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Title: Letter from John W. Halliburton, March 6, [1861] : Electronic Edition.
Author: Halliburton, John Wesley, b. 1840
Editor: Erika Lindemann
Funding from the State Library of North Carolina supported the electronic publication of this title.
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First Edition, 2005
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Publisher: The University Library, University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill
Chapel Hill, North Carolina
2005
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This transcribed document is part of a digital collection, titled True and Candid Compositions: The Lives and Writings of Antebellum Students in North Carolina
written by Lindemann, Erika
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Title of collection: John Wesley Halliburton Papers (#4414-z), Southern Historical Collection, University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill
Title of document: Letter from John W. Halliburton to Juliet Halliburton, March 6, [1861]
Author: Halliburton, John Wesley, b. 1840
Description: 4 pages, 4 page images
Note: Call number 4414-z (Southern Historical Collection, University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill)
Topics covered:
Education/UNC Curriculum
Examples of Student Writing/Letters
War/Civil War
Personal Relationships/With Students and Friends
Editorial practices
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Document Summary

In a love letter to his cousin and fiancée, Halliburton apologizes for upsetting her with his recent letter and admits that students criticize him for being pro-Union but anti-Lincoln.
Letter from John W. Halliburton to Juliet Halliburton, March 6, [1861]1
Halliburton, John Wesley, b. 1840



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Chapel Hill
March the 6th

My Darling.

You have consented to let one sunday pass without giving to me the accustomed salute. I have not been well at ease since Ed's letter was recieved. He said that you were very sorry. My Darling is it always my fault to bring grief and sadness where smiles and bubling joy should reign? Am I so unfortunate as to always be the bearer of evil tidings to those most dear to me? My own darling that letter was not written to bedew your eyes with tears, twas not my intention to harrow up your tenderest sentiments by penning a cruel letter.2 Oh! my darling why is it that we cannot be entirely happy? Why is it that so many things conspire to add to your grief while I can add so little to your joys? I want you to be happy my darling. I strive to make you so. My thoughts are all with you—and all that I do I act as if Cousie was to see what I had done and as my actions warranted love me. I was was mad then. I was sorry to know that I could not hear from and write to you. And then darling you told me to tell you all and when I promised would you want me to violate it. No! my darling. you are the only one to whom I can unbosom myself to—you are the only one that will share with me the sorrows which have been my inseperable companion from childhood till now

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My heart has taught itself to look to you when grief-laden and sad its seeks for sympathy & consolation. I have promised darling to tell you all my joys and sorrows. My joys you know for your letters are my only joy now. Darling, Cousie do you blame me for writing that letter? Do you think I wrote it as a cruel jest. Ed wrote as tho' I deserved the severest censure for acting as I did. I did not mean to hurt you my darling. I only told my feelings as they were but I did not think about yours suffering likewise. I want to hear from you my darling. Ed said you passed a sleepless night—in tears—in agony! Oh! my own my darling Cousie I must needs be a very cruel man to cause you such suffering. A lifetime of the utmost tenderness and care can not eradicate the deep solem debt that I owe to you. My life is yours my darling, my all, my hopes; I'm, darling, all yours. Yet this is not enough. I feel that the sacrifice (no its no sacrifice) rendering up of my all to Heaven to buy you a home there would be but little. I am, darling, your Cousie .
The thought that I so frequently wound so deeply your feeling is a punishment [adaqate]3 to all my crimes. The joy I feel in adding to your happiness is a sufficient return for the means employed—the self-reproch that racks me when I bring tears to your eyes is its rew own reward. Darling you must write to me now and tell me that you do not censure me for that letter.

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Darling please write at least once a week. I cant bear disappointment now. I have expected a letter from you every week. Dont disappoint me now my darling. Father never writes—I cant hear from home—then darling not to hear from you (equal to all the world) will be too bad. As long as you write to me I can bear up under all of Fortune's freaks.
When you write all is joy and love—when you write I feel indipendent of all the world. When you write Chapel Hill is bearable—be silent and the reverse is my doom.
I have nothing interesting about myself to tell you. I heard from Wilbur yesterday. He has not yet heard of Fannie's determination.4 I hope you will write him all about. He has never recieved the letter that you sent him the day I left there or about that time. He clammors loudly for a letter. Cant he get one? I write to him every week. He said nothing about going to Desare. I guess he has declined that Idea, I heard from Mary Bowers of Durhamsville Tenn yesterday. She writes a very nice letter, but is not very select in her choice of topics. Linda Buck wont write to me. Jimmie Garrison has not written in two weeks. Dr Bradford is a long time silent Hall and Jonnie are very very remiss. I hope the mails are not so careless as to loose my letters. I write one every day but dont get one in three days scarcely. I am not

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as well satisfied as I was some weeks ago. I will not tell any more of my misfortunes.
I have seen Lincoln's inaugural. It declares that he will collect the revenue and hold on to UNS property.5 It amounts to coersion. Still it does not make me a secessionist only an anti-Lincoln man. His life is of less value than the Union. I can hate him and still love the Union. We must not dissolve a Government because it has one traitor in its borders. Do away with the traitor and hold on to the Government. I have a hard time here about politics. I am assailed and attacked by all the boys that I meet, I verily believe that I am the only union man in College I have to fight for Tennessee myself and the Union. I strive hard. I am loth to be conquered. Daily am I engaged in a wordy war with some two or three and I just slash right and left, like Sir Amiot, and never loose or gain anything. I begin to think that we are all right, all of us. Our Segnior Speakin begins upon the 23rd of April. on the first day of may I will be done with books. Soon darling I'll see you. Cheer up love! Cheer up my darling! Give my love to all.

I want to kiss you darling

Cousie

Endnotes:

1. John Wesley Halliburton Papers, SHC. These papers contain thirty-eight letters written by Halliburton to his second cousin and fiancée Juliet Halliburton of Little Rock, AR, between January 31, 1861, and May 13, 1861. Someone has arranged them in chronological order and numbered the pages from 1 to 174.

2. In a March 1, 1861, letter Halliburton had argued against the pro-secessionist stance of several newspaper clippings that Cousie had sent to him: "Such a tissue of absurdities I have never seen printed. If you have to depend upon such papers as these for your information I no longer wonder that you are a 'Holy secessionist.' Had I no premises but these I too would join the cry 'Dissolution!' "Halliburton also apologized in a March 7, 1861, letter for upsetting Cousie with the report that a bill had been introduced in the US House of Representatives suspending mail in the seceded states (John Wesley Halliburton Papers, SHC.).

3. Several characters have been written on top of one another between qand t.

4. Halliburton wrote the first i on top of y.

5. President Abraham Lincoln was inaugurated on March 4, 1861. His inaugural address argues that no state or group of states has a legal right to secede from the Union: "I hold, that in contemplation of universal law, and of the Constitution, the Union of these States is perpetual. Perpetuity is implied, if not expressed, in the fundamental law of all national governments. It is safe to assert that no government proper ever had a provision in its organic law for its own termination" (55). Given this premise, "The power confided in me will be used to hold, occupy, and possess the property and places belonging to the government, and to collect the duties and imposts; but beyond what may be necessary for these objects, there will be no invasion—no using of force against or among the people anywhere" (56).