
Anna's affections gradually, though unknown to herself,
leaning towards him, I trembled for her; but when I saw her
delicate will turning by a look the course of his passions, I
was comforted, and I said to him -
"Oh, Lewis, thus may it ever be! Let that small fair
hand lay on the helm, and trust your bark to her."
The eyes of Lewis never wandered from Anna as she
stood at her harp, or played the guitar, or gave to a few
simple chords on the pianoforte a charm and tenderness
peculiar to her touch; and well might he gaze, for she
realized the dreams of poesy; well might he listen as a
mortal would listen to the tones of a tuneful cherub. Besides
the charm of grace and native harmony, Anna excelled in
what may be termed intellectual music, giving force and
beauty to melody by distinct pronunciation. When she
closed her songs, no one had to ask, as is often the case,
What song is that? The words had gone down to the hearts
of her listeners, and told their own story. She seemed
determined to do justice to the poet as well as the musician,
and every sentiment was brought out like a beautiful picture.
Persons who pronounce distinctly rarely sing ridiculous
words, and this just taste is rewarded by eager and
delightened listeners. Ballad-singing on this principle affords
exquisite pleasure; if poetry and music are each so charming
in themselves, how delicious the marriage of poetry and
music!
There is as much difference in hearing the following line
from the lips of two different singers, as there is in the
printed arrangement: -
Correct pronunciation is equally important with distinct
emphasis. When Moore's song, "I knew by the smoke," was
in fashion, I was puzzled to know what a singer meant by
"An art that is umble, might ope for it ere."
A lady, on one occasion, after Anna's bewitching
performance, displayed the most singular perversity in her
pronunciation of v and w;
the song, unfortunately, was the
very ne plus ultra
of v and w ism -
the exquisite Vale of
Avoca. She sang -
Music and romance were partially interrupted, for
mamma was obliged by pressing business to return to
Roseland, and inhabit the finished apartments of the new
house. She was not sorry at heart; she longed to be once
more gazing on the ducks and turkeys, and superintending
her dairy, with the range of other country occupations, and
thus I was left in the town establishment. The division of
servants caused some embarrassment. Mamma's fixed habits
and liability to visitors rendered it necessary that she should
retain many of them. Papa had always one or two
employed; the consequence was, that, though amply
supplied with new recruits from the country, there seemed
to be great doubt about their quality.
That I might feel perfectly easy on one point, papa
bought a professed French cook, who was advertised in the
papers, and, according to his frequent custom, brought home
two gentlemen to dine the very day mamma went away.
There had been so much regularity in our family heretofore,
that I should as soon have thought of interfering with the
solar system as with the routine of the kitchen, and I felt
perfectly at ease when summoned to the dining-room.
As I dipped the ladle into the tureen, and saw, instead of
the usual richly-concocted turtle-soup, a few pieces of meat
in a thin reddish fluid, sailing about like small craft in an
open bay, my mind misgave me; but, knowing little of such
matters, I helped round.
"What is this?" said papa, as he elevated a spoonful, and let
it drop back into his plate.
No one spake.
"In the name of common sense, Mark," said he, in a
louder tone to one of the servants, "what have we got here?"
"Cuffee call 'em French bully, sir," said Mark, bowing,
and trying to keep his countenance.
"French fire!" shouted papa, dislodging a mouthful into
the grate; "my tongue is in a flame! Gentlemen, for
Heaven's sake, put down your spoons, and don't be martyred
through politeness. Mark, tell Cuffee, with my
compliments, to eat it all, or he gets no Sunday money."
The soup was taken away, and the covers removed,
when, lo! there stood before papa a pig on his four feet,
with a lemon between his teeth, and a string of sausages
round his neck. His grin was horrible.
Before me, though at the head of many delicacies
provided by papa, was an immense field of hopping
John ;*
a good dish, to be sure, but no more presentable to strangers
at the South than baked beans and pork in New-England. I
had not self-possession to joke about the unsightly dish, nor
courage to offer it. I glanced at papa.
"What is that mountain before you, my daughter?" said
papa, looking comically over his pig.
"Ossa on Pelion," said Lewis,
laughing, and pointing at
the almost bare bones that surmounted the rice.
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Have housekeepers never found that conversation has
often taken a turn which seemed doubly to aggravate after
misfortunes?
The subject of coffee was discussed at dinner in all
its various bearings; our guests were Europeans, and
evidently au fait
in its mysteries. One contended for Mocha,
the other for Java; one was for infusion, another for
decoction. The greatest traveller had drank it in Turkey,
and seen persons employed in watching it while it was
parching on tin plates, who took out each separate bean as
it became brown enough; he argued that it should be
pounded, not ground.
The other thought, and he thumped the table to add force
to his assertion, that the French must have arrived at
greater perfection than the Asiatics in this delicious
beverage; and his eyes sparkled as if he were under its
influence, as he described its richness and flavour when
taken from the hands of a pretty
limonadière
at the Café
des Mille Colonnes at Paris.
Papa threw down his gauntlet for home-made coffee, and
boasted (papa sometimes boasted a little) of his last
purchase of Mocha, and the superior skill with which it was
made by Kate, who usually superintended it.
The conversation was prolonged throughout the sitting;
indeed, until the beverage appeared in the drawing-room to
assert its own claims, with its rich brown hue, its delightful
perfume, and the vapour curling in beautiful wreaths from
the gilt cups. As papa dipped his spoon in his cup, a glance
told him that the chymical affinities were all rightly adjusted
to the palate. It was tasted - augh! There was a moment's
silence; Lewis looked ready for laughter; Anna and I were
distressed; papa was angry; and our guests, with their eyes
fixed on the carpet were doubtless ruminating on Turkey
and France. The taste was so utterly abominable, that papa
was alarmed, and summoned Kate.
"Kate," said papa, "what have you
put in the coffee?"
"Me an't put nottin 'tall in 'em, sir. He mak like he
always been mak."
"Did you grind or pound it?"
"He de poun', sir."
"In what?"
"In de mortar, sir."
"Go and ask the cook what was in the mortar."
Little was said during Kate's absence; we sat as solemn
as members of the Inquisition. Kate entered.
"De cook say he spec' he lef leettle
bit pepper and salt in
de mortar."
Our visiters soon departed, probably minuting on their
journals that Americans season their coffee with pepper and
salt.
The cook was then summoned to his trial. Papa eyed
him sternly, and said,
"You call yourself a French cook, do you?"
"No, sir; maussa and de 'vertise call me French cook.
I follows de mason trade, but didn't want to disoblige
nobody."
In the sequel, Cuffee repaired our dilapidated
chimneys, while a less pretending cook performed her
duties better.
The distance of the kitchen from the house at the South
often repulses housekeepers, both in cold and warm weather,
from visiting it frequently; indeed, a young woman often
feels herself an intruder, and as if she had but half a right to
pry into the affairs of the negroes in the yard. In my
rare visits, I was struck by one mode of fattening poultry.
Two fine-looking turkeys were always kept tied to a part of
the dresser, and fed by the cook, who talked to them by
name, partly as pets and partly as victims, as they picked up
the crumbs at her feet. On another occasion, I found her
applying a live coal to the tail of a turtle; I exclaimed
against her cruelty.
"He too stubborn, Miss Neely."
As she spoke he put out his head, which was her object,
and a sharp knife being near, terminated his troubles by
decapitation.
Some of the mistakes that occurred in mamma's absence
were as ludicrous as mortifying.
One day, as a field-boy was scrubbing the entry leading to
the street door, I heard his voice in pretty strong
remonstrance. Supposing him to be talking with a
fellow-servant, I took no notice of it until I heard him roar
out at the foot of the stairs in a tremendous passion -
"Miss Neely, one buckra woman want for track up all de
clean floor."
I ran down as rapidly as I could, and found the elegant
Miss Lawton on the off side of his tub of water, held in
abeyance by Titus's scrubbing-brush.
The social and agreeable habit of calling at tea-time is
almost peculiar to Charleston. One evening, having several
extra guests, Titus was summoned to carry the cake-tray.
Long acquaintance and Lewis's jocose manner made him feel
on particularly easy terms with him; and as Lewis was
helping himself, Titus called to me -
"Miss Neely, if Maus Lewis tak two piece of cake, he an't
lef enough for sarve all."
Passing from Lewis he came to a gentleman who was
occupied in looking at the paper to ascertain a point of
intelligence; and seeing him thus engaged, Titus took up a
piece of toast carefully with his thumb and finger, and laid it
on a plate in the gentleman's lap.
Having served us all, he deposited the tray on a table, and
stood still.
After due time I said, "Hand the cake round, Titus."
Titus approached the table, took hold of the cake-basket
with an air of importance, and deliberately turned it round,
almost wrenching his arm in his attempt to do it
thoroughly; and then, with a satisfied air, retreated.
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Before Lewis left town, a discussion about some stolen
articles, that had been restored to the servants through the
influence of a fortune-teller, inspired him and me with a
desire to visit her; not with faith, for we were aware that
when one assertion of the witch was true, a hundred misled
the negroes, who spent their money on a shadow; ours was
the true spirit of fun and curiosity; and one evening, when
we were going in full dress to a party, unbonnetted as usual,
Lewis, with his accustomed impetuosity and decision,
ordered the coachman to -- street. Gay and laughing,
he speculated on our fate.
Anna became reluctant to go. "The very thought
frightens me," said she. "We have no right -"
"Right! Miss Allston," said Lewis. "You speak as
if we expected to see a sibyl instead of an ignorant
pretender. I am simply curious to meet a woman who
operates so powerfully on so many minds."
Our fortune-teller was surrounded by none of those
associations that usually lend a fascination to the mysteries
of the craft. No cave with wild and repulsive entrance
concealed her; no lofty trees whispered and sighed as she
delivered her oracles; not a wrinkle was stamped on her
brow; there was even something of beauty in her regular
profile, and her large black eyes threw forth a lustrous ray;
still, as we entered her small apartment, where one candle
glanced with dim and yellow light on the individual who
pretended to the awful power of knowing those secrets
which belong only to the Eternal, our laugh was checked,
and Anna's fair cheek was paler than its usual delicate hue.
She trembled so much that I half regretted her presence.
I advanced first. The woman looked at me with her
penetrating eyes; and pouring some tea into a cup, waved it
gently until the grounds were scattered and settled; then,
pouring off the liquid, she examined them with an air of
deceptive earnestness. I believe my whole heart was in my
face as I bent eagerly forward to this singular dispenser of
destiny. What a war of feeling and reason!
"Here," said she, peering at the cup, "is a young man on
horseback, and there - do you see something shining there?"
and she pointed with a bodkin to the centre of the cup,
looking full in my eyes - "see, there is a
ring - and -"
I was silly enough to forget that a young man and a ring
would probably be the very first things that a fortuneteller
would speak of to a girl of my age; and putting my hands to
my ears I screamed out, "No, no; not another word! I will
not hear another word!" while Lewis clapped his hands and
shouted, "Excellent, go on, good woman, go on!"
But I was resolute. I felt as if the walls had ears and
eyes, and that too much had already been told, and sheltered
my burning face behind Anna.
"Now, Miss Anna," said Lewis, as with gentle force he
drew her towards the woman.
How beautiful she was at that moment in the struggle to
conquer her reluctance! Perhaps the contrast of the tall
commonplace figure of the fortune-teller made her spiritual
loveliness more striking. She grasped her little fan almost
convulsively; her eyes shunned the dark orbs that were fixed
upon her; and as the lips of the fortuneteller uttered a
sound, she caught Lewis's hand, and looked up to him
beseechingly, while tears started to her eyes.
Lewis could trifle no longer - he retained her
hand - throwing at the same time a double
douceur to the
woman, and said earnestly -
"God forbid that my boyish whims should give you
a moment's pang!" And, drawing her arm in his, he
whispered, as we descended the steps,
"Let me read your fortune,
sweet trembler, and its first
and last oracle shall be love, love."
It was the only time he had spoken thus.
Anna was silent through our ride; once she sighed so
deeply that we started, and I felt a warm tear drop on
my arm!
We reached the hall, and were separated a while by the
dance.
The next time I saw her her cheek was glowing, her eye
sparkling, her step light as a fay's on a moonbeam, and her
smile all radiance and joy; while Lewis stood, not dancing
with her, but gazing on her, and she knew that it was so.
CRABBE. "I WISH your likeness had been taken last night," said I to
Anna, as, walking through King-street on the morning after
the ball, I glanced at her placid face. "You will never look
again as you did then, with that Shakspeare expression
between tragedy and comedy. How could you fit those gloves
at Madame --'s store so quietly, with Lewis at your side? If my
heart's wishes were in such a train as yours, I should have
jumped over the counter."
Anna looked at me with an arch expression, which
seemed to say, "If you could see down far into my heart,
you would not find any trying on of gloves there."
Gentle creature! Why was she not spared for a riper
friendship! How rich, how golden would have been her
maturity! But Heaven calls such spirits to minister at its
eternal altar, while we of coarser mould are left to struggle
with the world.
When we returned from our walk, the servants told us
that a cracker
* man
and woman were in the drawing-room,
waiting for papa. On reaching the door, which was partly
open, I perceived a tall, sallow-looking countryman,
*Wagoners,
so called from the snapping of their long
whips, to stimulate their team.
with a blue homespun dress, which hung loosely
about him, standing with his hat on, his arms akimbo,
speaking to a young girl almost equally sallow, also dressed
in homespun, with a cracker or
cape bonnet of the same
material.
As he addressed her she rose, and they stood before one
of the small convex mirrors at that time in fashion.
"Now, Susy," said he, "just see what a
smart chance
smaller it makes us."
So speaking, they walked backwards, gazing at their
diminishing size; exclaiming, "If that an't despert curous!
Well, anyhow, that's droll!" until they nearly fell over Anna
and me as we entered. Recovering themselves, they nodded
at us, the man keeping his hat on still.
I should have been embarrassed had not papa entered,
and, instantly recognising his visiter, cordially shook hands
with him.
"And who is this?" said he, turning to the girl.
"Well, that's Susy, my sister," was the answer.
"Miss Susy is very welcome, as well as yourself," said
papa. "Cornelia, I hope my friend Mr. Slute will stay with
us, and you must do all you can to make him and his sister
comfortable."
I fear there was an inhospitable look of astonishment in
my face, for papa immediately addressed me, with a look to
call my attention.
"I do not know that I ever informed you," said he, "of a
circumstance which occurred to me last spring, in my
journey. An accident happening to my horse, I was
obliged to hire one of the little animals called 'marsh
tackies' to carry me over a creek. They are usually very
strong and sure; but, as my luck would have it, this little
wretch began to plunge instead of swimming. In this style I
reached the opposite shore, where, so far from stopping, he
set off at full speed, knocked me against the projecting limb
of a tree, and deposited me among the cypress-knees in the
swamp. This not being enough, he cut sundry capers, and
kicked off my saddlebags: satisfied with that, he allowed me
to catch and tie him to a tree, while I waded down the creek
to recover
my property. Mark, appearing with my own horse,
mounted the tackie, and we rode to the nearest
habitation, which, fortunately, was Mr. Slute's, who lent me a
clean suit of homespun, entertained me with every kindness,
without accepting any compensation, and has complied
with my request, to come to us when he should visit
Charleston."
While papa made this statement, which was evidently
given for me to recover my self-possession, Mr. Slute still
stood before the mirror, with a mountain of tobacco in his
cheek, now and then retiring and advancing, and nodding
at Susy. No other decorations of the room seemed to excite
their interest, though they had probably never seen any
furniture but coarse oak chairs, seated with hickory shavings,
or deer or alligator skins, pine tables, serving various
purposes, and perhaps a wooden clock, a luxury to which
most country people aspire.
It required a prodigious struggle for me to seem at ease
with our new guests; but I conquered, and felt that
satisfaction which results from the determination to
make others happy.
The first moment we could gain together, Anna and I
vented our ohs and ahs, and gave keen feminine glances at
awkward possibilities.
The Slutes were to pass but a few days with us, and Susy's
perfect innocence soon won on my regard. The third day
after their arrival, Lewis was to dine with us and bring a
friend. He frightened as much as he amused me by his
manners to our guests, catching at once their peculiar
dialect, and addressing them in their own style. I saw Mr.
Slute look keenly at him the first evening, but his flexibility
and winning tones soon dispelled all doubt. He was entirely
devoted to Susy, rattling on about country matters, while she
sat staring and laughing at him in a kind of surprise that was
exceedingly amusing. I trembled lest he should go too far,
and trespass on the bounds which some minds, the most
open to the ludicrous, often preserve so kindly.
On the day the gentlemen were to dine with us, after
consulting Anna, I decided to give Susy a little advice, as she
seemed so gentle and amiable.
"You must not be offended," said I, looking away from
her, "if I speak to you frankly about something. It is not
considered perfectly polite to pick bones at the dinner-table,
in the city, particularly with both hands."
"Why, do tell!" said she.
"I expect Mr. Barnwell and another young man to dine
here," continued I, "and I wish, if it does not make any
difference to you, you would not pick your bones today at
table."
"Well, I don't know," said Susy, "I an't a grain set upon
pickin bones, no how, but I recken I mout forget it."
I mused a moment, and then said, "As you sit next to
me, if I see you putting a bone to your mouth I will just
touch you with my foot, and that will make you remember."
"Sartain," said Susy, good-naturedly; "that's mighty
reasonable."
The dinner-hour arrived, and, as ill luck would have it,
Susy preferred a rib of roast pork to anything else: however,
I felt quite secure, as I perceived her assiduously cutting the
meat off. As the conversation became more animated, my
attention was withdrawn; at my next glance, I saw her with
both hands up, tugging at the bone in her mouth. I touched
her foot - with a wild kind of stare she let her hands drop,
leaving the long bone between her teeth!
Among the articles at the dessert were whips and jellies;
Susy eyed them keenly, and Lewis handed her a whip. As the
pure white bubbles stood high in the glass, she inserted her
spoon into the froth, and then introduced it heaping into her
mouth, expecting to taste a solid and tangible morsel. Susy
started, set down the glass, shook her pocket-handkerchief,
looked in her lap, pushed back her chair, felt of her flock,
examined the floor, and then said, in a low tone -
"Well, if that truck an't gone mighty curious."
I hope it will be understood that not a particle of contempt
is intended in this sketch; for, while aiming to present
a picture of manners, it is as unphilosophical as ill-natured
to view local relations with so narrow an eye. The class of
persons whom I describe are everything they should be in
their own sphere; they maintain in the duties of domestic
life simplicity and honesty, and, should danger threaten our
country, none would be more forward than they to protect
and defend her. No foolish ambition carries them voluntarily
into society unsuited to their unsophisticated habits; and,
when circumstances throw them into such circles, they
preserve their own individuality. Nor does this sketch
touch that class of persons at the South who, though
removed from cities, possess the cultivation of the
metropolis without its cares and vanities.
If it were not too obvious that Providence has balanced
the pleasures and evils of every grade of human beings, I
might say that this latter class are the happiest in the world.
With wealth to procure means of education, and to enjoy it
when obtained, they live in a little region of their own; nor
are they in solitude and ignorance; though secluded, their
hospitable doors are open to friends, and the frequent
traveller brings to their tranquil abodes the softened echo of
the world.
The following morning Miss Slute requested me to
accompany her brother and herself to make some purchases
in King-street. I could give no excuse for declining, but
consented with as good a grace as possible
and, beseeching Anna to accompany us, I ordered the
carriage, though for so short a distance. What was our
consternation to see Susy come down stairs with a stiff new
white lace veil, reaching nearly to her feet, tied over her
cracker bonnet. Anna and I entered the carriage in silence,
shrinking back as our friends, in their eagerness to see
everything, leaned from the windows. In King-street we
alighted, Susy and her brother taking hold of hands and
walking in front of us. On entering a shop they perceived
that they had lost the memorandum for their purchases, and
disagreed about the articles and the quantity. Anna and I
gave ourselves up in despair for
a while to their erratic movements, and then proposed
returning to the carriage, but alas! in darting from shop
to shop the coachman had lost us. Fashion and business
began, as usual, to throng King-street; and many a glance
was cast at our guests, as, hand in hand, they preceded
us, frequently speaking our names aloud. At length
Lewis discerned us; he smoothed down his face with a
comical look and joined us.
"Can you think of no way," whispered I, "to get us
out of King-street?"
Lewis laughed at my perplexed look, and answering
"Oh yes," turned to Mr. Slute, reminded him that he had
promised to show them St. Michael's steeple, and asked
him if he would like to go now.
"Well, I don't know," said Mr. Slute, "I don't care
if I do."
We left King-street, Susy and her brother taking hold
of hands, and Lewis following with Anna and me. Not
far from St. Michael's corner sat a black woman, with a
stock of gingercake, molasses candy, &c. to sell, over
which she waved a fly-brush of palmetto. In front of us
was a group of young men, among whom I started at
distinguishing Arthur Marion. At this moment we were
hailed from behind by Mr. Slute and Susy, who had
bargained for a large square of the gingerbread, and were
asking us to partake of it. They had joined us, and
were pressing it on us, when Marion and another
gentleman, advancing from the group, passed us. It was in
vain for me to see as though I saw not; I felt the blood
rush to my face, and saw a glow of recognition kindle up
on his, although there was no other movement of
acquaintanceship.
Mr. Slute resumed his walk, munching his cake, and,
as I glanced back, I saw that Marion and Mr. Elliot had
turned and were following us. As we stopped under the
portico of St. Michael's, while Lewis went opposite to
the guard-house to procure the key of the church door,
they passed us slowly, and another full glance told me
that I was recognised, but whether as the lady of the
ditch or the lady of the ball I knew not. Marion and
Elliot suppressed a smile as they saw the
gingerbread-eaters, while Anna and I stood like two
victims, blushing to the eyes. They passed on; but, as the
guard-man opened the door for us to enter the church, I
ventured one more look. Marion and his companion were
turning towards the building, and, as we commenced
ascending the stairs, I heard his mellow voice and Elliot's
gay laugh below.
LEWIS, accustomed to the way, with Anna under his
protection, rapidly preceded us. We followed more slowly,
and were soon in utter darkness on the spiral stairway. I was
not aware that there was only room enough for one person
to go at a time, neither had I given a thought to the
steepness of the ascent, nor to the excessive gloom and
solitude, exciting, in almost every inexperienced visiter, a
peculiar sensation. My agitation was not unmixed with
terror, and yet I was disposed to laugh, as a relief to the
apprehension that lay like a weight upon my senses, as we
wound round and round, feeling our way at every step.
Lewis and Anna were soon far beyond our hearing and
observation, and the scene suited well his eccentric nature.
He heeded not the darkness, and Anna soon forgot it too.
Love held a torch brighter than sunbeams; and, as he
supported her slight figure, he almost fancied the blush that
mantled on her cheek, and he fancied not,
but he felt, the trembling of her hand as he urged his
hopes.
"Speak to me, Anna," whispered he; "let me hear your
voice now, alone and solitary, before the world comes
between to break the spell! Speak, dearest! Let me hear you
in this darkness say, that in the darker walks of life I shall be
your companion. Say that I may aid you on your way, and
that you will soften mine with your tenderness. Speak but
one word, now, now, that word will be a light to my soul."
Anna did murmur a word, and the light broke from the
belfry windows, and revealed a look that spoke still more.
"Blessed augury!" said Lewis; "so shall your love shine
out on my existence."
No one can imagine, without actual experience, how
long appears the really brief period of darkness in ascending
the first flight of that tower. Mr. Slute and Susy were just in
advance of me, and my own express signs of excitement
were soon suspended by her more violent alarm. At length
she burst forth in hysterical shrieks, and came to a complete
stand.
"I an't a going a grain farther," sobbed she; "you mout
as well a' put me in my coffin at once't as to bring me to
this pisonous hole."
"'Tan't no use to talk about it now, any how," said Mr.
Slute. "It won't help you none to stay there squealing like a
stuck shote. If you don't choose to let me tote ye up, you
must let it alone." So saying, he ascended the stairs, still
calling on Susy to follow.
But Susy, frightened beyond all control, spread out her
hands helplessly in the darkness to feel for me, crying out -
"Poor, poor Susy Slute's buried alive! Poor me! What
shall I do?"
I spoke to her as soothingly as possible, but without
effect; she would neither advance nor return, but
seemed in an ecstasy of terror.
At length I heard a voice close behind me. "Can I
be of any assistance here?" it said. "If my name is any
pledge of my good-will, it is Arthur Marion."
"Thank you, sir," said I, exceedingly embarrassed at the
preposterous predicament in which I was again placed, and
bewildered with the darkness.
"What is the lady's name?" asked Marion.
"Miss Susan Slute," I replied.
"Miss Susan," said he, encouragingly, "you have only
about fifteen steps to go to reach the platform, where it will
be light; let me count them for you as you ascend. One -
that is right," continued he, as he heard our dresses rustle;
"two - three - you are going on bravely now" - and he
spoke as a tender parent would address a timid child, until the
glimmering light above stimulated her to more exertion, and
we reached the bell-room, where, throwing herself on a seat,
she recovered from her alarm. But nothing would induce her
to proceed; and, stating to the gentlemen that I preferred
remaining with her until her brother's return, they left us and
ascended another flight.
The delicacy of Marion's manner was not lost on me.
What refinement, what goodness was in every look and
tone! Again my heart whispered, "Charles Duncan would
have loved him!"
It was not long before Mr. Slute returned. Susy's
entreaties to go home were too earnest to withstand; and, as
he stated that the next flight of stairs was lighted
throughout, I parted from them in pursuit of Lewis and
Anna, whom he had left in the second balcony.
Though no longer in darkness, the excitement was
intense from my loneliness, and it appeared to me that I
should never reach the first balcony. When I had attained
the spot I resolved to wait for Lewis and Anna; and, as I
turned to gaze on my own fair city, a thrill of
astonishment and delight ran through me at its beautiful
proportions.
On either side, the Ashley and Cooper, gently swelling to
the sea, or twining off in silvery streams to the woodlands,
shone in the sunbeams; the blue sea rocked the masts at
the wharves, or extended its broad surface
for vessels that stood with their spread sails, like eagles
plumed for flight; the flag of Fort Moultrie waved in the
distance; and nearer, Castle Pinckney sat like a swan upon
the waters. I looked below; a map seemed spread before me. I
felt like a being of another sphere; like something apart
from the human machines who were moving noiselessly
and voicelessly to me, reduced by distance to a speck amid
their own creations.
I sat quietly expecting Lewis and Anna, until their delay
startled me; and then I smiled as I thought of the absorbing
character of their intercourse, and perhaps I smiled the more
as a glance at the Ashley reminded me of former scenes
upon its banks, when I was Lewis's heroine.
I now resolved to ascend another flight of stairs, and meet
them on the highest balcony. I had taken but a few steps
before my heart began to beat violently. I could almost hear
its throbbing, the stillness was so profound. I was confident,
however, that they awaited me there, and quickened my
steps, though dizzy with the increasing height, and agitated
by undefinable alarms. I reached the second balcony, certain
that Lewis and Anna would spring to meet me. They were
not there. I called their names; I ran with the steps of a
frightened fawn around the pilasters, with a faint hope at my
heart that they might have hidden themselves in a
frolicsome humour. They appeared not; again, in agony of
spirit, I shouted, "Lewis! Anna! for mercy's sake come to
me!" My voice melted in that vast height, a hundred and
twenty feet from the earth, like a snow-flake on a stream.
How the feelings colour objects! There shone the heavens
in their broad sweep of majesty, calmly, beautifully blue,
looking down upon the earth; there lay the earth, with its
green bosom open to the sky; the rivers still wound to the
sea, like loving children to a mother's arms; the sea
expanded its broad surface, while near and remote sails
stiffened in the breeze; the city slept in quiet distance
below, and man moved there still, the lord of the creation. I
heeded them not; they even seemed to mock my growing
terrors; while the winds, as they
swept round the tower, brought shrill and terrific voices to
my ear, and, as they died away fitfully, my pulses sank and
my limbs trembled.
My last resource was to ascend the spire. There again was
deep darkness. I shrank back; and yet the hope that,
ignorant of my separation from my companions, Lewis and
Anna were secreted there, urged me on. I took a few upward-
steps, and my brain reeled in the felt gloom. Again I cried,
"Lewis! Anna!" but not even echo returned a sound. At length
the thought flashed through my mind that they had gone
down without perceiving me in the first gallery, which, from
its extent and octagonal form, they could easily have done,
and, presuming that I had descended with Mr. Slute, had
probably left the tower. At this idea my brain snapped with
the intensity of my alarm; strange lights seemed to dance in
the obscurity. Once more I screamed "Lewis! Anna!" No
sound replied to my cries; my voice grew hoarse with my
efforts; seconds seemed like years. I attempted again to
move forward; I groped about with a wild impulse, beating
the air in the horrible uncertainty, and fell.
When Marion and Elliot descended the stairs from the
pigeon-holes, they found me insensible at the entrance of
the balcony. On recovering I perceived Marion supporting
me, while Elliot stood fanning me with his hat. I must have
been stunned with the fall, for I could not immediately
comprehend my situation, or feel power to move. I
afterward recalled their looks of terror and perplexity, but it
was many minutes before my consciousness was fully
restored. When it was, I started from my position - they
had taken off my hat, while my hair was loosed and fell
around me. In a moment I perceived the embarrassment of
my situation, and the blood seemed to rush in tingling
torrents through my frame. From extreme faintness I felt
my cheeks suddenly flushed with a glow of shame, and, in a
reaction from the silence of insensibility, I began to pour
forth a torrent of excuses, and thanks, and explanations: nor
was this all; nature claimed the tribute she so often calls
from the young, and I burst into tears.
Elliot was about to speak to me.
"Hush!" whispered Marion; "tears will relieve her."
I wiped my eyes and advanced to the stairs.
"Allow me," said he, without offering his arm, "to
precede you one step, to guard against dizziness as you
descend."
I followed passively; he said little, but occasionally
turned his head towards me with a look of the most
respectful inquiry, while Elliot, his usual
dégagée manner
quite subdued, followed us.
At the last flight, however, when we were in total
darkness, they both questioned me frequently, that they
might know if my strength failed me.
It was a singular circumstance, that in the previous
descent, as Marion kept his hand on the balustrades and
pillars for support, my diamond ring, glittering on his
finger, seemed to me a guide and comfort. It was now no
longer visible. I felt again sudden oppression; my voice
faltered, my limbs seemed to give way beneath me,
and I should have fallen, had not light and air broke in
from the portico and restored me.
Marion requested to see me home safely, and I went on,
debating with myself how to thank him. Nothing but
monosyllables could I muster, though my heart was so full.
That night, on my pillow, how many delightful things I
thought of which I might have said.
We reached the door, and I stammered out the very thing
I did not mean to say - "I must thank you for the past and
the present together, Mr. Marion. You seem to be destined
for my knight-errant."
He looked surprised, but smiled.
"I am not aware," said he, "of any past claim on my
chivalry; but, if you will allow me one for the future, I
shall feel honoured."
He bowed gracefully, and I saw by his manner that I
was still unknown except as the girl of the ball-room.
The door opened. Anna, with a look of surprise and
joy, flew to me and kissed my cheek, while Mr.
Marion walked on.
MRS. SIGOURNEY. A GAY group of bridemaids were assembled in that sunny
month, the month of April, around the toilet of Anna
Alston, fitting the slipper's neat proportion, or twining
orange-blossoms in her soft hair, or adjusting the floating
veil, and, as the jests of their light hearts went round, a
dimple would play in the delicate fulness of her cheek, or a
sigh, sweet and gentle as a summer breath floating over
roses, escape from her veiled breast, or a glance of such
mingled pleasure and reproach as rather excited than
checked her merry attendants, stole from her deep blue eyes.
