Coming out to father and stepmother
Wooten describes coming out to his father during the late 1970s. Wooten explains that he decided he must tell his family about his sexuality once he decided to live openly as a gay man. Wooten's father was not only supportive of Wooten's coming out, but he was unsurprised by it and told Wooten that he had tried to indicate to Wooten that he could talk about his sexuality while he was growing up. Wooten then recalls how he had an uncle who was gay that his father had been supportive of in early years. Additionally, Wooten describes how his stepmother, "a Jesse Helms Republican," also supported his decision to live openly as a gay man and always welcomed his boyfriends into her home.
Citing this Excerpt
Oral History Interview with Cecil W. Wooten, July 16, 2001. Interview K-0849. Southern Oral History Program Collection (#4007) in the Southern Oral History Program Collection, Southern Historical Collection, Wilson Library, University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill.
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- CHRIS MCGINNIS:
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So when did you come out to your parents and family?
- CECIL W. WOOTEN:
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About 1978, it was when I was moving to Indiana, and as I said, I had
all of these gay friends and most of my social life was with gay people.
I felt that, "I really shouldn't be doing this
unless I told my parents." So, I remember, I called my father
one weekend and I said, "There is something important to me
that I would like to discuss with you." And he said,
"Well, the next time that you are in Kinston, we can talk about
it." And I said, "Well, I am flying in from
Indianapolis tomorrow night."
- CHRIS MCGINNIS:
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So you were planning on handling it immediately.
- CECIL W. WOOTEN:
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Yes, I just decided that I just feltߞI really like my family
and my family has always been good to me, and I felt like a hypocrite, I
mean, running around with all of these gay people, feeling more and more
that I wanted that to be an important and open part of my life. But yet,
never having discussed it with my family. So, I flew in, my father
picked me up at the airport, and after dinnerߞhe had
re-marriedߞhe had married a woman with four children and there
were all of these people around and after dinner he said,
"Would you like to go over to my office?" and I said,
"Yeah". It was funny, we sat down, I was in the
patient's position and he was in the doctor's
positionߞ
- CHRIS MCGINNIS:
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Did he have an office in his home?
- CECIL W. WOOTEN:
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No, it was in a clinic. We went over there, and I started my little
preamble and said, "There is something that becoming
increasingly important to me. . ." He was looking down the
whole time. All of a sudden, he interrupted me and he looked up and he
said, do we have to discuss this?
- CHRIS MCGINNIS:
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Oh my God!
- CECIL W. WOOTEN:
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I said, "Yes we do." [said with emphasis]. He then
said, "Okay, that is all right." We talked for about
two hours. It was perfectly friendly, he was very reasonable, he was not
terribly enthusiastic about it, but it seemed to be fine.
- CHRIS MCGINNIS:
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So, he obviously knew, he just did not want to talk about it.
- CECIL W. WOOTEN:
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Well, it was funny, he said to me, "Don't you
remember when you were twelve, every night, very visibly was reading
this book called "Toward an Understanding of homosexuality? It
was about thick" [Laughter, Cecil makes a
motion indicating thickness with his hands]
- CHRIS MCGINNIS:
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Oh, I see, I thought you meant that the was reading it too you, putting
you to sleep. He was just reading it to himself.
- CECIL W. WOOTEN:
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But every time, he would go into the den and read, when I would walk in,
it was almost as if he was holding the book up. He told me that that was
an invitation for me to talk to him about it. Well, one of my uncles
lived with us, and it was very obvious, you know, that he was gay. Back
in those days in Eastern North Carolina, people did not go to
psychiatrists or therapists and he was talking with my father. I assumed
that my father was reading this book for my uncle.
- CHRIS MCGINNIS:
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So you uncle was probably the first openly gay person.
- CECIL W. WOOTEN:
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Probably, but he was not openly gay, but he had a Harvard Law Degree. He
was very cosmopolitan and intelligent and every year, would sort of
adopt a high school student, who he sent to college. He would take him
to Europe and take him to California, they were up at our house all of
the time. They always came from sort of an under privileged background
and also good looking. [Laughter] Nobody
ever talked about it. But, people in my family have talked about it
since then. He killed himself eventually.
- CHRIS MCGINNIS:
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Oh my goodness, how old was he when that happened?
- CECIL W. WOOTEN:
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He was 79.
- CHRIS MCGINNIS:
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Oh, he was much older.
- CECIL W. WOOTEN:
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It was pretty clear to everybody. I don't know if he had any
sexual relations with these boys, I don't know what the
nature of it was, and I guess that nobody ever will. But, he was very
good to them, he took them to Europe and he sent them to
collegeߞ
- CHRIS MCGINNIS:
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Were there any other gay people, or people that you suspected that were
gay in your family? [pause]
- CECIL W. WOOTEN:
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Noߞwell, I have a second cousin in Raleigh who is gay, but he
is younger than I am. It was, my father told me that this was an
invitation for me to talk to him about it. I said, "Look, this
was 1957, I was 12 years old," I didn't have a very
good relationship him, it wasn't nasty, I mean he worked all
of time, I mean, I didn't see him very much. He was very
distant and I said, "What do you expect of me? This is just
totally unreasonable." But, he was very good about it. At the
end of this conversation, he said, "Look, this is fine, I have
no problem with this," and then he said in a very
condescending sort of way, "You know, your
stepmother is not as educated as we are." And he said,
"I don't think that she would understand this, so
would appreciate it if you would not tell her." I said,
"Look your relationship is with her. That is not any of my
business, I will do whatever you want me to do." It was
interesting, she called me about two months later, and she said,
"Your father just told me that you told him that you are gay.
And he said that he did not want you to tell me, because he thought that
it would make a difference," and she said, "I just
want to tell you that it makes no difference whatsoever." It is
fascinating because she is a Jesse Helms Republican, but the one issue
that she is very liberal on is gays. I have had boyfriends over there at
Christmas, I have taken lots of gay friends home, it has never been a
problem at all.