Pettigrew, John, 1779-1799
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Orange
County, University, March 22nd 1797
My Dear Father
Being convinced in my own contience that I have been too negligent with respect
to writing you & especially the last time I must beg to apologize a
little, and endeavour to convince you that it was not from a principle of
ingratitude. I had but a few moments to write in and not having settled myself
in any room was obliged to set down & write in the midst of a parcel of
boys, who were making prodigious noise and inform you as well as I could of my
arrival here; but I am affraid that you was hardly able to read it, &
when you had read it, to understand its contents; which proceeded entirely from
a hurry & the situation I was in with a parcel of boys who were
jabbering around me a parcel of nonsense: it would even have puzzled a
philosopher to have wrote anything with much accuracy, or to have produced many
weighty arguments on any subject whatever; and more especially one who is a new
hand at such business & one who never professed to be a proficient at it.
Hereafter I shall endeavor to take more time & pains, in any
performances of this nature for I consider it as one of the smallest tithes of
gratitude that it is in my power to bestow at present, for the many &
innumerable favours which I have been continually receiving from your hand ever
since my existance; and which I hope I shall never be ungreatful for; if I was I
should certainly incur the divine displeasure, and be punished hereafter
according to my deeds. I have always looked upon ingratitude as one of the most
unpardonable vices that ever governed the human breast, & which
undoubtedly deserves the most severe punishment; & especially that of
ingratitude or disobedience to parents, which certainly is much worse than
ingratitude to an individual who may have done annother a kindness. Even the
thoughts of ingratitude or disobedience to a parent who has [raised] one up from
the cradle and supported him in his helpless infancy when he was not able to
provide for himself, & must consequently have perished had it not been
for the support of his parent or parents, and then after getting to the years of
maturity to transgress the laws of humanity so far as to become ungreatful to a
parent to whom he owes his support, & consequently his life,—
"he would justly deserve to be put to death by the hand of the common
executioner; for commiting so heinous a crime as an example to others who might
follow his example; but I am certain if I should ever live to be so dissipated
& wicked as to be guilty of either of those vices to such an
affectionate father as you have been, if ever I gave myself time to reflect on
my conduct & if it was not in my power to make amends for it, I should
certainly be tempted to be my own executioner; which would be
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ading another crime of not less weight than the
former, but upon reflection on my conduct, I should wish to know the debth of
misery to which I must decend, to expiate for my guilt. But may
God grant that I may never act
so far contrary to the dictates of human reason, as even to commit such
unpardonable crimes as those which I have above mentioned.
I have at last begun Geography which I am in hopes will prove much more pleasant
than the study of the Languages, though what I mostly read is the examination,
as I am told that it is a very difficulty thing to be examined on, there being
so great a similitude between the several Countries that after geting through
them it is difficult to recollect the particulars of every Country. I believe
that there is nothing which has a greater tendency to enlarge or extend a
persons ideas & prepare them for the study of the Sciences than this
study. I learn Arithmetic and Geography together the one, one half of the day,
& the other the other half of the day. They teach
Guthries
Grammar here, & I have
furnished myself with one from
Bentons
store, which is now kept at this place, but the part which
treats of
America is
thought to be very imperfect & they teach
Morses
American Geography in preference; so that I
should be very glad if you would procure one & bring it with you when
you come up.
As I expect this will be the last year of my continuing here, I shall endeavor to
learn as much as I possibly can; which can only be attained by close
application, & hard study. I know not what I shall study after July but
that may be decided on when you come up.
I have never yet had an opportunity of making myself much acquainted with
history, a thing which I have always thought to be very essentially necessary.
The day after I left home namely thirsday I had the pleasure of arriving safe at
Mrs
Barnes's
where I passed three days by far the most agreeable that I
have seen since I left home, or expect to see before I return again. The Monday
following, I set out for the
University, & arrived there
safe on Thirsday evening. We traveled very slow, & consequently the
horses held out very well. The boy set out on his return the following day
& am in hopes that he returned safe home.
Mrs R
Barnes
I believe has resigned the thought which she once entertained
of going, & living, with her Aunt which I am very sorry for; even if it
was only on my own account; for I am certain that I could never be otherways
than happy in the presence of so amiable a Lady, & more especially one
for whom I have such a singular regard. I am affraid that she is overpowered by
the petitions of her Neighbours, & Slaves, who I believe are very
desirous for her continuance which certainly is an excellent proof of her good
qualities.
There is a Dancing School at this place; it commenced about six weeks ago. I have
entered as a scholar, being desirous to become acquainted with so genteel an
accomplishment; but I am affraid that there cannot be as much improvement
derived from it as at some
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Schools where there are a
genteel company of ladies and gentlemen, but here there are a number of Students
subscribed & not any Ladies so that it certain that there would not be
as much order & regularity, as if there were several decent ladies.
Brother
Ebenezer
has not joined it but he will have opportunities enough
hereafter & perhaps better than the present when he may be more at
leasure. The terms are four dollars for six Months one upon entrance &
the rest at the close of the session.
I very much dread the approach of warm weather on account of the chinches which
are innumerable; I do really think that there are five times as many as there was
last year, & then we were hardly able to rest for them so that we shall
not want much bleeding; but we have no musquitoes which is one comfort, for if
we had both our condition would be truly deplorable.
The quarterly Examination will begin on the eighth of next Month, & the
semiannual at the usual time I suppose but the annual will begin on the 15th of November, according to the last regulation, &
School will commence again 1st of Jan
but I immagine that it might as well have been delayed untill the 15th as none of the boys would set out from home on Christmas
day & that they would be obliged to do to get here at the appointed
time, and especially those who live at a great distance off.
I should suppose it best to come up before the weather gets very warm, as it
would answer the same purpose then & the journey would be rendered much
more pleasant.
Ebenezer
desires you will bring up Greek
Homer, the other books he will want may be
got here full as cheap as any where else. I should also be very glad you would
bring up the Cloth to make our clothes as that will be the only oportunity of
getting it. I can get them made full as well here as down the country, &
upon better terms.
[There] are [here] upwards of an hundred Students [unrecovered] they are all healthy. The Steward provides midling
well.
I have a [great] propensity to spend the next year in [traveling] for I could
never bear the thoughts of settling myself as it were in the one quarter of the
Globe, without knowing any thing of foreign Countries. It is certain that much
instruction may be acquired from books, but that cannot give one half as much
satisfaction as which we gain from experience, as it is certain that
experimental knowledge is far preferable to any knowledge that can be derived
from books. It may very reasonably and justly be alleged that I m too young to
travel & that the morals of youths at my age are two apt to be
corrupted, which I must confess is very true but in the first place it must be
considered that the dispositions of mankind are various, & I make no
doubt but there are a great many who would get no improvement even if they were
to travel all the world over but would contract such habits as would ever make them despicable & after getting their minds
dissipated they could never settle themselves to business or be contented in
their minds.
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But on the contrary I think that there
are some who might travel as much as was necessary & after getting a
sufficient knowledge of the world might return home, settle themselves,
& become steady farmers or whatever profession they choose to follow. It
is true that age, discernment, & steadiness, are three things very
essentially necessary for a traveller to possess, but it certainly would be
better for a person to set out upon his journey before he settled himself than
afterwards. I have not room to say anything more upon this subject at present. I
should be very glad to receive a letter for I have not heard one word from home
since I left there, & I never was more anxious to hear in my life.