Around her were kind manifestations of friendship - the
pure satin cushion, where pins, arranged in finished letters,
told "joy to the bride;"
the beautiful vase, through whose
transparency light came like thoughts through an ingenuous
countenance; perfumes, not needed by her whose breath was
fresh as infancy; books, sweet mementoes of intellectual
sympathy; jewels, glittering on her small fingers, save that
on which was to be placed the golden circlet, touching
emblem of the love which owns no termination; and
flowers, those fair and frail
gifts which were to tell to-morrow the moral of beauty and
decay.
When all was done that nature, whose dowry was so rich,
and art, which even dares to tint the bosom of a shell, could
do; when no jealous eye might detect an imperfection in the
snowy robe, or floating veil, or braided hair, Lewis was
summoned. He cast one proud, triumphant glance upon
Anna's moonlight loveliness, but withdrew it, for the
crimson flood rushed to her cheek and brow, and thrilled her
taper fingers, and made the white rose which she held
still paler.
Amid that brilliant group were two persons watching the
motions of the lovely girl with no common interest. Cely
her maid, and her old nurse Binah. A china toilet cup and
saucer, of classical proportions, with Anna's name in gilt
letters on the outside, were brought in as a gift from one of
Lewis's connexions. As old Binah took the cup from the
servant, she approached her young mistress with a solemn
courtesy and an upward look, and said,
"May God Almighty grant my
young missis for drink
out such a cup like dis in heaven."
*
Cely's thoughts were less spiritual. She evidently
deprecated the well-meant assistance rendered to the
bride, and whenever we interfered with any part of her dress,
quietly but instantly rearranged it.
The bridemaids presented the white favours to the
groomsmen, and we were summoned to the apartments
below. They were decorated with branches of magnolia,
wild-orange, holly, and other evergreens of our woods, while
the graceful and odorous yellow jessamine was entwined with
their firmer foliage, and many a spring blossom peeped
between the glossy green.
The atmosphere seemed to breathe of Anna's presence;
the bright-wreathed flowers kindled up anew, and the light
softened as she moved onward. There was no eye but for
her.
The wide semicircle of groomsmen and bridemaids
* This
touching prayer was heard by the writer.
was formed; there was a hush - the solemn words were
uttered, and soon the parents of Lewis embraced their
daughter; and as she felt their twining arms and loving kiss,
she whispered, "I am no longer an orphan."
As first bridemaid, I was called upon to cut the cake,
which contained a ring. Many an eye was turned towards me,
for she who finds the ring in her portion will, it is said, be
the next bride. The girls eagerly took their share, and shade
after shade came over their smiling faces. I broke my slice,
and the ring fell on the floor. There was a gallant scramble
among the beaux who threw themselves at my feet to find
it. Did I fancy that he who was
successful lingered a moment
in his kneeling attitude while presenting it to me? Was it in
mere gallantry that he bowed his lips to the ring? -Was
there not something of reality in his gay address? Perhaps
it was imagination, but the youth was Arthur Marion, and
two weeks' acquaintance does wonders with young people.
"Will you exchange rings with me, Mr. Marion?" said I,
as we were promenading the piazza, in the pauses of the
dance, and jesting of my success. "I have taken a great
fancy to that diamond ring on your little finger."
He blushed like a girl.
"You will think me romantic, Miss Wilton,"
said he, "but
I have made a resolution never to part with this ring except
to the owner. I had not seen you,
remember, when I made
this vow."
"And who is the owner?" asked I. "I
have a right, in
my office to-night, to take some liberties."
He paused a while, and then said gravely,
"I am afraid you will laugh at me as Elliot does, but your
authority is not to be resisted."
After a little hesitation, he related the adventures of the
ditch. It was amusing to see the difference between his and
Elliot's representations. Marion even threw a shade of
romance over his heroine, but I could not preserve my
gravity. Marion looked graver still.
"You are amused, Miss Wilton," said he,
"at this detail,
and laugh almost as wickedly as Elliot; but, I assure
you, his ridicule has only stimulated me to shelter that
lady from the shafts of his wit."
"I know," said I, "that it would be too romantic in these
days to expect our heroines to come out as pure and
unsullied from a ditch as Una and her milk-white lamb; but
you must confess that your heroine was not in a very
interesting predicament."
"Every woman is interesting to me who requires my
protection," rejoined Marion.
"Should you know your heroine again?" said I.
"I am confident that I should know her person
anywhere," he replied. "Her face was concealed by her bent
hat and soiled veil; but her figure, which I gazed on until she
was out of sight, I think I should recognise in a crowd; and
on horseback I could not be mistaken in her. I have seldom
seen so symmetrical a form, at least not until very
recently," and he bowed and smiled.
"How was it that the negroes did not know the lady or
her attendants?" asked I.
"They were new hands," he answered, "and could tell me
nothing of them."
"What was the height of your lady of the ditch?" said I,
laughing.
"She was not as tall as you are," replied he, "but rather
nearer Mrs. Barnwell's size."
I started at the name. It sounded almost gratingly. I felt
half jealous that my friend should no longer be Anna Alston,
as she stood bowing to the various salutations, graceful as a
fringe-tree, whose white tassels wave in the clustering
forests.
"You are determined, then, not to exchange rings with
me?" said I, twisting my gold one on my finger.
He looked embarrassed.
"You cannot, I perceive," said he, "enter into my
feelings on this subject. I confess that they are foolishly
romantic; but my imagination has been so long enlisted, that
it is impossible for me immediately to divest myself of its
influence. If any one could wean me from the unknown lady
of my vow -" a few more words were
said in a low tone, but they were words of mere gallantry
and convinced me that his heart was with his vow, and
not with me.
I escaped to the drawing-room with some light jest, such
as often comes up, like the vapour of Niagara, from a
woman's heart, when a wild and struggling current is rushing
below. The ceremonious courtesy, the gay farewell, the
presented cake, soon occupied me, until each had received
their proper gift, and the last negro, with his written pass,
was treading the quiet streets of the guarded city.
Dreams are odd things. I was dreaming that night that the
Cham of Tartary had ordered his kingdom to be searched
for a lady whose great toe should be small enough to fit a
gold thimble. His chief governor, with his staff of office, was
superintending the thrusting of mine into its shining prison,
when the merciless city negroes, with their fiddles and
tamborines, came to salute the married pair with their
customary daybreak music. I roused Cely to throw them
their fee, and they departed; but I had lost the Cham of
Tartary's gold thimble.
I will make no lamentations over papa's old wine, nor
reflections on the conduct of young men who, forgetting the
sanctity of private life, think that a wedding, instead of
presenting a scene of solemn, and tender, and elevated
thought, must be a signal for intemperate revel; nor hint at
the frowning glances of those who were overlooked in the
invitations, nor at the petty scandal of those who were
there; it is sufficient that the morning sun rose brightly on
Anna, the heroine of the hour, and that her heart folded its
fluttering wing, and reposed in joy in her husband's love.
The bridal party left town that day for the Elms. Nature
was too in her bridal robe,
and glittered in April smiles
and tears, like her who was welcomed in tender
gayety to her new home.
At twilight music was heard approaching, and a large
party of negroes came with their instruments, singing a
welcome. They walked three times round the house,
playing, "Joy to the bride," "Come,
haste to the wedding,"
and other tunes. As they passed the door, some
of them peeped at us, but they were too bashful to enter; at
length one old woman gained courage to come in, and,
dropping a courtesy, handed Anna a calibash of eggs. Anna
shook hands with her, and, at Lewis's suggestion, who told
her that the people would not retire until they saw her, she
went to the piazza.
They were delighted with her appearance; eggs were
handed her in all directions, and they renewed their songs
and dances.
Among the number, though a little apart, stood a young
woman with an infant. She appeared not to notice the departure
of the others, but lingered by the steps, dancing her infant
in her arms, uttering unintelligible sounds; while as she
pointed now to Anna, now to her infant, her face wore a
pleasant smile.
"Poor Bella!" said Lewis, "she
is deaf and dumb."
As Bella turned to go, some wild boys among the
people, who had been excited by the music and dancing,
came to her and threatened, half playfully, to take her
child from her arms.
A howl, wild, long, and fearful, burst from the dumb
creature as she clasped the baby more closely to her
bosom.
It was not the last time that I was to hear that cry.
MRS. HEMANS' English
Martyrs. A WEEK had flown as weeks will flee with the young and
happy, when Lewis was summoned away on business, to
return, however, the following day. I need not describe the
parting caress, the laughing delay, the half-bashful recall,
hand lingering in hand, the jest mocking the sigh, and the
smile struggling with the tear. Who has not loved? Who
has not parted?
At length, with spirits elastic as boyhood, he sprang over
the balustrade, gathered a sweet rose, and, shaking the dew
from its petals, passed it between the railings to Anna, and
said,
"Put it in your hair, dearest; there is another on the stem
which will bloom to-morrow; come here in the morning and
gather it for my return."
Anna smiled as she placed the rose in her hair, and
her blush was as richly tinged as the flower; yet even for this
short parting her heart was full, and the smile of her lips was
subdued by the sudden sadness of her eyes.
Lewis mounted his horse, and his gaze said, as
plainly as words could do, that she was all the world to
him - and this is no faint test of a woman's power; for if
there is a moment when a youth forgets everything in
creation but himself, it is when, standing before an admiring
group, he pats his noble steed, leaps to the saddle, sits erect
as Olympian Jove, and then springs away before the free air
of heaven.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
The sight of his parting glance lingered long upon my
thoughts; and often, in after years, has it risen to me, its
brightness sadly contrasted by his fate, like sunshine on a
ruin. I have since dwelt until thought became agony on the
probable circumstances of that day. I have fancied the full
stream of joy that gushed up in his heart, as he rode
cheerfully along the avenue of his paternal home where the
oaks, throwing their vast arms from side to side, their mossy
drapery waving in the air, rustled a kind farewell; while the
Ashley, with its clear waters, looked from its wooded banks,
and bade him God speed, and the far sky that blesses all
pierced the thick boughs above, and smiled upon his way. I
have fancied the older negroes (for he was their pride)
greeting him with respectful salutations, and the younger
ones (to whom he was both a terror and a playmate) turning
up their white eyes with a smile of familiar recognition as
they sought the sunniest bank. I have fancied him
communing with his own heart (for his feelings were as
strong in good as in evil), pondering schemes of
benevolence, in which Anna was to be his dear assistant, and
looking forward to a sphere of usefulness and happiness.
I have since dwelt on the terrific change in this dream of
joy. I have imagined, until the figures stood before me with a
reality that made me shudder, his encounter with an enemy.
I knew too well the whirlwind of his passions. I had seen
him, when a boy, dash himself on the ground and clinch the
grass, when his will was thwarted - I had seen his hand raised
in sudden impulse against an inferior - I had heard him in
manhood curse one of the purest and best beings that ever
walked in the likeness of God, and I felt that such passions,
if not restrained by the gentle teachings and strong inward
power of Christianity, might work his ruin. I have mused on
these things painfully, fearfully. I have fancied a death-struggle
on that day in the forest without an observer, save
the lofty trees in their cold grandeur; a cry unanswered but
by the moaning winds.
Poor impetuous Lewis! a moral rises from your
nameless
grave - the Ashley murmurs it in its gliding
current, once perchance tinged with your blood; and the
forest-breeze whispers in the thoughtful ear a warning to
ungoverned passions.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
On the morning after his departure, Anna gathered the
fresh rosebud, and twined it in her hair. As I saw her beaming
eyes turned to the avenue, I felt that her loveliness was not
for the crowd, but for retirement; that retirement where the
student should sometimes sojourn to pour out the
breathings of unnamed hopes; where the wordly should look
a while at what God has done; and where romantic youth
should still its volatile pulses, and feel in nature the nerving
presence of Divinity.
The day passed - twilight approached, and Lewis came
not. Anna walked the piazza with a restless step. She touched
her guitar, its notes were sickly; her kitten rubbed its silken
fur against her ankle, Anna gave her no answering caress; she
sang a few notes of a song, they sank into a sigh.
"Let us go and meet him," said she, impatiently.
Followed by our attendants, we strolled arm in arm
through the avenue. We reached its termination, and
strained our eyes through the increasing gloom. No moving
object was visible but the cattle gleaning the springing
herbage. Darkness settled quietly over the heavens,
unconscious of the saddened hearts it shaded; star by star
looked down from above; the owl sounded from the distant
thickets, and the nearer whippoorwill uttered her sad lament.
Anna and I returned in silence. Was there a presentiment of
evil? She burst into tears, and Anna rarely wept. I cheered
her, and twined my arms around her, and told her of the
thousand causes that might delay our Lewis, and kissed her
precious forehead, and wiped her tears, but still they flowed.
Days rolled on, and no tidings were gained of the
wanderer. The forest was searched while a ray of hope
remained. Its picturesque loneliness was broken by friends
straining their eager eyes for a relic of their lost
favorite; by mercenaries, who sometimes forgot the
promised reward in interest for the noble youth; by Indians,
fleet of foot and keen of sight, who were employed in the
pursuit; and not seldom were seen in those gloomy woods
two females, whom once the hare on its track would have
startled, but who boldly braved that solitude for him.
Poor Anna! she ceased to eat, to sleep; her only relief was
in exploring the untracked woods. A feverish restlessness
wrought on her soul and body. The voice, the footstep of a
messenger sent the blood with an electrical rush to her
face, which melted away again to paleness. Her eyes were
wandering, and her words few, as we rode on horseback
through the forests for hours, attended by Selim, a faithful
family servant. Often, wearied out with penetrating the
gloomiest spots in silence, I besought her to return; but her
cheer kindled and her voice rose in anger, and I had not the
heart to thwart her.
A few days passed thus, and I was terrified by the
increasing eccentricity of her movements; at length, one
day, when a few miles from home, she called me to her,
with a mysterious but fixed look, and I guided my horse close
to hers. It was a bright, clear morning, the birds were singing
among the trees; our woods were glowing with flowers, and
yet she said, whispering,
"I am weary of looking for him in this darkness. I see
chattering faces peeping from behind every tree, mocking
me; but I have a voice left; I can call him, cousin." Then
straining every nerve, she began to shout the name of Lewis
in long, piercing, unsuspended accents. The echoes took up
the shrill and fearful sound, and the woods were vocal with
his name. I entreated commanded her to be silent; she
heeded me no more than the winds among the pine tops; still
went up the cry, and echo still shouted back the name.
I dismounted, and called old Selim to assist me in taking
her from her horse; she was passive, but still her shrieks
rent the air and curdled my inmost soul. I sat on the grass
and took her in my arms; I reasoned with
her; I called her by every endearing name; I laid her head
on my bosom; I pressed my hand gently over her
starting eyes, and smoothed the glossy waves of her
beautiful hair; it was useless; still rang the cry - then my
tears fell fast upon her face, and old Selim' kneeling by her
side, prayed aloud.
At length, a sudden instinct prompted me to bend my lips
to her ear and sing the name of Lewis. I chose a plaintive
Methodist air, in which he had often joined with us on
Sabbath evenings, uttering only his name. Gradually her
voice lowered - sank to a murmur - she was still - she
slept.
From this day she sank, oh how rapidly! It is fearful to
trace decay in one so young, and who had been so fair. No
bright hectic lighted up her cheek; no light brightened in her
eye, the destroyer laid his hand cold, hard, and sudden upon
her frame: her form shrivelled; her feet shrank in her small
slippers; her lips were pale; her eye became glassy and dim;
her fingers stood out lean and blue from her white robe; and
when her wedding-ring fell, she was too feeble to regain it; a
harsh contraction gathered on her polished brow; she spoke
but little, and then gasped forth hurried words, hoarse and
thick; oh how unlike the silver tones of her happier days!
She daily tottered to the spot on the piazza where she
parted from her young husband, and broke buds and
leaves from the bush whence he gathered his last rose. It
had risen in spring luxuriance, and thrust its foliage through
the paling. When too feeble to visit the piazza, her easy-
chair was drawn to the window, where she could gaze on it;
and there she sat, uncomplaining and unenjoying, except
when a rose was brought to her, and then her white lips
would open with a piteous smile as she placed it in her
neglected hair.
We talked to her of heaven, of her duty. Alas! her mind
was a wreck; the golden bowl was broken! Her look was
never upward; it was still, still on the summer rose-bush.
We removed her to Springland as the sickly season
advanced. It was heart-breaking to see her look back to the
rose-bush as she was lifted to the carriage.
One day a stranger came and presented me unexpectedly
with Lewis's pocketbook. He had found it when hunting by
the river's bank, at some distance from the main road. He
stated that the bushes were crushed near the spot, and deep
indentations, as of struggling footsteps, in the soil.
I gave it to Anna; she uttered a thrilling scream of joy,
grasped it with her poor hands, and looked wistfully in my
face.
"Open it, dearest," said I; and the tears fell fast from
my eyes. "It is our own Lewis's."
She unfastened the strap with her feeble fingers, and
taking out each paper, one by one, glanced at them as if
they were familiar to her, until she saw one written in
pencil. It bore the date of his departure, and was evidently a
romantic burst of his thoughts in the solitude of the forests.
Anna began to read the following stanzas aloud, her
voice, broken and husky at first, gradually strengthened with
the unusual effort, until it resumed something of its natural
sweetness; and had it not been for her ghastly paleness, there
would have been something too in her eyes of that
expression, which once melted every beholder.
"I did not know that my Lewis was a poet," said
Anna; and one of the sad smiles she gave only to her
roses passed over her features as she laid the paper next her
heart.
Slowly her reason began to gather; large tears rolled
down her cheeks, and sighs, so deep that her frame shook
with the effort, rose from her breast.
She spoke little; but her eyes were upraised, her hands
clasped as if in prayer; and from this moment a secret
communication seemed established between herself and
Heaven.
She never smiled again. I am wrong - the night before
her death she beckoned me to her, and taking from her
bosom Lewis's stanzas, she showed me his withered rose in
the paper's folds, and smiled.
Death had little to do to crush her shattered frame;
he checked the last blue veins that lingered on her
temple; he severed the almost imperceptible clasp with
which she retained my hand; he cast a film more
dense over her azure eye, which, with its last look, sought
mine; and the throbbings of one of the softest hearts that
ever ached under the burden of earth's woes were still.
She only whispered -
"I wish I could have shared his lonesome grave."
That midsummer's sun shone on hers.
"Death is beautiful - not as the end of man, not as the
extinction of a noble and wonderful being, not as the final
result and close of existence, but beautiful in its time, as the
momentary passage to a fairer land; the extrication of the
soul from its temporary dwelling-place; the resting of the no
longer needed body; the free ascent of the delivered spirit to
its new abode." - G. PUTNAM.
IT is a solemn thing when death passes over our homes.
Let who will depart, whether it be the infant, whose faint
eye scarcely opens on the creation which it is so soon to
leave, or the old man, whose orbs, weary and dim, are closed
on familiar objects, or the maiden, with the rose bursting on
her cheek, and her careless step treading lightly on the earth
which is so soon to receive her, or the young man, with
vigorous frame and active mind, looking thoughtfully into
the mysterious and the true; whether it be the father,
towards whom his family turn like flowers to the
sunbeam, or a mother, whose smile, like daylight, was
scarcely felt in its constancy until it was withdrawn; no
matter which of life's varied relations is broken; no matter if
it even be a stranger, who, without claim but that of
hospitality, comes to your threshold and gives up his
lonely spirit to God's
higher household, away from his own hearth-stone, still it is
death - there is its stillness - its shroud - its fixed and pale
repose; the voice tells not its wants - the eye knows not.
We bend over the stiffened form, and turn away, and come
not again, for it is death; perchance we lift the bloodless
hand, or smooth the straying hair - but only once, for it is
death, and we are chilled. We tread lightly - yet the dead
hear not. Why does the boy stop his whistle as he passes
that door? Why does the housemaid quicken her step and
shade her eyes just there as from a phantom?
Is there no way to render death less dark and unlovely?
Were it for me to draw its image, the fleshless bone and
the darkened scull should no longer image forth its horrors,
nor the hourglass and the scythe be its emblems. It should be
sad, for death is sad - not horrible. It should be dressed like
night, with dark and flowing robes, and solemn, perhaps
uncertain step; but, like night, with the new moon lighting
up her sombre mantle, and distant stars, images of far-off
life, looking down on her brow. Sin is unlovely - is
monstrous; but death should only be unlovely when allied
with her.
And yet I felt its bitterness. Anna was gone. My
heart stretched forth its tendrils and they fell,
unsupported by her sweet sympathy. Her voice, so gentle in
its youthful joy, was hushed; her eye, so full of the deep
revelations of love and truth, was closed for ever; her
step, light as the motion of an elastic flower, was arrested;
and thus it fares, one by one, with all whom we love: but
it is well for us; "the branches are lopped from the tree,
that the trunk may fall more easily."
I was sitting, a few evenings after Anna's death, in
the piazza, musing on her fate. This had been a favourite
spot and favourite hour with Duncan. Throwing aside books,
he taught me from the great books of nature: he had
anticipated such moments as the present for me; he had
told me of the probability of crushed affections and blighted
hopes. He drew morals from surround objects; for even from the
vacancy and barrenness of a pine-land settlement, his mind
extracted instruction - his
rich mind, whose spiritual chymistry could convert
earth's vapours into heaven-tinged clouds; and now
those clouds, hidden to my eyes by the recent glare
of worldly fashion, came rolling back in their
mellowed brightness. Beautiful force of virtue, which, though
sunk beneath life's horizon, throws up its rays long after
its orb has disappeared! and let not the good spirits who
labour on the ground of the human heart be discouraged; the
seed will take root, some blessed words
will shoot down
into the soil of the affections, and spring up in after years.
There is something picturesque in the evening hour at a
pine-land village. A few trees are cleared away, affording just
sufficient room for a house, whose whitewashed palings
contrast prettily with the dark hue of the pine; from ten to
thirty of these constitute a village, where planters reside
during the summer months. A fire is kindled at twilight, of
brush or lightwood knots, near every house, which, while it
drives away insects gives a cheerful illumination to the
scene.
These lights had just begun to blaze, one by one, in the
growing shadows of night, while the paler hue of summer
lightning broke in fitful lustre between the trees. Here and
there might be seen a negro, his dusky form in full relief
against the glare of the blazing light; or young ones, dancing
and singing around the fire, presenting grotesque images of
thoughtless happiness; or a procession of neighbours,
preceded by linkboys, passing for a festival or a religious
service; while their cheerful human sounds broke pleasantly
the song of the night-bird, or the unwearied talk of the winds
in the pine-tops.
As I mused deeply, with my head resting on the window-sill,
a string of Anna's guitar broke within. How trifles
sometimes touch the soul! I lived an age in the little time
until its awakened vibrations died away in silence; but they
did die, and grief gathered up its unexhausted stores, and I
wept.
An approaching step made me dry my tears, but they
flowed again, for it was Marion's - he who had seen our
Anna enthroned on love's temple, breathing the
atmosphere of hope and joy.
And Marion, God be thanked, destroyed not the
precious lesson of affliction which the Father wisely sent
for his untutored child; no light or careless word from
him won me back to earth; the glow of religious thought
was in his eye - a holy consolation in his reasoning. He
drew me away from Anna's grave - from its loneliness
and decay, but not to the world; not to that broken
cistern, but to the spiritual fountain of Christian faith.
Let young men be careful of woman's highest
interests. In those moments of prepossession when her
heart and mind instinctively turn to model themselves on
his, whom God has made of stronger fabric, let him not
sap those foundations of religious trust which may hereafter
be dearer to him than her young loveliness, and which, when
that loveliness has faded in the dust, will bloom and ripen in
a better world.
Marion breathed not a word of love or preference, but I
felt elevated by his sympathy, by the thought that he
considered me worthy of it; and when he departed that
evening there was a rustling as of happy wings unfolding in
my inmost heart, and I was comforted.
But still my spirits and health failed under the immediate
influence of Anna's loss, and papa, believing that our
retirement rather increased than softened my regrets,
proposed a change to Sullivan's Island. Springland was but too
obnoxious to the common charge against pineland
settlements, extreme dulness or extreme dissipation. There
were there, as there are everywhere else, well-tempered
minds preserving the equilibrium of virtue, but it is almost
impossible to secure a community from dangerous habits
in a territory, realizing in its monotony the satirical
description of an American poet: -
The planter misses the wide range of his fields, and his
wife and daughters the bustle of the city. Happy they, under
these circumstances, who shun, on one hand,
the unhallowed amusements of associated pleasure-hunters,
and the chilling influence of seclusion on the other.
How often have I blessed my needle for rescuing me from
the temptations which assail the other sex!
Bright and innocent little implement, whether plied over
tasteful luxuries, or gaining the poor pittance of a day, thou
art equally the friend of her whose visions tend to wander
amid the regions of higher abstractions, and of her whose
thoughts are pinned down to the tread-mill of thy minute
progress. Quiet rescuer from clubs and midnight revels, amid
the minor blessings of woman's lot, thou shalt not be
forgotten! Still come, and let thy fairy wand shine on her;
still lend an ambitious joy to the playthings of the girl; still
move unconsciously under the glittering smile of the maiden
planning thy triumphant results; still beguile the mother
whose thought roves to her boy on the distant ocean, or the
daughter watching by the sick-bed of one who has heretofore
toiled for her; still sooth the long, dreary moments of
faithful love; and, though a tear sometimes fall on thy
shining point, it shall not gather the rust of despair, since
employment is thy dower.
S. G. GOODRICH. BRYANT. THERE are no two scenes more widely different than a
pine-land settlement and Sullivan's Island. The hum of
business or pleasure now sounds at the Cove, but the more
remote part of it is lonely in the extreme. A plantation is
solitary; shut out from the noise of the world, surrounded by
a vast amphitheatre of trees, its occupants see little but the
wide fields around, the graduated foliage in the distance, and
the over-arching sky; but then the large negro family is
there, claiming and giving, in a thousand ways, human
recognition. A pine-land village is secluded; files of trees shut
out there even the sky; the world is heard not; the resident
rises to a monotonous routine, and sleeps but to rise for the
same quiet duties, or thrice-told pleasures; but still the
habitations cluster in comparative nearness; the night fire
blazes cheerfully; and oh, how faithfully does kind
neighbourhood come forth in sickness, and tell the sufferer
he is not in solitude. But there is little to soften the loneliness
of the more remote residences on Moultrieville. Our dwelling
stood alone, on a sandy eminence, with the broad beach in
the front distance, and wild myrtles scantily rising as a dwarf
shrubbery behind. Nothing was to be heard but the dreamy
dashing of the waves, or the curlew's cry;
nothing seen but what the ocean offered - the porpoise
raising its unwieldy form in the waters, the passing sail,
whose distance rather adds to the feeling of separation from
human ties, and the seabird winging its unwearied flight.
Yet in this solitude I breathed a free spiritual, as well as
physical atmosphere. I communed with the winds, and the
waves, and the stars, and they gave back answers to my
heart, thrilling, yet sobering. It was a joy to stand on the
beach, and see the setting sun with its glow of glory lighting
up sky and sea; to note the stars, as day declined, marshalled
in their shining courses, at first singly, then in countless
numbers; to watch the lighthouse beacon, man's faint
competitor with those higher watches; to see the young
moon rising with faint crescent, beautiful as growing youth;
to note its progress night by night, until it burst in silvery
radiance, making the dark waves glorious. And it was a joy to
feel in my inmost soul a capacity to appreciate what was
great and fair, to rise in bright abstractions, and throw from
me all that was earthly, and feel that my higher powers
would thus brilliantly light up, when the mortal part should
moulder in the grave; to clasp my hands in unuttered prayer,
to weep tears of sacred happiness. This was the privilege of
my new solitude, and my soul grew in the process; it was part
of the heavenly training by which, I trust, God is leading me
to a more spiritual existence. This is not romance; it is the
feeling of youth, and will be understood by minds not yet
fettered by the world.
There were other pleasures at the island not so elevating,
but more social, and almost defying solitude. I loved to see
my brothers and the young negroes revelling in the waves, as
Rover, intoxicated with delight, now dashing into the water,
now shaking his dripping sides, seemed to feel himself the
monarch of the scene, while little Patsey, carried by her
maumer, dipped her dimpled feet into the shallow wave;
then, clinging to her nursed neck, uttered a cry, half fear,
half joy; then grew more bold, until, with a shuddering
delight, she permitted the
coming waves to dash her limbs, gleaming through the
element like a rose-tinged shell.
Then what joyous shouts went up from the beach from
the boys' games, the skipping rope, the bounding ball, the
kite, while I searched for shells, or wrote, in idle musings,
names on the level sands, or rode on horseback on the
sea-washed plain, where the fresh breeze in my face inspired
health and spirits.
But life's pictures are not all sunny; clouds
will gather,
storms must rise, and whirlwinds sweep over our path.
There came occasionally from town to visit us an old
military friend of my grandfather's. It was a great pleasure to
us to hear Captain Hyam's stories, to stroll about the island,
as he painted out scenes of historical interest; and it was a
touching sight to see an old man, on that spot sacred to so
many patriotic associations, leading the boys' young minds
from their sports to their country's story.
One afternoon we strolled to the cove to observe the
arrival of the packet-boats, bringing from the city their
customary motley group. There were reclining invalids, with
their eyes shooting a sudden brilliancy, as the sea-breeze
swept over their languid brows; sickly infants, seizing the
first relished morsel; the happy and healthy, who would fain
add another tinge to a blooming cheek. There was the
mechanic, generously recreating his industrious family, the
professional man escaping from the stifling court-room, the
chamber of disease, or the secluded study, to feel the Atlantic
breeze, untainted by human breathing, and gaze on the clear
heavens and unfettered sea. I will not enter on this innocent
catalogue those whose motives are gross and impure, the
sensualist and the gambler, who dare to sojourn where God's
mercies rush by in purifying love, and whose stagnant souls
are untouched with sensibility by the wave or the breeze.
The younger passengers, scattered in various
parties, shouted in the fulness of excitement as they gained
the front beach; shoes and stockings were doffed,
pantaloons
rolled up, and, followed by their coloured attendants, they
sang and danced in the coming and retreating waves.
How happy were they all; true, there were no hills rising
in magnificence to meet the sky; no sloping fields winding
gracefully to the shore; no rocks stationed like
guardians round the coast; but there was enough that was
beautiful and glorious for the old, exciting and cheering to
the young. Generous boys and gentle girls in innocent joy
resorted there, gathered rough shells, and threw them in the
dark waters; greeted their conscious dog as he came dripping,
with some prize, from the surge; wrote sweet names on the
beach; ran and shouted in careless laughter against the breeze,
or mused on those thoughts which come even to childhood
from the bounding sea.
Captain Hyam was one of the passengers, and our boys
engaged him for a shooting ramble to the curlew-ground,
while I wondered how they could have the heart to disturb
the flight of the birds in their aerial processions, now
mingling as if for consultation, now extending in a pencilled
line, lengthening, until lost in the viewless air. I
remonstrated against destroying them, and won my cause, by
attaching to the captain's watch a riband, on which I had
wrought, in gold letters, 28th June, 1776.
Our good old friend consented to remain with us, and we
lingered on the beach, so delicious in its coolness after a
sultry day. Nature was as bright as our feelings. A few large,
pillowy clouds rested beneath the heavens, softening, but not
obscuring the declining autumnal sun; the city, with its spires,
rose in the distance; the lighthouse, beautiful emblem of
hope and safety, towered on one side; and on the other the
main, with its level verdure, seemed like a fringe of green on
the azure horizon. Pleasure-boats were darting from the
cove, the rocking skiff of the fisherman lay easily on the
waves, and the majestic merchantman passed through the
channel with its freighted stores.
Some there were who, on that day, had looked with
prescient fear on the clouds and fancied evil, and the
accustomed ear detected the roar of a distant swell upon the
ocean.
The clouds rapidly deepened at twilight, and the wind
rose, but we closed the shutters, and gathered round our
evening lamp without alarm. As we sat chatting at the
table, a sudden gust shook our dwelling, and a drizzling
rain began to fall; it increased; in an hour it poured in
torrents, and the building rocked like an infant's cradle. A
sudden silence prevailed among our circle, and we spoke
low, or uttered strong ejaculations. I was fearfully alarmed;
and as each gust came, with its roaring accompaniment of
angry waves, I could scarcely restrain my cry. I felt the
blood rush to my heart; my eyes seemed starting from
their sockets, and I covered them with my hands to shut
out, if I could, the threat of nature.
Suddenly the recollection of Charles Duncan's teachings
of God in his providence came to my mind. I remembered
how he had once gently drawn my hands from my eyes,
and told me that Heaven's best messages were sometimes
heralded by storms. I remembered this, and the spirit's
prayer was awakened, and a trust in God followed like a
brooding wing, spreading itself over my fluttering heart,
and though I trembled, I was calm.
A knocking at the door was heard in a pause of the
wind, and two individuals hurried in drenched with rain.
"How fortunate," exclaimed one, advancing, and
panting with his efforts, "to find you. My friend and I
were seeking his house in vain, and your piazza-light
guided us here."
It was Marion, and for a while I forgot the storm. But it
approached, and rose and rose like some living monster
preparing itself for a death-struggle, until the waves lifted
the piazza. It was no longer safe, and we looked abroad in
desperation, while our voices could scarcely be heard amid
the roar of the elements. Moving masses of ruins were
seen floating on the white foam; beyond, all was intense
darkness. Collecting the servants, we resolved to leave the
house by the back entrance, as yet not reached by the tide,
and attempt to gain the fort. Our dear little Patsey, still
sleeping in the arms of her nurse Binah, a strong and
active woman,
was in the centre of the group. The darkness seemed
supernatural, and we soon approached a gully, when the
tide was rushing on to intercept our way. For short time
a shout, a word of encouragement, a faint jest had been
heard, but this was now hushed; there was an awful pause,
too, in the elements; it seemed the nature was preparing a
nervous heave; and clinging to each other, we thought to
die together. It came - the gale rushed with ten thousand
voices, thundering on, roaring and raging over bursting
waves; we clung to each other still more firmly, but we
were parted as easily as gossamer tufts in the south winds
of summer: One arm I still felt grasping mine with a
nervous force, one voice was left to me, and it said, "We
must think of death - it is at hand; prayer is not new to
us, my dear Miss Wilton; God will hear us now."
We groped in the darkness, but rather sought to return
than advance, for we could see by the moving foam the
water was before us. We reached a building, and ascended
the steps; it was my own home, and no longer in
danger, for the wind had changed, and to the wave had
been said, Thus far shall ye go and no farther. By I felt
bereaved and desolate; there stood the remnants of our
evening meal; and the candles, lighted in so much mirth,
glimmered dimly in the wind that still rushed through the
crevices. I wept, I prayed, and the night passed by, oh,
how slowly!
The morning rose, and the sun shone down on that
scene of desolation. One servant never was found, but
the other members of the family had been variously preserved.
Some fishermen, at the early dawn, in ascertaining the
fate of their craft, perceived one of their boats high
on the sand, capsized, and resting on some timbers.
They raised it, and there lay Patsey, our little cherub,
wrapped in her nurse's apron, and sleeping in her arms.
But our venerable friend was gone. Amid the sad
revelations of that day, his form was recognised, but his
sleep was the sleep of death. Grasping his hickory
cane, his gray hairs wet with surf, lay the veteran on the
beach. We looked at him with tearful eyes; and as the
soldiers of the fort raised him in their arms, the sun
shone on his watch-chain, and the date of 1776 renewed
our tears.
A mournful and respectful train wound its way, with
military honours, by the curlew ground, to the myrtles;
the muffled drum mingling with air and sea, and the
minute guns with sad precision told the tread of death.
Fit was the burial. Let the worldling be laid amid the
city's hum, let the babe and the maiden rest beneath the
green turf, and flowers blossom over their grave, but
the heroes of the South - where can they find a better
monument than those hallowed sands, or a holier dirge than
that which sweeps over the spot sacred to our early fame?
Winter's Tale. ROSELAND once more assumed an air of elegance and
comfort; we resumed our old habits, brushed up and regilt
like the portraits of my grandparents, which were again
suspended from the walls; the friend was welcomed,
the stranger sheltered. I must confess there was a little
less ease than formerly, for everything was
new. Who has not in his life been checked and restrained
by the constantly-recurring exclamations, uttered in a tone
of tartness,
"My dear, take care of that paint!
My love, don't touch
those clean things!
My sweet
child, pick up those
groundnut-shells! My darling, why will
you let Rover
track the clean floors?"
This state of bondage to cleanliness lasted not long,
however, at Roseland. Gradually the children were seen
eating their sweet potatoes at all hours; the sight of Ben's
powder-horn and fishing-tackle excited no nervous alarm;
my music-books were allowed to be in angular instead of
parallel lines, and I was permitted to romp out of the nursery
with Patsey, while the house assumed that delicious position,
where an air of general neatness prevails, without a slavish
attention to minute wants, or a perpetual dread of doing or
touching something wrong.
I was amusing myself, one morning, by seeing Patsey's
efforts to get her big toe into her mouth, as she lay upon the
floor, for her figure was too rotund to admit of walking.
Puckering up her red lips with as intense an interest as if the
world depended on the effort, she at length succeeded, and
smacked them with a flavorous relish. As I began to frolic
with her, she showed her teeth, white as rice-grains, and her
round, fresh laugh rang out in musical peals; at length I
jumped over her. Binah, her nurse, caught me by the arm in
anger, exclaiming,
"What for you ben walk over my
child,*
Miss Neely? Just
go back same fashion, or my child an't gauin for grow no more
agen."
I was really obliged to skip back to pacify her, but I soon
offended anew by snatching her from her nurse's arms
through the open window, as I stood on the piazza.
"My lor, Miss Neely," cried her nurse, "how you ben do
sich a ting! Put Miss Patsey straight back; if you carry him
trou one door fore you ben put 'em back, he just keep
leetle
so!"
*
This appellation is constantly given by negro nurses to
the white children under their care.
It would be interesting to know the origin of these and
other superstitions. Perhaps they have some more rational
beginning is dreamed of in our philosophy. No nurse at the
South will allow a child to be carried to a looking-glass before
it is a month old, and its infant sneeze must never be
unanswered by "God bless you."
A little incident soon occurred to break the retirement of
Roseland.
Every man has some peculiar taste or preference, and, I
think, though papa dressed with great elegance, his was a
decided love of his old clothes; his garments, like his friends,
became dearer to him from their wear and tear in his service,
and they were deposited successively in his dressing-room,
though mamma thought them quite unfit for him. He averred
that he required his old hunting-suits for accidents; his
summer-jackets and vests, though faded, were the coolest in
the world; his worm-eaten but warm
roquelaure was admirable
for riding about the fields, &c. In vain mamma represented
the economy of cutting up some for the boys, and giving
others to the servants; he would not consent, nor part with
articles in which he said he felt at home. Often did mamma
remonstrate against the dressing-room's looking like a
haberdasher's shop; often did she take down a coat, hold it
up to the light, and show him perforations that would have
honoured New-Orleans or Waterloo; often, while Chloe was
flogging the pantaloons, which ungallantly kicked in return,
did she declare that it was a sin and a shame for her master to
have such things in the house; still the anti-cherubic shapes
accumulated on the nails and hooks, and were even
considered as of sufficient importance to be preserved from
the fire at the burning of Roseland.
Our little circle about this time was animated by a visit
from a pedler. As soon as he was perceived crossing the lawn
with a large basket on his arm, and a bundle slung across a
stick on his shoulder, a stir commenced in the house.
Mamma assumed an air of importance and responsibility; I
felt a pleasurable excitement; Chloe's and Flora's eyes
twinkled with expectation;
while, from different quarters, the house servants entered,
standing with eyes and mouths silently open, as the pedler,
after depositing his basket and deliberately untying his
bundle, offered his goods to our inspection. He was a stout
man, with a dark complexion, pitted with the smallpox, and
spoke in a foreign accent. I confess that I yielded myself to
the pleasure of purchasing some gewgaws, which I afterward
gave to Flora, while mamma looked at the glass and plated
ware.
"Ver sheap," said the pedler, following her eye, and
taking up a pair of glass pitchers; "only two dollars - sheap
as dirt. If te lady hash any old closhes, it is petter as
money."
Mamma took the pitchers in her hand with an
inquisitorial air, balanced them, knocked them with her small
knuckles - they rang as clear as a bell - examined the
glass - there was not a flaw in it. Chloe went through the
same process; they looked significantly at each other,
nodded, set the pitchers on the slab, and gave a little
approbatory cough.
"They are certainly very cheap," said mamma.
"They is, for true, my mistress," said Chloe, with
solemnity, "and more handsomer than Mrs. Whitney's that
she gin six dollars for at Charleston."
"Chloe," said mamma, "were not those pantaloons
you were shaking to-day quite shrunk and worn out?"
"Yes, ma'am," said she; "and they dont fit no how.
The last time the colonel wore them he seemed quite
onrestless."
"Just step up," said her mistress, "and bring them down;
but stay - what did you say was the price of these
candlesticks, sir?"
"Tish only von dollars; but tish more sheaper for te old
closhes. If te lady will get te old closhes, I will put in te
pellows and te prush, and it ish more sheaper, too."
Chloe and mamma looked at each other, and raised their
eyebrows.
"I will just step up and see those pantaloons," said
mamma, in a consulting tone. "It will be a mercy to
the colonel to clear out some of that rubbish. I am
confident he can never wear the pantaloons again; they
are rubbed in the knees, and require seating, and he never
will wear seated pantaloons. These things are unusually
cheap, and the colonel told me lately we were in want of a
few little matters of this sort." Thus saying, with a
significant whisper to me to watch the pedler, she
disappeared with Chloe.
They soon returned, Chloe bearing a variety of garments,
for mamma had taken the important premier
pas. The
pantaloons were first produced. The pedler took them in his
hand, which flew up like an empty scale, to show how light
they were; he held them up to the sun, and a half
contemptuous smile crossed his lips; then shaking his head,
he threw them down beside his basket. A drab overcoat was
next inspected, and was also thrown aside with a doubtful
expression.
"Mr. Pedler," said mamma, in a very soft tone, "you
must allow me a fair price, these are excellent articles."
"Oh, ver fair," said he, "but te closhes ish not ver goot;
te closhesman is not going to give me nothing for dish," and
he laid a waistcoat on the other two articles.
Mamma and Chloe had by this time reached the depths of
the basket, and, with sympathetic exclamations, arranged
several articles on the slab.
"You will let me have these pitchers," said mamma, with
a look of concentrated resolution, "for that very nice pair
of pantaloons."
The pedler gave a short whistle expressive of contempt,
shook his head, and said, "Tish not possibles. I will give two
pisher and von prush for te pantaloon and waistcoat."
Mamma and Chloe glanced at each other and at me; I was
absorbed in my own bargains, and said, carelessly,
that the pitchers were perfect beauties. Chloe pushed
one pitcher a little forward, mamma pushed the other on
a parallel line, then poised a decanter, and again applied
her delicate knuckles for the test. That, too, rang out
the musical, unbroken sound, so dear to the
housewife's
ear, and, with a pair of plated candlesticks, was deposited on
the table. The pedler took up the drab overcoat.
"Te closhesman's give nothing for dish."
Mamma looked disconcerted. The expression of her face
implied the fear that the pedler would not even accept it as a
gift. Chloe and she held a whispering consultation. At this
moment Binah came in with little Patsey, who, seeing the
articles on the slab, pointed with her dimpled fingers, and
said her only words,
"Pretty! pretty!"
At the same moment, Lafayette and Venus, the two little
novices in furniture rubbing, exclaimed,
"Ki! if dem ting an't shine too much!"
These opinions made the turning point in mamma's
mind, though coming from such insignificant sources.
"So they are pretty, my darling," said mamma to Patsey;
and then, turning to the pedler, she asked him what he would
give in exchange for the pantaloons, the waistcoat, and the
coat.
The pedler set aside two decanters, one pitcher, the
plated candlesticks, and a hearth-brush.
"Tish ver goot pargains for te lady," said he.
Mamma gained courage.
"I cannot think of letting you have all these things
without something more. You must at least throw in that
little tray," and she looked at a small scarlet one, worth
perhaps a quarter of a dollar.
The pedler hesitated, and held it up so that the morning
sun shone on its bright hues.
"I shall not make a bargain without that," said mamma,
resolutely. The pedler sighed, and laying it with the selected
articles, said,
"Tish ver great pargains for te lady."
Mamma smiled triumphantly, and the pedler, tying up his
bundle and slinging his stick, departed with an air of
humility.
Papa's voice was soon heard, as usual, before he was seen.
"Rub down Beauty, Mark, and tell Diggory to call out
the hounds."
There was a slight embarrassment in mamma's manner
when he entered, mingled with the same quantity of bravado.
He nodded to her, tapped me on the head with his riding-whip,
gave Patsey a kiss as she stretched out her arms to
him, tossed her in the air, and, returning her to her nurse,
was passing on.
"Do stop, colonel," said mamma, "and admire my
bargains. See this cut glass and plate that we have been
wishing for, to save our best set."
"What, this trash?" said he, pausing a moment at the
table - "blown glass and washed brass! Who has been fooling
you?"
"Colonel," said mamma, colouring highly, "how can
you -"
"I cannot stop a minute, now, wife," said he. "Jones and
Ferguson are for a hunt to-day! They are waiting at Drake's
corner. It looks like falling weather, and my old drab will
come in well to-day."
Mamma looked frightened, and he passed on up stairs. He
was one of those gentleman who keep a house alive, as the
phrase is, whether in merriment or the contrary, and we
were always prepared to search for his hat, or whip, or
slippers, which he was confident he put in their places, but
which, by some miracle, were often in opposite directions.
Our greatest trial, however, was with mamma's and his
spectacles, for they had four pairs between them -
far-sighted and near-sighted. There were, indeed, optical
delusions
practiced with them; for when papa wanted his, they were
hidden behind some pickle-jar; and when mamma had
carefully placed hers in her key-basket, they were generally
found in one of papa's various pockets; when a distant object
was to be seen, he was sure to mount the near-sighted, and
cry "Pshaw!" and if a splinter was to be taken out, nothing
could be found but the far-sighted ones, and he said
something worse: sometimes all four pairs were missing, and
such a scampering ensued!
We now heard a great outcry up stairs. "Wife! Chloe!
Cornelia! come and find my drab coat!" We
looked at each other in dismay, but papa was not a man for
delay, and we obeyed his summons.
"Wife," said he, beating aside the externals of man that
hung about his dressing-room, "where is my old drab coat?"
Mamma swallowed as if a dry artichoke was in her throat,
as she said, slowly, "Why, colonel, you know you had not
worn that coat for months, and as you have another one,
and a roquelaure,
and the coat was full of moth holes, I
exchanged it with the pedler for cut glass and plate."
"Cut devils!" said papa, who liked to soften an oath by
combinations; "it was worth twenty dollars - yes, more,
because I felt at home in it. I hate new coats as I do -"
"But, colonel," interrupted mamma, "you did not see
the scarlet tray, and the -"
"Scarlet nonsense!" shouted papa; "I believe, if they
could, women would sell their husbands to those rascally
pedlers!"
Beauty and the hounds were now pronounced ready. I
followed papa to the piazza, and heard his wrath rolling off
as he cantered away.
ROBERT BURNS. "Such I hold to be the genuine use of gunpowder, that it
makes all men alike tall. ***
" With respect to duels, indeed, I have my own ideas. Few
things in this so surprising world strike me with more
surprise. Two little visual spectra of men, hovering with
insecure enough cohesion in the midst of the Unfathomable, and
to dissolve therein, at any rate, very soon, make pause at
the distance of twelve paces asunder, whirl round, and
simultaneously, by the cunningest mechanism, explode one
another into dissolution." - Sartor
Resartus.
It is a lovely tie that unites brothers and sisters, when
the little jealousies of childhood are past. My brothers were
expected from college, and my heart beat with curiosity
and love. I practiced the tunes they used to prefer, decorated
their bedrooms with such trifling articles of taste as the
country-house afforded, ran again and again to the window
to watch their approach through the avenue, and glanced at
the mirror to see what they would think of me. They
came - John was unaltered, though of firmer fabric. His
chestnut curls still lay clustering on his head; he still idly
thrust his hand through them; they fluttered as they were
wont in boyhood, when the winds lifted their rich masses,
and shook as mirth and laughter stirred his frame. His saucy
eyes still looked archly into mine; his old jests were renewed,
and his laugh went round like a spell, while his teeth, in their
glittering whiteness, fairly fixed our eyes. The hounds knew
his whistle, the servants gathered around him to
receive the cordial shake of his hand, and every uncle
and aunty on the plantation was remembered. There was a
mixture of good-will and vanity in all that he did; one
could scarcely say which preponderated.
But Richard - one could see the growth of soul in his
whole exterior. His forehead had enlarged, and seemed
bleached by pure intellect; his light thin hair floated back as
though nothing should come between his mind-lit brow and
heaven. He was taller than John, and at the same time more
graceful and yielding. when his brother laughed he only
smiled, and the smile seemed in sympathy for John, and not
the ruffling of his serious spirit. There was a repose about
him that called one away from his external beauty, of which
he seemed unconscious, to his spiritual natures the sense of
which appeared ever present with him; not that power which
the world calls talent, and which sometimes leads to vanity, but
that sense of a connexion with a higher order of hidden creation,
which leads to a holy confidence in the Supreme Good. He said
little; but when he spoke we paused, and our eyes lingered on
him as his thoughts played on his lips after the voice had
passed away.
I could not be weary of looking at the manly growth
of my dear brothers, of twining John's rebel curls on my
finger, or parting the silken locks from Richard's thoughtful
brow. As evening approached we sat on the sofa, hand clasped
in hand, while mamma looked on us all in love; or I felt their
arms encircle me as they gave me a renewed look of approving
curiosity, or we listened to John's list of college troubles
and college exploits, and I glanced into Richard's eyes to
know if they were true. Papa too, his old reminiscences
brightening up, gave them his bygone experience, and they
chatted together of batter-puddings, whose affinities could
scarcely be conquered by a rebound from the floor to the ceiling;
Indian puddings, as faithful as the sun in their daily return;
rank butter, which disclosed, in its almost interminable kegs,
every evil of the palate, with scarcely the benefit of hope
at the bottom; milk, which, from its colour, seemed to be
under "skyey influences" rather than vegetable; coffee, whose
geographical experience never reached further than the beet-bed
of a Yankee garden; and tea, whose solutions would not have
agitated the sensitive nerves of "Fine-ear, who could hear
the grass
grow." Then came the stale jokes of a jest-book substituted for
the president's Bible; of the diffusion of hellebore by some
mischievous wight in the recitation-room, which occasioned the
whole class, tutor and all, to burst into fits of inextinguishable
sneezing; of the rolling of hot iron balls down entry stairs, to
be taken up by some poor unsuspecting martyr proctor; of all
sorts of fantastic excuses offered by idle and ingenious scholars
for their neglected lessons, disturbing even the gravity of to
the instructors; of strange mistakes committed in recitation,
some intentional and some unintentional, but all equally adapted
to provoke the shout of irresistible laughter; of hairbreadth
escapes and impudent subterfuges on the visits of tutors to noisy
rooms; of the summoning of two or three frightened freshmen to
a government meeting of sophomores and juniors, dressed up in
their gowns, and the awful sentence of suspension or rustication
passed upon the trembling and believing culprits; of the two,
three, four, or five dollars, according to the merit of the
composition, given to indigent but talented scholars, for writing
themes, and forensics, and commencement parts; of a thousand
other exploits, more adapted to a volume than a chapter, and
"thrice they slew the slain."
John fell naturally into his old pursuits; club dinners,
fishing-parties, and the chase soon occupied his leisure
moments, while Richard devoted his time to books and to
me. I soon perceived that the name of Randolph, a
classmate and neighbour who had returned with them, was
painful to Richard. Gradually, as we read together, or
penetrated our old haunts on horseback, or strolled at sunset,
kindling up our common sympathies at the altar of nature,
he opened his heart to me. Randolph had insulted him on
the voyage. John, in his ardent and careless way, had tried to
effect a reconciliation, and thought he had succeeded,
but Richard could only be satisfied by an apology. It had
been demanded privately since his return and refused, though
with explanations, and thus the beautiful repose of his spirit
was broken. In John's ease it would have been decided by "a
word and a blow;" but Richard's mental and physical
temperaments
were both different from his; and while John entered into
his favourite pursuits, Richard gave himself up to sensitive
and jealous misery.
The subject of duelling had been frequently discussed in
former years by papa and Duncan. Duncan thought it an
outrage on the law of God, and an impatient interference
with the political code of our country, which aims to
provide for the rights of its citizens. He argued that the
grievances between two private individuals ought not to be
placed in the scale against the nuisance of throwing whole
families and communities into terror, agitation, and
unspeakable distress; that it is full season for an enlightened
age to put down one of the most savage and foolish relics of
barbarous times; that a spurious and animal bravery is the
very highest sentiment which the practice promotes, while
a lofty moral courage is exercised in refusing, not in
accepting a challenge; that the most valuable lives are now
exposed to destruction whenever an unprincipled bully sees
fit to offer an insult; that, so far from the stain of dishonour
being effaced by duelling, it is generally engrained more
deeply, as is evinced by the fact that nothing is considered
more uncivil than to allude to a particular duel in the
presence of the surviver, or of the friends of either party;
that, according to the present practice, virtue, vice, honour,
infamy, truth, falsehood, are all made to depend on the
most factitious and contingent principle in the world, viz.,
the event of a combat - the lottery of the pistol; that the
conduct and the passions which are thus fostered seem
natural to wolves, not to human beings; that the most
valiant men of antiquity, the Cæsars, the Catos, and the
Pompeys, never dreamed of avenging their personal injuries
by private combats; that, since the most brave, enlightened,
and virtuous nations on earth have been entirely ignorant of
duelling, it is not essentially an institution of honour, but a
frightful and barbarous custom, worthy of its ferocious
origin; that, by a principle of false shame and the fear of
reproach, it transforms the best of men into hypocrites and
liars, and drives them out to murder the friends of their
youth and their bosoms, for an indiscreet
word which they ought to forget, perhaps for a merited
reproach which they ought to endure; that the duellist, by
a horrible refinement and reduplication of crime, unites at
once in his own person the character of murderer and
suicide; that the practice is not necessary to vindicate one's
reputation from the charge of cowardice, since every brave
man has opportunities to expose his life for the sake of his
country and of humanity; that no man of true sensibility can
ever expect to be serene and happy after having killed his
antagonist; and, finally. that genuine honour lies in
ourselves, not in the opinion of the world; that it is neither
defended by sword nor buckler, but by a life of integrity and
irreproachableness; and that this combat is more glorious
than any other.
Papa, on the contrary, advocated it as a check on the
violence of human passion, as well as on the meanness of
dishonour, and a salutary substitute for imperfect laws,
particularly in a thinly-populated country, where arbitration
is difficult, and the laws slow in their operation. He
maintained that the agony of enduring an inset, and
especially the scorn and contempt of society, are more
intolerable than all the evils arising from the practice of
duelling; and that the refusing to fight is an ambiguous
action, since cowards may pretend principle to shelter
themselves from a danger they dare not meet.
I had often listened with intense interest to these
discussions, and found myself leaning to what seemed to me
the heroic side of the question, when papa said one day to
Duncan, after a long argument -
"Could you, sir, condescend to bear an insult tamely?"
I felt my cheek flush as Duncan replied, calmly, "I would
trust to the laws of my country for redress, and never
violate what I think to be the will of God."
As papa gave the slightest possible whistle and turned on
his heel, I blushed deeper, but it was for Duncan; nor could
his calm and dispassionate arguments with me ever separate
the thought of cowardice from his views. Alas! I knew not
then how my lofty feelings would be tested!
"What shall I do, Cornelia?" said Richard, as we
struck into a retired foot-path, after pouring out our
souls
to each other as we were wont to do. "I feel the sting of this
insult rankling like a serpent's fang within me through the
day, and at night I see it branded in burning characters, in
waking darkness, and yet more hideous dreams. I see it in
every man's face calling me coward, and women seem to
me to shrink from one who cannot defend them. I have
tried to look all round this subject calmly, but it comes to
me like a nightmare."
We were thrown together in the company of Randolph. I
glanced at Richard, and soon saw a deep red spot gather on
his cheek; his lips were compressed, and his manner stately.
Randolph asked an introduction to me. I received him like
ice, for my heart was my poor Richard's, who sat silent and
reserved. Randolph became particularly gay; his wit flashed
out, and shone the brighter over Richard's clouds. In the
playfulness of his feelings he said things which a jealousy like
ours was not slow to misinterpret. We left the circle
abruptly.
"I can bear this no longer," said my brother, as he walked
on with rapid strides, and pressed his hand to his forehead.
"Randolph scoffs at me. I must have the satisfaction of a
gentleman. Even you despise me for my abject submission."
I was silent for a while, and then said, "I can bear anything
better than your disgrace, brother."
How little did it occur to me that I might have been a
medium of reconciliation instead of a desperate adviser! If
the right string had been touched in my brother's mind, all
would have been tuned to harmony, but my preconceived
views of physical courage overbalanced the claim of high
moral duty. Poor Richard! we went home; he threw himself
moodily on the sofa, buried his face in his hands, and,
rising, poured out his feelings anew in words of burning
anger.
Oh, woman, beware how you aid in inflaming the passions
of man! The courtesan of classic times won her judges by a
display of her personal charms, let your manifestation be
only of the bright and tender virtues; let not your influence,
either of person or mind, swell
the tempest of unlawful excitement. It is not my object here
to argue for or against quelling; that is the
province of abler minds; but I may venture to show how
female influence may "ride on the
whirlwind and direct the
storm" of masculine feeling for good or for evil; how the
genius of Christianity, or even worldly philosophy, quietly
exhibited in woman's gentle tones, may come with their
enlightening power, not for the avoidance of mere physical
pain, but with a serious regard to man's true dignity and
ultimate destiny. I warn my sex against inflammatory
expressions. Beautiful and graceful to the eye, can they be
hard and unforgiving? We wonder not that the coarse nettle
leaves its sting; but, when the flower that we carry to our
lips ejects its poison, grief and surprise are added to the pain.
Had I but given those "soft answers that turn away wrath,"
had I thought of how many good feelings in man's nature
may be operated upon - instead of stimulating the evil, I
might have been the blessed means of reconciling two noble
spirits. But I did not; my haughty soul would not stoop to the
thought that my brother should even inquire into the
motives of an aggressor. Stoop! mistaken term! The
peacemaker stoops not, but rather rises to a high moral
elevation, and looks calmly down upon the angry passions
that are floating beneath him.
A challenge was sent, unknown to any of our domestic
circle but myself. The meeting was to be on the following
morning, in a field two miles distant, at early dawn.
Papa and John were in the city.
Richard and I sat late in the piazza on that evening. We
spoke but little; we did not, as we were often, in the
fulness of our confidence, accustomed to do, clasp
each other's hands. The voices of our family seemed to
me like dreams and echoes rather than realities; to-morrow
was spoken of - it was as a vague image for a
moment - then the thought of its probable results
swept over me like a coming tempest. The family
retired to their quiet repose. Richard gave the little
ones no kiss, as usual, and answered not their
childish prattle; they all went, and we were left alone.
Then came the agony;
I could not let him go; I clung round his neck and
petitioned him to stay. I felt already like a murderer. I
offered to mediate - to do anything rather than expose a
human life to risk the untried possibilities of a future state of
being. Richard was affectionate, but firm.
"It is too late, my sister," he said. "Had
I been a little
more patient" (alas! what duellist has not had a moment
like this?), "I might have prevented this result. Perhaps,
after all, I have exaggerated this affair; but it is too late - to
stop now would be infamy. And now, Cornelia, for my last
charge. I have endeavoured to write to-day, but in vain. I
leave the commission to your tenderness."
As he said this, he handed me an unframed miniature of a
full-length figure, on which was written "Eliza." He had
showed it me before, but now it struck me with tenfold
interest. It was feminine almost to childishness, except the
eyes; but there beamed forth from those dark orbs a full-
formed soul, thirsting for intellectual food. The figure was
slight, symmetrical, and waving - one of those that seem
formed to lean on man's stronger arm: but the gazer on that
portrait turned, as by a spell, and rested on those large dark
eyes, beaming in glittering softness, until his heart said, "I
love thee, gentle one!"
"Those beautiful eyes," said Richard, mournfully, as he
leaned over my shoulder, while the moon shed its rays upon
the picture, "must they weep for me - for me, who vowed
that the tears of our parting were the last that they should
shed? I wiped them then, and Eliza stood like a trusting child
as I did so; and when I said I could not leave her till she
smiled, she did smile a radiant smile of hope and trustingness.
Oh, God! have I not deceived her young heart? And my
poor mother, she who has but just begun to reap the labour
of maternal love, should I not have borne more for her?
Randolph, too, do I hate him? do I wish his death? Would I
not heal him if he were wounded, give him drink if he
thirsted, and stand with him hand to hand against a common
enemy? Strengthen me, Cornelia, I am bewildered; weep not
thus, my sister, for God's sake; strengthen me."
I could not; and we yielded in each other's arms
one of those long and passionate bursts of agony that
sweep along life's paths, and make the heart and body
grow old.
At twelve o'clock we parted. I listened for his tread in
the adjoining room; all was still. I would have given the
world to hear his footstep. I could not bear the silence,
but went to his door and whispered his name. He answered
instantly, and calmly -
"Go back, my sister. I cannot see you."
"Only one word, Richard - one look more."
"No; go - go!"
I went to my bedroom. The moon was at full. Everything
looked gigantic; the shadows lay in grotesque masses; the
trees waved their arms like living things; the whippoorwill's
note was like a shriek in my ear. Twice in that long night I
went to Richard's door, and sat there; once I heard the click
of a pistol. Still his only answer to my petition was,
"Go, go, Cornelia," in his calm, sweet tone.
I laid myself down by the door, with my face upon the
boards; their coolness was fresh to my burning cheek. I saw
figures in the darkness - wounded forms - gashes
- streaming blood - and Eliza was there - unconscious, with
her glittering, moonlight eyes.
The door opened. I would have caught and held my
brother, but, seemingly aware of my design, he stooped, and,
holding my hands tightly in his, laid a long kiss upon my lips,
and escaped rapidly down the stairs. I would have screamed
to him to return, but my voice failed me. I was dizzy - faint;
it was but a moment, but he was gone; then a ferocious
horror came over me like madness. I clinched my hands and
teeth, and a shivering went through my frame. It was
insupportable. I rushed to mamma's apartment, and told
her the horrid tale. Then was all the mother roused: then
a throe deeper than birth-struggles tore her heart. It was
fearful to see my calm parent thus moved. "We must go to
him," were all the words she uttered, but such looks,
such piteous, piteous groans! Will they ever leave my
memory,
or the reproaches of his nurse, who, wringing her
hands, shrieked out -
"Miss Neely, Miss Neely, how you been let my young
maussa do such a ting? God have mercy on he soul."
We hurried on in silence, as if a word might delay us. The
moon had gone down, and that melancholy moment melancholy
even to happy hearts, arrived - the breaking dawn. How is it
that awakening nature is thus sad? Does not the analogy of all
human feeling tell us to sympathize joyfully with such scenes?
How is it, then, that the moon and stars, which play as in
jubilee around the form of midnight, look, before the gray
dawn, like sad travellers journeying a lonely way?
We hastened on, nor thought of the stars as they sank,
one by one, to shine on other worlds, nor of the purple glow
that rose in rich colouring on the eastern sky. We were near
the place of meeting - human figures were seen. A flash - a
sound - we reached the spot - the cries of our attendants
pierced the air. Mamma received her unconscious son in her
arms, and I clasped, with a breaking heart, his pulseless
hand.
COWPER.
RACINE. As I saw the face of my brother, on which death seemed to have
stamped an instantaneous seal, and
heard his nurse's groans and lamentations, and mamma's
piercing words of love, and the physician's inquiring voice, it
seemed to me as if some wild and fearful tragedy were
enacting. Still I felt an awful testimony within me, which
declared, "You have made this ruin - your words, which
should have stilled the tempest, have given it force; you,
who call yourself the gentle and tender Christian, have held
the torch and spread this ruin."
Randolph approached; pale as death, he gazed silently for
a moment on his fallen victim, and then, with a suppressed
voice, said -
"Would to God that society required not this sacrifice! It
is a fearful thing to go thus before one's Maker and Judge."
With a half-unconscious shudder he was then led away.
Life was not extinct, but it fluttered almost to dissolution.
Richard was borne home, and we followed - a sorrow-struck
train. His nurse wrung her hands and wept audibly; Bella, the
dumb woman, met us with her wild howling; and Jim looked
anxious and subdued.
Life struggled fearfully for a few days with the destroyer.
Mamma, by his bedside, and I, lying on his pillow, watched
his pallid face; it was indeed like death; his silky hair was
parted from his noble forehead, and his dark lashes lay on his
marble cheek; one could not see that he breathed; to my
excited imagination, the fluttering pulse often seemed to
stop, his hands fell nerveless, and only now and then a
quivering sigh stole from his breast.
Slowly, at length, his eyes unclosed, and a faint smile, as
they met our gaze, like the shadow of an infant's dream, parted
his lips. Oh, my heart! I was faint with joy. Again came the
blessed testimony of life and love; he whispered Mother! She
bent over to his pale lips, clasped his clasping hand, laid her
face on his pillow and wept. It was a moment for the heart's
prayer. His old nurse, with upraised eyes and trembling hands,
stood by and uttered hers aloud. Jim looked on
anxiously, for he was frightened by mamma's tears.
"He will live!" I whispered to Jim; "he has spoken
and smiled."
A little sustenance was given him; he smiled again, and
Jim caught the beautiful glance of coming life as it beamed
even on him.
"Ki!" said Jim, in a tone a little over a whisper, and
snapping his fingers, "dead an't gwying for catch Maus Dick
yet!"
So saying, he opened the door softly, slid down the
balusters, cut a few somersets through the yard, and
proclaimed the good news to the people. Poor fellow! it was
the first time he had voluntarily left his young master's
room. Night and day he and Richard's old nurse had taken
their stations there unbidden; when asleep, a word aroused
them; when waking, they watched with active kindness.
What Southern family has not this testimony to give of some
faithful dependent who thus creates a tie of gratitude?
Richard's recovery was rapid, and the busy kindness
devoted to a Southern convalescent was soon discernible.
Custards and preserves, and the niceties of the season,
decorated with bouquets of flowers, were sent by neighbours;
while the coloured people brought eggs in little baskets,
with young poultry from their own stores. One old woman
came to the door and asked "just to look in."
His nurse brought her humble offering, and said, with a
courtesying apology -
"I an't raise but one chicken dis year, but I fetch 'em
for my child's soup."
The first night that I retired to my own apartment, with
a heart weighed low by gratitude, I threw myself upon my
knees by the window where the moonlight scene had been so
appalling. The stars, from their abodes of darkness, threw
down their glimmering rays and lighted my weeping eyes. I
felt like one who had been rescued from a precipice, and
looked back with trembling on the chasm below. Did I feel
that a great duty had been performed, and that noble
approval which gives us strength to bear and wings to fly?
No; escape was the only
cause of triumph; and however men may vindicate duelling
on grounds of expediency, will they not find this the
predominant feeling when they survive? Not the reward of
bravery, not the elevating testimony of high moral
courage, but a simple relief from some dark and overhanging
necessity, is the best result of this horrid and unnatural
violation of social peace.
John returned with papa, and, after the first strong
emotions were over, laughter and jest echoed through our
mansion; but Richard and I for a while dwelt on higher
things. He had been too near the unknown abyss of a future
world not to feel a cast of solemnity over his soul. We
reasoned together of sacred things - of death and a
judgment to come.
"It may be a vain speculation," he said to me, "but I
delight in anticipating the future state of disimbodied
spirits. What are your thoughts on this subject,
Cornelia?"
"It is my favourite idea," I answered,
"that 'we
shall all be changed,' spiritually as well as physically. The
world has been more bright to me than to many, but I have
no wish to carry away any of its recollections. Young as I
am, I am tired of its struggles. I hope for a butterfly
transition - a change from this headaching and heartaching
scene to a bright and God-sunned atmosphere. I love to
think that when I have done weaving (faithfully) my earthly
envelope, I shall spring from it, gorgeous and beautiful, and
flit away, forgetful of the coarse chrysalis that falls, as I
ascend in joy to my heavenly Father's spiritual kingdom. But
one thing I must require in my flight" (and I pressed
Richard's hand to my cheek), "that brother butterflies shall
go with me."
"I would prefer annihilation," said Richard, "to a
forgetting of my individual self. The spirit must be able to
look back, and compare, and judge; it must feel its growth,
to be happy. Accession in knowledge is the only test of
spirituality. I cannot imagine even the Supreme Mind
at rest;
it must be experimenting, creating still."
Thus we discoursed together, or I read to him; a
soothing quiet stole over us, and the spirit of prayer
was around us.
This is the worth of sorrow. Before we suffer, words are
said, but the spirit prays not; it is mere form; but, when
affliction has struck the rock of our hearts, and its
religious waters gush forth, we pray always;
that is, a conscious
presence of divinity is within us, and our thoughts are
prayers.
But this holy influence is not felt by all, and wretched are
those who, having tasted these waters, feel not that the Lord
is gracious. While Richard was convalescent, a neighbour, a
widow, lost her only child, a daughter. We were not in the
habit of visiting her; but, hearing that she was in distress, and
without domestic friends, mamma commissioned me to go to
her, with such offers of service and sympathy as our own
softened feelings dictated. In my own equestrian excursions, I
had seen Mrs. Alwyn riding about her fields. Her appearance
was remarkable; tall, masculine in her proportions, with full,
flashing black eyes, she gave directions to her people, not
"with a low voice, that excellent thing in woman," but in
coarse tones of encouragement or vituperation. It was said
that the love of gain and fear of her neighbours were all that
restrained her from positive cruelty. She arose at the dawn of
day, and even used agricultural implements herself to
stimulate her negroes. She denied herself rest and
relaxation, and spent a life of unmitigated toil, and for
what? That she might educate and accomplish her daughter;
and Maria "grew like a living flower beneath her eye."
With her mother's commanding height, she possessed a wavy
delicacy of figure; her mother's dark and flashing eyes were,
in her, softened by modest sensibility, she touched with taste
and skill the piano which her parent's hard labour had earned,
and around her apartments were hung, in expensive frames,
trophy after trophy of her conquests with the pencil. While
Mrs. Alwyn reconnoitred the fields, a terror to idlers, or
attended to the drudgery of the house, Maria lived secluded,
her soft hands embroidering tasteful attire, or her dark
eyes dropping tears of sympathy
over fictitious sorrow. It was sufficient happiness to her
mother to glance at her white-robed daughter, as she sat
apart like an idol in its shrine. Maria often expostulated with
her, and wrought tasteful caps and kerchiefs, and playfully
arrayed her mother in them, but with little effect. Mrs.
Alwyn strode about in her soiled and tattered dress, not
hesitating, as occasion demanded, to test the strength of her
hand on the ears and shoulders of some unhappy loiterer. I
had met Maria at church, and occasionally in my rambles,
and had thought of knowing her further, as I heard details of
her situation and character, when I learned that she was
suddenly withdrawn from this living and moving scene. I
willingly hastened to her bereaved mother.
I was ushered in by her frightened-looking servant, with that
light and solemn tread which we see where death is. I was
shocked to observe the body of the deceased laid out on a table
in the parlour, in order to be near, as I learned afterward, to
her mother, that she might see her while she prepared the
house for the funeral. A white shroud and sheet inwrapped the
body, and there seemed to be a supernatural extent in the tall
figure, as the pointed toes stood up beneath the thin covering.
Over the beautiful eyes, now but partially closed, lay pieces of
metal. Was this indeed Maria, thus cold and pale as new-fallen
snow?
Mrs. Alwyn sat where she could watch the corpse and gaze
upon its countenance. She held a plate in her hand, and a
towel, as if she had been wiping it. A stern coldness was
mingled with her grief, and she rocked to and fro in her
chair, with the motion which sorrow loves.
I entered, she regarded me with a slight motion of the head.
I took her hand - it was passive. I spoke, but there was no
answer, and I sat down in silence. At length, with a look in
which distress and anger were strangely blended, she said -
"There she is, Miss Wilton! see what it's come to! a
beautiful corpse she is! That girl an't done a thing to trouble
her mother's heart since she came into the world, a stark
baby, till now. Do you see them pictures?"
(and she pointed with her soiled dark fingers from one to the
other.) "I have toiled night and day, I've worked like a
nigger, and more than any nigger, I've been up
early and abed late, to get that girl a genteel education,
and what has it all come to? Look at that piano - I put
the hay into the loft with a pitchfork with my own hands
to let the niggers have time to bring that here. Didn't
she sing sweetly? I worked my fingers most to the
bone for them pictures and music, and what has it all
come to? Just look at her and see. Where's her voice
now? What has it all come to? Wasn't she a pretty-faced
girl, with her white hands, that I wouldn't let so
much as wash up a cup? Look at them now, stiff and
still!" (I turned and shuddered as I looked at Maria's
long straight arm as it lay in her shroud.)
"Miss Wilton, it don't seem to me as if I can bear it, or as
if I ought to."
I ventured to suggest a reliance on a higher Power, who
afflicts only in mercy.
"It tan't no mercy," said she, passionately.
"I wouldn't
treat a dog so. If you had a garden full of seeds, and saw them
come up and blow out beautiful, and their stalks grow greener
and bigger every day, while you was watering them, do you
think it would be merciful if anybody was to come and tramp
them all down, and pull up your pretty flowers by the root?
There wasn't a prettier flower in all creation than that,"
continued she, pointing to the lifeless form, "and now see
what she is."
"She was a lovely girl," said I,
"and you had reason to be
proud of her. I have often observed her tall, graceful figure
as she came into church. I am glad to hear that she was kind
and dutiful; that, at least, must comfort you."
"'Tan't no comfort," said Mrs. Alwyn, bitterly. "If she
had been cross and ugly, she might have gone and welcome.
What is the use of having a person about you that an't
pleasant? But I'll tell you what is a mortal hard case, to
have something taken away that was the delight of your
eyes; one who used to be the first
object you loved to look at in the morning, and the last
at night. In the morning, when I came from the field, I used
to go to her bedroom and wake her. How pretty she was on
her pillow, with one cheek all red like a rose, where she had
laid on it, and the other like a lily! and when I said 'Maria!'
how she rubbed her eyes like a child, and half pouted and half
smiled as I waked her. Where is the rosy cheek now?"
My heart thrilled as I saw its paleness.
"And then," continued her mother, "she sat so ladylike
at table, as if she had been born and bred genteel; her frocks
like snow, and her cambric handkerchiefs in her lap. At night
I used to go in and tuck up her bed; she was always at her
books, or her work, or reading her Bible, or on her knees at
prayer, for she was a pious child."
"You must at least be grateful that her mind was so
pure, and pious, and prepared for death," said I.
"Grateful!" replied she, angrily. "What good will it do
me? I shall be none the better for her hymns and her
prayers. If she had stayed, I could have heard her sweet
voice. Now, I've worked my fingers to the bone just for that
dead body. I can't bear it, and that's an end of the matter. I
don't think it's fair that she should die. Well, I must go to
work and bury her," muttered she, in a lower tone, and
retiring into the next apartment, where she could still glance
at her lifeless child.
I stood a while and meditated on the early dead. Her image
came before me as I had often seen her enter church,
dressed with exquisite care, and a reference to the changing
shades of fashion. Her head had a gentle bend or wave, from
a consciousness of her height, which, as she did not stoop,
was rather graceful, while her cheek, usually pale, was lighted
up by the thought of public observation. She often rested an
ungloved hand on the side of the pew, which, as it was
delicately white, and glittering with jewels, I sometimes
thought was for display; but her modest eyes seemed to
deny it; and her voice, rising in rich and earnest tones in the
hymns and chants, and
her air of devotion in prayer, showed an engagedness that
comported not with vanity.
Now I saw her stretched on her hard resting-place, death
giving that supernatural length to her tall form, those glazed
eyes, that were so lately lit up with intellectual glory, but
partially closed by the heavy metal on the starting lids;
those feet, which had trod the aisles with light and graceful
movement, stiff and prominent under the white death-clothing;
that fair hand, whose sparkling gems had glittered
to the observer, dazzling in whiteness still, but with the
unrosy paleness of the grave.
Her wretched mother's unbelief saddened still more this
painful picture. Could she have looked on her with Christian
trust, and fancied that spirit translated to the garden of
heaven, where blight, and frost, and tear-dews fall not; could
she have fancied her upward-soaring, and retained but a fold
of her garment to aid her own flight, how would her cold
heart have felt the change! But alas! the grave was to her
the end of all this sweetness and truth; faith stood not by
that grave, with patient eye and folded wing, ready to spread,
at God's command, either over the path of earthly duty or
spiritual joy.
But grief will be busy. The miserable mother decorated the
cold corpse with all that custom and fashion demand; the
finest cambric enshrouded it, the sheerest muslin lay on that
pale forehead; the coffin glittered with funeral ornaments;
ceremony lingered in the well-ordered procession; and in a few
months a pompous monument proclaimed to the world the
death and the virtues of Maria Alwyn.
This picture (literally true) is a startling representation of
an irreligious, uncultivated mind; but are there
not many who secretly carry out these sacrilegious feelings
when God lays their earthly blessings in the dust?
WE were at this period made unhappy by my brother
Benjamin's abrupt return from school; and it may not be
unprofitable to relate his reverses before and after this time,
independently of my narrative.
Why are there no more ripe and accomplished scholars
among us? The secret, I apprehend, will be partially
understood, if the progress of his education is examined. It
will probably awaken the sympathetic groans of many a
young man, who has to mourn over a similar experience. I
fear we must look forward to an indefinite repetition of
similar consequences, until Charleston shall provide
one grand and uniform institution, or system of institutions,
for the education of her youth, that shall be unaffected by
the death or change of teachers, or the boundless variety of
text-books; and until parents shall co-operate cheerfully with
the rules of such a system.
At the age of nine years, Ben was placed at one of the
best schools in Charleston, and boarded in a private family.
He was a lad of excellent abilities; rather more fond, indeed,
of his play and horses than of study, but never wilfully
backward at his lesson. His teacher, besides superintending
the usual branches of his English education, put him early
into the Latin grammar. Ben was punctual at school, and
learned two or three of his lessons every evening at home.
When we were in town, I gave him what assistance I could,
though now and then a hearty cry took place over the
difficulties which neither he nor I could comprehend. His
troubles at school
were of the ordinary description - sometimes a detention till
long after the dinner-hour - sometimes a severe chastisement
for noise or carelessness - and sometimes a station far below
the middle of his class. Yet he was evidently making an
improvement in most of his studies; and could his present
opportunities have been continued, Ben might have become,
in time, a very respectable scholar. Unfortunately, however,
his teacher, at the end of the year, abandoned his
occupation for a profession, and Ben was thrown loose on
the scholastic world.
After some time, another teacher was procured for him.
On entering his new place of instruction, he was examined in
all his studies, and pronounced to be miserably deficient in
every respect. The fact is, this gentleman made no allowance
whatever for the perturbation of the poor boy's mind; when
suddenly brought before a strange teacher, his attention being
distracted by a new and noisy school, and that, too, after a
month or more of entire interruption in his studies. The
learned gentleman found particular fault with Ben's ignorance
of the multiplication table and Latin grammar, and took
occasion to express some doubts of the capacity of his
former instructer to teach in those departments. I need not
say how very unjust was such an inference. Be that as it may,
my brother was ordered to begin all his books again, and was
stationed in a class inferior to that which he had left at the
other school. He came home completely discouraged and
mortified; disgusted alike with learning and with his
new instructor.
May I be permitted, with due modesty, to suggest, that
much mischief is occasionally inflicted in this way on
ingenuous and well-intentioned youth, in consequence of an
examination, which can only be superficial and imperfect?
Would it not be more proper to take the word of the parents
and of the former teacher as to the progress already made by
the pupil? It would be found, in a short time, that he could
easily revive his former knowledge, without being necessitated
to lose his standing for a whole year, or to suffer a mortifying
degradation.
But the feelings of youth are elastic. It is one of the
blessings of that period of life, that its mortifications are not
attended with enduring bitterness. Ben accommodated
himself to his new situation with tolerable grace; and by
the close of another year he had just about regained that
point in his progress at which he had been left by his former
teacher. In consequence, however, of falling into some
untoward scrape, he was chastised with undue severity by his
tutor, who was a man of violent passions. Papa's temper was
equally violent, and the affair terminated in an abrupt
withdrawal of my brother Ben from his present school, and
his transference to another.
From the precipitancy with which this exchange was
effected, papa had no opportunity to institute any minute
inquiry as to the merits or studies of Ben's new school. The
boy trotted off with much cheerfulness on the first morning
of his attendance, and with his satchel full of his old
schoolbooks. But papa was not a little surprised and mortified
in seeing Ben return home at about ten o'clock, with his
heavy satchel on his arm, and a note from his new teacher,
requesting that the boy should be furnished with an entirely
new set of books, since those which he had brought with him
to school were now quite out of date. Pike's Arithmetic was to
be exchanged for Daboll's; Morse's Geography for Cumming's,
Ruddiman's Latin Grammar for Adam's; Webster's Spelling-book
for Carpenter's; Bingham's English Grammar for
Murray's; the American Selection for the English Reader; the
New Testament for the whole Bible; while one set of copy-slips
was to be substituted for another; a single-ruled writing-book
for a double-ruled one, which Ben had just begun; and
the gentleman had even the thoroughgoingness to request
that my brother's large, stout new slate might be exchanged
for a recently-invented tablet, which would come in requisition
at certain times when the blackboard should not be used.
In general, papa was very liberally disposed as to
pecuniary matters, and was always particularly willing to
encourage suggested improvements in education. But it so
happened, that this year his crops had been lamentably
cut short, and the prices of rice and cotton were very
much depressed. This, added to the irritability under which
he was still labouring from his difficulty with the preceding
teacher, excited him, in a moment of self-forgetfulness, to
exclaim that he would not procure a single one of those
newfangled books, and that he did not care whether Ben
attended any of those vexatious schools or not. I knew it was
hopeless to attempt to change this unhappy mood
immediately, and the result was, that poor Ben ran about the
streets for a full week unoccupied, gathering large stores of
boyish experience no doubt, but sadly falling behindhand in
point of literary cultivation.
It was now time for me to interfere; indeed, I was
conscious that papa, having gotten the better of his temper,
and opened his mind to the influence of reason, was only
waiting for a word or two from me, in order to enter upon a
more praiseworthy course. One morning, therefore, at the
breakfast-table, I ventured to express my regret that Ben
should continue in his present unhappy state of idleness, and
suggested that he might possibly have been fortunate in
making an exchange of teachers; for it was to be supposed
that improvements must be going on in schoolbooks as well
as in everything else. It cost me but a few words to obtain
permission to go out that very morning in pursuit of the
whole appointed list.
I searched every book-store in the city, finding one book
here and another there, but was unable to procure more than
half the prescribed number. I was assured that if I had
called but two or three days before, I might have obtained
some of the most important of those which were wanting.
But it was now too late, and we were obliged to await a
new importation from the North. Steamboats, in those days,
arrived not with weekly punctuality; and, therefore, Ben was
compelled to run wild nearly another month before he could
enter the wished-for school, equipped, externally at least,
with all the educational improvements of the age.
My brother, who had now arrived at an age of some
reflection, found himself, somewhat to his astonishment, at
the foot of the hill of science. The preceding years
appeared to his view like a vacant dream. Young as he was,
he could not help inquiring what had become of them; but
supposing that Heaven and parental guardianship had
ordered all things aright in this matter, he resolved to dismiss
unavailing regrets, and begin anew, with commendable
diligence and ardour, the study of numeration, and of the
definite and indefinite articles, and of the astronomical
introduction to geography.
We could find no fault with Ben's present teacher. The lad
made a satisfactory progress in his studies, and all things
flowed along in peace until August of the next year, when his
preceptor, who happened to be a native of New-England, was
fatally attacked by the yellow fever, and died, leaving his
school involved in sorrow and confusion. There was no more
study for that season, and we were obliged to wait until late in
the autumn before a gentleman could be procured to
undertake the school on his own account. My brother was, of
course, injured by this unfortunate intermission in his studies.
He lost somewhat in his power of application, and gained as
much in his inclination for all kinds of youthful amusements.
His new preceptor, not only desirous of making up the
recently lost time of his school, but being one of those
teachers who are overstimulated by the ambition of advancing
his pupils with wonderful rapidity, heaped lesson upon lesson,
and even required several new branches and books to be
learned, in order that he might surprise the parents and the
committee, at the succeeding annual examination, with the
unequalled results of his labours. Ben humorously requested his
father to furnish him with a horse and dray to transport his
books between the school and the house. It was indeed no
small physical labour for him to carry his little library
backward and forward. His satchel, though of large
dimensions, could not contain the whole, and he was obliged
to carry several books under his left arm. Groaning and
perspiring, grumbling and bantering together, he lugged to and
fro his heavy loads for a few days, until papa purchased for
him a small, strong white horse, with tail and mane closely
cropped. I manufactured
for him a new sack, resembling more a clothesbag than
a satchel. Putting into this the whole of his school furniture,
and placing it on the neck of his favourite pony, he mounted
and rode off with a lighter body at least, if not with a lighter
heart, than he had lately enjoyed.
He was now beginning to be ashamed of the backwardness
of his learning, compared with his age. He conceived a new
and passionate fondness for study. He arose every morning at
dawn, and retired not to rest until near midnight. He even
refused to devote any hours to recreation, so determined was
he to realize the whole system of his present teacher, and to
accomplish every one of his lessons in the most perfect
manner. But this was more than the powers of nature could
bear. He pursued the present course about three months, and
found his health and constitution rapidly giving way. The
family physician being consulted, directed that he should quit
school and books altogether for some time, and reside with
mamma in the country. Thus, by making too much haste,
poor Ben, as well as his teacher, rather retarded than
accelerated his progress. He passed a few weeks in the
country, entirely abandoned to amusements, and returned to
town in perfect health. On again attending school, he
experienced the immense disadvantage of being far behind his
class. The studies which he had missed were indispensably
necessary to a right understanding of his present lessons.
This circumstance, added to the sufferings he had already
endured from over-application, threw Ben into complete
despair. Finding it impossible to accomplish all his tasks in a
tolerable manner, he grew indifferent and inattentive. He was
contented to remain at the foot of his class, and was proof
against any species of degradation and punishment. He
frequently played the truant. He protracted his holydays in
the country till near the first of February and the middle of
May. His afternoons in town were devoted to riding on his
little horse, whose flesh rapidly disappeared by racings on the
battery and gallopings through Meeting-street, at the peril of
all the negro children in his way.
It was now full time to try a new experiment with my
unlucky brother. A school happened to be opened near our
residence; and as it was but too manifest that Ben was
wasting away his precious youth by his present career, we
determined on seizing this opportunity to make an
exchange, and give him another chance for improvement.
Accordingly, he became a pupil of our new neighbour, whom,
if I were devising characteristic names for the teachers
enumerated in this chapter, I might call by the appropriate
title of Mr. Easy. If Ben was before oppressed with the
multitude of his tasks, he had now far too little to
accomplish. When a lesson was assigned him to be learned at
home, which was but seldom the case, he might attend to it
or not, as he chose, for it was never exacted from him. His
teacher was all indulgence; going nominally over the
common branches of learning with his pupils, but leaving it
to their own genius and good sense whether any of them
should become scholars or idlers. Now Ben had not quite
sufficient independent energy to make much progress under a
system like this. He was naturally docile, and would have lent
himself kindly to the influences of any good and effective
method. But being somewhat of a victim to circumstances,
he could not resist the thousand temptations of a city life,
when opposed to the feeble prescriptions of an indulgent
preceptor. Accordingly, he was in a fair way of being ruined.
His talk was of horses. His companions were idlers. He
commenced playing on the guitar. He was a precocious
dandy. His thoughts were over-much given to dancing, and
gallantry, and all those other arts by which the precious
sands of time are irrevocably wasted. Fortunately, the school
which he now attended died a natural death. It had not
sufficient stamina to keep itself alive. One after another of
the pupils dropped away, and the incapable teacher emigrated
to Alabama, leaving my brother Ben, with only two fellow-students,
to seek for better places of education.
Just about this time, advertisements appeared in the
daily prints, announcing a new institution, to be conducted
on a highly improved and refined plan. The public
were told that appeals would be made entirely to the good feelings
of the pupils - that everything like corporeal chastisement
would be banished - that the memory and other inferior
faculties of the mind would be very little cultivated - while almost
exclusive attention would be paid to the development of the
reason and other higher powers. Dazzled by these brilliant
promises, papa and Ben conceived that all former disappointments were
now to be cancelled; and that nothing but the happiest career was opened
before the sanguine and ambitious young man. He was one of the
earliest candidates for the benefits of this improved and refined
system. For a time, everything flowed on smoothly and sweetly in
this paradise of academies. The millennium of education seemed
to have arrived. The teacher was a man of polished and plausible
deportment, and fascinated my brother's imagination and good-will.
But before long, Ben discovered that he could make no
progress in the classics without a considerable tax on his
memory - the declensions and the rules of his Greek and Latin
grammars were not always ready on his tongue - and on such
occasions his teacher was apt to fret, and assign my brother pretty
heavy tasks to commit to memory at home. Those long conversations
and processes of reasoning, too, which were to develop the youthful
mind, and which were so charming to Ben in
the outset, grew at length to be somewhat fatiguing - his attention
would too frequently lag, and thus incense his preceptor - and he
would sometimes doubt the cogency of his arguments or
statements, instead of assenting to them with that beautiful
docility which was at first equally agreeable to both teacher and
pupil. One day, especially, when all these various grievances had
swelled and festered to an outbreaking point, Ben very rudely
questioned some position or reasoning of his preceptor. The latter
replied indignantly. Ben followed up his insubordination. The
teacher, forgetting his own maxim respecting personal
chastisement, gave Ben a severe blow, which was immediately
retorted by the fiery lad, and a downright engagement
between them ensued before the whole school. The
consequence was, that my
brother appeared at dinner-table that day with black and
blue marks on his countenance, and was soon after expelled
from the institution.
He was now sent to an academy at the North, where he
passed another year. But the previous habits and fortunes of
his life had poorly fitted him to sustain the duties of this
new situation. With shame and regret, he found himself far
behind his companions and equals in age, and knew no other
way to obtain the notoriety of which youth in general are so
fond, than to launch out into a life of brilliant extravagance
and dissipation. This course soon exhausted not only the
very liberal allowances transmitted by my father, but also
the copious remittances secretly forwarded by my mother;
and at the end of a year he was recalled home, with an
unsettled character and disposition.
A succession of struggles enabled him to enter a Southern
college, and, after many suspensions and fines, bring us
home a diploma and a blue riband.
The question now again to be asked is, Where is the
remedy for this imperfect education - for evils which so
many of both sexes have felt, in common with poor Ben?
The most obvious mode that occurs to me is, to convert
schools into places for teaching instead of recitation. As the
present plan operates, every parent would willingly change
offices with the teacher; that is, if a master would
superintend the committing a lesson to memory, with the
requisite explanations, the parent would very gladly hear it
recited.
Would it not be practicable for masters to teach, and
explain, and see that a lesson is committed one day, and
hear it recited the next? A few parents might complain that
the boys and girls were idle at home, merely from habit; but
they would soon find their gain in being able to cultivate
some favourite study, in exercise, &c.
I am confident that if
Ben had been taught his lessons at school, it would have
changed the whole habit of his mind.
How ill suited is a bustling parlour for the studies of
children, and how few parents know how to teach!
I do not mean, in these remarks, to say one
disrespectful word of teachers. A more conscientious,
self-sacrificing, enlightened class of persons than they
cannot be found, and they but comply with the customs around
them in their present system; but, to justify my remarks, I
have only to state, that the evil referred to has reached
such a height, that some parents have been under the
necessity of hiring instructors at night
to teach their children
the school lessons for the following day. If the system
continue as it is, the name of teacher
should be changed
to lesson-hearer.
S. GILMAN. Is Marion forgotten? asks some young girl, to whom love
is the Alpha and Omega of a story. No, not forgotten; but I
never proposed to write a love-story in these simple details,
Whose object is to show the habits of Southern domestic life.
I must confess, however, that an expecting look was cast
up the avenue as strangers approached, and a tremour felt
when he actually came. There was a
slight abstraction, too,
in his manners, which the students of love-thermometers
might have supposed a suspicious circumstance.
Whenever he saw me on horseback he
looked wistfully, and his face reddened. My dress was
entirely different from that in which he had seen me at the
time of my bouleversement; my height and manner were
altered, and I always began to jest on trifling topics, for I
was frightened at the thought of a disclosure after what had
passed. It seemed to me as if feminine pride called on me to
keep my secret, since Anna and Lewis, who alone could have
revealed it gracefully, were gone.
Marion was preparing himself for usefulness. Inheriting a
large estate, he did not feel authorized to enter on its duties
without some personal discipline. He attended medical and
surgical lectures, that he might supply with advice the
accidental wants of his people; and interested himself in
mechanics, as a means of saving labour on his plantation.
His fine person never looked more noble to me than when,
in his workman's jacket, with his tools in
his hand, he superintended, and even aided, the works of his
people. He felt the responsibility of his situation, and looked
with a steady and inquiring eye on his duties, removing evil where
it was practicable, and ameliorating what was inevitable. It was
not gain only that he sought; he was aware that he controlled the
happiness of a large family of his fellow-creatures. He neither
permitted himself to exercise oppression, nor tolerated it in
others. Happy human faces were his delight, and the blessings
that followed his footsteps were like angel voices crowning his
cares. He felt how much a planter has to answer to man and to
God in the patriarchal relation he holds, and he shrank not
indolently from the arduous demand. High responsibility exalts
the character of a good man, and I could not but perceive the
growth of principle in Marion's words and actions, while I heard
among some of the young men who visited us a tone of
frivolity that sadly contrasted with his earnest dignity of
thought and expression. I insensibly prized him for this
difference, and felt how much safer would be the happiness
of a wife in his keeping than in that of a mere idler.
The moral education of Southern youth should be directed
to their peculiar duties; indeed, there are passages
in the teachings of the New Testament which apply
peculiarly to our institutions, and which, though almost
negative elsewhere, are exquisitely beautiful in the
classification of relative duties here. "Masters, give unto
your servants that which is just and equal, knowing that
ye also have a master in heaven." "Ye masters, forbear
threatening, knowing that your master is also in heaven,
neither is there respect of persons with him." "Servants,
obey in all things your masters according to the flesh." "Let
as many servants as are under the yoke count their own
masters worthy of all honour." The temptations of power
should be diligently pointed out, passion repressed, purity
enforced, and then the young Southerner will rise like the
sun over the wide sphere of his duty, diffusing light and
warmth around him. As Mentor dwelt with eloquence on the
expected legislation of Telemachus, so should every father
prepare his son, at the South, for the little kingdom over
which he is to reign in wisdom and love.
It would seem, at the first glance, that one of the most
difficult offices of the planter would be to restrain the
tempers of the uneducated beings under his care; but daily
occupation and systematic routine are favourable to
harmony, and God has seemed wonderfully to have balanced
human passions. There are few Zelucos among fathers. The
subject of surprise is, the escape of so many from injury,
under the hand of passion, in all communities. Who has not
seen a mother of the labouring classes shake a child with
her strong arm, until one would suppose dislocation would
follow, and the child come out from the operation rather
strengthened, as from a Calisthenic exercise? How many
shoes, aimed at the head of a culprit, have missed their
destination! It is curious to observe how seldom they hit. As
far as I have observed, the poorer classes in New-England
shake their children in a sudden impulse of anger; while
negroes throw something at theirs. There is that which in
tremendously exciting in a shake - the chatter of one's teeth,
the impotence of one's nerves and sinews, and the trill of the
voice as one begs pardon. I would rather, of
the two, run my chance of a missile, and take to dodging, if I
were a child.
How difficult is it for us, who have time to reason with
children, to enter into the feelings of parents hurried by a
thousand cares. The poor mother, standing at her wash-tub,
burning over the fire, or delving at her needle, must be
summary in her punishments, and the little rebel takes
advantage of her limited minutes. Even the dark closet, the
resort of leisurely people, consumes too much time for her,
and when she thinks her urchin is well seated on a bench in
the corner, to which he has been banished, he has slipped off
and gone to some new experiment. The poor soul can
neither stay to administer a dose of castor oil, as one of my
friends does, for bad temper, nor apply a cold bath, nor bind a
strip of paper on the forehead, with the offense designated,
nor condemn the child to the bed all day - an admirable
prescription, by-the-way, for those who sleep too late in the
morning. These are all punishments of leisure, and the labourer
cannot exercise them. Is it not wonderful, then, that, as
correction is necessarily so brief, it is not often more
calamitous? Scientific discipline has adopted the cat-o'-nine-tails
and the ferula, so that the operation can be carried on
without maiming; but the poor woman cannot deliberately
apply even these. She must take the first tangible thing, and,
luckily, the natural implement is her own hand; luckily, too,
that very hand relishes not a too potent tingling, or too
dislocating a shake, and the child is safe. But while I have
been throwing off these rambling thoughts, my little Clarence
has been fishing my best cap from a bandbox; and, as he
swings it on his hook, his Lilliputian waiting-man follows
him, crying, "Buy fish, missis? buy any fish?" Shall I use my
natural implement on the rogue?
My personal experience supplies me with but one
example of passion leading to fatal consequences in our
own neighbourhood, but it was a most aggravated case, and
related to Bella, the deaf and dumb girl, and to her
mother, the Zeluco of my story. I have never seen anything
more affecting than Bella's attachment to her infant.
It was one of God's holy compensations for infirm human nature;
she felt no want with her babe in her arms, and language - oh! the
language between these two creatures - the twining of arms, the gaze
of the eyes, the pressure of the lips; and, when any attempt was
made to take the child from her, how that strange howl thrilled the
soul! She was faithful in the discharge of her duties; the family at
the Elms treated her with peculiar tenderness, and the child was the
pet of the household. But her passions, like those of most mutes,
were violent, and her mother, so far from pitying, treated her with
brutality. One day when I was visiting at the Elms, we heard a cry
wilder than I had ever known from poor Bella. Her mother had
attacked her in anger, and levelled a blow with a stick of wood,
which laid her and her infant on the ground. In a week that
smiling baby was a corpse by Bella's side, and she was fast journeying
to the same sad bourn. Even in death she could not let her baby go,
and her wild cry sounded fierce and long when any one attempted to
remove it. It was laid in its shroud by her side; she felt its little
forehead and cold hands, and moaned over its unmoved lips. Poor
Bella was tenderly cared for by her mistress, and her pious coloured
friends stood around her and pointed upward, as if to God. She shook
her head, and clung to her dead infant. It was forced from her, and
placed in its humble coffin and peaceful grave, and two days after
Bella was laid by its side. It is a sad, though humble story. I have
long since laid it to my heart; and, when passion has threatened to
shake me in my intercourse with those around me, the image
of that wrathful mother, though comparatively irresponsible, has
arisen to my view, darkly pointing at Bella's grave.
Little that was interesting occurred at this time at
Roseland; but one incident may show a feature of our life. We
shall not long have such to record, for the Indian race,
like the noble trees of our forests, are disappearing - the
axe is laid at their roots. As I was playing the piano one
morning, I heard a light footstep; and,
turning round, saw an Indian in full costume, standing, with folded
arms, against the entrance of the door, his eyes bent directly on
me. I was so startled that I could not proceed in singing. I made
two or three ineffectual attempts, and then preferred passing
out of the room close to him rather than remain. As I rose from
the instrument his eyes followed me, though his attitude was
unchanged, and he made a gesture for me to return and play. I
went to mamma, who decided that I must do so. She, like most
Southern ladies, had no unnecessary fears. She was in the
habit of passing months with her children on the
plantation, without any other protection than her servants.
The Indian had remained in the same erect
attitude, as if he expected our return; and, as mamma bowed
in passing, he returned her salutation. I sat down and played
several tunes, glancing occasionally at him; his eyes were
still fixed on me. At length, as I passed, he uttered a sound
like "thank," and retired
as silently as he came. I have never
since seen so perfect and interesting a specimen of his race.
There was something inexpressibly lofty and graceful in his
air.
On our next visit to the city, Flora asked me, with almost
apparent blushes, "if she could take a partner;" and I was
made to understand that Kit, a stevedore, had solicited her
hand. Of course I could make no objection, though losing
some valuable services by the plan; and preparations were
made for the wedding, which she chose to have performed
in the wash-kitchen instead of our parlour. The floor was
nicely scrubbed, seats placed around, and the tin candlesticks
on the wall ornamented with sprigs of green. When all was
ready we were invited out with the clergyman, who, as usual,
was chosen by the bride. The room was lined with guests. As
we entered the bride and groom rose, attended by six
groomsmen and six bridemaids, the latter dressed in white, with
flowers, riband, or tarnished silver and gold sprigs in their
hair. The minister proceeded in the ceremony, and at length
told them to join their right hands. The handmaidens were
pretty expert in drawing off Flora's glove, as her hands were
soft as mine; but Kit was the
very image of helplessness. He looked as if he longed to give the
glove (it was clinging white cotton) a pull, but etiquette forbade.
His arm was extended, and his palm open, in a kind of spasmodic
motion, as the head groomsman tugged at the forefinger. By
degrees his aids came up, until there was one at each digit, while a
sixth directed; but, the more they pulled, the more the glove
"would not stay pulled." The bridemaids began to titter, and Flora,
losing her patience, said, "Pull it off yourself Kit;" but the
superintendent of the ceremony waved her off solemnly, and, after
picking a while upon the thumb and fingers, the tenacious glove
yielded, and by "a long pull, a strong pull, and a pull all together,"
Kit's brawny hand was laid bare, and grasped that of the more
delicate Flora. The ceremony proceeded without further
impediment, and, shaking hands with the bride, we returned to the
house. As we left the threshold of the wash-room, the whole party
shouted forth a Methodist hymn. It was a solemn and affecting
sound, and I felt it to be a rebuke to the vapid jests that so often
circulate after more imposing ceremonials. Wine and cake were
sent us immediately after, and a whole iced cake presented to the
minister the following day, according to the usual custom among
the coloured people in the city. Mamma and I were introduced to
the bride's chamber, which was neatly set off with white
curtains and toilet cover. I have sometimes
seen the apartments of coloured brides decorated with
evergreens.
The Chase. WINTER in Carolina comes with no stern aspect; she
loves the merry dance by the lightwood knots thrown
on the spacious hearth, and sunny nature woos us
from without, where flowers scarcely blighted and the
huntsman's horn are kindly substitutes for glittering
frost-work and noisy sleigh-bells. Often, in childhood, when I
had heard the stir and preparation for the chase, I had
longed to take a part; and when, on a bright winter
morning, I saw parties move off, I was almost tempted to
spring on my own good steed, and follow through the avenue.
As I advanced in years, and felt perfect confidence in my
own skill in horsemanship, I frequently urged papa to allow
me to accompany him; but he objected on the score of the
dangerous character of our woods for one in female attire on
horseback. In the holydays of this season, Bell Wilson (who,
by-the-way, had attained the rare accomplishment of being
able to discharge a fowling-piece) and I rallied our forces for a
last attack, and one evening, seconded by my brothers and
Marion, we succeeded in obtaining an unwilling consent
from papa to accompany his party the following day.
Jim, who was, in his way, the soul of the hunting
enterprises at Roseland, awoke us early, and we soon heard
papa's horn on the piazza, the notes of which were answered
by the joyful tongues of the beagles, and by the horns of
the neighbouring sportsmen.
We ran down to breakfast, scarcely able to eat from the
excitement of the scene, as my brothers and our friends
came in equipped for the hunt. The usual dress of a hunter is
composed of a cap, a frockcoat, reaching half way between
the hips and the knees, with breast-pockets for carrying
ammunition, &c., boots, spurs, and blowing-horn. This last
appendage is suspended from the right shoulder, the horn
itself hanging under the left arm. But dress is altogether a
matter of fancy, and comical indeed are some of the figures
which sally forth to enjoy the sport of the woods.
The first person who entered was our neighbour, Mr.
Plumer, an eccentric but intelligent man, tall, excessively
thin, and sharp-visaged, his spare legs being inserted in
military boots to protect him from the mud of the swamps.
He addressed us with his usual joke of,
"Good-morning, young ladies. You see I prefer hunting a
deer to hunting a dear.
Ha - ha - ha!"
Next came Mr. Prentiss, a real townsman, with
spatterdashes, his hat on one side of his head, a fresh cravat
and his white shirt-cuffs in full sight over his Limerick
gloves. Then followed Dick Bradford, his broadcloth leggins
fastened from the ankle to the knee with gilt buttons,
accompanied by Captain Rogerson, with woollen ones tied
above the knee and around the ankle with flannel list.
Marion and my brothers wore their usual plantation dress,
with hunting-coat and cap. They threw a horn round Bell's
neck and mine, exacting the promise that we should not use
them.
Mr. Plumer, whistling to his dogs, and blowing his horn,
galloped off to secure the best stand. Papa followed,
attended by Jim calling his hounds, and sounding his horn to
announce to the sportsmen that he was under way. The
gentlemen followed, leaving Bell and me with Richard and
Marion.
Collected at the ground, the hunt was arranged. Mr.
Plumer, counting our forces, exclaimed,
"Let me see, six of us without Marion and Richard, who
are ladies' men - very good - very good; more than that mars
the sport - mars the sport. They must mind the
dears, while
we hunt the deers, ha - ha - ha!"
The boys
* were directed
how to drive. They were to
commence by driving the swamp, the gentlemen and
ourselves taking up our stand at the head of the sunlamp,
while they were to put in below, and drive through to us. If the
dogs started and ran back, the boys were to stop them; but if
they ran to the head of the swamp, they were to scream
behind them, and force the deer out to the standers. We
accordingly proceeded to the head of the swamp, and took
our stands every one at his post. The boys then commenced
driving by whooping and riding about in the swamp, every
now and then speaking to and encouraging the dogs. It was
wonderful to me to see the sympathy of the hounds, their
diligence and docility. After driving about for some time,
Bounce, a cold-nose dog, struck a trail, while the boys
encouraged him, rode to him, brushed through the briers and
bushes, occasionally shouting and clapping their hands to
stimulate the industrious animal. After working cold scent a
while, Bounce was joined by Diamond, Ringwood, Music,
Dash, Killbuck, Rock, Luna, and Trimbush, who alternately
dropped in, working the trail of an old buck into the drive.
And now a chorus of music burst forth from the anxious
pack, which momentarily expected the jump of the deer,
while the boys continued encouraging and urging them on.
Presently up bounced the old buck, the dogs burst forth
into full cry, the boys shouting, "Mind, mind ahead!" to
apprize the sportsmen that the deer was up and coming. The
hunters then, every man at his stand, drew themselves up to
a point behind some large tree or bush, waiting with
breathless anxiety the approach of the deer. The dogs came
bearing down to us, roaring it in the swamp, giving their
tongues at every jump. Presently the old buck broke cover,
and came dashing by
*
Common epithet for negro men.
John with the speed of lightning. My heart leaped to my
mouth. John sprang forward, raised his gun, took his aim, and
blazed away both barrels one after the other. The old buck
faltered a moment, but kept his course. My sympathies were
stirred for the noble animal, and, as I saw him bound on, I
uttered a shout of joy. The dogs came dashing after in full
cry, and were with difficulty stopped by John, who blew his
horn and collected the party; each man came galloping up to
the post with the eager questions,
"Is he shot? What have you done?"
"I don't know," said John; "I think
I hit him. I am sure I
saw him flounder at my last barrel, let us look for blood.
Give me time to reload, and if there is blood we will hustle
him."
By this time Jim, who came first after the dogs, had
dismounted, and was walking on the track of the deer looking
for blood.
"Here blood, Maus John, for true," said Jim, dashing away
the brushwood, and grinning from ear to ear; "but he an't too
much."*
John having reloaded, the boys were ordered to stick close
to the dogs, and if they jumped the buck, to catch him,
knowing that, if badly wounded, he would not run far before
lying down. The hunters then screamed to the hounds, who
broke off in full cry, while we followed in the chase. I
strained my sight onward, and again my sympathetic joy was
roused as the deer once more, apparently unhurt, disappeared
in the swamp. Our broken forces were now rearranged.
Marion, Richard, Bell, and I were stationed in a cross-
road leading from the swamp, where the boys, having
galloped round, had again commenced driving. Mr. Plumer
was at the next stand higher up the road, the others nearer
the swamp, but all in sight of each other. We had not waited
long when we heard once more the hounds bearing down in
full cry directly towards our stand.
"What music! what music!" cried Marion, in raptures, as
the pack set up a renewed yell.
* This
in negro dialect means
there is very little.
I could not but smile as I remembered the remark of a
city gentleman, who once said, "Where is the music? I hear
nothing but the barking of dogs." The deer continued to
approach, and now we heard the crackling of the bushes, and
now the fine creature sprang in sight; but as he came within
gun-shot of John, he turned and took the direction of the
stand at which Mr. Prentiss was stationed, when lo, quick as
thought, we saw him on the other side of Mr. Plumer, having
escaped the shots, and come out considerably beyond the
road.
"On," shouted Marion to the hunters; "if the old buck
gets to the creek we lose him."
Mr. Plumer had already dashed on, as if for life, and we
followed up the road. The hounds then came out in the
distance, followed by the drivers in a complete Gilpin race,
whooping and screaming; two were on mules, the rest on
horses. One had dropped his red cap, another his venison-bag.
"There goes Jim's luncheon," said Richard, as
something else was seen to fall; "that fellow never
stirs without his hoe-cake."
"Young ladies," exclaimed Marion, whose whole soul
yearned for the chase, though comparatively restrained by
our presence, "you must canter briskly, or we shall lose the
sport." And as he said this, Richard and Bell turned into a
cross-road.
Unfortunately, as I loosed my rein, I touched the horse
with my whip. I had been warned that he was an old hunter,
but forgot it, until he sprang forward and left everything
behind. I had sufficient presence of mind to guide him aright,
and, obedient to the rein, he kept the road. The sound of
approaching hoofs made him quicken his speed; he appeared
to fly; and I became giddy with the wild dread of
consequences; but Marion was soon by my side, seizing the
bridle, panting, and crying,
"Hold fast, Miss Wilton, hold fast! We will stop
gradually. I knew my horse had the speed of yours. Be firm,
be firm."
We rode on at a furious rate some short distance before
he succeeded in stopping the excited animal.
When this was effected, he assisted me to dismount, and
exchanged his gentler though spirited steed for mine. In the
midst of this little transaction I perceived that the sport was
forgotten. His eye was bent on me with such an air of
perplexed attention that, blushing and agitated, I shrank from
his gaze. He glanced at the ring on his finger, then again at
me; some associations seemed rushing through his mind, and
lent a melting brightness to the half smile that played upon his
lips, while I, with the most awkward consciousness, urged
on my palfrey. He seized the bridle.
"Stop, Miss Wilton," he exclaimed, eagerly. "One word
before you go. It must be so. I feel an intuition of the truth.
Withdraw not your hand until I try this precious ring on
your finger. Oh, stay, dearest Cornelia," he
continued, as, conscious and embarrassed, I hesitated for a
reply. My hand was in his, the ring sparkled in the sun; but
before he could measure its little circlet Richard and Bell
rode up briskly, calling out,
"The deer has been turned, we hear the dogs coming
this way."
"Oh, let him go, pray, let him go," I exclaimed; "he has
won his life. I cannot bear to have him killed."
"Perhaps he will turn to the river," said Bell; "it is on
our way, and we will see him foil these mighty Nimrods."
We cantered on, the dogs apparently not far distant. On
turning into the public road we beheld the deer coming
directly towards us. Marion and Richard reined up, and raised
their guns, but Bell and I screamed, "Don't shoot, for
mercy's sake, don't shoot!" and they reluctantly
lowered them. The deer, thus pressed by ourselves in front
and by the hunters and dogs in pursuit, stood still, looked
about him, and seemed to hesitate for an instant. How
beautiful, how majestic his appearance in that attitude of
reflection! Turning suddenly, he bounded over the fence into
papa's oakery, and, quick as thought, made his way towards the river.
Baffled in their aim, the hunters swept round to endeavour to
arrest him at the lower entrance, while we quickly
entered a private and shorter access. Crossing a field to the
yard and garden, we reached the river's edge, which bordered
it, just as the deer, swimming for life, was making his way
across the current. The dogs rushed on, the hunters firing
ineffectual shots in the distance, while Bell and I, beneath a
sycamore, waved our handkerchiefs in triumph, and shouted
our congratulations as the noble animal sprang, apparently
unhurt, from the water, and was lost in the thickets on the
opposite bank.
"Not scathed, by George," said papa; "not grazed by a
single shot; he has won his life nobly!"
"Look at Diamond and Trimbush," cried mamma,
running from the house down the garden-path, in an agony
of trepidation, as the dogs came back, wet and whimpering,
from their ineffectual chase; "they are trampling my
carnations, and Luna is making a bed of the wallflowers."
Our attention was drawn away by Jim, who advanced
with the boys, and whose appearance, now that the
excitement was over, made us shout with laughter. He was
half as large again as usual, with white cotton oozing out of
divers apertures in his dress, and the tail of his fox-skin cap
flapping up and down as he rehearsed, with various
gesticulations, to his companions, his share of the
adventures.
"Jim," exclaimed Richard, "what a figure you cut."
"No cut 'em, Maus Dick, only stuff 'em," said Jim,
looking complacently on his strange attire, while, taking off
his fox-skin cap with the pendant tail, he scraped his foot to
the company. "You see, maussa, you see, sir, de brier bery
bad, and I jist been put one nudder breeches on top o' tudder,
tie him tight at he foot, and stuff 'tween em wid cotton; den
de brier just lick de breeches, and an't hut me none at all."
Our shouts were scarcely over at Jim's statement, before
Mr. Plumer came up, and, knocking his muddy military
boots against his gun, said to me, "Ha, my dear, we've
paid dear for the deer,
ha - ha - ha!"
MARION had no opportunity for private conversation
with me on the evening of the hunt, but the excitement of
his feelings was obvious enough to the coolest eye. I saw his
gaze following me as I moved; his very silence, too, was a
language, until, on departing, he whispered the hope that I
might permit him to see me the morning following. Shall I
describe my night of tumultuous waking thoughts and busy
dreams? What young heart has not thus throbbed as the
life-decision hovered near, when it could count the hours before
the time which must decide its future destiny? How hope
colours up that destiny until not a shade is left on its kindled
horizon! Amid the glow of feeling on that night, Duncan
rose to my memory. I fancied I could see the sweet
approving smile which had sometimes followed my girlish
efforts in duty; again I lingered in thought on his last looks
and words, calling up his rich monitions, his practical
excellence, and realizing anew, in my love of virtue, the
touching truth that good seeds are not planted in vain in
the young heart, but spring up vigorous and beautiful in after
years. Mingled with these thoughts came the sad pale form
of my Anna and her lost Lewis; and though my tears had
long since ceased to flow for them, they were still pictured
to me as dim stars struggling with tempestuous clouds. Amid
these thoughts I laid my head on my pillow, and soon a
brighter image
rose, and Marion's form, the model of manly beauty, was
before me, and his eyes, with their soft sunshine, beamed on
me, and his voice uttered its words of "truth and soberness,"
and my heart seemed like a song in its lightness, and all
pleasant things were before me; I knew that I loved, I felt
that I was beloved again, and so I slept.
How rich and bright was that following morning! - there
was gladness in everything. The birds fancied that young
spring had come; and, as one of our native poets has
beautifully sung,
The sun lay in a yellow glow on the earth, where a
few blades still struggled with wintry frosts, while the
roses, crisp and mottled like a bright girl's winter cheek,
sparkled in the dew. And the toilet of that morning, why was
it so agitated and yet so lingering? Why did my half-combed
hair hang in its waves, while I, forgetful of its braids, looked
out on sky and field, and knew not that I looked? Why
did I clasp my hands upon my heart as if to sooth its
tumult, and yet garner up thoughts that set its full tide
flowing? Why did the riband that Marion had praised seem
like a relic, while the sigh that rose over a faded flower
which he had given me was as warm as the devotee's in her
most rapt devotion? Oh, gentle genius of youthful love,
floating in clouds of light and beauty around the trusting
heart, thou canst tell!
Let me receive all praise that I committed none of
the alleged crimes of lovers at the breakfast-table. No
spilled coffee can be laid to my charge. I did not put
butter instead of sugar into papa's tea, or say yes,
madam, when I should have said no, sir. Having a little of
the pride of good sense, I did not depart from social-
usefulness, but assisted mamma in washing the cups,
brushed
papa's hat, arranged the flowers, and went through my little
routine of household duty without a mistake. At length, all
was done. Papa and my brothers went out on their various
errands, mamma walked to the river-side to her dairy, and I
was left alone. Then I began to feel an unwonted tremour. I
could not read or sew; I shrank from walking in the piazza,
because there I should first see Marion; I would not go into
the garden, because it should look like avoiding him. A
sudden thought struck me. With a mixed feeling of frolic
and agitation I ordered my horse to be saddled, and ran
up stairs to a remote closet, where my riding-dress and
hat had been banished after my fall in the ditch. There
they were -- the same splashes of mud on the habit, the
same dangling black feathers, the same crushed wire and
stiff veil. Dressing quickly, I rang for Jim, whom I made
partially my confidant. All Jim's politeness could not
prevent him from laughing out at the appearance I exhibited.
"Ki!" shouted he; "Miss Neely look more worser den
she did when she tumble head over heel. De jacket too
leetle, and de sleeve an't fetch to de wrist. Miss Neely
been scare de crow!"
I asked Jim if he was certain that Mr. Marion always
took the private path across the fields from our avenue;
and having ascertained this fact, I threw a large shawl
over my shoulders, put a fresh veil above the soiled one,
mounted my horse, and, followed by Jim, with a beating
heart cantered down the avenue.
Jim was very eloquent respecting the events of the day
previous, but I scarcely heard his details; and when I had
fairly reached the cross-road my mind misgave me.
He will think me forward and bold, thought I, to come
and meet him thus; there is something too farcical in this
attire, ill suited to maiden modesty. And thinking thus, my
whole heart began to sink within me at the bare idea of
forfeiting his esteem by indelicacy.
"I must turn back, Jim," said I, hastily; "I feel faint,
and must go home."
"Wha fo you been go, Miss Neely?" said he. "See
Maus Marion be here. He'm jis been tak de short cut
round de corner. You no been want for shee um?"
And he showed all his teeth in laughing as he
surveyed my dress again.
"Not for the world, Jim," cried I, "would I have him see
me. I shall die if he does," I continued, in uncontrolled
agitation - and turning my horse, I urged him to a gallop.
If I can only get home one minute before him, thought I,
and change my dress. And I screamed, "Go on, Jim, and
open both the gates. Quick! quick! I am frightened, I am ill!
Oh, what a fool he will think me!"
Jim, frightened himself at my violence, readily obeyed.
But the same good steed with which Marion once before
overtook me was speeding on. My head snapped, my face
was in a blaze, and, as if to complete my trials, the shawl and
veil which I had put on loosely in order to remove them
quickly, caught in the bushes. I sprang from the horse and let
him pass on, hoping that Marion might pursue him while I
hid in the shrubbery near by; alas, he had seen me; with the
speed of lightning he approached and dismounted, and I,
foolish girl that I was, hid my face upon a stump of a tree
that was near, and burst into tears.
"Good heavens!" exclaimed Marion; "what can this
mean?"
I could not answer, and I was ashamed to look up. He
scarcely knew what to do - at length he said, in a low voice,
"This is a singular vision! Can it be Miss Wilton?"
"Yes," said I, sobbing. "Oh, it is so silly! I am so
ashamed!"
In a moment he was by my side, and kneeling there, he
laid aside my bonnet, and wiped away my tears, and I did
not forbid him.
"Fear not to weep before me, dearest," he said. "It is
the privilege of love to wipe tears - smiles are for the
crowd, but you have no need of tears, Cornelia; I would
rather see this," (and he took my soiled hat from the ground
and kissed it reverently) "than the tiara of a princess."
My hand lay in his; he gently transferred the cherished
ring to my finger, and pressed his lips one moment on its
glittering surface. There was no need of explanation; heart
whispered to heart its own story, and so thought Jim; for,
galloping back with my horse, he put his head among the bushes,
and seeing the posture of affairs, tied him to a tree, and rode
quietly away.
EMMA C. EMBURY. WORDSWORTH. MUCH has been said of the manoeuvring of mothers to
obtain settlements for their daughters; but the class is
infinitely larger of those parents who feel as if their girls
were still in childhood, and who wake up as if from a dream,
on finding that the beings who have lain in their bosoms, and
walked the path of opening life, and surrounded the
household hearth, and been close as the very air they
breathed, are suddenly wrenched from them by a stronger tie,
the love of years torn up by the very roots, and transplanted
to a stranger's heart.
Such was the shock that mamma received in her tranquil
routine of duty. The possibility of my belonging to
another was like an earthquake to her. I had been cherished
like a tree of her own planting, beneath which she was to
repose; it was strange to her that other hands should
gather its blossoms and fruits. My dear mother! she took me
to her arms and wept - she to whom tears were so rare! All
that day she drooped in her duties; her brow was thoughtful;
she sighed often, and seemed like one struggling with a
burden. But Marion soon reconciled her to love's destiny by
tender assiduities, and she felt that she had gained a son in
the partial loss of a daughter.
Papa was equally astonished at a result which might have
been foreseen with much less acuteness than he possessed;
but the effect on him was to produce a volley of jokes, that
sent the blood rushing to my cheeks, and disconcerted
Marion, upon whose plate, at dinner, mamma, in
compensatory kindness, piled a mass of food like a Grecian
hecatomb. Was it wonderful that Marion should gain my
consent to escape from this notoriety to a secluded
tête-à-tête
on the evening of that eventful day, where, unobserved,
the "course of our true love" might be traced from its first
slight fountain of preference?
"My mother must see you, Cornelia," said he. "I feel like
a miser until I have revealed my treasure to her, and Ellen
too, and my father. I thank Heaven, dearest, that you will be
appreciated in my home!"
So an early day was appointed for a visit to Winnapee,
Mr. Marion's plantation, situated in one of the eastern
parishes.
We left Roseland in a row-boat for the city, where a
carriage was to meet us on the following morning, to
conduct us on our remaining way. The followers of
Columbus would have been glad of the provisions with which
mamma supplied us for this half day's excursion. I cannot
say much for the animation of our party, notwithstanding
Richard and John were with us. A first love, a new joy, are
serious: and a tender and solemn moral seems to spring from
this peculiarity of the human temperament. What
philosophy would ever portray happiness with laughing eyes
and dancing movements?
Beautiful happiness! I own, a smile is on her lip, but it is
like the lining of a sable cloud; her eyes are bright, but they
look forward to hope or back on memory still; she shuts up
her bosom's thoughts, with a presentiment that they may
fly if the door of their cage is loosed; her foot treads
carefully on the flowers at her feet, lest she should crush
them; over those very flowers a tear sometimes glances (for
happiness has tears), and their petals heave in the throbs of
the heart, near which they are enshrined.
Alas for those who are condemned to a companionship
with lovers! John and Richard talked over their hunting
experiences, discussed all the characters in the parish,
predicted the crops, sang snatches of tunes, partook
of mamma's dainties, and yawned. As for me, I saw a
transparency in the waters that pictured the wintry boughs
along the shore, lending there a charm unseen before, I saw a
purer blue in the sunny sky, and the white clouds that were
reflected in the river were like rich pillows for reposing
angels; the couching birds, that sprang up at the dash of the
oars, seemed painted with new colours, and their flight was
airy as if they followed the bidding of a loved one; the
oarsman's stroke dwelt on the silent air like music, there was
harmony in the crackling bushes, when, as we neared the
shore, some startled animal bounded away, and all nature was
to me like an infolding mantle of love and tenderness.
I had often before this day been sheltered from the winter
breeze by some kind hand; my cloak had been wrapped
around me with equal care, and others had sought my eyes to
know their faintest wishes. Why then, was all thus bright and
fresh to my vision? What made the circumstance still more
unaccountable was that John and Richard wrapped
themselves in their boat cloaks and fell asleep.
A shower came on before we reached town, but even this
was not altogether to be deprecated. There were so many
opportunities to show a kind, considerate attention and to
make one feel as if one was all the world to a loving heart!
On the following we proceeded in Mr. Marion's carriage.
Vegetation on the Cooper river varies from that on the
Ashley. Instead of wooded banks, long tracts of land are
devoted to rice-culture. In the winter these appear dreary
enough, except to the planter, who sees a promise hidden to
common eyes, and to the sportsman, who detects game in
ditches and on banks. At some seasons of the year those
immense fields are very attractive. More extended than the
domains of many a feudal baron, arranged with almost
military order and neatness, in spring the rich green of the
rice-blades lies, as far as the eye can reach, in velvet softness,
while in autumn its golden grains wave to the winds beneath
the untiring sunshine.
My brothers were on horseback. There is something very
animating in this style of companionship: the sudden gallop
by the side of the carriage, to tell a joke or make a remark
on the scenery; the picturesque air of the riders, as they
recede from sight or check their spirited steeds to be
overtaken; the conscious air of a horseman, as he wields the
bridle and makes a graceful curvet - these things give life and
spirit to a country drive; and my brothers, glad to be released
from the monotony of the boat, added to the interest by the
glee of unobserved retirement. The inclemency of the
previous day was followed by a mild and balmy atmosphere,
which, in some moods of physical temperament, sends a
revery over the soul. Marion and I glanced from subject to
subject, testing our new sympathies; mused upon unexpressed
thoughts; gazed together upon the woods, or traced the
Etiwan* through their
openings. How happy is that
intercourse where no obligation is felt to
converse; where the
heart breaks forth from the lips in unfettered exclamations of
joy and tenderness, then sinks back; to realize its joy, and
fosters its tenderness in silence, and looks again to nature for
sympathy!
The buds of a mild February (which belongs to a
Southern spring) were struggling with the stiffened leaves
*
Indian name for Cooper river.
of winter, which the frost had tinged, but not severed from
their branches; the soft gray of the floating moss prevailed in
its hue over the yet sheathed foliage, and a misty atmosphere,
shading down the sunbeams, suited well this sober livery of
nature; the scanty foliage revealed the squirrel and the red-bird,
as they sprang from branch to branch; the Etiwan,
playing like a truant child, wound brightly in eccentric turns,
so abruptly, that the shores often looked like clustering
islands, the broad rice-fields lay ready for the genial moment
when the planter should sow his grain, and their trimmed
banks spoke of agricultural care; the crows clustered in the old
oaks with their social cawings; the blackbird chattered near,
and then, startled by our approach, swept off like a light cloud
on the heavens; now a solitary crane on the marshes stretched
up its long neck to listen, and then, with flapping wings,
soared away; while the small gray sparrow, with tripping steps
and irregular flight, ascended and descended on the plains.
The course of our journey brought us to a ferry. There is
something infinitely more romantic in crossing a ferry than
in rumbling over a bridge at full speed; and, whatever
utilitarians may say, I cannot but enjoy the loitering half
hour when the negroes, with lazy movement, ply the oar,
while the lumbering boat, yielding to the current, like a good
manoeuvrer, but to obtain the mastery, nears the shore. Yes;
let us lovers of leisure gaze up and down our placid streams,
in thoughts perchance listless, perchance wise, soothed by the
plash of the oar or the ripple of the wave - and who knows
but we shall gain as much in the end as they who glide over
space like lightning, and before whom objects appear as the
shadow of a flying bird in the sunshine.
Feeling the necessity of refreshment, we alighted for a
while beneath a tree by the roadside, for a
maroon. While
the men-servants spread a tablecloth on the ground, Flora
withdrew from their concealment mamma's cold fowl and
ham, and the gentlemen laid their cloaks for seats. We were
soon, despite of sentiment, reclining on them, with good
appetites and merry faces;
the dogs wheeled round us in antic gambols, or looked, with
eager eyes, at the morsels we threw them; the birds hopped
almost to where we sat; the stealthy squirrel peeped as he
climbed the neighbouring tree, and the changing lizard ran
on the old Virginia fence unscared.
The merry meal was over, and we resumed our drive.
There are few girls, however self-possessed they may be,
who are not somewhat abashed, under circumstances like
mine, with the expected introduction to strangers; but I had
prepared myself for the occasion. As we approached the
residence of Arthur's parents, a glance told me that there
was a study of elegance and form in its proprietors. I sat
unconsciously more erect when the gray-headed, liveried
porter, with a subdued welcome, and a bow which would not
have dishonoured Sir Charles Grandison, held the gate for us
to pass through to the court. I thought, for the first time,
how often I had seen Jim, in an old jacket, displace the
regular servant, and saunter or rush to the gate to admit
visitors, perhaps attended by three or four dirty little
urchins, while the harangue which he gave them on manners
drew but the more attention to their dishabille. I remembered
how his unceremonious box on their ears had sent them off
roaring with a noise quite disproportioned to their pain, and
I resolved, on my return, to reform abuses, and to restore
the regime of my grandmamma, who had been a great lover
of form, and who used to say that the affections were never
crushed by being clothed in good manners, and that respect
for others produced self-respect.
I was soon folded in the arms of Arthur's family. If
anything, the embrace was too soft and measured; too much
like the porter's bow, the gravelled walk, the trimmed
shrubbery; but I afterward found, as grandmamma had said,
that this polish crushed no actual warmth of the heart.
I retired quickly to dress for dinner, and found that Flora
had unfolded a new frock which I had taken from the
mantuamaker in the city. I perceived that it was too showy
for the occasion; but it was too late to look for another,
and, to add to any troubles, it did not fit;
Flora's strength and skill were called in requisition to make
it meet, and she at length succeeded. Fluttered and vexed, I
heard the summons to dinner, and, pulling on a pair of new
gloves, descended to the drawing-room, where Ellen Clarion
was seated in the most simple and elegant repose. I am sure
of the sympathy of my female readers, who, whatever may
be their station in society, have, I doubt not, been over-
dressed at least once in their lives. Who can forget the first
pang at the suspicion of the fact, the furtive glance around
the company, to ascertain some companionship in finery;
the earnest gaze at every new-comer, in hope that some
extra riband or lace may be displayed; and then the settling
down into the conviction that one is altogether
out of taste,
while the blush that began on the cheek spreads and deepens,
till the forehead glows and the fingers tingle?
Arthur's father waited on me to the dining-room (I used
to hate these handings-in when
I was a girl), and seated me
with my back to a blazing fire. My gloves were not yet fairly
on but looked like extra joints at every finger, and my silk
rustled like a patch of corn broom in a breeze; I felt as
if I were all gloves and silk; and longed for our home voices
to break in on the soft and measured cadence of the Marions.
I allowed myself to be helped to everything I did not like,
and, to complete my despair, tipped my well-filled plate into
my lap, where I had neglected to lay a napkin, and was obliged
to have it spooned up from my new silk. So much for first
impressions on my lover's relations, and so much for my late boast of
self-possession!
MOORE'S Veiled Prophet of
Khorassan. A change of dress, and the delicate attentions of the
Marions, soon restored my self-possession; and the reaction
produced in me a degree of vivacity that awoke to
unaccustomed tones the Chesterfieldian echoes of Winnapee.
A few delicious days with Ellen supplied to me
again poor Anna's loss. How quickly young thoughts
leap to each other! We talked the long nights almost
through, topics growing as we lifted the veils of our
hearts, and revealed their fresh hopes and memories.
We had marked the same passages in books; we preferred
the same songs; we walked the piazza with interlacing
arms, loving the same glow and the same shade.
It was sweet to lavish on Ellen the treasures of tenderness
I dared not bestow on Arthur; to look on her as
his softened image, while I turned my eyes from him,
and to hear her unwearied praises of his goodness and
beauty, each imparting a glory to the other.
"I shall call you my own
sister, soon," said Ellen,
with a whisper that sent a blush of joy to my cheeks, as
with embraces, such as dear friends give, we parted.
On reaching the close of our journey, we observed a
field adjoining our avenue on fire; this common and
necessary occurrence in agriculture at the South did not
surprise us; but, on entering the avenue, we were startled
and terrified at finding the Cherokee rose-hedge, which in
winter is very combustible, in flames. I have mentioned his
hedge, I think, before. Nothing in nature could exceed
its beauty when in bloom in the month of April. For three
miles the long feelers of the vine lifted themselves
up or athwart, from five to six feet in height and breadth;
and the eye knew not whether most to admire the glossy
green of the leaves, or the white blossoms which reposed on
them like wreaths of snow. Here and there its long arms
reached to a neighbouring tree, and seemed to revel while
infolding it. Everywhere they stretched themselves out like
living things, waving to catch support in their luxuriance.
Amid this sheet of white, the accustomed sight could detect
the lingering blossoms of the yellow jasmine, the opening
scarlet woodbine, struggling with its fair but overpowering
rival, while the shrub honeysuckle threw out its perfume
beneath, amid the lower foliage.
The piercing thorn of the Cherokee rose renders it
impenetrable by cattle; but it harbours reptiles, and being
somewhat unmanageable in its growth, is not a favourite with
the planter. No mere feeling of utility, however, would
induce papa to displace his, while it extorted a burst of
admiration from every beholder. Through an unpardonable
carelessness in the negroes, they had not guarded it from the
flames at the two extremities, where it had caught, and was
raging furiously; thus shutting them out from all hope of
escape, except through the hedge, which, in many parts, was
totally inaccessible. We heard their cries for help without the
power to aid them. Fortunately for us, our plantation
adjoined another, the avenue of which ran parallel with our
own; the hedge on the left had not yet thoroughly caught, a slight
embankment separated the two, with ditches between, and
the wind blew onward, not across the road, thus, giving us
comparative security in proceeding. Arthur himself, taking
the reins, struck at once into this avenue and drove at full
speed. The wind increased, while the crackling and roaring
sound, the flying cinders, and the growing heat, gave us a
new motive for flight. The hope of escaping the flames was
soon more faint, for Frank, the coachman, cried out, "Fire
ahead, maussa!" Marion checked the horses; it was true, the
flames were about to meet on the right-hand hedge of papa's
avenue; still the left was but partially ignited, and the current
of
air continued to blow from the path we had taken. In
the momentary pause of deliberation, we heard a shriek; from
the enclosure on the right. Merciful Heaven! it was Binah's
voice, raised to a yell of horror, crying -
"Help, help, God Almighty! help Dinah, for Christ's sake!
Help little Miss Patsey! We guine for burn up; help, help!"
Arthur hesitated not a moment, but I saw that he turned
deadly pale.
"You can remain here a few minutes in safety," said he;
"the wind still favours us. I will soon return." And scarcely
allowing himself a look at me, he threw Frank's cloak over
his head as a protection against the briars, leaped the ditch,
ascended the bank, with his strong arm forced a passage
through the hedge, and disappeared.
I scarcely remember what next occurred; but a frantic
violence took possession of me, and I would have followed
but for Frank's restraining arm. I watched the flakes that rose
and sailed off in the distance, or caught some neighbouring
tree. I saw the young trees fall, and the flames curl round
the old; the sound seemed like the hissing of serpents'
tongues in mockery, and I chattered and mocked at them in
return. Those moments seemed to concentrate ages of
feeling. At length I heard a voice, Arthur's voice, calling for
aid, but so strange and unnatural! Frank had been industrious
in making a clearance through the hedge, whose top began to
burn in various directions. We climbed the bank, sprang
through and found him. He had rescued Patsey, and protected
her with Frank's cloak; Binah had clung to him as long as life
lasted, but there she lay, a withered corpse, while he staggered
forward and fell. I took Patsey in my arms; the frightened
child clung sobbing to my neck, while Frank bore Arthur to
the carriage. The flames were now around us, but love and
fear gave us power. Frank drove furiously. Poor Arthur spoke
not; blackened by the smoke, and torn with briars, he lay
helpless across the seats. We were near home, but the seconds
seemed hours. I could not caress my poor little Patsey, who
pressed her cheek to my bosom in silence, and trembled
like an aspen leaf. The rushing smoke stifled, the heated air
oppressed me; and the silence was only interrupted by
Arthur's groans. On entering the court I made one more
effort to arouse the sufferer.
"Speak to me, Arthur," I said; "one
word, only one," but
his parched lips attempted utterance in vain.
On our arrival he was carried to bed, and medical aid
called; mamma, in the meantime, prescribing for him, and
allowing me to sit by his side with her. He could not bear a
ray of light, and I attended him in darkness. Alas, I could not
press his dear hand, nor cool his brain, nor touch his parched
lips; all was agony, burning, restless agony.
Who has not at some moments of their lives felt willing
to lie down and die for a beloved one? At such periods, the
grave has seemed a sweet bed of repose, and death a precious
minister of love.
For many days I saw not the face of my dear Arthur. I
retired with mamma while the physicians dressed his wounds,
and returned again to sit by his side. Gradually he began
to utter words, and called my name. I wept with
joy at the blessed sound; then one poor hand could press mine
faintly, and bear the soft language I reciprocated. Slowly the
light was admitted, and I saw him; but - oh, my heart - how
changed! The beauty of which I was so proud was gone! The
rich hair no longer lay on his noble brow; and that brow, once
so serene, was furrowed by deeper lines than age or sorrow
can engrave. I should not have known him! God forgive me,
but I thought him hideous. I felt my blood curdle, and my
head swim with an indefinite terror. The poor sufferer did not
heed me, for his eyes were closed to the light. I thought my
heart would have burst, and rushed to my own apartment. I
traversed it with rapid steps; I crushed my hands upon my
bosom to stop its beatings, and pressed my forehead to the
wainscot to cool its burning. I stamped in a kind of
vindictive wrath, and uttered words of impious fury. I think I
was going mad, but I grew faint; slow tears came to
me; I was not left to blaspheme; I was softened; they fell
like rain, and my spiritual triumph prevailed.
What, I thought, is this perishing clay to an immortal?
His frail beauty would at best have lasted but a few years.
Who knows but I should have loved too fondly those dark
eyes, whose intellectual brightness struggled with their
mellow tenderness; that mouth chiselled to the most perfect
turn of manly symmetry? My poor Arthur, I have
sometimes feared that your grasping intellect and exquisite
person united placed you too much above me, that I must
worship you like a bright, distant star; it is not so now. I
shall not fear to lay your aching head against my heart, to
smooth the lingering curl on your fevered brow, and call you
mine only.
With these thoughts I kneeled in prayer. Earth seemed a
vain thing to me; duty and Christian hope my birthright.
"Arthur," said I, cheerfully, as I sat by his bedside a week
after, with his hand in mine, parting the scanty hair
on his scarred forehead, "you are not aware how much
you are altered by this sad accident. You asked yesterday for
a glass, you must be prepared for a change."
He started, hesitated a moment, and said, in a low tone,
"I feared this. Can you endure me?"
"If I had loved your beauty only," I replied, "I might
not have borne its loss so well as I do; but while God spares
your intellect and heart, I have still enough to be proud of."
He looked thoughtful, and said, "Is it really come to this?
I have had fearful suspicions of it." His hand shook in mine
with sudden tremour. "I have frequently desired to introduce
the subject," he continued, mournfully, "but had not
courage. You are not aware that vanity has been my
besetting sin. I can recollect the earnest praise of my beauty.
I remember ladies taking me in their arms when I was a child,
and bestowing on me extravagant expressions of endearment
and praise; I remember my power over young girls, who
flattered me with their eyes, when their lips were too
modest to speak; my quick ear has caught voices in public,
even of rude boys
in the street, pronouncing me beautiful; and, yes, I will
confess all, I have lingered over my own miniature with a
kind of idol-worship. I struggled with this weakness, and
thought it mastered; God's will be done if this dispensation is
sent to punish me."
"Not to punish you, Arthur," said I, fondly, as I perceived
the nervous irritability of his feelings, "but it may be to try
you, to perfect you, and to reveal to you my true love, which
asks for nothing in return but yours. Oh, if you knew the
warm and brooding tenderness that has settled on my heart
since your misfortune, you too would say, it is enough for me,
it is worth more than external charms can buy."
Arthur improved in his appearance and health. I kept the
mirror from him, telling him that every day diminished his
disfigurement; and he cheerfully assented to my wishes, while
his mind appeared to be regaining its tone.
"You will be almost what you were, dear Arthur," I said
to him one day when he began to despond; "indeed, I forget
that you are not the same. Judge me by yourself, would you
look at me with less of true love's preference, if I were to be
altered by misfortune?"
He shuddered, and exclaimed, "Do not mention it; I
cannot bear to think of it." (I repeat his language, not with
vanity, but to show his intense love of what he thought
beautiful.) "Let me gaze on you;" and he fixed his
melancholy eyes full on mine, "lest some awful power should
change you. So long as those fringed orbs beam in their
speaking sweetness; so long as I can trace the rose-tints on
your cheeks, and the deep brilliancy of your lips; while your
braided hair lies thus in its glossy folds; while these soft
hands are white as sun-tinged ivory; while your step glides
around me, and I can catch the fine proportions of your
modest form; while your voice falls in sweet modulations on
my ears, stirring up love's echoes, I will bear God's
dispensations on myself; but, pray, pray that they may
stop before they reach you."
Arthur was at length able to walk a few steps, though
in great weakness, about his apartment. In my earnestness
to assist him one day, I forgot that he might approach
the looking-glass; he did so inadvertently, glanced at
himself, exclaimed, "My God!" and fell senseless.
He was removed to his bed, requested his room to be
darkened and the curtains drawn around it, while, without
repulsing my attentions, he seemed to prefer communing
with himself in silence. I saw that a violent struggle was
going on, rendered more overwhelming by his physical
weakness. This lasted some days.
"Cornelia," said he to me at length, in a tone of
bitterness, "I intended to have surprised you with a gift from
my poor Ellen - a likeness of Arthur Marion; do you
remember him? Look in my writing-desk and bring it to
me."
I went and presented it with a trembling hand, not daring
to glance at it. He told me to open a shutter; I did, and the
bright light burst in on the miniature and on him.
"Come here," said he, sternly; "come
and look."
I obeyed; the likeness was perfect. The girl who dreams of
Endymion never pictured anything more beautiful. I glanced
at Arthur's face, it was disfigured with conflicting passions. I
perceived that this was his last great trial, and braced myself
for the result. He sat up in the bed, to which he had been
confined since his fall, gazed long and earnestly on the
picture, then, clinching it with upraised arm, dashed it
against the ceiling. He watched it as it was shivered to atoms;
then, drawing the bedclothes over his face, wept and sobbed
aloud.
I kneeled beside him, clasped his hands in mine, laid my
head on his pillow, and moaned as a mother with her
suffering child. I prayed to God to comfort him, and the
prayer was accepted. It was his last
great struggle, and he
rose from it like a man and a Christian.
"If
obliged to attend
to some household affair,
Poems of JOHN BYROM. 1691. I KNOW of no purer or more sacred pleasure than to
watch the recovery of a beloved valetudinarian, to see the
eye light up from day to day, and the grateful smile play
round the lip; to note the growing relish of the delicate
appetite; to support the footsteps of the feeble one a little
farther, from effort to effort, to see the glance rest
soothingly on a fresh flower; to hear the exclamation of joy
at the first view of nature, as, leaning on our arm, the invalid
looks abroad; to note the strengthening mind yield itself up
while words of sacred truth or lighter amusement are read; to
take the first drive, and mark how the breeze and sunshine
come to the languid spirit as to a drooping plant, lifting up
its leaves of hope and joy.
It was delightful to me to be the minister of comfort
to Arthur, and to see the shadows pass off from his clear
thoughts. He was a religious being, and it was his comfort to
throw his cares on Him "who cared for him." The sight of
Patsey was at first painful to him, but the dear child soon
won her way to his confidence; she laid her little head on his
knees, climbed to his arms, and told him, in childhood's
winning tones, her pleasures and troubles. Her grief for
Binah's loss was exceedingly affecting. She went about the
house and grounds calling for her mauma, or sang in low
tones the hymns she had taught her; and when the
hour arrived when she
had been accustomed to lay her flaxen locks against Binah's
sable cheek, while she soothed her to sleep, for several
nights a restless and plaintive sound murmured on her lips,
and an eager watching, as for something lost, dwelt in her
troubled eye.
Marion regained with health much of his original
symmetry. The radiance and softness of his dark eyes were
unquenched, and the long lashes gathered lovingly below
them; the curled lip regained its fulness and richness, and
even the deep scar on his brow was hidden by the lock of
hair whose pliant curl I loved to adjust, when he, forgetful of
the defect, carelessly brushed it aside.
There was no obstacle to our marriage. The whole clan of
Wiltons and Marions met at Roseland, where mamma, revelling
in housewifery cheer, moved as in a native element. Strange
to say, there were but two offences given - one to a maiden
cousin of Arthur's, who had commenced making a nightcap for
me the day our engagement was announced to her. It was cut
in mathematical forms of every shape and size, embellished
with inserting trimming, and finished with two frills; yet,
notwithstanding this token, she was omitted in the
invitations. I sent her an extra slice of cake to conciliate
her, but it was returned unopened, and she has never spoken
to me to this day. The other individual was a coloured confectioner in
the city, who expected to make my cake. The first time
I met her after my
marriage she cut me, tossed up
her head, and passed on; but we
were reconciled on my bespeaking my entertainment at my first
city party from her.
Our summer was passed in journeying, and we realized
the rich experience of happiness shared by individuals who
sympathize in taste and feeling. We felt a thrill in common
while traversing the wild passes of Trenton Falls; the mutual
prayer burst from our lips beneath and above Niagara's
torrent; we clasped each other's hands on the brow of the
Green Hills, and gazed upward together in awe-struck homage
at the White Mountains; and it was with my own Arthur that
I wept, his old
father standing by, over Duncan's grave. Unwedded love has
its jealousies, and wills not that even a flower should be
prized too highly; but wedded confidence is pure; knowing
that all is possessed of the heart's deep treasures, it gives and
shares with sober joy. Arthur stood silently by my side while
memory lent its tribute to true and tender friendship; and
afterward, folding me in sympathy to his heart, prayed that
he might be worthy of such tears.
The strong local attachment of negroes was developed in
a most interesting and amusing manner on our journey. Four
years previous to my marriage, a patron, by the name of
Ormsby, belonging to one of papa's schooners, was carried
away under mysterious circumstances, with another negro, a
simple, half-idiot fellow, belonging also to papa. When their
loss was announced and finally confirmed on the plantation,
it was received by Ormsby's wife with an apparent calmness
singularly contrasted with the usual obstreperous grief of her
class. It was observed, however, that as day passed away after
day, she never smiled; and, though still attentive to her duty,
wasted away without any symptom of disease. Love had been
the sun of her existence as it had been to poor Anna's more
refined affection. The vase, though coloured differently,
glowed by the same light from within; when that light was
extinguished, creation seemed dark to both. She went to
her daily tasks heedless of the jests of her lighter-hearted
companions; the cloud still hung around her face and over her
soul, and in a year and a half she died, broken-hearted.
Arthur and I were attended in our journey from the South
by papa's coachman, and in a Northern city he unexpectedly
encountered Ormsby. The poor patron sprang towards his
fellow-servant, wrung his hand, and burst into tears. He was
conducted to me, and no sooner recognized me than he fell
on his knees at my feet, clung to my garments, burst into
tears anew, and thanked God that he lived to see one of our
family again. He had been carried to Calcutta, had worked
his way back to America, and was endeavouring to
return to
Carolina. I told him that he was at liberty to remain where
he was, but he said his only wish on earth was to live and die
in his master's service. The idiot who was with him,
manifested his feelings in an uncouth style, and all his
affections were riveted on the schooner from which he
had been forced away. On our return, papa told them
that they were at liberty to dispose of their own time
as they pleased. The Idiot rushed to his schooner, hugged
the mast, kissed the rigging, tossed up his hat in the air,
hurrahed; then lying down complacently with his face to
the sun, swore he would live and die there; and he kept
his word. Through the winter he served as a sailor, and in
summer, when the schooner was lying by, made her his home.
Ormsby continued an exemplary servant, devoted to papa's
interests. Less romantic than his faithful wife, he married
again, as he said, to be comfortable, but not until he had
raised a simple slab, in the negro burial-place at Roseland,
to the memory of the broken-hearted one.
This local feeling was also manifested in our coachman
while we were at Niagara. After the silent and overwhelming
joy which ravished his spirit had passed away, Arthur said
to Mark -
"Did you ever see anything so fine as this, boy?"
"Eh! eh! maussa," said the indignant fellow, snapping
his fingers, "dis here can't show he face to
Couter Bridge!"
Couter Bridge consists of a few planks thrown over a
muddy spot in the suburbs of Charleston, a spot sacred
to the truant frolics of many an errand boy.
Amid our plans for the future we resolved to engage
a white female housekeeper. A young woman was recommended
to us, and her unfortunate circumstances decided us to
take her to the South. Her parents were both intemperate,
and appropriated to their sensual wants her daily
earnings. Saddened and disheartened, unable to support,
and without the hope of reclaiming them, she resolved
to accompany us. Accidental engagements prevented our
meeting until we were on board the vessel, and I was
somewhat startled to find my housekeeper,
Miss Lucilla Hall, in a cloth riding-habit, and straw bonnet
fresher and better than my own. There was a flash of
self-respect in her large dark eyes, and her dress was
fitted to her person with a precision that showed a
determination to compete in appearance with those above her.
She was not actually graceful or elegant, but how could I
think of ordering such a person? I was really embarrassed,
said ma'am to her in my incertitude, and used as much
form, and perhaps more, than I should to a distinguished
stranger. Southerners must necessarily experience this
awkwardness from the different mode in which servitude
exists in other portions of the country. Lucilla's discretion
and good sense soon, however, determined her level.
She began superintending my baggage, and sat at that
unobtrusive distance where she could be summoned
without seeming to be a companion. The only attempt
at refinement on board the vessel which did not sit
gracefully on her, was a conversation with a passenger,
which I accidentally heard, on Walter Scott's last novel!
How can I ask her to bring
me a glass of water? thought
I; and my difficulty in placing her in the right position
at home again occurred to me.
On the evening of our arrival I showed her her
apartment, and paid her every attention in my power, which
was rewarded by her air of happiness and content. I
bade her good-night cheerfully, and left the dependent
stranger to her busy dreams. The next morning, as I
opened the parlour door, I found her standing with a
newspaper in her hand. A deep red spot shone on her
cheek; her eye flashed a moment; then, dropping the paper
and covering her face with her hands, she burst into tears
and left the room.
I took up the paper, and saw the secret of her wounded
feelings in the announcement of the arrival of Arthur
Marion, Esq., lady, and servant!
Poor Lucilla, a dark
cloud rested for several days on her countenance; nor
were her social relations, though I studied her feelings
in every mode in my power, calculated to make her
happy. She seemed to hang in an unbalanced sphere
between me and the servants of the household. By-and-by,
however, a love passage came in to throw a little light
over her heart.
A young carpenter in the neighbourhood, whom she had
never seen, sent her a brace of birds and a watermelon, upon
which she came, blushing with surprise, and asked my advice.
I told her it was probably a piece of neighbourly attention,
and she had best accept then. The following day another
watermelon came, with the initials of both parties carved on
the rind; and on the third, as Lucilla stood in the piazza, two
hands pushed a huge one through the partially-opened street
door; It rolled towards the excited girl, and she saw inlarge
letters on the green rind: -
Lucilla had not a spark of coquetry, and was evidently
affected by this novel courtship; my advice ceased to be
asked, and I lost my pretty housekeeper, who soon headed
an establishment of her own.
It was about this time that the first great impulse was
given to the temperance cause in Massachusetts. An
individual, who may perhaps read these pages, made the
parents of Lucilla his especial care; they signed the
pledge, reformed, and have since gone down to peaceful
graves, leaving their blessing and God's smile on their
benefactor.
The history of Lucilla's successor, which I will give in her
own language, illustrates some of the difficulties
of servitude, and is a beautiful picture of the every-day
struggles of the conscientious poor. It will be seen by these
two cases how difficult it is to study the wishes of white
dependents among us who have any refinement; the vulgar we
cannot tolerate. Though strictly attentive to her duties, I
perceived that her feelings were labouring under some
excitement; and while seeking my presence under various
pretences, her manner was never serene and composed.
One evening when I was alone in the country, waiting
Arthur's return from a club, I sent for Betsey from her own
room to sit with me. A cheerful fire blazed on the hearth;
and as we sat sewing together, I asked her some questions
about her early life, expressed my surprise at her correct
language and manners, and by degrees drew from her her
simple story.
"I do not recollect my father or mother," said my humble
companion; "but at seven I was bound by the overseers of the
poor to a lady in Boston, who promised to keep me until I was
eighteen, and provide for me, at the end of my service, a
situation where I might learn a trade. A child of seven years is
very young to be cast out on the world, and many were the
sufferings I endured. Mrs. Granby was very kind to me; but she
had several young children who were badly managed, and I
was made the sport of their ill-humours. If they broke a plate,
it was immediately said, Betsey has done it; if the sugar was
eaten out of the sugar-bowl, the theft was laid to me; if one of
the children cried, it was Betsey who teased her. Sometimes
when I was sent into the nursery to watch them, we all played
happily together, and then I forgot my troubles. Mrs. Granby
was opposed to punishment, and therefore the children were
allowed to do as they pleased. I have often gone to bed and
wept myself to sleep at the injustice that was done me. One
little girl, about four years of age, was afraid to go to bed
alone; and it was my task to lie down by her until she was fast
asleep. Many a cold evening I have laid shivering on the
outside of the bed, hoping every moment she would drop
asleep; and just as I imagined I could get away, she would
bounce up, and cry, 'Betsey, Betsey you shan't go away!'
Sometimes I would drop to sleep myself, and then, when it
was time to lay the table for supper, I was obliged to rouse
myself, and go down half awake. I did not have any very hard
work to do, but I was called on for every purpose; if anything
was lost Betsey must find it - if wood was wanted, I must bring
it. The grown-up servants in the kitchen, as well as the
children in the parlour, laid every blame on me, so that I
hardly knew what was right or wrong. If I told the truth, I
was an impudent hussy; and if I tried to conceal anything, I
was a deceitful child. I was willing to work, but was liable to
so many interruptions that I accomplished nothing.
"I lived in this family until I was ten years old, when
Mrs. Granby died, and I was released from that service. I had
been very much neglected, and scarcely knew right from
wrong, but God watched over me, and I was kept from sin. I
had a little Bible, which had been my mother's, and although
I could not read in it, I always kept it under my pillow, and I
thought it would help to make me good.
"After the funeral, I seemed to be left alone; for although
Mrs. Granby had done little for me, still she was kind, and
fed and clothed me; I had, besides, become attached to the
little girl by whose side I had laid so many nights; and when I
saw the carriage drive up to the door which was to take them
all to their grandmother's in the country, I thought I
should die with grief.
"It was soon spoken of in the neighbourhood that little
Betsey wanted a place, and a lady came for me. In this new
situation there were no children. The lady was very sickly,
and wished me to wait on her, and to be constantly in the
room with her. The change was very great, from one of
noise, and disorder, and merriment, to a regular, quiet home,
where neatness and regularity were enjoyed and scrupulously
practiced. I was scrubbed from head to feet, and new and
decent garments were made for me. Here I was taught to sew
and read, and at length could understand my own dear little
Bible. Here I learned the duty of submitting to the will of
Providence; and if severity of discipline sometimes made
my tears flow, the word of God taught me to bear my lot
with patience. Mrs. Leitch was fretful, and often
unreasonable; she thought it no harm to keep me confined
in her apartment day after day, sewing and knitting
without intermission. She could not spare me to go
to school; and as she felt it a duty that I should
be instructed in reading, as well as in moral and
religious duties, she
taught me herself in those hours of ease which she
sometimes enjoyed. But you can hardly imagine how I
longed to run out and play in the sun and air, and to expand
my limbs. But I could never go; and it was wearisome to me
to sit upright on a cricket
*
at work, or getting my lessons,
the whole day. Sometimes my labour was varied by the
necessity of rubbing Mrs. Leitch when she was in pain. I
took pleasure in doing anything to procure her ease.
"Such confinement and seclusion from persons of my
own age wore upon my spirits, and I began to droop. One
day she asked me if I was unhappy, and if I wanted anything.
She seemed sorry for me, and I ventured to tell her I wished
sometimes to go out as other children did. She was very
angry, and called me ungrateful, when she had done so much
for me.
"'In one year,' said she,
'you have been transformed
from a dirty, ignorant, ragged child, to a neat, well-clothed,
and instructed waiting-maid. You have no hard work or
drudgery to perform, and have only to sit here with me like
a lady!'
"I told her she had been very kind and bountiful to me,
and that I would try and be contented. But she became from
that time very much dissatisfied with me. I was not allowed
to read or write, and was obliged to sew all day. If I rubbed
her, she said I took pains to hurt her; if I made the least
noise, it was done on purpose to make her head ache; if I
looked out of the window, it was because I wanted to be a
vagabond about the streets. I had no friends to whom I could
apply, and I knew not what to do. I was now twelve years
old, and I one day took courage to ask her to let me find
another place.
"'No,' said she; 'after
I have had so much trouble in
teaching you my ways, I shall not let you go.' Finding no
hope of getting away, I looked into my Bible for comfort,
and saw, 'The Lord preserveth the simple; I was brought low,
and He helped me.' I prayed for patience, and it was given to
me; I was gentle and docile, and Mrs.
*
Term used in New-England for a low bench or stool.
Leitch again became kind. At length the physicians ordered
her to try a change of climate, and she released me from my
service, and found me a place with a friend of her own. She
provided me with clothes, and gave me some books and ten
dollars. I shed tears at parting with her, for although she was
often unreasonable, still I perceived that I had been much
improved in her service. I accompanied her friend, Mrs. Grant,
to a country residence, and found myself, for the first time,
among fields and flowers. There my spirit bounded, and I was
happy in those innocent pleasures which spring from the
bounties of nature. It was my business here to attend on a sweet
little girl of three years old, an only child. I used to drag
her in a carriage through the walks in the garden, and pick
fruit and flowers, and throw in her lap. I arose with the sun,
and it was delightful to go out and hear the birds sing, and
take my little girl by the hand and walk down to the side of
the river, and see the waters glide along! I was not required
to perform any other labour than to attend this darling child,
and I was allowed to read and employ myself in any way, so
that I still kept my attention fixed on her. We were always
in the room with her mother, except when little Mary was
required to take exercise, which was several hours every day.
The mildness of my temper gave Mrs. Grant a confidence in my
care, and I was allowed to carry her about without restraint.
I now found the value of the discipline to which I had been
accustomed; my habits of order and industry made my services
quite valuable; and it was a pleasure to me, after my walk
in the morning with the little child, to sit down in the
room with her, and teach her little lessons and hymns.
Never was any young creature so gay and happy as myself.
Mrs. Grant gave me leave to attend the Sunday-school, and
there I was instructed in those moral and religious truths
which teach us our obligation to God and our duty to our
fellow-mortals.
"Autumn came and winter, and still found me happy, and
thankful to God for this asylum. When I awoke in the
morning and looked forth on the fields and distant
hills covered with snow, I was overwhelmed with the
magnificence of nature. I almost forgot that I was poor and
dependent, and that I might at any moment be cast out to
seek my bread among strangers. At length the birds began
to sing; the flowers sprang up, and the trees put forth their
blossoms. I held our dear little Mary by the hand, and had
just fixed a nosegay to carry in to her mother, when, as we
reached the door, two men came up and asked for Mrs.
Grant. I introduced them into the parlour, and one of them
handed her a letter; she read it, uttered not a word, but
would have fallen to the floor, if I had not sprung to her
and supported her. The men looked at her with great
compassion. At length she recovered; and when she could
speak, said, 'We are ruined, Betsey. Mr. Grant is in jail! I
must give up all and go to him!'
"It was even so. He had been unfortunate in some
speculations, and all his property was attached. At that
moment I did not think of a separation from this dear lady
and her sweet child, and thought I should go with her to
prison; but she soon convinced me that it would be
impossible. She said she must give up all her indulgences, wait
on herself, and try to assist her husband. After exhausting
myself in unavailing sympathy for her, the forlornness of
my situation rushed on my mind, and I felt that I must lose
the home where I had been so happy for one whole year; and
to part with my dear little Mary was the hardest fate of all.
"After a short struggle, Mrs. Grant summoned up her
resolution, delivered the house and furniture into the hands of
the officer, and began to make arrangements for her own
departure. She collected her domestics, and gave them all she
could - good advice and a good character, with a promise, if it
should ever be in her power, to pay them the wages that
remained due. They were much attached to her, and begged her
not to think of them, but hoped for her sake that her husband
would get out of his difficulties. They took a respectful leave,
and with many tears departed from a house where they had been
treated more like friends than servants. They had
friends and acquaintances, knew how to make themselves
useful, and could soon get into a new service; but for me,
where, alas! could I go? I went to my little chamber,
where I had so often kissed Mary to sleep, and there wept
bitterly. Presently I heard that sweet voice calling, 'Betsey,
Betsey, come to my mother!' I wiped away my tears and
tried to compose myself.
"My good friend held out her hand to me, and said,
'Betsey, this is the hardest task of all; you have been so
affectionate and so faithful to my child that I can hardly
give you up. Oh, my poor girl, I cannot pay you your year's
earnings, or the ten dollars you gave me to keep for you!'
"She had often advised me to take up my wages, and put
the money in the savings bank; but it was some trouble, and
it was put off. I begged her not to think of me, but to
allow me to assist her in packing up. This was a
heartrending business; and as I folded little Mary's
clothes, and laid them one after another in the travelling
trunk, my tears flowed afresh. The little child came and
put her arms around my neck, and said, 'Don't cry, Betsey;
Mary will soon come back and bring you sugar-plums and
cake!'
"At length all was ready. Mrs. Grant had selected such
articles from her own clothes as she thought would be useful to
me, and insisted on my taking them. She also gave me a written
certificate of good character and conduct, and recommended
me to the care of a poor but respectable woman, who was under
obligations to her, and with whom I was to remain until I
found a place. The carriage drove off, and I was left the last in
they house, to lament alone.
"Those who have the comfort and protection of a
father's house, and whose wants are all supplied by
parental affection, can little imagine the desolate feeling I
endured when I saw the door close which shut me out from a
happy home. But it was necessary I should exert myself, and
I took up my bundle and walked on.
"I was kindly received by the good woman to whom
I had been recommended. After some days, I heard of
a lady who wanted a chambermaid. I was now about
fourteen, and large of my age. The lady took my
certificate and read it, then handed it to her daughters,
three young ladies, who sat in the room.
"'Honest, good-tempered, faithful,' were pronounced
aloud. 'A very good character, young woman,' said the
lady; 'but what kind of work can you do?'
"'I can sew, and knit, and read,' said I;
'and I have been
accustomed to attend on a sick lady and little child.'
"At this reply they all burst out a laughing; I thought I
must have said something very ridiculous. At length the lady
asked me 'if I could wash and iron.' 'No,
ma'am.' 'Do up nice
muslins and laces?' 'No, ma'am.' 'Clean
a room?' 'I have
never tried, but could easily learn.' 'Well,
young woman,
you will not do for me, as we do our own
sewing and
reading, and we want a
chambermaid who knows how to
work.'
"I went away with a heavy heart! On my next
application for a place I was careful not to say anything of
my qualification for reading and sewing, and merely answered
to the inquiries that were made, that I was willing to do any
kind of work, and had no doubt that I should give
satisfaction. I was so unwilling to be a tax on the poor
woman who sheltered me, that I engaged to do more than I
honestly thought I could accomplish; and if I was wrong I
hope God will forgive me.
"On Sunday evening I entered on my new service. Here
was a large family of grown-up people. Mrs. Holt, the
mistress of the house, an active, stirring body, kept every
one in her employment at work. My companions in the
kitchen were a large red-faced woman who cooked, a man
who took care of the horses and worked in the garden, and a
boy to wait on table and make the fires. They were all
vulgar, coarse-looking people. They soon found out that I
had been delicately brought up, and conceived a great dislike
for me. I was soon known by the nickname of 'Miss Mince.'
On Monday morning the clothes were brought forth to be
washed, and for the first time I took my place at the
washtub. It was not long before I rubbed the skin from my
hands, and the pain and smart of the soap was intolerable;
still I did not dare to complain. It was fortunate that I was
called from the washtub frequently to do other work about
the house, or I could not have gotten through the day. At
last we got through the long day; the kitchen floor was
washed, and the tea things put away, and I took a book of
devotion from my pocket and began to read. All my
companions laughed at me, and said I should soon be taught
better than that. I asked them very mildly if they wished me
to do anything for them; they said no, but still kept on
laughing. In a few minutes in came the mistress. She lifted up
both hands, and exclaimed, 'Heyday, Betsey, can't you find
nothing to do but to set down and read?' I shut up my book
in some confusion, and said I hoped she would excuse me, as
I did not know that she had anything for me to do that
evening. Her anger was appeased by my gentleness, and she
said, 'Well, child, you should come and ask for work when
you do not know what to do, as I cannot afford to pay help
unless all their time is spent in my service.' She then
produced a large basketful of stockings, and told me to
employ my leisure on them, and not sit idling away time
with books!
"I had little sympathy from my companions. Still I never
retorted when they said harsh or satirical things to me.
By this method I gained their forbearance, and I have always
found that a kind and gentle temper will conciliate the most
unfeeling and ferocious. Thus, although I was not happy,
they restrained their taunts; and sometimes, when we
wore all seated in the kitchen, after our labour was
accomplished, they would ask me to read to them. This
indulgence almost cost me my place, as Mrs. Holt declared
she would have no such doings, and if I continued such a
practice I should quit the house. Sometimes I took a little bit
of candle to enable me to read a chapter in my little Bible
before I went to sleep; but when she found that out, she
obliged me to go to bed in the dark.
"By diligence and attention I soon became expert in
performing all the work that was required of me, and I should
have been contented with my lot if I could have had a little
leisure for my own use. When it was found that I performed
my work with so much despatch, other labour was added.
The young ladies of the family gave me their sewing and
mending, and so encroached on my good-nature that they
frequently kept me at work until midnight.
"I continued in this family a year; but their demands on
my services increased, and they were so unreasonable, that I
resolved to quit them. I told them my intention; they were
astonished. I had been so docile and submissive that it never
occurred to them that I should have resolution enough to
leave them.
"At this period I accidentally broke a valuable glass dish. I
never could tell how it fell from my hand, but it seemed to be
without my will and almost without my knowledge. Mrs. Holt
was standing by when the accident occurred. I saw her eye
kindle with passion, and, before I could apologize, her hand
came with a powerful blow on my ear, and the expression,
'Careless hussy, and trollop!' burst from her angry lips. I felt
faint and frightened, and cried as if my heart would break; I
wished that the earth would open and take me in. I offered to
pay for the loss; the money was declined, but most
ungraciously, and the few days I remained I was hourly
twitted about the broken dish. And yet it required a great
effort for me to get away. I had been in the habit of
submitting to circumstances, and it seemed to be my fate to
encounter hardships. But I had saved my wages for one year,
and felt some degree of independence. I determined to stay a
few days with the aged friend with whom I once found
shelter; and as I had now the means of paying my board, I
felt the less reluctance at claiming the shelter of her
hospitable roof. Accordingly, after I had taken a respectful
leave of Mrs. Holt and her daughters, and had given a cordial
adieu to my companions in the kitchen, I retired to the
repose of humble life. I was truly refreshed by the sympathy
of my old friend and the quiet and rest which even poverty
can offer to the weary heart. I had time to think of my Creator
and my Redeemer; and I shall never forget the feeling of
happiness I enjoyed the first Sabbath I found myself at liberty
to attend the services of God's holy temple during the whole
day. How ardently did I wish to devote myself wholly to Him;
and if I ever felt inclined to repine at my lot, it was when I
looked round on the well-filled church, and considered what
Christian privileges most of the congregation enjoyed, and
how little I had hitherto been enabled to mingle my prayers and
supplications at the throne of grace, and how ignorant I had
remained of my Christian duties.
"This day was an anniversary of the Sabbath-school, and I
soon discovered that the privilege of attending it extended
to all, and that I had only to make known my spiritual wants
to be received as a pupil. From this time my views of life
were entirely changed. I felt myself one of God's creatures,
and no longer suffered from the humiliation of being an
outcast, without relatives or friends. I now realized that I
was equally the subject of his providence, and that, by a
faithful discharge of the duties of my humble station, I
should render a homage equally acceptable to him as if my
opportunities were more extensive. 'An humble and a
contrite heart, oh God! thou wilt not despise;' and as I
breathed in silence a prayer for the influence of his Holy
Spirit on my heart, I felt that mine was already accepted!
"It was at this period that I heard of a Southern lady who
wished a white servant, and I applied for the situation. She
had already a negro attendant of her own travailing with her.
For the first few days that we travelled together I was very
much struck with the formality of her manner to me, and
the intimacy she seemed to feel for Dinah. I had never seen
but one negro before, and always had a dread of them; from
early prejudice, I could hardly believe my own eyes when I
saw the confidence that was placed in Dinah.
"When we arrived in Charleston, I found that I was to
go into the country and keep the keys for a Mrs. Randolph,
who was an invalid. I cannot describe my homesickness.
A strange fear made me avoid the blacks. When I went
to bed, it seemed to me as though I should see their faces
peering through the doors and windows. Mrs. Randolph's
politeness to me was painful in the extreme. I felt as if I was
in an ice-palace. I had everything I wanted; indeed, I never
saw so much elegance in my life, and never had such attendance,
but it seemed all above and below me. Mrs. Randolph changing
her residence, you were kind enough, ma'am, to take an interest
in me, and I will make bold to tell you my feelings. My own
voice sometimes frightens me; my dreams are dreadful; and
when you and Mr. Marion go to the city, I feel as if I wanted
to close my ears, and shut my eyes, and stop the beating of my
heart until you come back. Oh, if I could only return," she
concluded, timidly, the large tears dropping on her busy
needle, "I think I would be willing to work my fingers to the
bone."
It will be easily conjectured that, in a solitude
like Bellevue, the companionship, even of so humble an
individual as Betsey, would be desirable; but, though her
heart was in some measure relieved by unfolding its feelings,
and by my consequent sympathy, yet I perceived her spirits droop,
and determined, on our February visit to the city, to restore her
to her native climate. Since that period I have not renewed the
experiment of white American servants at the South.
Foreigners, from their habit of looking up to fixed classes in
society, enter readily into the peculiarities of our institutions,
and therefore are better suited to this office; but experience
seems to have decided that an attached, faithful negro, is a more
suitable servant in our portion of the country, under existing
institutions, than any other. It would weary me were I to
relate the instances which have fallen under my observation, of
devoted kindness from this class of persons to those by whom
they have been reared; their jealousy of the rights and
reputation of their masters; their kindness in sickness, and the
affectionate demonstrations of grief with which they follow
them to the grave.
MISS BROWNE'S "Woman's
Love." THE planter's bride, who leaves a numerous and
cheerful family in her paternal home, little imagines
the change which awaits her in her own retired
residence. She dreams of an independent sway over
her household, devoted love and unbroken
intercourse with her husband, and indeed longs to be
released from the eyes of others, that she may dwell only
beneath the sunbeam of his. And so it was with me. After
our bustling wedding and protracted journey, I looked
forward to the retirement at Bellevue as a quiet port in
which I should rest with Arthur, after drifting so long on
general society. The romance of our love was still in its
glow, as might be inferred by the infallible sign of his
springing to pick up my pocket-handkerchief whenever it
fell.
On arriving at Bellevue, which Arthur had recently
purchased, with its standing furniture, I perceived the most
grotesque arrangement. Whatever was too old or dilapidated
for the city, the former proprietor had despatched into the
country. The furniture seemed like the fag-end of all
housekeeping wares. If a table had lost a leg, it was banished
to Bellevue, where the disabled
part was supported by a bit of hickory or pine; the
mirrors, which comprised all varieties, from heavy carved
mahogany frames to gilt ones, with amiable shepherds
and shepherdesses pictured at the top, seemed as if the queen
of the earthquakes had been angered by her own reflection,
and rent them in fissures. In one I had the pleasure of seeing
myself multiplied almost indefinitely; in another, an eye or a
nose, a forehead or a waist, was severed in two; and in
another, unless I stood on tiptoe, a grinning, unnatural thing
looked at me above and below the cracks. In one room was
an oldfashioned secretary, towering to the ceiling, where a
few wormeaten books leaned against each other, as if for
companionship in their solitude; while near it was a finical
table, with its defaced gilding hidden by a piece of faded green
baize. The sideboard, which was covered with rich silver, was
also set off with tumblers and wineglasses for all sizes and
fancies; the andirons, things with long slender stands, and
Lilliputian brass heads surmounting their slight bodies, looked
as if they were invoking something up the large chimneys;
the bellows wheezed as if far gone in the asthma; the tongs
lapped over with a sudden spasm, clutching tenaciously the
unoffending brands; if I attempted to sweep the hearth, I was
left with the handle only in my grasp; the large glass shades,
intended to protect the candles from the air, admitted, like
treacherous allies, the enemy in at various breaches; small
bits of carpet were laid here and there in the apartments, as
a kind of hint at warmth; the bed-curtains and spreads
were mostly patterns of gorgeous birds and trees, but, being
imperfectly matched in the sewing, a peacock's plumage was
settled on the neck of a humming-bird, a parrot seemed in
the act of eating his own tail, and a fine oak came sprouting
out of a bird's nest. Arthur was infinitely amused when I
called his attention to the china, which varied from the
finest Dresden to the common crockery of the dram-shops.
The medley, in variety, would have done credit to a modern
drawing-room.
The harmonious and joyous frame of our minds
rendered these things a source of amusement. For several
weeks all kinds of droll associations were conjured up, and
we laughed at anything and nothing. What cared we for fashion
and pretension? There we were together, asking for
nothing but each other's presence and love. At length it was
necessary for him to tear himself away to superintend his
interests. I remember when his horse was brought to the
door for his first absence of two hours, an observer would
have thought that he was going a far journey, had he
witnessed that parting; and so it continued for some days,
and his return at each time was like the sun shooting
through a three days' cloud.
But the period of absence was gradually protracted; then a
friend sometimes came home with him, and their talk was of
crops and politics, draining the fields and draining the
revenue, until I (country ladies will believe me) fell off into a
state as nearly approaching sleep as a straight-backed chair
would allow. Arthur, however, rarely forgot me in
conversation with others; he had the art in which most men
are so entirely deficient, of directing a glance to a lady, while
conversing with gentlemen on themes apparently
uninteresting to her - a glance which seemed not only to
acknowledge her presence, but to pay deference to her
thoughts. He did not, as is too often the case, forget that a
sentient being was without companionship but in him; but
seemed to feel what is probably true, that if women are
occasionally asked for their opinions, they may be induced to
look into the depths of their minds to see if an opinion is
there. But Arthur had few aids in this delicate mode of
complimenting, after the ordinary questions were answered, I
was usually left to ponder on the strip of carpet before the
hearth, and wonder why it did not come up to the chairs,
while my neighbour gradually hitched himself round with one
shoulder towards me and his forefinger on Arthur's thigh.
Arthur was a member of a social club - but he had allowed
several citations to pass unnoticed, until it occurred to
him that he was slighting his friends; I thought
so too, and said so, without permitting the sigh to escape
that lay at the bottom of my heart, at the idea of his
passing an evening away from me.
"They shall not keep me long from you, my love," he
said, as we parted; "I have little joy without you."
But it was very long to me.
I could bear to be alone in the
morning, when I pursued various occupations, and was even
happy. When weary with sewing and reading, I strolled to the
poultry-yard, and heard Maum Nelly's stories of how twenty
fine young turkeys had just tottled backward and died
so; or
how the minks and chicken-snakes had sucked half the fowl-eggs;
or see her stuff pepper-corns down the young turkeys'
throats and pick the pip from the old fowls. Luckily for me I
as yet cared little for the pecuniary loss, while I really
enjoyed the sight of the healthy flocks, as she exhibited them
with a kind of maternal pride, calling the seniors by name. I
loved to hear the delicate peeping of the little things, and see
how unselfishly the parent bird sacrificed the choicest
morsels for them; I loved too, to stand by the duck-pond, and
listen to the splash as the old ones descended to the water, and
watch their proud and happy look as their offspring followed
with instinctive power. I noted the chaste-robed pea-fowl,
with is metallic-sounding cry, and smiled as the strutting and
vapouring turkey paraded in "brief authority."
Then I visited the dairy, which was charmingly situated
just where a small creek entered among the trees. A clear spring
ran directly across the stone floor, and a fine
spreading live-oak shaded it above. I enjoyed those days in
the week when the little negroes came trooping along with
their piggins for milk, the largest bearing the babies on their
backs, and obtaining a double portion for them.
There is unquestionably as much a school of
old manners
among the negroes as with the whites, and Dinah, my dairy-woman,
belonged to this class, specimens of which are
rapidly declining. Her reception of me at the dairy was more
that of a dignified hostess than a servile dependent, as, with
a low courtesy and weave of the hand, she pointed to a
bench for me to be seated. She
belonged to the class, also waning, who blend religious
expressions and benedictions with their common phraseology.
Dinah, too, possessed a native humour and keenness
that sometimes amused me. Being short in stature, she
asked me to reach a calibash, which was set aside on a high
shelf for my especial use when I wished a draught of milk.
" 'Scuse me, missis," said she; "when
tall was give,
I no dere."
Observing that she replied in the affirmative to
questions of opposite bearing, I asked her meaning.
"'Scuse me, missis," she answered; "I
is gitting hard o'
hearing, and yes is more politer dan no."
Sometimes I even strayed, for companionship, to the
potato-fire, which, though in the open air, was rarely
extinguished, and usually found some one roasting or eating.
As I lingered there one day, I inquired of an old man, who
was hoeing his own ground, about some work neglected by
the gardener. He rested on his hoe and shook his head.
"My misses," said he, "you no been hear
'bout Dick?"
"No," I answered; "what of him?"
"He disgrace we all," said the old man,
resuming his work. "He
tief one sheep - he run away las week, cause de
overseer gwine for flog him. He an't desarve a good maussa,
like Maussa Arthur!"
My next walk was to the sick-house. Arthur had as yet
superintended the duty here, but it gradually became
my pleasure to assist him; and, though with some timidity,
remembering mamma's example, I prescribed and weighed
the simplest medicines, and soon became interested in the
individuals.
I have said that the morning passed slowly, though
happily, even without Arthur; but that club afternoon
seemed interminable. The weather was mild, and, tired of the
house and of sitting down to one
plate, that loneliest of all
positions, I again walked out to enjoy the declining day
and beguile the long hours. I involuntarily paused at the
frog-pond, for there seemed a kind of sociality in their
voices. Everything depends on the mood
of mind. It was but the evening before that Arthur and I had
astonished the frogs by our excellent imitation of their
melodies. Standing at opposite sides of the little pond, he
took the base and I the treble, until we were hoarse with
shouting and laughter; now they had a melancholy sound, and
I turned homeward. At this moment a man slowly rose from
the bushes near, and looked about carefully. I discerned in
him Dick, the runaway. He looked haggard, and, approaching
with an humble air, confessed his fault, and begged my
intercession with his master to allow him to return once
more to his duties. I undertook the office, and the next day
he was permitted to go into the field.
The house seemed so deserted, that, though half ashamed
of my own want of energy and mental control, I walked to
the piazza. I was glad of the salute of the last lingering
labourers on their way from the fields, I listened to the
swineherd's horn, and saw his uncouth group at a distance,
turning towards their pen; the shepherd came next, with his
more romantic charge, and I enticed them, by throwing corn
from the piazza, to bear me company a little while; but they
soon followed the shepherd as he called, individually, their
well-known names. Then came the ducks, whose wings were
uncut, flying from a neighbouring field to seek their night's
shelter, sweeping below the deep-tinged sky with flapping
wings and happy screams. The sun shot up his last rays on the
twilight clouds; the crows wheeled from the field to the forest;
the whippoorwill's cry, which the hum of day had stifled,
came clearly and solemnly on the air; the young moon rose
with her slight crescent, and rapid darkness followed. I
returned to the parlour, pushed together the brands on the
hearth, threw on lightwood myself, though two servants
stood waiting by, and at length heard a footstep. It was
Arthur's, I sprang towards him, and we had as much to say as
if he had been to India.
This club-engagement, however, brought on others. I
was not selfish, and even urged Arthur to go to hunt and to
dinner-parties, although hoping that he would resist
my urging. He went frequently, and a growing discomfort
began to work upon my mind. I had undefined forebodings,
I mused about past days; my views of life became slowly
disorganized; my physical powers enfeebled, a nervous
excitement followed; I nursed a moody
discontent, and ceased a while to reason clearly. Wo to me
had I yielded to this irritable temperament! I began
immediately, on principle, to busy myself about my
household. The location of Bellevue was picturesque - the
dwelling airy and commodious; I had, therefore, only to
exercise taste in external and internal arrangement to make
it beautiful throughout. I was careful to consult my husband
in those points which interested him, without annoying him
with mere trifles. If the reign of romance was really waning,
I resolved not to chill his noble confidence, but to make a
steadier light rise on his affections. If he was absorbed in
reading, I sat quietly waiting the pause when I should be
rewarded by the communication of ripe ideas; if I saw that
he prized a tree which interfered with my flowers, I
sacrificed my preference to a more sacred feeling; if any
habit of his annoyed me, I spoke of it once or twice
calmly, and then bore it quietly if unreformed; I welcomed
his friends with cordiality, entered into their family interests,
and stopped my yawns, which, to say the truth, was
sometimes an almost desperate effort, before they reached
eye or ear.
This task of self-government was not easy. To repress a
harsh answer, to confess a fault, and to stop (right or wrong)
in the midst of self-defence, in gentle submission, sometimes
requires a struggle like life and death, but these
three efforts
are the golden threads with which domestic happiness is
woven; once beam the fabric with this woof, and trials shall
not break or sorrow tarnish it.
Men are not often unreasonable; their difficulties
lie in not understanding the moral and physical structure of our
sex. They often wound through ignorance, and are surprised
at having offended. How clear is it, then, that woman loses
by petulance and recrimination! Her first
study must be self-control, almost to hypocrisy. A good
wife must smile amid a thousand perplexities, and clear her
voice to tones of cheerfulness when her frame is
drooping with disease, or else languish alone. Man, on the
contrary, when trials beset him, expects to find her ear and
heart a ready receptacle, and, when sickness assails him, her
soft hand must nurse and sustain him.
I have not meant to suggest that, in ceasing to be a mere
lover, Arthur was not a tender and devoted husband. I have only
described the natural progress of a sensible, independent
married man, desirous of fulfilling all the relations of society.
Nor in these remarks would I chill the romance of some young
dreamer, who is reposing her heart on another. Let her dream on.
God has given this youthful, luxurious gift of trusting love, as
he has given hues to the flower and sunbeams to the sky. It is a
superadded charm to his lavish blessings, but let her be careful
that when her husband
Let him know nothing of the struggle which follows the
first chill of the affections; let no scenes of tears and
apologies be acted to agitate him, until he becomes
accustomed to agitation; thus shall the star of
domestic peace arise in fixedness and beauty above
them, and shine down in gentle light on their lives, as it has
on ours.
ANNA MARIA WELLS. ARTHUR and I, as the period drew near for our town
visit, began to discuss the subject of a new carriage. Long and
frequent were the debates with regard to the colour, shape,
and ornaments; and this, perhaps, is one evil of a country
life, that it makes us attach a disproportionate interest
to trifles. I inclined to a fawn-colour, Arthur to deep
green. He preferred a coachman's box; I desired an open
front, that he might sometimes take the reins. The
contest once or twice rose pretty high. I came down to
breakfast one morning with a frown, and a determined, if not
sullen, taciturnity, and Arthur rode away a half an hour
earlier than usual. This brought me to a recollection of my
principle of self-sacrifice in
trifles, and I was enabled to
meet my husband with a smile, and say, on his return -
"On the whole, Arthur, I think your deep green
will be the
best colour for the carriage. It will wear well."
"Ah, well, dearest," said he, tenderly smoothing down a
curl on my forehead, "I am glad to hear it, and I begin to
incline to the open front. I shall often wish to he
independent and drive you myself."
Everything now seemed to be going on smoothly, when,
in looking over Arthur's letters one day in an old chest, I
found the Marion coat of arms. It seemed to me a perfect
piece of good fortune. Under what class our arms came,
whether of pretension, of
concession, of
succession, of assumption,
or of family, I could not tell I
only thought that the dots and diagonal lines, and some thing
that looked like two swords crossed, would have a very pretty
effect on the carriage, and, as soon as Arthur came in, ran
and told him. I know not exactly why, but the subject struck
him in a most ludicrous light, so far from entering into my
views, he took the paper in his hand and proposed comical
substitutes that would be in better keeping - cotton-bags
coupé,
sweet potatoes vert,
alligators dormant,
shrimps gulés,
and terapins couchant;
and, running every change which his
vivid fancy could furnish, he ended with a long, loud laugh,
that went tingling through my ears and irritating my system
to the very soles of my feet.
Every observer of human nature must have perceived,
that lovers not only do not exercise the power of ridicule
over each other, but they cannot conceive that the idol of
their imaginations should be the subject of it. As intercourse
in marriage becomes familiar, and the little graces of etiquette
are laid aside, the idol, though not less worshipped, becomes
less sacred. She is not the deity of the temple, but of the
household, she is no longer the great Diana of Ephesus,
approached at a distance with mysterious rites, but one of the
Lares, meeting the familiar glance at every turn. This
difference is never felt so keenly by a woman, as when she
first discovers that it is possible for her to appear ridiculous
to her husband. A man who differs from his wife and reasons
with her, rather elevates her self-love; but, the moment he
laughs at her, she feels that the golden bowl of married
sympathy is broken.
How many kinds of laughter there are! The first clear,
sweet notes of the infant, like the soft tinkling of a silver
bell; the child's laugh, with voice and mind gushing out like
a fountain; the maiden's laugh, when sensibility touches her
tones like music; the rich, manly laugh, when wit goes to the
recesses of intellect, and brings out its echoes; the girl's
giggle behind her fan; the old man's laugh of habit, that sounds
like the wind through an empty house; the maniac's laugh, sad and
dreary as the last leaf on a withered tree; the parrot's laugh,
calling out and yet repelling sympathy with its natural
unnaturalness. Arthur's was like none of these at the
moment of which I speak; It was one brought out by a sense
of the ridiculous; and if a sister, or wife, or child can stand
quietly by and hear such a one, she ought to be
immortalized. I did not. I sat down deliberately and had a
hearty cry, notwithstanding my principle.
Poor Arthur, who
had never thought about all this, and fancied I was enjoying
his jests, was dismayed. He clasped me in his arms,
apologized with all the tenderness and sincerity of his
nature, and I never heard that laugh again.
I was, in the sequel, perfectly satisfied with my airy and
elegant carriage, entered into the city amusements with
animation, went through a February campaign with
eclat, and
had no wishes ungratified that wealth could procure.
Letters of introduction were poured in upon us from all
quarters, and we were glad and proud to be hospitable.
I was prepared one morning to call on a stranger,
when visitors were announced; and, glancing round
the drawing-room, I perceived on the sofa a ratan, which
had been brought in by one of my young brothers. I caught it
up, and, twisting it in a coil, thrust it into my velvet
reticule, and received my guests. As soon as they departed I
sprang into the carriage, which was in waiting, and drove
away. The ladies were at home. In the course of conversation
I unthinkingly drew my scented pocket-handkerchief from
my bag, when out flew the ratan with a bound, and rolled to
the feet of the stranger. My deep and inextinguishable blush
probably helped on any uncharitable surmises that she might
have made, and who can blame her, after such evidence, for
reporting that Charleston ladies carried cowskins in their
pockets!
I was the personation of benevolence in my new carriage,
and unaffectedly enjoyed the pleasure I conferred; yet
every happiness has its alloy. If an acquaintance
expected a friend at the wharves, Mrs. Marion's carnage
was sent for and detained half the day; I was kept the
very latest of the company at parties and balls, because
my carriage had so many turns to make; when invalids
arrived in the city my carriage was borrowed and the credit
went to the borrower, not to me. A child of one lady was
allowed to rub its sugar candy over the fine cloth linings, and
another preferred standing on the cushions to sitting down.
Some fair rioters broke a glass returning crowded from a ball;
one of my horses took cold by being overheated in a long
drive out of town; another was injured by being delayed until
twelve at a party, which the borrower said would break up at
nine; my best coachman became chilled, irritable, and at
length intemperate; and what capped the climax was a
remark from my most frequent borrower, that she was
surprised that Mrs. Marion could sport such a shabby carriage
with a drunken coachman!
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
I found a small but favourable gardening-spot attached to
our city residence, and a taste for the beautiful, which can
always touch the humblest spot with grace, did not allow me
to let it go to waste. The mere aspect of a bud or flower,
without a higher association, is so pure and soothing to the
lover of nature, that it repays the glance which bends over
its daily growth; and I envy not him who can look coldly on
a blade shooting from its unsightly seed into verdure, the
sacred and startling emblem of that mortal which is to put on
immortality.
And how much of the poetry of life springs from flowers!
How delicate a pleasure is it to twine the orange-blossom or
japonica for the bride - to arrange a bouquet for the
invalid - to throw simple flowers into the lap of
childhood - and to pull rosebuds for the girl of whom they
are the emblem!
But gardens are not all poetry: witness the long-drawn
countenance of the lady whose delicious geraniums are
crumbled to yellow weeds by the frost; witness the housewife,
whose imagination has sprung forward to the moment when
her savory cabbages shall enter on her dinner-table, as fit
companions to boiled pork or beef, when she visits her
garden, and finds that a hard-hearted fowl has deliberately
picked the plants up by the roots,
rifled their leaves, and left only withered relics; witness the
gentleman who has watched his figs and grapes with such
interest that even the daily paper has been laid aside to note
their development, when he finds that the insects, with
keener instinct than himself, have seized upon the ripe
subjects and rifled their very cores!
There are other mortifications, that seem petty in detail,
but which inflict a real pang on the florist. How often have I
spent hours of culture on a rare blossom, and presented it as
a valuable gift, seen it received with smiles and thanks, and
then observed the thoughtless recipient crumple up the
leaves in her fingers, or pull and throw them on the floor, or
deliberately chew them!
Sometimes individuals have visited my garden and
gathered flowers which have cost me not only time and
labour, but heavy pecuniary sums, as unconcernedly as they
would a blade of grass; sometimes, when I have cherished a
little slip until it has shown signs of independent existence, a
considerate lady has begged me for a cutting!
Other vexations, too, occur, on which the florist does not
calculate when she yields up her heart to flowers. An
Englishman presented me with four seeds, on the envelope of
which was written an almost unpronounceable name, long and
imposing. I was never selfish, and, in the warmth of my heart,
gave two to botanists. I planted mine, and watched them day by
day. At last they came up, and, with the pride of a florist, I
carried my friends to see the first leaves. At length they grew,
they budded, they blossomed - and behold, they were common
four-o'clocks!
A botanist from Georgia favored me with two fine bulbs
of the delicate Iris Persica. I valued them highly for their
giver's sake as well as their own, and planted them with care
and hope. A few mornings after, a little negro waiting-boy
ran into the house exclaiming -
"Oh, missis, de cat pull you inion
out of de jar!"
A friend of mine, however, was still more unfortunate in
having a dish of Prince's best bulbs boiled for dinner!
Yet all these things will not rebuff the true lover of
nature. She will enjoy the sparkling bud in the morning's
ray, and love the perfume as daylight dies, and a moral
freshness will settle over her thoughts like heaven's dew, as
she traces the hand of Providence in her flowers.
"To teach rooted sorrow the lesson
of submission; to succour
virtue amid mighty temptations; to dispel the awful sadness
of the inevitable hour; these are the victories of the Christain
faith; the grand, and peculiar, and imperishable evidences of its
power." - PROFESSOR GODDARD.
OUR country solitude was made glad by the birth of a son,
and my parents were with me to heighten my joy and gratitude.
On no other occasion does a woman's heart open so sweetly to
sympathy as when, clasping her first infant to her breast, she
feels that she has added with tremour and suffering, another
link to that human chain which, descending from heaven, will
reach to heaven again. There is something still
inexpressibly affecting to me in infancy, in its earliest stage,
before will has put forth its
impertinent little feelers. I love to
take the tiny hand, which almost melts in its fragility, in mine,
and press the unconscious cheek, and see the pulses of the
protecting lid that covers the still unopened eyes. Papa was in
raptures. His natural hilarity burst forth into almost boyish
frolic. He thrust a ramrod between the fingers of the frail little
thing, threw a powder-horn round his neck, and sang hunting
choruses until I was obliged to stop my ears.
No other state of society can show a scene like that which
was presented at Bellevue on the third Sabbath after the birth
of our son. All the negroes, dressed in their best, came to
welcome their young maussa,
bringing offerings of eggs and chickens,
and pronouncing
prayers and blessings as the unconscious sleeper, decorated,
too, in his little finery, lay in his nurse's arms.
The child grew, and called up in Arthur and myself new
fount of affection for him and for each other. Why should I
detail what millions have felt and described? and yet I may,
for infancy, like flowers, is always fresh. I may
tell how, as he rested in my arms, before expression began
to mould his features, imagination traced the mind that would
come and light it as a torch the vase, which owes its chief
beauty to the flame within. I may tell how Arthur left me
late and returned early, while the romance of first love
seemed renewed, how we hung together over the boy's little
crib, and laid our ears near the sleeper's mouth, fearing in his
soft stillness that he breathed not; I may tell, at least to
mothers, how I gazed at his first smile, listened to his first
laugh, supported his first footstep, and made him repeat
again and again his first word, and how his being shone like a
new planet on Arthur's life and mine.
Our little Arthur was a miniature likeness of his
father, on that full brow, in those dark eyes, I loved to trace
my husband's image. For the first two years of his life, until
the birth of a little girl, I thought, as is the case with most
American mothers, of little else but him, and even after that
event, the child's companionship was everything to me. He
was precociously musical, and I taught him many nursery
songs. At the age of three years, secluded as we were in the
country in winter, I felt it a privilege to let him fall asleep in
my arms. When he became drowsy, he ran instinctively
towards me, sprang into my lap, and began to sing. The notes
gradually grew fainter, like the voices of birds in a twilight
forest - then, starting up afresh, he smiled and sang until his
lids closed over his dark eyes like a moon-tinged cloud on the
night sky; and thus it was, with song and smile, that
sometimes, in the midst of a word, consciousness forsook
him, and the mantle of sleep folded his little spirit. One
night he was reposing thus in my arms when Arthur
came home. He knelt down before us, clasped his arms
around us, laid his lips against the
rosy cheek of the boy, and sighed in the very fulness
of his love.
That night we were awoke with the struggling sound of the
croup, which has so often sent a death-chill to a mother's
heart. The night passed in wild and fearful struggles on his
part, and desperate yet unceasing efforts on ours; medical aid
arrived early the following day, but the boy was dying. He
knew me not, his glazed eye was upward and away from mine,
his hand, now tossing and restless, and then, as life quivered,
feeble and helpless, returned not my pressure, that sought for
life and feeling with maddened eagerness.
He died; I caught the last flutter of his breath, felt the
coldness of death gather on his hand, still full and beautiful as
the artist's dream of a cherub.
I was borne to my room, and Arthur followed to comfort
me, himself despairing. Night drew on rapidly. Oh, that first
night of bereavement! how coldly and darkly settle its shades
over breaking hearts!
Arthur slept, and at midnight I arose to visit my boy.
He was laid on his little couch, and the negro watchers
were singing hymns over him.
I tried to touch his deathly brow and hand; I could not; he
seemed no longer mine.
The moon shone with strange brightness into the window,
almost obscuring the single lamp that flickered in the aired
and chill apartment; and lighting up with supernatural vividness
the face of the dead, brought out in wild relief the dark forms
around him.
How differently that soft planet rises on different eyes!
The child looks on its beauty like a plaything, and claps its
hands in joy; the young girl cherishes its sweet, mysterious
rays, and images, dearer and more tender, pour their light on
her romantic spirit, the traveller blesses it on his way, and
thinks of eyes softer and brighter than its beams at home;
the husbandman prophesies in its silver radiance sunshine for
the morrow; the lover, like the Pythagorean, fixes his
earnest eye on the glittering orb, longing to trace there the
thought of a dear one and inscribe his own; and the astronomer
gazes on the beautiful glory in scientific pride; but alas,
for me, on that night it rose like a separate ball of fire,
without blending or harmony. There was no light on earth;
nature was chaotic. I saw but one object, the dead form of
my boy, stiff and cold, unsmiling, unanswering.
My kind women looked at me pityingly, and were
eloquent with their simple religious consolation. They
were idle words to me. God had struck the rock of my
soul, but the blow had hardened it. The waters gushed not
forth. Arthur still slept; men can
sleep. I went hurriedly
and sought the materials for a shroud, and sat down by my
boy, and some wild association made me bind the white
ribands from my bridal dress on his last garment.
I could not look at him, and yet his image was
indefinitely multiplied; wherever I turned then, and for
weeks after, amid sunshine or darkness, by the social
hearth or in the solitude of my chamber, all was darkness,
except where luminous points shone on a dead child.
We carried our boy to Roseland, and deposited his
precious remains at Cedar Mound. It stormed that night
after he was laid in his cold bed. I shuddered; the change
was too horrible between my loving arms and that pelting
rain. I asked why God could not have translated his
cherub form to heaven? I could have borne his happy,
upward flight, and waved my hand to him as in an earthly
parting, when the white clouds opened to take him in; and
I would have fancied that young mellifluous voice chanting
its new-born tones, and the sweet surprise of his
unclosing gaze; but to leave him there! Father in Heaven;
thou hast pardoned the rebellion of a heart in its first
gush of grief!
The sympathy of my parents was consoling; but I
missed my boy on his grandfather's knee, and his prattle
by his grandfather's side. In the restlessness of my soul I
returned to Bellevue. Everything had been removed that
could remind me of him. His little hat and cloak hung no
more in the passage; his barrow and whip
were gone from the garden-path; his carved alphabet no
longer strewed the floor, nor did his disfigured toy-books
meet my eye; all was dreary order and decorum, but, with
all their care, could they prevent his graceful image from
haunting those familiar scenes? How often did I hear his
footsteps on the stairs, his shout in the courtyard! How
often fancy his arms about my neck, and feel his eager
kisses on my cheek! How often did I press my struggling
heart and cry, "My son! my son! would to God I had
died for thee!"
Arthur watched my feelings tenderly. He sat by me
hour by hour, silently, but with looks that said "My poor
stricken one! The storm has dealt hardly with thee, but
flowers will not grow unless water and winds descend as
well as sunshine. I will be very patient, and hold my heart
all ready for thee, when thy love and hope shall ask for
their accustomed nest."
What an education poor humanity requires to train it
for Heaven! I had thought myself religious, and yet, when
God took back the gift he had bestowed, a gift that had
brightened my being for three happy years, I could not
bless him for the past joy. My rebellious spirit charged
even Heaven with injustice.
Arthur's unwearied love, my little Anna's caresses, and
the softening hand of time, slowly wrought their sweet and
natural influence. I began not to look exclusively on the
grave; I listened as the buds of spring told their beautiful
story of a new-clothed soul; I loved to think that the chill
feel of earth was giving place to the flowers that began to
gem my darling's distant bed; and, as time passed on, I
forgot the flowers of earth, and thought only of heaven's
garden, where my boy was waiting for me to come. Death,
since my first bereavement, has never borne the same
aspect. I have lost a gentle girl, and let her pass quietly,
with scarce a tear on her grave; my thoughts went upward
to my growing family above. I could bear to look on the
soft curl that had lain on her brow, and fold the garments
that had clothed her living form.
My mother followed; I fancied the meeting between
her and my children, and did not ask her back to a world where she
could die again. I closed Richard's eyes of love, and my heart said,
"God's will be done."
Long and refreshing, when my mind became calm, were my
conversations with Arthur on the death of our boy.
"We had commenced a bright career, dearest,"
he said, "who knows
but the world might have engrossed us, and made us sell our heavenly
birthright? Our social pleasures will hereafter be modified by higher
hopes. We have never given our public testimony to Christianity, let
us go, beloved; let us plant this seed of immortality. Our precious
boy rushed like a fresh fountain, and emptied himself in his first
purity into the ocean of eternity, but we are checked and clogged
by earthly obstacles, and must ask for aid to clear the onward stream,
that it may reflect heaven from its bosom. Christian ordinances are
noble aids; they degrade no lofty association, they wither no social
affections, but, like the supports to the failing arms of the prophet
of old, they lift up our souls until our earthly fight is won."
We went together to fulfil the command of Jesus. I do not say
that any mysterious power was communicated to elevate us
above human
nature; but still I feel that, from time to time, after the
self-examination of those holy hours, a truer zest is given to
social happiness, a juster feeling of duty, and a clearer sense
of our relations as immortals.
IT seems a favourable opportunity to insert,
rather in the form of a note
than as connected with the narrative, the following sketch, which
describes, among other points connected with negroes in Charleston,
their funeral solemnities.
NOT more than seven can be legally collected, except under the
auspices of a white person; it is therefore necessary that a few individuals
should interest themselves to procure the means of social private worship
for these ignorant but devotional people.
The coloured members of every church in Charleston, without
exception, are divided into classes, each of which has a superintendent
chosen from its own number, who is proposed to the clergyman for his
approbation. Sometimes a license or certificate is given by the pastor, after
an examination into the qualifications and character of this individual;
but a verbal permission is all that is necessary to constitute him what is
denominated a class-leader.
It is the office of a class-leader to assemble those under his charge once
or twice a week, usually on the Sabbath, before or after service, and
instruct them in their Christian duties. He reads a lesson from the Bible,
gives out hymns in the primitive style, in portions of two lines at a time,
and exhorts them according to the form best suited to his taste and range
of intellect. Their manner, throughout these exercises, is a decided
imitation of the Methodists.
The leader inspects the moral conduct of his class, allowing none to
attend the sacrament of the Lord's Supper who are in the known
indulgence of sin. Should he discover any immorality be a church member,
it is his business to inform his pastor, who will call the accused to an
inquiry, confront him with his accusers, and, after a regular examination,
decide whether his religious privileges shall be suspended.
Persons of colour are exceedingly desirous to partake of the
communion, and, when their wish is definitely expressed, join a class and
become seekers in any church, and
under any leader they prefer. The
jealousy between blacks and mulattoes is very great; and although they
generally unite cordially in religious services, I have known
brown people,
as they are termed, feel too great a contempt for a black
leader to become a
class-leader. Months, often years, elapse before a seeker is considered a
fit subject by the leader to be presented to his pastor as
a candidate for the
communion. When an appearance of correct morality and pious feeling
authorizes this measure, he undergoes a private examination relative to his
religious views and wants. Should the seeker
be a slave, the minister
requires a certificate, which may testify to the good character of the
applicant. After this scrutiny is satisfactorily passed, the
seeker is
publicly baptized and admitted to the Lord's Supper. The catechumen is
attended to the font by his leader and
a few brethren or sisters, and it is an
affecting spectacle to see the sympathetic and sometimes
longing faces that
bend over the side gallery appropriated to the coloured people.
According to the calculation in the Christian Almanac of 1826, the
number of coloured communicants in fifteen churches in Charleston
was 4334.
Seats are placed for the coloured communicants in the aisles of the
church on sacrament-day, and they are usually waited on by the senior
deacon; some clergymen, in order to allow those who cannot read a more
personal interest in the service, repeat only two lines of the hymn at a
time, as at their private meetings.
Tokens, according to the Presbyterian form, are distributed
to his class
by each leader, a custom more necessary
to prevent encroachments among
them than it is probably in the Scotch church.
Their funerals are conducted with great ceremony. A subscription in
each church enables them to purchase a set of hoods and scarfs, which are
kept by one of the members, for the use of all its classes. Scarfs are mantles
of black or white cambric or silk, according to the sex and condition or
age of the deceased, about three yards long, which are thrown over the
shoulders of the males, and fastened under the opposite arm. The
officiating minister, clerk, pall-bearers, and mourners, have this costume
among the whites. Hoods are a yard and a half of similar fabric, slightly
basted, and thrown over the bonnets of the females. This expensive
fashion is declining, though hoods certainly possess the advantage of
screening the countenance, saving that miserable consultation for which
the fashion of a bonnet often calls on this sad occasion, and being
convenient in the early sepulchral rites of this warm climate.
The leader of the class to which the deceased belongs heads the
funeral procession, and performs a ceremony at the grave or house, as is
most expedient, which generally consists of prayers, hymns, and
exhortations. There are several burial-places hired or purchased among
them by common subscription, to prevent the necessity of interment in the
Strangers' Burying-ground, otherwise called the Potter's Field.
Sometimes, when an old and respectable slave dies, the master requests his
own clergyman to officiate; it is also occasionally the dying request of some
of the coloured people, and a clergyman never refuses. They consider it a
privilege to watch with a corpse, and before some abuses rendered it
necessary to prohibit their meeting at night, it was a solemn and exciting
sound to wake from sleep and hear their hymns swelling on the air with
unbroken enthusiasm, as they kept their solemn vigils. They are very
ambitious on the subject of death, influenced, perhaps imperceptibly to
themselves, by the thought of the level to which it reduces all.
Decent grave-clothes and a private burying-ground are their highest
ambition. I once asked a faithful servant who was in perfect health
what present I should make her, and she replied, with great
solemnity, "Some cambric to make me a shroud, I thank you."
The funerals of slaves not connected with any church are arranged by
their owners "decently and in order." The coffin
of an infant is generally
placed in a chaise, covered with a white cloth, and the mourners walk in
procession at the side.
Their marriages have all the varieties of our own, from great form to
primitive simplicity. Some of the free blacks are so respectable that
clergymen go to their houses to perform the ceremony, and in scarcely a
point of etiquette will they differ from their
blonde superiors.
Frequently a plated basket with cake, directed to individuals, is sent
round by a coloured couple the day after their wedding. The most common
usage, however, is for the couple that are to be married to go attended by
six or eight groomsmen and bridemaids to the house of their pastor after
dark. The bride is always dressed in white, generally with an ornamented
turban, and, not infrequently, her head decorated with flowers, or the
favourite bridal ornament, a veil. The glove is drawn off in great form by
the bridemaids, and the ceremony concludes with a cordial shake of the
hand from the minister. After the marriage the party assemble together, and,
if they have tickets of permission from their owner and a white spectator,
they may stay until twelve o'clock - if not, the roll of the drum at
ten in the summer, or nine o'clock in the winter, recalls them to their
home.
Every church has its Sunday school for children or adults, or both,
taught by whites, and seats are provided for them, during the Sabbath
service, in the galleries.
The communion members and seekers of many churches feel authorized
to attend the family prayers of their pastor, and often, on Sunday
mornings particularly, a large number attend around a piazza or a yard,
and, when the domestic circle is formed, enter and seat themselves quietly
on their own benches, which they bring with them, or on the humblest
seat they can find. Then, after joining heartily in the singing, of which
they are very fond, kneeling in prayer, and listening to the Scriptures
with profound attention, they individually recognise the pastor and his
family, and retire.
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CHARLES DUNCAN.
"A spirit urging onward and still on
To some high, noble object to be won;
And pressing still, through danger and distress,
Regardless of them all,
Till that high object, whatsoe'er it be,
Friendship, or virtuous fame, our countries liberty,
The improvement of our race, the happiness
Of one poor individual,
Or of unnumber'd thousands be attain'd."
"And as a bird each fond
endearment tries,
To tempt its new-fledged offspring to the skies,
He tried each art, reproved each dull delay,
Allured to brighter worlds, and led the way."
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CHARLES DUNCAN.
"By solemn vision,
and bright silver dream,
His infancy was nurtured. Every sight
And sound from the vast earth and ambient air,
Sent to his heart its choicest impulses.
The fountains of divine philosophy
Fled not his thirsting lips, and all of great,
Or good, or lovely, which the sacred past
In truth or fable consecrates, he felt
And knew - SHELLEY.
"He needs not glory's wreath
To keep his memory from the blight of years."
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"Sacred to the memory of
CHARLES DUNCAN,
aged 24.
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God."
CHAPTER IX.
THE BOAT-SONG. - TRIALS.
"I would not enter on
my list of friends
(Though graced with polish'd manners and fine sense,
Yet wanting sensibility) the man
Who needlessly sets foot upon a worm." -
Task.
"Play the fool on Sundays -
If he the tinkling harpsichord regards
As inoffensive, what offence in cards?
Strike up the fiddles, let us all be gay!"
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"Hi de good boat Neely?
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She row bery fast, Miss Neely!
An't no boat like a', Miss Neely,
Ho yoi'!
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Plantation boats are often named for members of a family.
The chorus of one of the prettiest boat-songs I ever heard, was
Eliza.
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"Who gawing to row wid Miss Neely?
Can't catch a'dis boat Neely -
Nobody show he face wid Neely,
Ho yoi'?"
"Maybe Maus Lewis take de oar for Neely
Bery handsome boat Miss Neely!
Maus Lewis nice captain for Neely,
Ho yoi'!"
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THE DEPARTURE.
"Poetry and song,
Music and books led the glad hours along;
Worlds of the vision'd minstrel, fancy, wove
Tales of old time, of chivalry, and love;
Or converse calm, or wit-shafts sprinkled round,
Like beams from gems, too light and fine to wound;
With spirits sparkling as the morning's sun,
Light as the dancing wave he smiles upon,
Like his own course - alas! too soon to know
Bright suns may set in storms, and gay hearts sink in wo."
"How happy is he born and taught,
Who serveth not another's will;
Whose armour is his honest thought,
And simple truth his utmost skill!
Whose passions not his masters are."
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JACQUE'S FUNERAL.
"The earliest summon'd,
and the longest spared,
Are here deposited, with tribute paid
Various; but unto each some tribute paid."
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This solemnity is usually styled by the negroes "a setting up."
When a funeral occurs at too great a distance from the city to procure tea,
coffee, &c., or the owners do not provide them, the body is interred, and
the friends afterward celebrate what is called a "false burying," where
religious ceremonies are performed, and refreshments provided.
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"Why do we mourn departing friends,
Or shake at death's alarms?
'Tis but the voice that Jesus sends
To call them to his arms."
SACRED
To the memory of
JACQUE,
a faithful slave.
His master bears this testimony to his worth.
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THE COUNTRY CHURCH.
"Encincture small,
But infinite in grasp of joy and wo!
Hopes, fears, in never-ending ebb and flow -
The spousal trembling - and the 'dust to dust' -
The prayers - the contrite struggle - and the trust
That to the Almighty Father looks through all!"
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THE STRANGER.
"Let not those
Whose homes are bright with sunshine and with love,
Put on the insolence of happiness,
Glorying in their proud lot; a lonely hour
Is on its Way to each, to all."
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CHAPTER XIV.
NEGRO SUPERSTITIONS.
The New Preacher.
"Late? late yestreen I saw the new moone,
Wi' the auld moone in hir arme;
And I feir, I feir, my dier master,
That you will com to harme."
"Oh, sweeter than
the marriage-feast,
'Tis sweeter far to me,
To walk together to the kirk
With a goodly company!
"To walk together to the kirk,
And all together pray,
While each to his great Father bends,
Old men, and babes, and loving friends,
And youths and maidens gay!"
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THE STRANGER. - COUNTRY CHRISTMAS. - MORTIFICATIONS.
"The household stir
Warned me to rise -
A stir unusual, and accompanied
With many a tuning of rude instruments."
"Tis merry, 'tis merry,
in good green wood
So blithe Lady Alice is singing,
On the beech's pride and oak's brown side
Lord Richard's axe is ringing.
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"Many a courtesy,
That sought no recompense, and met with none,
But in the swell of heart with which it came."
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ADIEU TO ROSELAND. - THE STRANGER. - THE RACES.
"How now, Master Brook?
Master Brook, the matter will be
known to-night or never."
"If you had
known the virtue of the ring,
Or half her worthiness that gave the ring,
Or your own honour to retain the ring,
You would not then have parted with the ring."
"Come, wilt thou see me ride?
And when I am o' horseback, I will swear
I love thee infinitely."
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"When I can read my title clear
To mansions in the skies,
I'll bid farewell to ev'ry fear,
And dry my weeping eyes."
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AN ALARM. - RETURN FROM THE RACES. - JOCKEY CLUB BALL.
"Grim visaged vice
with all her hydra race,
And antic folly with her rude grimace,
And all the arts that cunning gamesters know,
And all the practice of the fiends below,
Here yield a theme that other bards may try."
A heav'nly image in the glass appears,
To that she bends, to that her eyes she rears,
The inferior priestess at her altar's side,
Trembling, begins the sacred rites of pride."
"Some with the ladies in the ball-room ply
Their bounding elasticity of heel,
Evolving, as they trip it whirlingly,
The merry mazes of th' entangled reel."
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MUSIC. - ESSAY AT HOUSEKEEPING - FORTUNE-TELLER.
"Is Rosaline, whom thou didst love so dear,
So soon forsaken? Young men's love then lies,
Not truly in their hearts, but in their eyes."
"First loves are not
necessarily more foolish than others, but the
chances are certainly against them. Proximity of time or place, a
variety of accidental circumstances, more than the essential merits
of the object, often produce what is called first love."
"I sat
And took my coffee with my guest."
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"To shield thee, to save thee, or perish there too."
Toshieldtheetosavetheeorperishtheretoo.
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"There is not in the vide
vorld a walley so sweet,
As the wale in whose bosom the bright
vaters meet!
- Sweet wale of Awoca,
how calm could I rest
In thy walley of shade with the friend I love best,
Vere the cares vich
ve meet in this cold
vorld should cease,
And our hearts, like thy vaters, be mingled
in peace."
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COUNTRY GUESTS. - A MORNING WALK. - NEW TRIALS.
"Show not to the poor thy pride,
Let their home a cottage be:
Nor the country-dweller hide
In a palace fit for thee.
Better far his humble shed,
Humble sheds of neighbours by,
And the old and scanty bed,
Where he sleeps and hopes to die."
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A VISIT TO ST. MICHAEL'S TOWER.
"St. Michael's spire! St. Michael's spire!
How fair thou risest to the sight;
Now, glittering in the noon sun's fire,
Now, soften'd by the 'pale moonlight!'"
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THE WEDDING.
"Canst thou love me, Kate?
A good leg will fall; a straight back
will stoop; a black beard will turn white; a curled pate will grow
bald; a fair face will wither; a full eye wax hollow; but a good
heart Kate, is the sun and the moon, or rather the sun and not the
moon; for it shines bright, and never changes, but keeps its course
truly. If thou wouldst have such a one, have me." -
Henry V.
"I saw her from the altar led,
With silvery veil, but slightly swept aside,
The fresh, young rose-bud deepening on her cheek,
And on her brow the sweet and solemn thoughts
of one who gives a priceless gift away."
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MY POOR COUSIN ANNA.
"My flower, my
blighted flower; thou that wert made
For the kind fostering of sweet summer airs,
How hath the storm been with thee! Lay thy head
On this true breast again, my gentle one!
And tell me all."
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Page 153THOUGHTS IN A SOUTHERN FOREST.
"Cheerless to me ye do not seem,
Tall pines, that hide the solar beam,
And stand in close array;
Nor when, like warriors stern and tall,
By the swart woodman's axe ye fall,
Still ponderous in decay.
How proudly soars each stately head,
With clouds for crowning plumage spread,
And helms of living green!
I love to see the solemn bend
To which your lofty forms ye lend
When breezes wake unseen.
Fit music are the rushing sounds
With which the lonely wood abounds
For your majestic file,
When autumn winds, with rushing swell,
Urged on by ocean's mighty spell,
Tell you to stoop a while.
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Fit death for you the fearful crash
Which, at the lightning's dazzling flash,
Lays your green honours low!
And fittest dirge the wood-bird's cry,
When to their frighted young they fly,
As the tall branches go.
Not here, I own, not here arise
Tall spires, that, pointing to the skies,
Uplift the thought sublime!
Not here the orchard bursting bright,
Gives flowers and fruitage to the sight,
As in some distant clime.
Yet, mistletoe, not sad to me,
Thy gathering clusters wander free,
Crowning the old oak's brow!
Not with the Druid's timid eye,
I see thee raise the banner high,
Which woke his mystic vow.
Nor mournful floats the mossy veil,
Waving, when forest breezes wail,
Within the cypress grove;
It floated on my boyish sight,
And now its tendrils, swinging light,
Win my familiar love.
And see, from yonder wooded gloom,
The jasmine opes its yellow bloom,
By odours sweet betrayed;
Thus, Anna dear, thy loveliness
Will bloom, with gentle power to bless
Amid life's light and shade."
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THE PINE-LAND VILLAGE.
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"Where to the north - pine-trees in prospect rise,
Where to the south - pine-trees assail the skies,
Where to the east - pine-trees obstruct the view,
Where to the west - pine-trees for ever grew."
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SULLIVAN'S ISLAND.
"Thus, thus the sunny day went by,
And night came brooding o'er the seas;
A thick cloud swarthed the distant sky,
And hollow murmurs filed the breeze."
"A whirling ocean now fills the wall
Of the chystal heaven, and buries all;
And I, cut off from the world, remain
Alone with the terrible hurricane."
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THE PEDLER.
"Servant. -
Oh, master, if you did but hear the pedler at the door!
He hath ribands of all colours of the rainbow; he has the prettiest
love-songs for maids!
"Autolicus. -
And you shall pay well for 'em. Aside.
Will you buy any tape,
Or lace for your cape,
My dainty duck, my dear-a?
Any silk and thread,
And toys for your head
Of the newest and fin'st wear-a?
Come to the pedler;
Money's a meddler,
That doth utter all men's wear-a."
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THE DUEL.
"Some fell for wrong and some for right,
But mony bade the world gude night."
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MARIA ALWYN AND HER MOTHER.
"And thou, sad sufferer under nameless ill,
That yields not to the touch of human skill,
Improve the kind occasion, understand
A father's frown, and kiss his chastening hand.
To thee the day-spring and the blaze of noon,
The purple evening and resplendent moon,
Shine not, or undesired and hated shine,
Seen through the medium of a cloud like thine."
"Nous nous
aimions tous-deux des la plus tendre enfance,
Et j'avois sur son coeur une
entière puissance;
Je trouvais à lui plaire une
extrème douceur,
Et les chagrins du frêre étoient
ceux de la soeur."
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MY BROTHER BEN'S EDUCATION.
"He saw whatever thou hast seen;
Encountered all that troubles thee:
He was - whatever thou hast been;
He is - what thou shalt be."
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MARION. - DUMB BELLA. - THE INDIAN. - A WEDDING.
"But who is she, retiring and alone,
That makes her thoughts by sign and gesture known?
No voice escapes those lips in accents dear,
'Tis one dead silence all from year to year.
Yet let not pity too officious rise;
Nature compensates that which it denies.
The expressive look - the motion fraught with grace -
May rival language and supply its place:
And for that senseless ear perchance are given
Ethereal sounds, and intercourse with heaven."
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THE DEER HUNT.
"Hark! from yon covert
where those towering oaks
Above the humble copse aspiring rise,
What glorious triumphs burst in every gale
Upon our ravish'd ears! The hunters shout,
The clanging horns swell their sweet winding notes.
The pack wide opening load the trembling air
With various melody; from tree to tree
The propagated cry redoubling bounds,
And wing'd zephyrs waft the floating joy
Through all the regions near!"
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Page 215CHAPTER XXXI.
AN ERROR IN JUDGMENT.
"Sleep like a lover woo thee,
Isabel!
And golden dreams come to thee
Like a spell." - N. P. WILLIS.
"If thou remember'st not the slightest folly
That ever love did make thee run into,
Thou hast not loved." - Midsummer
Night's Dream.
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"In russet coat
Most homely, like true genius bursting forth
In spite of adverse fortune, a full choir
Within himself, the merry mock-bird sate,
Filling the air with melody - and, at times,
In the rapt fervour of his sweetest song,
His quivering form up-sprang into the sky
In spiral circles, as if he would catch
New powers from kindred warblers in the clouds."
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A DEPARTURE AND AN INTRODUCTION.
"A mother's love! - Oh! thou
knowest not how much of feeling lies
In those sweet words; the hopes, the fears, the daily
strengthening
ties;
It lives ere yet the infant draws its earliest vital breath,
And dies but when the mother's heart chills in the
grasp of death."
"Mother, whatever griefs may fret,
Cares entangle, sins beset
This thy daughter, and with tears
Stain her cheek in future years,
Heavenly succour not denied
To the babe, whate'er betide,
Will to the woman be supplied."
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THE RETURN.
"He raised his veil - the maid
turn'd slowly round -
Looked at him - shriek'd - and sunk upon the ground."
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CHANGES. - WHITE SERVANTS.
I have scarce so much time as to say the Lord's prayer;
This gives me no trouble; my dutiful part
Is obedience to him, whom I have at my heart
As well at my work as retiring to pray;
And his love does not suffer in mine a decay.
He has taught me himself, that a work which I do
For his sake is a prayer very
real and true."
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"J. M.
to
L. H.
"'If you love me as I love you,
No knife shall cut our love in two.'"
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THE PLANTER'S BRIDE.
"She sitteth by his chair,
And holds his feeble hand;
She watcheth ever there,
His wants to understand.
His yet unspoken will
She hasteneth to fulfil."
"He goes from
her chamber straight
Into life's justle;
He meets at the very gate
Business and bustle."
MISS BROWNE'S "Man's
Love."
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"Wakes from love's romantic dream,
His eyes may open on a sweet esteem."
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TRIAL OF MY PRINCIPLE. - MY NEW CARRIAGE. - MY GARDEN.
"If we read nature's
book with a serious eye,
Not a leaf, but some precious thought on it doth lie:
And 'tis good to go forth among scenes like these,
Amid music and sunshine, and flowers and trees,
If 'twere only to waken the deep love that springs
At the sight of all lovely and innocent things."
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A MOTHER. - THE CONCLUSION.
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RELIGIOUS PRIVILEGES OF THE NEGROES IN CHARLESTON, S.
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